Ndapita masiku 91 tsopano popanda maliseche kapena zolaula, kotero ndiyesetsa kulemba pang'ono tsopano za zomwe ndakumana nazo. Wogulitsa anga ali pa 91, koma ndinagonana tsiku la 38, ndipo ndimamva ngati "ndimagwiritsa" mtsikana yemwe ndimagonana naye momwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito zolaula. Ndidamva kuti zandibwezera m'mbuyo. Chifukwa chake tsopano ndikufuna kupita masiku 128, zomwe zikutanthauza masiku 90 a "hard mode" Ndikulinga kupitirira izi, koma pankhani ya umbeta wathunthu, sindikutsimikiza.
Ndikutsimikiza kwathunthu kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kumandipangitsa kukhala wopsinjika komanso wopanda chidwi. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti ndiseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikwaniritse "kugonana kwanga," koma tsopano ndikuganiza kuti ndimangogwiritsa ntchito ngati kuthawa. Ndikhoza kuseweretsa maliseche m'malo molimbana ndi zovuta pamoyo wanga. Ndikuganiza kuti malingaliro anga pa "zovuta" izi asintha kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya kuseweretsa maliseche. M'mbuyomu, ndinali ndi malingaliro olakwika ndipo ndimayesetsa kupewa kukumana ndi zinthu. Ngakhale pakadali miyezi yowerengeka, ndipo sindinasinthepo chilichonse chachikulu, ndikumva kuti ndikuthana ndi moyo. Sindinataye mtima ngati kale.
Sabata kapena awiri oyamba, ndimayenera kukhala tcheru chifukwa ndinali ndi zizolowezi zina zokhudzana ndi maliseche ndikuwona zolaula. Unali mwambo wanga usiku wonse kuti ndibweretse laputopu yanga pabedi langa, nditatha kutsuka mano ndikukonzekera kugona, ndikusakatula makanema olaula. Nditasiya kuseweretsa maliseche, ndidazindikira kuti nthawi idatseguka mwadzidzidzi kuti sindimadziwa kuti ndichite chiyani. Ndikuganiza kuti ndidakali ngati "osokoneza bongo" chimodzimodzi pa intaneti, facebook, ndi zina, komanso kumwa mowa. Ngakhale nthawi zina ku subreddit iyi, popeza sindiyang'ana zolaula kapena maliseche. Ndimazigwiritsa ntchito kuti ndizikhala otanganidwa ndikamapeza china choti ndichite.
Ndikuganiza kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kunali kovulaza, komabe, chifukwa kumawononga mphamvu yanu yakugonana m'njira zomwe zinthuzo sizichita, ndipo zimakhudzanso malingaliro anu, ngakhale mutadziwa kuti ndi zabodza kapena ayi . Sindinakondepo zolaula, zankhanza, zachiwawa zomwe ndizofala masiku ano - zomwe zimayambira nthawi zonse zopusa zomwe sizosangalatsa kwa aliyense wokhudzidwa, ndipo nthawi zonse zimathera ndikutulutsa nkhope kumaso kwa msungwanayo, ndikumumenya mbama ndi kukalipira ponseponse - koma ndimawawona nthawi zina kuti "atsike," ndipo ndizosatheka kusakhudzidwa ndi izi.
Ngakhale zitakhala kuti zolaula zinali "zachizolowezi," zimangokhalako kuti ziwonerere chiwonetsero cha ena omwe amagonana ndi maliseche awo. Si momwe timapangidwira. Ngati tingathe kuwona izi momwe zilili, ndikuganiza kuti sitifunanso kuzichita.
Komabe, ndidathamanga pang'ono. Kwenikweni, ndikulimbikitsidwabe kuti ndisachite zolaula. Pali chowonadi china kumbuyo kwa lingaliro la "kuyambiranso." Zikuwonekeratu kwa ine kuti zinthu zasintha muubongo wanga, ndipo nthawi ikufunika kuti abwerere mwakale. Kuletsa zolaula ndi maliseche kwathunthu ndi zomwe zalola kuti izi zichitike.
Pali zambiri zomwe zikuchitika pano. Choyamba, kuseweretsa maliseche pa mavidiyo nthawi zambiri kunali kuphunzitsa ubongo wanga kugwira ntchito mwanjira yosakhala yachibadwa, ndipo kunandipangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi moyo wabwinobwino komanso wathanzi (onani yourbrainonporn ). Komanso, zolaula zodziwika bwino ndizolakwika, ndipo zimenezo zinali ndi mphamvu yoipa pa malingaliro anga pa anthu ena (onani "Date My Porn Star" ndi "Porn On The Brain" kuchokera ku Channel 4 ).
KOMANSO, ndikuganiza kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kumakhudza kwambiri mphamvu zanu (onani zipembedzo zakale za kum'mawa ndi nzeru ). Kumakuchotserani mphamvu zomwe muyenera kugwiritsa ntchito kuti mukhale ndi moyo. Kaya cholinga chanu ndi kupambana m'munda winawake, kupeza mnzanu, kusintha mwauzimu, kapena kuphatikiza kwake, kapena china chake, MUFUNA mphamvu imeneyi. Kuseweretsa maliseche kumawononga. Kumakusiyani opanda moyo komanso opanda chilimbikitso.
Tikukhulupirira kuti china chake chadutsidwa mu posowa magawoli. Zabwino zonse, ndikukuwonani inu anyamata m'masiku a 37!
ndi decrystallized masiku 91