Chabwino ndili pano Masiku XXUMX mkati. Zovuta poti sindinakhalepo pachibwenzi (zaka 12 za moyo wanga zinali zodzipatula kwambiri), ndipo ndakhala ndikuyika zinthu zina m'masiku 152 apitawa.
Pamaso pa NoFap, ndidapachikidwa pa izi, chifukwa ndidakhala wotsimikiza kuti kukhala mwamuna kumadalira kugonana, komanso kukhala ndi malingaliro a anthu (kuyambira pamenepo, ndakhala pafupifupi punk pa izi. "Society. ? F@#$ izo” ;)). Mulimonsemo, ndinayesetsa kuthana nazo m’njira zosiyanasiyana ndipo palibe imodzi imene inali yabwino kwa ine. Zinatsogolera ku P (monga njira yotsika mtengo yothanirana ndi vutoli), idapita patsogolo ku PUA (poyesa molakwika kuti ndizindikire zonse ndi "kugona" kuti ndithe. “Khalani monga wina aliyense”), ndipo nthawi zonse ndimachita manyazi nthawi zonse ndikayesa kusiya kukula ndipo sindinadutse mwezi umodzi.
Ndimamva kugwidwa. Ndimamva kuti ndasungidwa. Sindingathe kupita patsogolo ndi moyo wanga koma sinditha kuuza wina aliyense kuti ndakanidwa, mwina poopa kuti angandiweruze kapena kuwopa kuti angaseke. Izi zimachokera kuzinthu zofunikira zachitukuko - osakhala omasuka pakati pa anthu wamba, koma koposa zonse za izi kwakamphindi, chifukwa sindiye gawo lalikulu la positiyi, ndipo ndimangotchula izi - kuyambira pachiyambi - kotero kuti ndikati AMA, zimapereka lingaliro pazomwe ndimatha kuyankha. Kulankhula za ED kapena "moyo wanu wogonana wakula bwanji?" ndi zina. Koma ndikhoza kuyankhula zaulendo wanga womwewo, ndipo ndine wokondwa ngati zingathandize ena, kapena ngati muli ndi mafunso ena aliwonse okhudza njira kapena machitidwe omwe akhala othandiza kufikira 150 (popanda cholinga chosiya)….
Kuyambira Tsiku 90, moona mtima sindikuwonanso kusintha momwe ndidapangira m'miyezi yoyamba ya 2 - 3. Zosintha zazikulu zidachitika kale, motero zomwe ndikukumana nazo tsopano ndikupitilizabe zizolowezi zatsopano zomwe ndikufuna kukhala nazo…
Nyimbo ndizabwino kuposa kale (popeza ndimasewera pagitala wanthawi zonse & momwe ndimasewera ndimakulira kwambiri --- ngakhale ndakhala ndikusewera kwazaka 22, ndikuchitikadi gitala tsiku lililonse).
Ndakhala wowerenga mwamphamvu & ndipo pamapeto pake amayambiranso kulimba pambuyo popewa masewera olimbitsa thupi zaka 15. Kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikudya bwino kwakhala zinthu zosangalatsa m'malo mwa ntchito. Mwina chifukwa ndayamba kuyamikiradi ntchito yakudzikonza ndikukhala ndi chidwi chokwaniritsa zolinga zamtsogolo kuposa "kukhala nazo pakadali pano" momwe ndimakhalira nthawi zonse ...
Mwambiri komanso kuyamikiratu anthu, mabanja, ndi zibwenzi m'moyo wanga. Ponena zamagulu, ndikutulukabe, chomwe ndichomwe ndimagwira ndi wothandizira - - kusangalala ndi anthu ena sichinthu chomwe ndidachita ndili mwana - - zinali zosavuta kupita kulowa mchipinda & kubisalira kuseri kwa nyimbo, komwe zonse zinali zotetezeka. Panalibe mwayi wodzichitira manyazi, kapena kunena chinthu cholakwika, kapena kukanidwa ndi msungwana wokongola, kapena kupwetekedwa mwanjira iliyonse. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti, njira yobisalira yomwe ambiri a ife timagweramo ndi PMO, koma zonse zikanenedwa, ndine wosewera gitala, ndipo nyimbozo ndizopatsa thanzi ndikupereka china chake chokongola komanso chopindulitsa nthawi zambiri- dziko, kotero sindingathe kufananizira ndi PMO. Koma monga china chilichonse, mutha kukhala ndi zabwino zambiri. Ngakhale kusewera gitala kuli ndi malire ake…
Chifukwa chake ndakhala ndikutuluka m'malire amenewo, ndikuphunzira zambiri za ine ndekha panthawiyi. Ndimakhalabe ndi nkhawa komanso kupsinjika mtima komwe ndingathe kuthana nako, koma ndilibe mankhwala ndipo ndili ndi chiyembekezo chambiri kuposa zomwe ndakhala nazo zaka (31 wazaka; ndinayamba kuchepa pa 19 ndipo ndinakhudzidwa ndi PMO, kugonana pafoni, kugonana pa intaneti, ndi chizoloŵezi chokula kuyambira nthawi yomwe ndinali 21 kudutsa zaka khumi zikubwerazi). Pogwirizana ndi zovuta zakukhala gitala wodziyimira pawokha mu bizinesi yazanyumba mzaka zam'ma 21 ndi zina zofunika kudzidalira komanso kudzidalira, zidatsogolera ku ofesi ya wothandizira zaka ziwiri zapitazo. Wina yemwe ndimayankhulabe naye pafupipafupi, yemwe wakhala akundithandiza kwambiri (ndikulimbikitsa kwathunthu) paulendowu. Pakhaliponso kuti ndikudandaula kuti sindinathe. Monga ndikadawononga zaka zabwino kwambiri za moyo wanga ndipo ndimakhala ndikutsalira pambuyo pake. Tsopano ndikungomva ngati zabwino zili patsogolo. Ndipo ndikusankhira zidutswazo kubwera kutsogolo.
My Malingaliro akumveka kuposa momwe ndimaganizira momwe zikanakhalira kale, ndipo ine ndimakhala wotengeka kwambiri komanso wolimbikitsidwa (ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti ndi chithunzi pa NF, ndizowona muzochitikira zanga).
Ngakhale pali zovuta zina zomwe ndimakumana nazo tsiku lililonse, kwa nthawi yoyamba nthawi yayitali ndikumva wokhoza kuthana ndi mavutowa ndipo tsopano wayamba kukhala bwino ndi kusapeza bwino (mu chidwi cha kukula). Sindikufunanso kuthawa monga kale ...
Moyo wanga woganiza umawonetsedwa ndi izi, chifukwa ndakhala ndikulimbikira kwambiri kuti ndipewe malingaliro amtundu uliwonse ndikukongoletsa kwamaganizidwe (komanso mtundu wina uliwonse wokongoletsa - sindimangopita kumeneko).
Masiku ena ndimakhala wovuta kwambiri. Ndidayamba kudzutsidwa ndi mayi wina m'sitolo tsiku lina (lomwe limamveka ngati nyimbo yoyipa yamiyendo iwiri - yomwe nthawi zonse imatha kuthana ndi zipatso ndi zipatso zamtundu wina m'ma 1920) Koma ine osadzimva kuti akulamulidwa ndi chikhumbo; salinso moto wosakhuta; koposa zonse, sindingafune kuzikumbukiranso pang'ono. Pogwirizana ndi kukhala omasuka ndi zovuta, ndayamba kusangalala ndimavuto omwe ndimamva mthupi mwanga komanso m'moyo wonse.
Kuyambira tsiku la 45 kapena 50, ndakhala ndikulota nthawi zambiri. Sindiyesa kuwabweretsa kapena kuwatsendereza, ndipo moona mtima sindimaganizira za iwo akachitika. Nthawi zina amandipangitsa kudzutsidwa (Chaser zotsatira) tsiku lotsatira, nthawi zina samatero. Nthawi zina amakhala ogonana kwambiri ndipo nthawi zina samakhala owonekera (ndinali ndi imodzi yomwe sindimatha kukumbukira). Momwe ndimaziyang'anira ndikuti samadzipereka komanso kuti ndiwamasulidwa ndi thupi langa zomwe sindingathe kuzilamulira. Sindimawapatsa ulemu kapena kuwachititsa manyazi, koma kwa ine, zimachitika pafupipafupi. Pafupifupi kamodzi pa masiku 10 - 14 masiku kaya ndikuwafuna kapena ayi.
Kuyendera NoFap tsiku lililonse inali gawo lalikulu laulendo wanga woyamba wa masiku 90. Kuyambira pamenepo ndimabwera kuno kangapo, koma zimandithandizira kuti ndidutse mu Zolemba Zatsopano & kuyesa kupeza wina woti angalimbikitse. Komanso, makanema a Mark Queppet anali gawo lalikulu la masiku anga oyambirira a 90…
Ndikukhazikitsa cholinga choti nditengeko pang'ono ku No Fap (sindinagwiritsepo ntchito Reddit china chilichonse) milungu ingapo yotsatira. Mwinanso mutenge mwezi umodzi ndikubwezeretsanso ndikafika masiku 180, ngakhale nditha kubwereranso ndikuyang'ana mayankho ku positi ngati wina angafunse mafunso.
Kwambiri, mai kutsimikiza ndi zolinga zakhala zomveka komanso zowoneka bwino. Nditayamba No Fap, moona mtima sindinadziwe ngati ndipita masiku onse a 90. Koma kuyambira pamenepo ndayamba kuyamika kwambiri chifukwa cha zomwe ndingofotokoza ngati njira yabwino kwambiri yamoyo. Zinthu zina zambiri zoti musankhe ndi kukonza. Ndine chitsanzo cha "No Fap" sichachiritso, koma sindingagulitse kupita patsogolo mpaka pano. Koposa zonse, pali zina patsogolo.
LINK - Lipoti la Tsiku la 152 (Lodumphidwa Tsiku la Tsiku la 120, Ndiye Izi Ndizosintha Kuyambira 90) - AMA
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Kuwona Mwachidule Patsiku la 242 (Osati Nkhani Yonse Yopita Patsogolo) - Zinthu Zimasintha Mwazake…
Zinthu zikupitilizabe kuyenda bwino. Zaka zapitazo, ndimaganiza kuti ndikapanda kutulutsa mphamvu zonse tsiku lililonse, zimandipangitsa kukhala wosimidwa. Koma umo si momwe zikuyendera konse…
Nthawi zina zimakhala ngati kusinthidwa kwamuyaya. Mwina ndi zomwe ndimachita mantha - ndipo ndimasokoneza ndikusimidwa - chifukwa sindinali wokonzeka kuvomereza udindo wonse Zosankha ndi zisankho m'moyo wanga.
Masiku ano ndimamva kusinthidwa kuposa kale. China chake chophweka monga kuyang'ana diso mwachindunji ndi mkazi - kucheza - kumandidzaza ndi magetsi. Koma pano pali wokwera…
Chikhumbo chokhacho chomwe chimatsogolera ndicho kukhumba kulumikizana kwakukulu kwa anthu. Sindingachepetse gawo la zoyendetsa zogonana ndi mahomoni, kapena kukana kukhalapo kwake. Kungonena izi - zakhala zochuluka kwambiri kuposa pamenepo. Ndipo kuti nthawi zina kukambirana kosavuta kumandichititsa kumva kuti ndili ndi vuto lalikulu (posachedwa / chithunzi chachikulu cha zinthu) kuposa kuthamanga konse kwa PMO.
Chinthu chimodzi chomwe sindikufuna ndikutulutsa mphamvuzo m'chipinda ndekha. Ndikunena izi mosamala chifukwa momwe ndimakhalira ndikutsata ndikumakhalabe wodzichepetsa - ndikuzindikira kuti kupita patsogolo kumafunikira kuzindikira, kukhala tcheru, ndikudzipereka kwatsopano tsiku lililonse. Kotero izo zinati, lingaliro lakukumana ndi mtsikana, kukonda mtsikana, kumverera kukopeka naye, ndiyeno kubwerera kunyumba kukakambirana za izo - chizolowezi chonse (chomwe ine ndakhala nacho kwa zaka) - chakhala chowona mtima kwa ine. Sindikulakalakanso.
My zofuna sizikhudzidwanso mozungulira PMO. Ndinganene kuti nthawi zomwe zimakhala zovuta nthawi zonse zimakhudza zenizeni. Nthawi zomwe ndimasinthidwa ndikufuna zina zambiri. Kuti timudziwe bwino munthu wina. Kutulutsa wina. Kukhala nazo kumatsogolera kwinakwake. Ndipo osakana udindo wapabanja pamenepo.
Koma zokhumba ndizakuti. Ndipo ndikamamva choncho ndikupita kunyumba yanga, sizikugonja ayi. Ndipo sikusimidwa kuti “uyenera kuyikidwa” ngakhale. Mukudziwa, ndikuwona kutsutsana kwakukulu pa Reddit iyi. Zokangana zina pakati pa mawu oti "mumangotsutsana ndi kugonana" komanso osakwatira "kukhala osakayikira zilizonse zogonana". Sindingathe kuyankhulira wina aliyense, kapena zomwe akufuna kuchita nawo ulendowu. Zomwe ndinganene ndikuti paulendo wanga wamwini, palibe mawu omwe ali ndi tanthauzo lililonse. Ndikudziwa momwe moyo wanga udaliri kale. Ndipo momwe ziliri tsopano - momwe zikusinthira kukhala zabwino.
Zili ngati kukumbatirana kwa zonse zomwe zili pano pakadali pano, komanso kukula konse mtsogolo. Popanda kubisala kapena kuchita manyazi
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Yoyambitsidwa ndi NoFap Okutogola yatha pamene ndinali womvetsa chisoni komanso wosungulumwa chifukwa chobwerera ku malingaliro, maliseche, ndi PMO. Sipereka mbiri yakuya chifukwa zambiri zalembedwa m'mabuku anga am'mbuyomu.
Tsiku 90 lidafika ndikupita. Ndidangoganiza molawirira kuti sichikhala kudzipereka kwakanthawi. Ndikugwirabe ntchito chifukwa cha njira zopulumukira zomwe ndidapanga ndidakali mwana - zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndisakhale moyo weniweni kwazaka zopitilira khumi.
Sizinali zoyambitsa zogonana kwenikweni. Zinali zowakumbutsanso za moyo. Kotero Sindinkafuna kuti "ndisiye kuseweretsa maliseche mpaka nditataya unamwali wanga, kapena kugona ..." - Ndinali kufuna kusiya kuseweretsa maliseche mpaka nditawona moona mtima kuti sipadzakhalanso kukula popewa. Zowona ndizakuti, ndikuganiza kuti kukula ndichinthu chamoyo wonse & sindikuwona kubwerera pamakhalidwe akale. Pali moyo wochuluka kwambiri woti ukhale m'malo mwake. Makamaka poganizira kuchuluka kwa zomwe ndaphonya pazaka 20 zanga zonse… nditakhala mchipinda ndekha.
Pa chaka chatha Ndinayamba kulemba ndakatulo, kumachita zonyansa za gitala patsiku (ngakhale ndine woimba waluso; chifukwa chake sindinena kuti ndi NoFap; koma QUALITY yamachitidwe anga idasintha bwino), ndikuwunika njira zopangira, kufikira abwenzi ambiri, komanso a nthabwala ndi kusangalala m'moyo zinabwereranso. Komanso, ndinayamba kulimbitsa thupi zomwe zakhala zofunikira kwambiri. Zonse mwa kugwiritsa ntchito mphamvuyo mokwanira komanso chitsogozo chopita katatu pa sabata. Ndinapitanso kuchoka pamawu akuti kwathunthu kupita ku zolimbitsa thupi sabata iliyonse… Kupukuta pansi pamanja & mawondo, kuyeretsa mabafa, kupukuta… ndikupangitsanso bedi langa m'mawa uliwonse. Panali zizolowezi zambiri zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito popanga njira zodzipereka & kulanga.
Chakumapeto kwa Feb. Ndinayamba kutola zisonyezo kuchokera kwa mtsikana amene ndimakhala naye pachibwenzi kwanthawi yayitali… zaka 3 kapena 4… .koma sindidumphe pazizindikiro. Zambiri zinali kuchitika ndipo ndinali kudzipanga ndekha m'njira zina…
Monga namwali wazaka 31 panthawiyo, moona mtima, ndinasiya kudziweruza ndekha chifukwa cha izo. kapena ngakhale kusamala (izo sizowona kwathunthu; Ndinkasamalabe, koma ndinasiya kusamala AS kwambiri - sizinkawoneka ngati nkhani yaikulu). Ngati dziko lonse likadaseka, f@#'em. Siinali ntchito yawo iliyonse ndipo sindinkaonanso kugonana ngati mtundu uliwonse wopambana. Ndinadziwa kuti ndikufuna chibwenzi. Izo zinali za izo. Koma sindinachedwe...
Pomaliza kumayambiriro kwa Ogasiti kusamvana kunali kosatheka. koma sindinadziwebe ngati ndikufuna kupita pamsewuwo. Sindinkafuna kupezerapo mwayi kapena kugwiritsa ntchito aliyense kuti nditaye unamwali wanga. Ndizachilendo, chifukwa ndinali nditatengeka kwambiri ndikudzidana nazo nthawi imeneyo… koma NoFap idasintha malingaliro anga onse pazakugonana… Ndinayamba kuwona kugonana ngati gawo la moyo, osati lonse.
Nditayamba kuimba kwambiri, nyimbo inali mphatso yabwino. Ndinatha kuthira mphamvu ija mgitala. Komanso, ingogwiritsani ntchito ntchitoyo pakungokhala otanganidwa m'malo ambiri momwe mungathere.
Komabe, ndinamuuza kuti apite kukacheza mu sabata lachitatu la Ogasiti (tsiku lenileni lomwe ndimakumbukira ndekha)… ndimaganiza kuti timangochezabe ngati abwenzi apamtima koma timakhala okonzeka kuti mwina china chake chichitike ... titetezedwe, ndi zina zambiri.
Chifukwa chake timalankhula za tsogolo ndipo ndikuganiza kuti sangathenso kulimbana ...anasuntha ndikubwera kwa ine…
Zinthu zidachitika mwachangu ndipo pafupifupi 3 AM adatenga unamwali wanga.
Kwa nthawi yayitali, Ndinkaganiza kuti zikadzachitika, sindinamuuze aliyense amene ndinali naye kuti inali nthawi yanga yoyamba. Kuti zingamuwopsyeze ...
Koma ndikusintha kwa moyo uno wonse, ndidachita zosiyana ndendende… (monga George Costanza)
Ndinafotokozera kuti mwina sangayembekezere izi mzaka miliyoni, koma ndikadakhala ndi zinthu zina zomwe zimandilepheretsa kuchita zambiri m'moyo mzaka zonse za 20, ndipo adalongosola kuti sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi, ndipo sindinayambe ndagonanapo ndi aliyense…
Ndinali wokonzekera moona mtima (ndipo ndimayembekezera) kuti achoke pamalopo. Kunena kuti "Sindingathe kuchita izi" (monga kukhala woyamba wanga), kapena kutaya chidwi chake komanso chidwi chake panthawiyo, ngati "munthuyu adzakhala wazaka 32 zoyipa kwambiri pakama," ndikungopita… .kuti ndituluke mchipinda mwanga ndili wosokonezeka ndi kusakhulupirira.
Koma sanatero.
Ankafuna kuwonetsetsa kuti ndili omasuka kwathunthu komanso wokonzeka kudzipangira ndekha chisankhocho… ndipo zitachitika, ndinapita mmenemo ndikuzindikira ndi kuvomereza kuvomerezana kwathu komanso lingaliro langa kulandira kuvomera kwake…
Sindikufuna kugawana zambiri zakukhala kwathu limodzi, chifukwa pali gawo lina mwa ine lomwe limakhala lachinsinsi kwambiri ndipo ndimawona kuti nkhani izi ndi zabwino kwambiri pakati pa mwamuna ndi mkazi - m'malo mokambirana ndi anthu ena 122,000….
Koma tidapitilizabe kuwonana kuyambira nthawi imeneyo ndipo momwe ubalewo ulili sizikudziwika bwino kwa ine…
Ndikudziwa kuti ndimamulemekeza komanso kumusirira ndipo ndine woyamikira kuti zidachitika pamene zidachitika ...
Poyang'ana m'mbuyo, sindidandaula kuti sindinataye unamwali wanga ndili ndi zaka 17 kapena 19 kapena 22 kapenanso zaka 29… chifukwa sindinali wokonzeka mwanjira iliyonse…
Ndinganene kuti ... .PUA sinali yabwino kwa ine. Idawopseza malingaliro anga kwazaka zapakati pa 20s. Kulowa mmenemo ndi chiyembekezo chotaya unamwali wanga. Pamapeto pake sizinachitike mpaka nditakana zonsezo… (moyamikira kotero; ndipo sindiphonya konse - ndimakhala ndikuchita mantha nthawi zonse ndili ndi zaka 27 kapena 28… ndimangoyesera kufikira amayi momwe anzeru am'derali amakuphunzitsirani… .ngati ndikadangozichita mwanjira yoyenera, limenelo lidzakhala yankho… moyo wanga udayamba kugwira bwino ntchito ndipo malingaliro anga azimayi adayamba kutsutsidwa).
Ndakhala ndikukhala m'malo azosangalatsa kwanthawi yayitali. Sindinali wokonzeka kukhala pachibwenzi chamtundu uliwonse, kukhala wokondana kwathunthu kapena kuthupi kwathunthu ... zenizeni zinali zakunja kwambiri kwa ine ndipo ngati ndikanataya unamwali wanga kale, sizikanakhala zabwino. Ndikudziwa zimenezo. Pabwino, ndikadakhala kuti ndikadakhala ndi zolaula ... ndikayesa kutembenuza wina kukhala nyenyezi yolaula kapena zongopeka. Choyipa chachikulu, ndikadangolowerera kwambiri mumdima wakuthawa ndikugwiritsa ntchito zokhazokha ngati njira yodzikonzera… ndikugwiritsa ntchito ena kuti andichotse.
Koma chomwe chiri chosangalatsa kwambiri kuposa zonse, ndikuti kugonana tsopano (kangapo, ndi bwenzi lomweli)…
Sizingowoneka ngati zazikulu. Ndiye. Ndi kumasulidwa. Zimamva bwino. Ndipo palinso maola ena 23 a tsiku lanu ndi tsiku lomwe mulipo…
Kodi anthu awiri onsewa amagwirizana bwanji masiku amenewo masana ndi usiku?
Sindikudziwa. Ndaziyang'ana m'njira zosiyanasiyana.
Mwanjira zina, ziyenera kuti zasintha kwambiri. Mtsikana wina adandipatsa nambala yake ya foni patadutsa tsiku limodzi kapena awiri nditagonana. Wina anangodziwonetsera kwathunthu (“Hei, ndimakuwonani pano nthawi zonse…”). Ndikokwanira kundipangitsa kukhulupirira zomwe anyamata anzanga ankakonda kundiuza. "Amatha kununkhiza akadzagonekedwa."
Pafupifupi.
Koma pamapeto pake, sindimavomereza chiphunzitsochi chifukwa ndichachabechabe. Imachepetsa chilichonse pakugonana, zomwe PMO amachita (ndipo timakhala pagulu la PMO)…
Izi zikadakhala kuti ndikudzigulitsa ndekha komanso moyo wamfupi, ndikuwonetsetsa zogonana momwe ndimakonda ...
Chomwe ndimati ndi chidaliro chomwe chimapezeka chifukwa chokhala moyo m'malo mobwerera.
Ponena za mnzathu, tikupitilizabe kusangalala ndikucheza; koma ndimakonda kucheza naye izi zisanachitike ...
Zina ndi zokambirana zimasiyidwa bwino kuofesi ya wothandizira… osawulutsidwa poyera… Sindikudziwa kumene ubale ukupita, ngati kulikonse…
Koma kwa nthawi yoyamba ndimamva kuti ndili ndi mwayi wosankha momwe ndingafotokozere za kugonana kwanga - zikhale ndi mnzanga, kapena kuthira mphamvu zomwezo muzinthu zina monga kupititsa patsogolo ntchito yanga, kusewera gitala, kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi, kukhala ndi moyo (osamasula Icho chimakhala minofu)…
Ndipo ngati ubalewo uyamba kumverera kukhala mbali imodzi komanso mwathupi….
Ndikumva kuti ndikutha kubwerera ku zovuta. Monga sizingakhale zovuta zenizeni.
chifukwa nchinthu chachikulu kwambiri chomwe ndaphunzira…
Sindikufuna chiwonetsero (ngakhale ndi mkazi) kuti ndikhale wosangalala kapena kuti ndikhale wokhutira…
Ndikufuna anthu ena (ofanana ndi anzanga), komanso mu maubale, othandizana nawo ngati mbali ya ubale wabwino.
Chifukwa chake kusaka kumapitilizabe. Zinthu zidakali zosokoneza pang'ono chifukwa zonse ndi zatsopano kwa ine. Kugonana. Chowonadi chakukhala pafupi ndi mkazi (osasiyapo zomwe zimakhudza ubale weniweni).
Koma ndikudziwa kuti sindimadzimva ngati kapolo kumaliseche kwanga ndipo ndikukhala munthu wathunthu kwambiri.
Komabe, positiyi inali yofanana kwambiri (mwachizolowezi), koma Ndibwereranso mozungulira Tsiku la 365 ndikupanga AMA pamenepo
Zikomo kwambiri kwa onse omwe akhala akundithandiza paulendo wanga. Sindikadakhala kuno popanda inu
CHITSANSI- Masiku a 365 - Zimapitilira Kukhala Bwino & Ndizotheka
Tikuyamikira kwambiri dera lino, lomwe lakhala gawo lofunikira pofika lero ...
Ndili ndi nthawi yochepa ndipo ndikupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi, chifukwa chake ndizikhala zochepa, koma ndimachita AMA nthawi ina… mwina kumapeto kwa sabata. Khalani pamenepo ndipo ndibwerera.
Mpaka nthawi imeneyo, ndikungofuna kunena kuti ndizotheka. 32 wazaka ndipo izi zakhala chaka chofunikira kwambiri cha moyo wanga wachikulire. Zambiri mwa izi zafotokozedwa m'mabuku anga am'mbuyomu.
Ndinganene izi motere: muyenera kuzifunadi. Muyenera kukhala odzipereka kwathunthu. Kuthandiza ena ndi njira yabwino yotsimikiziranso kudzipereka. Nthawi zonse ndikakhala ndikulakalaka kapena kumverera ngati ndikufuna kubwerera kuchipinda ndekha & kuthawa, ndimabwera kuno m'malo mwake ndikufunafuna ulusi wina woti ndiyankhulepo kapena winawake yemwe mwina ndingamuthandize.
Makina olimba a 10 miyezi. The anali ndi gf pafupifupi mwezi umodzi. Kenako bweretsani zovuta.
Dulani kwathunthu mitundu yonse yosangalatsa ya pa intaneti. Anasiya kuyang'ana zithunzi (ngakhale zomwe sizinali nudes), anali atachoka pa Facebook kwa nthawi yayitali mulimonse (ndipo sanabwerere)…adapita kudziko lenileni…
ndinakhala woyimba bwino, ndinakumana ndi anthu ena atsopano, ndinayambitsanso mabwenzi akale, ndinayamba kugwira ntchito, ndinasamukira ku nyumba ina, ndinayamba kusunga nyumba yoyera (zizolowezi zinakhala zothandiza, zimandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wolangika komanso wolunjika), ndinakhala munthu womasuka komanso wolandila , ndinayamba kufotokoza zambiri ndikuwonetsa kuyamikira ena, ndikumvetsetsa ubwana wanga & ubale wanga ndi makolo, kuthana ndi zovuta zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndikhale paubwenzi ndi PMO & kubisala (zomwe ndidachita kwa zaka 12)…
Zowona ndilibe malingaliro obwerera ...
Chomwe ndikudziwa kwambiri ndichakuti kutanthauzanso ndikusintha zolinga zanga tsopano, kuti ndisayambe kupondaponda madzi kapena kuganiza kuti "Ndapanga kale; Ndakwaniritsa zonse zomwe ndidafuna kuti ndikwaniritse pomwe ndidayamba izi ”(chifukwa sindinatero… ndipo moona mtima ndikuganiza kuti izi zitha kukhala ntchito yanthawi yonse - tsiku lililonse limangopita patsogolo).
Ndikulakalaka pakadakhala nthawi yochulukirapo kufotokoza mwatsatanetsatane kapena kupereka lipoti lokwanira, koma ndibwerera kumapeto kwa sabata & mowona mtima tikufunirani aliyense wa inu zabwino paulendo wanu. Ndizotheka & patatha masiku 90 oyambilira, zinthu zikupitilirabe bwino (ali ndi ine, osachepera)…
Khalani amphamvu!!
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