Amayi ena omwe ndimakumana nawo pafupipafupi anali ma psychos omwe anali ndi mavuto ambiri kuposa momwe ndinalili ndekha, koma ndinawathandiza pamavuto awo chifukwa ndinali wabwino komanso wosayankhula, kenako ndinazindikira kuti izi zanditaya nthawi - bwanji ndithandizire mtsikana amene osandifuna ndi chibwenzi chake chachilendo komanso mavuto azakugonana ??
Kapena ndinathamangitsa (m'malingaliro mwanga) azimayi osakhala ndi chidwi ndi ine, kugwa mchikondi, kukanidwa (patatha zaka ziwiri chikhumbo chowawa) ndikuvulazidwa.
[Pankhaniyi zolaula zidandithandiza kamodzi: Ndidamufunsa mayi uyu, nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, adakanidwa ndipo nditabwerera kunyumba, impso zanga zidapweteka, mtima wanga udathamanga, milomo yanga idawuma ndikuphulika masekondi 5 atatha kutseka chitseko, ndinali ndi thukuta lozizira ndipo ndinali wofooka kwambiri kuti nditha kuyimirira kapena kukhala -> Ndinali ndi adrenalin owonjezera ndipo ndimachepetsa ma hormone. Kupweteka kwa impso kunapirira pambuyo pake, ndipo kunapitirira tsiku lina; Ndinatopa ndipo ndinagona. Kwa sabata limodzi zitatha izi malingaliro anga anali omasuka pambuyo pa zaka ziwiri za ukapolo wodziyesa wokha ndikumva kuwawa; kenako ndinakhumudwa chifukwa ndinazindikiranso kuti ndinali ndekha]
Sindingathe kufotokoza kwa ine, chifukwa zinali zovuta / zosatheka kukhala ndi chibwenzi, pomwe munthu wina aliyense anali naye. Sindikuwoneka woipa, ndine wabwino kwambiri kuti ndikhale woona (eya, ndizoyipa, ndikudziwa) ndipo ndili ndi zambiri zoti ndipereke. Ndinavutika kwambiri chifukwa ndinkamva kukhala ndekhandekha. Ndimadana ndi maphwando (ndipo ndimachitabe choncho), kotero sindinapite ku umodzi ndipo sindinachite chidwi ndi madera ena kapena zochitika, komwe ndimatha kupeza mkazi wabwino. Chilichonse chimawoneka ngati chosasangalatsa, kupatula makanema khumi otsatira pamzere wanga.
Kuonjezera apo, ndidavutika kwambiri ndimaphunziro anga ndipo ndidatsala pang'ono kupulumuka nthawi yoyambira - kwenikweni: ndinali wofuna kudzipha komanso wokhumudwa kwambiri. Funso losalakwa la amayi anga pomwe ndimakumana ndi mtsikana lidatsala pang'ono kundiwononga. Mwinanso adazindikira kuti china chake sichili bwino ndipo amafuna kuthandizira chidziwitso chodziwikiracho, koma chimenecho chinali mchere m'mabala anga ndipo sindinkafuna kuyankhula ndi makolo anga za izi. Ndili ndiubwenzi wabwino nawo, koma sindikufuna kungonena zazinthuzi. Kuyankhula ndi anzanu ndibwino kwambiri pankhaniyi.
Ndinkadzifunsa tsiku lililonse chifukwa chake sindiyenera kudzipha nthawi ino ndipo nthawi zambiri ndinalibe yankho la funsoli! Tsiku lililonse linali tsiku loipa kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Ndinkangomva bwino (kapena osachepera pang'ono) ndi zolaula ndikuwononga nthawi yambiri ndikuyang'ana kanema wabwino wotsatira, pomwe makanema anga akuwonjezeka adayamba kuchuluka.
Pambuyo pakupambana m'maphunziro anga, ndidataya zonse ndipo nditatuluka m'chipindacho ndikuwona mkazi tsiku lililonse yemwe ndimamufuna, ndidatha kuchotsa zipsinjo zanga ndipo ndimamva bwino kwambiri, mavuto azovuta m'makambirano ndipo zimamveka ngati panali mpira waukulu wachamba m'mutu mwanga.
Nthawi yokhayo yabwino inali kuphunzira mayeso omaliza tsopano chifukwa ndidakakamizidwa kuphunzira zinthu zambiri zomwe sindimatha kuganiza za zinthu zina monga akazi kapena zolaula.
Mwangozi ndinapeza "ubongo wanu pa zolaula zisanu ndi chimodzi", ndinaziyang'ana ... ndipo zinandiganiza. Ndinafufuza momwe zinthu zilili ndipo ndawona kuti tsopano ndikuledzera komanso kuti mavuto anga onse anali ndi gwero limodzi (ndikuganiza ^^).
M'mbuyomu ndidazindikira kuti kumwa kwanga zolaula sikunali bwino pamaumbidwe anga ndipo kunandichititsa thukuta kwambiri kuposa zabwinobwino, koma sindinamvere zokwanira ku malingaliro awa.
Koma nditawona mndandandawu ndikuchira pazidziwitso zatsopanozi ndidachitapo kanthu ndikuchotsa zolaula zanga, ndikulumbira kuti ndisiye zamkhutu izi. Masiku atatu oyambirira anali opweteka. Muyenera kudziwa kuti mpaka nthawi yatsopanoyi, chinthu choyamba chomwe ndimachita m'mawa uliwonse ndikutsegula kompyuta yanga ndi PMO kwa maola angapo m'malo mochita zinthu zofunika (monga kuphunzira, kudya, kusamba, kuyeretsa chipinda changa) ndipo tsopano sindinathe chifukwa zonse zinali zitapita. Ndikadapanda kufufuta chilichonse, sibwenzi ndidadutsa tsiku loyamba.
Zomwe ndakumana nazo poyambiranso Kuchotsa zomwe ndasonkhanitsa ndikuwonetsetsa kuti kompyuta ikuchita zinali zosangalatsa: Mawu ena ofooka mkati mwanga adakuwa "mukutani?" pomwe mtundu wina wachisangalalo udandidzaza. Ndinazindikira mwanjira ina kuti zatha.
Ndinkamvanso ngati kompyuta ikufunika nthawi yayitali kuti ichotse mafayilo onse, kotero ndimatha kukondwerera nthawiyo
Ndataya china chake (gawo lofunikira kwambiri, lalitali komanso nthawi zina labwino kwambiri pamoyo wanga lomwe silidzabweranso) koma ndinali ndimayembekezera zambiri kuchokera ku nsembeyi.
Njira zitatu zoyambirira zomwe ndidayesetsa kuyesa kupeza zina mwa zinthu zomwe ndimazikonda, koma ndidatha kuzikana. Kenako ndidapita kwa makolo anga kwa masiku angapo, omwe ndi amodzi mwa malo omwe sindinakonde kuzichita; ndipo ali ndi intaneti yolekezera kwambiri too
Pambuyo sabata yoyamba kunali kosavuta "kupulumuka" (osati nthawi ino, kudzipha kunandisiya nditachoka ku dorm) sabata ina ndipo zotsatira zake zinali zabwino:
Pambuyo pa masiku a 3, ndiye masiku a 7, ndiye masiku a 14 opanda PMO ndidamva kuti asinthidwa. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndili ndiulendo kale ndisanachitike koma zinali zolimbikitsa:
Panalibe thukuta m'manja + nthawi yonseyi, thonje lomwe linali m'mutu mwanga linachoka, ndimasangalatsa azimayi osawoneka bwino mumsewu m'maso. Ndinkasangalalanso kuona masamba ena pamtengo ndikukhala pamdzuwa!
Ndidapukutanso fumbi kuchokera ku chida chomwe ndidasewera zaka zoposa 10 ndikupitiliza kusewera; Ndinkasewera mpaka maola awiri patsiku zomwe zinali zochulukirapo kuposa momwe ndidachitirapo m'mbuyomu (mphindi za 0-15). Zinali zosangalatsa, ndimatha kuwona kupita patsogolo ndipo zinali ndi zotsatira zofananira ndikuphunzira: Malingaliro anga analibe malo oonera zolaula, azimayi, kukakamiza, kokha nyimbo ndi ine. Patatha mwezi umodzi ndidafika pamlingo womwe ndidayimilira kalekale, ndidaphunzira zambiri ndikupatsa banja langa chimbale chazabwino; adachita chidwi.
Ndinafika mwezi umodzi wopanda PMO ndipo tsopano malo anga anasintha: Makolo anga anachita mosiyana (mokondwera) ndikakhala pafupi, adandiitanira kukadya ku lesitilanti popanda chifukwa. Tikudya, ndinazindikira atsikana awiri ali patebulo kutsidya kwa chipinda, kundiyang'ana - mopitirira muyeso! 'Ndinabwereranso' ndipo ndinali wokondwa kwambiri chifukwa izi sizinachitikepo m'moyo wanga kale. Ndinalibe chidwi chochita zambiri, zovutazo zinali zosayenera. Titamaliza ndikutuluka, ndidawawona akuyang'anabe pazenera, izi zinali zodabwitsa kwambiri komanso zokwanira tsiku limodzi kwa munthu wazaka 30+ wosazindikira
Mu nthawi imeneyo ndinalinso ndi zolakwika zam'mawa kwambiri. Ndili ndi zolaula sindinkaganiza bwino ndipo ndinali ndi mavuto kuti ndilimbe popanda zolaula, makamaka mpaka muyeso womwe ndinali nawo tsopano kwaulere. Izi zinandithandizanso kusintha, ngakhale litulo lilibe ntchito komanso lingakhale loopsa (kumata).
Amayi anali akundiyang'ana kulikonse, mwachitsanzo, malo ogulitsa nsapato ndipo ndimakonda. Mwina adachita m'moyo wanga wonse ndipo sindinazindikire? Damn, ndinali wakhungu kwambiri!
Kenako kubwereranso pang'ono kunachitika, chifukwa ndinakomoka nditatha milungu isanu ndi umodzi. Ndidasintha masiku a 15 motsatizana, ndiye ndidayenera kupita kwa O. Chosangalatsa ndichakuti, ndidamva chilichonse * momwe zidachitikira. Zinkakhala ngati kulavulira kunja pambuyo popukuta mano, kutopa kotheratu komanso kopanda tanthauzo.
Tsiku lotsatira, ndinabwereranso. Nthawi ino ndimamva bwino (koma osati bwino).
Koma ndinakumbutsa kuti ndisabwerere ku zizolowezi zakale, kotero ndinaziimitsa ndikusunga masiku 21, kenako O'ed. Ndiye ndimatha kupirira masiku 1, 2, 3 okha (chabwino, ndapeza Makanema awiri omwe ndidasunga kwina ndikuiwala za iwo).
Izi zidandikwiyitsa pang'ono, zonsezi zidapita pachabe? Ndachotsanso zotsalazo.
Pambuyo pake ndidakwanitsa masiku 2 × 13, masiku 4 ndi zochepa. Sindinakonde chifuniro changa chofooka nthawi zonse nditachoka ku O'ed, kotero ndinayesa kuvomereza kumverera uku ndikundikumbukira nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimayesedwa. Ndinayambanso kuyang'ana zithunzi, chifukwa tsamba losangalatsa lomwe ndimakonda kuwonera nthawi zina limakhala ndi chithunzi chachiwerewere, chomwe chimandiyesa, motero ndidayika zosefera zolaula mu msakatuli wanga. Ndine wasayansi wamakompyuta, chifukwa chake fyuluta yodziyimira pakompyuta yanga siyodabwitsanso, koma idatulutsanso njira zina zomwe zidapangitsa kusefera kukhala kosavuta pang'ono, komwe makamaka kunali kokwanira kundiletsa kuti ndisadule zithunzi.
Pamene fyuluta inayamba kutseka mawebusayiti opanda zolaula mwa iwo (alamu onyenga), pamapeto pake ndinatulutsa zosefera.
Pambuyo masiku pafupifupi 100 kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba ndi moyo wanga watsopano, ndinali ndi chidwi ndikuyesera kutsitsa makanema ena. Mutha kuganiza kuti ili linali lingaliro loipa koma kwa ine silinali: Choyamba, kutsitsa kunali kochedwa kwambiri kotero kuti ndimadikirira mphindi kapena ngakhale maola kuti ndipeze kanema, ndidachotsa ambiri ndisanawawone kapena kuwamaliza (kotero Ndinanyenga ubongo wanga wonyenga ^^) ndipo m'mene ndimayang'ana (kapena bwino: nditawasiya), sindinamve kanthu koma kukhumudwitsidwa: Sananditembenuzire, zinali zopanga kwathunthu komanso zofooka. Zinali zomwezi zomwe ndimayang'ana m'mbuyomu, chifukwa chake ndimadziwa kuti ndapita patsogolo kwambiri.
Sindingalangize aliyense kuti ayese zotsatirazi, koma kwa ine zinali zokumana nazo zabwino:
Ndayesa zochulukirapo ndipo ndidadutsa pamalopo, pomwe ndidapeza zinthu zanga. Panali ma 499 osasangalatsa / onyansa / owonetsa / makanema owopsa okhaokha: kanali kachilengedwe kwambiri, kokhazikika komanso kogwirizana ndi zomwe mtsikana amakumana nako pazomwe ndinganene, osati zabodza (kupatula kukhala zolaula, zomwe mwachionekere siziri zenizeni mu mulimonse). Ndinkaziwona popanda kuchita zopusa panthawiyi, ndimangosangalala ndi zokambirana, chilengedwe, mawonekedwe a nkhope, thupi ndi zina zotero. Izi ndi zomwe ndikufuna m'moyo weniweni.
Ndaphunzira zinthu ziwiri kuchokera pamenepa: Choyamba, kukhumudwitsidwa ndikumadumphira pa porn ndikulephera kuyipeza mwachangu chinali chondichitikira champhamvu chomwe ndimatha kugwiritsa ntchito mwayi (ngakhale ubongo wanga wosayankhula uyenera kudziwa tsopano, kuti zolaula sizosangalatsa ^ ^) ndi chachiwiri: pali zinthu zabwino zomwe zikuyembekezera m'moyo weniweni, zapamwamba kwambiri kuposa momwe ndingaganizire 🙂
Chifukwa chake ndidalimbitsa chifuniro changa chonyalanyaza zolaula zilizonse, ndikumverera bwino za kupita patsogolo kwanga osati O'ing. Mwezi wina ukuwoneka ngati chidutswa cha keke tsopano; ndipo chinthu chabwino ndichakuti: Ndidayitanitsa mzanga yemwe ndidatsala pang'ono kulumikizana naye; ndiwochezeka komanso wabwino, ndimamuseketsa ndipo anditembenukira tsopano ... Sindingayembekezere zogonana, koma ndine wokonda kucheza ndi mayi wabwinobwino, kucheza, kuwona kanema, kusangalala; ndani akudziwa zomwe zichitike 🙂
Tsogolo labwino Ndikudziwa kuti pali zambiri zomwe zingachitike, monga kuyankhula kwambiri ndi amayi mumsewu: Ndidali ndi vuto pamalo okwerera basi; azimayi awiri abwino anali ataima pamenepo ndikulankhula za mabuku pomwe ndimafika ndikuyang'ana tebulo kuti ndikwere basi. Patatha mphindi 10 m'modzi adafunsa mnzake "kodi padzakhala basi yotsatira kapena tangoima pano mozungulira?" Adandizindikira nditayima pambali pawo, adandifufuza ... ndipo ine (aka jackass wamkulu) sindinawauze za bus yotsatira ngakhale ndimakumbukira ndendende… mwina ndinali nditatopa kwambiri chifukwa ndimayenda makilomita angapo ndisanakhale kapena ndimakondweretsabe zokambirana (inde, ndimakhala ndikumvetsera, ndikunena zoipa ^^) ndipo ndikuganiza sizikadandipweteka ndikadangolowa nawo pazokambirana ndi mafunso ena okhudza mabuku omwe adakambirana. Posachedwa… sitepe ndi sitepe, kusiya kuphunzira zinthu zopanda nzeru ndi kuphunzira zinthu zomwe ndikadaphunzira zaka 20 zisanachitike
Ndi zokhumudwitsa + mphindi zakufuna kudzipha? KULIMA kwaiwalika! (chabwino, ndisanayambe kuyambiranso, koma sanabwererenso)
Ndipo ngati gehena ilipo: sindimawopa pambuyo pazinthu zonse zowonongeka ndi zowononga za 20ies; zibweretseni! 🙂
Maupangiri Ena
- Chotsani chopereka chanu _completely_, ona izi ndikuona nsembe iyi
- Pitani / Pitani kumalo komwe simukuyesedwa ngati mukuvutika.
- Lankhulani ndi munthu amene mumamukhulupirira, monga banja, abwenzi.
- Onani momwe mumasinthira ndi momwe malo anu amasinthira, sangalalani ndi izi.
- Tsatirani ndandanda wa cheke, musafufute chilichonse ngati inu O, yambani mzere watsopano ndikuyesera kufikira zolemba zakale
- Mukuponda, mumataya. Mwina pamafunika masiku, koma pamapeto pake mudzataya ndipo O.
- Dodometsani nokha: gwiritsani ntchito, pangani zida, werengani. Mukamachita izi, sangalalani ndi kupita kwanu patsogolo. Onetsani luso lanu kwa anthu ena (konsati ya banja laling'ono, lankhulani zomwe mwapanga / mwaphunzira)
- Sangalalani ndi chipambano chilichonse m'moyo wanu, makamaka pokonzanso zinthu kapena ayi. Kuchita bwino pang'ono!
- Thandizani anthu ena, mwachitsanzo ndi ntchito zachifundo. Kuthandiza atsikana a psycho ndi zibwenzi zawo za psycho si chikondi, musanyalanyaze. Ngati moyo wawo ndi woipa kuposa wanu, pezani mphamvu yolingalira izi
- Kunyalanyaza azimayi omwe samakukondani, sayenera nthawi yanu komanso woganiza
- Lankhulani ndi anthu osasintha omwe ali ndi chidwi china komanso chidwi chabodza; koma musayembekezere chilichonse chifukwa mwina simudzawaonanso (mwachitsanzo, pokwerera basi) kapena mupeza munthu wapadera; ngati simulankhula nawo, simudziwa.
- Sangalalani kukhala nanu (btw: ichi ndi chinthu chimodzi chofunikira kuti mupeze ubale, ndinawerenga ^^)
- Akukopana pogwiritsa ntchito eyecontact ndikuwalola kuti akufufuzeni. Ndizosangalatsa ndipo zitha kubweretsa zina zambiri. Kapena sichitero, ndiye kuti zidali zosangalatsa 🙂
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