Chifukwa chake ... Dzulo adandipatsa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Yakhala njira yovuta kwambiri kwa ine pandekha koma yomwe sindimanong'oneza nayo bondo. Nthawi yomwe yakhala yovuta kwambiri m'moyo wanga yakhalanso yofunikira kwambiri. Mkhalidwe wa aliyense ndi wosiyana ndipo sindingathe kulingalira momwe anthu ena amakumanamo, koma ndikufuna kugawana nawo pang'ono nkhani yanga ndi chiyembekezo kuti ingakhale yolimbikitsa ndi kuthandizira ena omwe atha kudzipeza kwina panjira yomwe ndakhala ndikudutsa.
Ndine wazaka 30. Sindinakondepo kuti ndimayang'ana zolaula koma ndayang'ana zolaula mosiyanasiyana kuyambira ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zitatu kapena khumi ndi zinayi. Kuyesera koyamba kusiya kunali kutengera pemphero. Ndinapemphera kuti Mulungu andichotsere chilakolako chogonana. Ndinapempherera khungu. Ndidapempheranso, m'malo mosangalatsa, kuti anditumizire mpumulo wa mngelo yemwe angadzandichezere nthawi zambiri mokwanira kuti zolimbikitsazo zisachitike. Palibe chilichonse mwazimenezi zidachitika ndipo ndidzavomereza kuti manyazi anga ndikukhumudwitsidwa ndikukhumba komanso zolaula zimandipangitsa kusiya chikhulupiriro changa ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi zinayi. Ndinawauza anthu ena za kulimbana kwanga koma nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndizodzikhululukira pazomwe ndimachita. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wofulumira kudzipangitsa kuti ndikhale wozunzidwa mwanjira ina.
Ndili ndi zaka makumi awiri ndidakondana ndi mkazi ndikuganiza kuti tsopano ndamasulidwa. Posakhalitsa ndinazindikira kuti sindinali. Tinakwatirana patadutsa chaka chathunthu takhala limodzi ndipo ngakhale kuti mwayi wanga wogwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndimachepa, zidapitilizabe kuchitika mwachidule. Sizinali zolaula nthawi zambiri koma ngakhale chithunzi chochepa cha mkazi chimatha kugwiritsidwa ntchito ngati zolaula ngati atayang'aniridwa mwachisoni. Ndinayesa kusiya. Ndinamuuza za izi. Ndinayesa kusiya koma ndinkachita manyazi kufunafuna thandizo lililonse kunja kwa ine. Kutatsala milungu iwiri kuti chaka chathu chokumbukira zaka ziwiri asankhe kukhala ndi ine. Panali zifukwa zina, koma kumvetsetsa tsopano momwe zolaula zandikhudzira pazaka zomwe ndazindikira kuti zifukwa zina, zomwe zimawoneka kuti sizikugwirizana ndi zolaula, zinali zolumikizana kwambiri.
Kwa kanthawi, ndimachita manyazi komanso kusweka mtima posudzulana kotero kuti ndidalephera kugona. Ndinayesa kuchita zolaula ndipo ndinachita mantha chifukwa chosafuna kugonana. Malingaliro andimuna anali atayikiridwa ndipo ndinali nditaona kuti ndine munthu wopanda pake. Kugonana ndi chinthu chomwe ndidatembenukira kuti ndimayesenso kulimbitsa thupi langa. Ndinayang'ana zolaula pamenepo ndimlingo woleka. Palibe chofunikira. Ndidasweka. Ndinkasungulumwa. Ndataya chiyembekezo. Ndinasiyanso kugona kwanga.
Ndinayamba kuwona munthu patatha chaka chimodzi, zomwe zinayamba kuyenderana mwachidule, aliyense ali ndi malingaliro osiyanasiyana zolaula. Amayi ena adaganiza kuti zinali zabwino. Wina amafuna kuti ndiziwonera, kuti ndiyenera kuthana ndi malingaliro anga osokonekera pa izi. Wina adandilimbikitsa kuti ndiyang'ane naye. Zonsezi zimangondisokoneza kwambiri. Ngakhale ndi anzanga omwe anali ndi zithunzi zolaula, sindinasangalale nazo. Ndinkadana nazo. Ndinkadana kuti ili ndi mphamvu pa ine.
Kenako, ndinakumana ndi wina watsopano. Ndinayambanso kukondana. Apanso, ndinayembekezera ndikukhulupirira kuti pomaliza pake ndidzamasulidwa. Poyamba ndidalipo, koma ndidakhala ndi mwezi wotsika ndipo ndidapezeka kuti ndikubwerera usiku wina. Kupita kwa chaka chotsatira icho chidayambira mphindi. Nthawi zina zinkachitika kamodzi kapena kawiri pa sabata. Ndinadziwa kuti sizikhala bwino ndi izi. Ndinawaletsa.
Idafika kumapeto kwa Januware. Ndikulakalaka ndikadakhala ndi kulimba mtima kuti ndiwaulule kwa iye. M'malo mwake, ndingonena kuti ndinali ndi kulimba mtima kokwanira kuti, "inde" pomwe adandifunsa ngati ndidaziyang'ana.
Zinali miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yapitayo.
Chibwenzi changa ndi mnzanga chakhala chikukhazikika kuyambira usiku womwewo. Ngakhale pano, sindikudziwa zomwe zichitike. Koma ndikudziwa, kuti ngakhale ndimva zowawa zazikulu zomwe ndakumana nazo miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yapitayi, ndikuthokoza chifukwa chausikuwo. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikuthokoza chifukwa cha iye.
Aliyense ali m'njira yosiyana, koma nditha kugawana njira yomwe ndakhala ndikuyenda miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yapitayi, ndi zinthu zomwe ndachita kuti ndikhale pano komanso tsopano - ndikudziwa kuti zolaula sizomwe ndingathenso kupita.
1. Tsegulani kwa omwe muli nawo pafupi kwambiri. Sizingakhale zofunikira kuchita mopitilira muyeso monga ndakhala ndikuchitira, koma pezani aliyense amene mumamukhulupirira ndipo yambani kucheza nawo. Palibe wina pagulu langa yemwe sakudziwa izi za ine. Banja langa lonse, banja lonse la mnzanga, abwenzi anga apamtima, ndi abwenzi apamtima a mnzanga onse amadziwa. Ndiyenera kudzipereka kwathunthu. Mwa anthu onsewa ndidalitsidwa ndikumvetsetsa kwambiri. Ndili ndi anzanga omwe adakumana ndi zomwezi ndipo tsopano timathandizana.
2. Funafunani thandizo. Lankhulani ndi othandizira omwe ali ndi chizolowezi chogonana, kapena gwiritsani ntchito gulu. Mufunika malingaliro ena ndipo mudzazipeza kuchokera kwa ena omwe adayendapo kale msewuwu.
3. Kukumba mozama. Dziwani zifukwa zomwe mudasinthira zolaula ndikukhumba. Dziwani kuti nthawi zonse kwakhala kuthawa. Pali mitundu isanu ya chizolowezi chogonana ndipo mwayi wakumanapo ndi umodzi woposa umodzi. Izi ndizo: Kugonana Kwabwinobwino (thupi lanu likukuwuzani kuti mukufuna kugonana), Kugonana Kwam'maganizo (Mumagonana kuti mupewe kukhumudwa), Kugonana Kwazakugonana (Zovuta zakale zidatsogolera kumayanjano osagonana ndi kugonana), Kugonana kwakuthupi (wanu umagwirira waubongo onse asokonekera), ndi Chizolowezi Chakugonana (Mukuyang'ana Mulungu, kapena waumulungu, kapena mphamvu yanu yayikulu).
4. Yambani kutsatira maloto anu. Munatembenukira kuzopeka ngati njira yopulumukira kulimbikira kukwaniritsa maloto anu. Koma nkhambakamwa ndi bodza, ndipo mukuwononga nthawi yanu.
5. Dzikondeni nokha. Dzikondeni nokha munjira yoyenera kwambiri. Ichi ndiye chovuta kwambiri mwinanso chosatsutsika kwambiri.
6. Dziwani zambiri zomwe mumakonda. Pali anthu ambiri pano pagululi omwe agawana maulalo komanso zomwe awakumana nazo. Pali zida zochulukirachulukira zomwe zikupezeka pamene anthu akukamba zochulukira pankhaniyi.
7. Thandizani ena. Ngakhale kungobwera pagululi ndikulimbikitsa ena ndi njira yodzithandizira.
8. CHOTSANI MALO ANU !!! Izi mwina ndizopangika pang'ono, koma nthawi yomweyo ndidasiya zolaula, ndinaperekanso kanema wawayilesi komanso makanema. Pali zoyambitsa zambiri, ndipo kunena zowona, moyo wanga uli bwino tsopano. Sindikudziwa ngakhale kuti ndimakhala ndi nthawi yochuluka bwanji. Ndine wotanganidwa kutsatira maloto anga ndipo ndilibenso nthawi yopulumukira.
9. Lumikizanani ndi anthu enieni. Takhala nthawi yayitali tikupereka zizolowezi zathu zomwe sitimazindikira kutalika kwa njira yomwe tasochera. Anthu ena amamuyimbira mnzake woti azidzayankha mlandu asanayambe kulumikizana. Ndimalankhula ndi wina nthawi yomwe ndimasungulumwa, mphindi yomwe ndimamva ngati ndikusiya, mphindi yomwe ndimakhala wokhumudwa. Fikirani kufikira chiyeso cholakalaka chisanalowe m'mutu mwanu. Muzicheza ndi anthu m'njira zenizeni, pamasom'pamaso.
10. Zindikirani kuti zolaula si vuto. Ndi chizindikiro. Munapangidwa kuti mukhale ndi chikondi chenicheni. Muyenera chikondi chenicheni. Vomerezani chowonadi chimenecho ndi zolaula zitha kuwonedwa kuti ndi zabodza zomwe zili.
12. Zindikirani chilakolako. Mvetsetsani kuti si gawo lanu. Ndikunamizira kuti mwakhala mukukhulupirira. Kunena zowona, ndilibe chikhulupiriro chambiri mwa omwe amapereka zolaula koma amapitilizabe kukhumbira azimayi omwe akudutsa, ngakhale atavala bwanji. Zolaula ndizodzaza ndi mavuto amtundu wina uliwonse, koma kulakalaka akazi sikwabwino.
13. Pangani chisankho kamodzi kwatha, mosakayikira konse. Masiku 90 ndiabwino koma muli ndi moyo wanu wonse patsogolo panu ndipo zolaula sizidzakutumikirani. Ngakhale atatha masiku 90 icho chidzakhalabe chowononga monga kale. Kudziletsa pang'ono ndi lingaliro labwino pazinthu zathanzi koma sindikukhulupirira kuti pali zolaula. Kuchokera mbali iliyonse ndizopanda thanzi.
14. Dziwani kuti momwe izi zikuwonongera moyo wanu, zikuchita zoyipa kwambiri m'miyoyo ya akazi. Tili pano kuti titeteze azimayi, kuwalimbikitsa, kuwalemekeza, ndi kuwakonda. Zolaula zimanyoza cholinga chathu. Zimanyoza cholinga chathu.
Pali zambiri zomwe ndinganene. Pomaliza, ndine wokondwa kukhala komwe ndiri. Ndine wokondwa kuti pomaliza pake ndamasulidwa. Aliyense pano pa tsambali akhoza kukhala ndi ufulu wofanana. Zimatenga ntchito yambiri koma zabwino zake zimakhala zopanda malire.
Ndingakhale wokonzeka kuthandiza aliyense amene akufuna kuyankhula zambiri.
ulusi: Miyezi isanu ndi umodzi ya Ufulu
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