11-14-2012
Nkhani yanga ndiyofanana ndi ena ambiri pano. Kodi ndiyambira pati?
Ndine wazaka 37, ndakhala M kuyambira ndili mwana. Ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga, kenako ndikusamukira kumagazini, kenako ma tepi, ma DVD, ndikumaliza intaneti. Kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikuwona zolaula tsiku ndi tsiku, nthawi zina kwa nthawi yayitali. Sindinaganizepo kuti kuwonera china chake kumatha kuonedwa ngati chizolowezi ndipo kumatha kukhala ndi zotsatirapo zoyipa pamoyo kunja kwa chochitikacho. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikudziwa zomwe ndikudziwa tsopano ndikadachitapo kale kale.
Zaka zanga za PMO zakhala ndi zotulukapo zoyipa pakuyanjana kwanga, kapena kusowa komweko, ndi azimayi. Nthawi zonse ndinkadziuza kuti ndimangokhala wamanyazi, kapena sindingakonde aliyense. Vuto lenileni silinali nawo, ndakhala ndili ine nthawi yonseyi. Zochitika zanga zingapo zomaliza zogonana nthawi zambiri zimakhala zovuta kuposa zosangalatsa. Ndili ndi zovuta za ED ndipo mpaka posachedwa sindinathe kudziwa chifukwa chake. Ndikukhulupirira kuti aliyense amene adakumana ndi izi akudziwa momwe zimasangalalira pamasewera amisala. Mantha anga sanali kukumana ndi akazi, kapena kuyankhula nawo, ndikuwopa kuti sindingathe kuchita ndikuyesera kufotokoza. Kuopa uku, mpaka pano, kwandisiya ndekha ndikusungulumwa. Kawirikawiri PMO nayenso wapha galimoto yochepa yomwe ndikanakhala nayo ndikakumana ndi aliyense poyamba.
Ndine munthu wowoneka bwino, ndimagwira ntchito pafupipafupi, sindine wokonda zachikhalidwe, ndipo ndimakondedwa. Anthu nthawi zonse amandifunsa chifukwa chomwe ndili ndekha ndipo lakhala funso losasangalatsa lomwe sindinayankhidwepo bwino, ngakhale kwa ine ndekha. Kenako ndidapeza ulusi kuchokera patsamba lina pomwe anthu amakambirana zaubwino wopanda PMO. Kuyankha kwanga koyamba kunali kukayika kwenikweni. Ndimaganiza kuti zomwe anthu akupanga zimawoneka ngati "zokokomeza" kunena pang'ono. Komabe, kusakhulupirira kwanga sikunatanthauze kuti ndinali kulondola. Ndine wamkulu mokwanira kudziwa, nditha kulakwitsa ndipo nthawi ndi nthawi, ndizomwezo. Izi zidachitika masiku 28 apitawa. Mpaka pomwepo sindikadaganiza kuti ndimakonda zolaula kapena kutengera kufanana pakati pa zovuta zanga za ED / chibwenzi. Popeza sindimaganiza kuti ndimakonda kwambiri PMO ndimaganiza kuti ndiyimilira masiku 30 ndikuwona zomwe zimachitika. Kupatula apo, ndinalibe chilichonse choti nditaye, ndipo mwina choti ndipindule nacho. Pofuna kuthandizira kuti ndikhale wopambana ndidatenga njira zodzitetezera. Ndachotsa zolaula zanga zonse ndikusunga makanema akale. Sabata yoyamba inali yosavuta kwenikweni, ndinali ndi mphamvu zambiri ndipo ndimamva bwino ndikudziwa kuti ndikuyesera kuchita zabwino.
Kumapeto kwa sabata yachiwiri ndinazindikira koyamba, ndinali wokonda zolaula. Osati M zinali zophweka, kusayang'ana zolaula kunali kovuta kwambiri. Tsiku la 14 ndimayang'ana TV, kompyuta yanga ili patsogolo panga. Ndikufuna SOOO yoyipa kuti atsegule masamba ena. Ndachotsa zojambulazo, koma ndimadziwa kuti sindivutika kuzipeza. Ndinayamba kukambirana mkati, kapena ndiyenera kunena, kusinthasintha. Ndinadziuza ndekha kuti ndisankha malo omwe ndimawakonda, yang'anani kwakanthawi kochepa, kenako MO. Izi zidachitika kwa mphindi zingapo, pamapeto pake zabwino zomwe ndidapambana, lol. Ndinaganiza zotsutsana nazo ndikulunjika mphamvu zanga kwina. Uku kunali kuyitana kwanga kwapafupi kwambiri. Kuyambira pamenepo ndaona zosintha zenizeni zikuchitika. Ndili mgawo lamkati kwambiri. Popeza ndinayimitsa PMO mbolo yanga imamwalira m'mayendedwe ake, zomwe zinali zosasangalatsa. Posachedwapa ndakhala ndikutenga nkhuni zam'mawa, zomwe sizinali zachilendo ndikamachita PMO tsiku lililonse. Sanabwerere kwathunthu koma akukwawa kubwerera kumoyo.
Sindinakhalepo ndi zozizwitsa zozizwitsa komabe masana, ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi maloto. Maganizo anga akhala bwino kwambiri. Ndimacheza kwambiri ndi anthu omwe ndimagwira nawo ntchito, ndimamva bwino pakhungu langa, ndipo ndikufuna kukhala pafupi ndi iwo omwe ali pafupi nane. Ndikumva kuti ndizinyamula mosiyana. Malingaliro anga akumveka bwino, ndimamva ngati ndakhala ndikulodzedwa kwa nthawi yayitali kotero kuti ndidavomereza ngati zachilendo. Ndine wobala zipatso posachedwa. Ndinkakonda kusiya zinthu mphindi yomaliza, kenako ndikanapanikizika kuti ndidikira mpaka mphindi yomaliza. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimathera nthawi yanga mopindulitsa. Nyumba yanga sinakhale yoyera konse. Ndikumva kuti ndine wosiyana ndipo nditha kudziwa kuti ena amandiwona mosiyana. Pofika kukumana ndi akazi enieni athupi ndi mwazi, ndikudziwa ndidzatero. Maganizo anga okhumudwa ndi mantha asinthidwa ndikulimba mtima komanso chisangalalo.
Sizinakhale zovuta zonse, koma ndikudziwa kuti ndikupita njira yoyenera. Kulowa ulusi womwe ndanena kale kunanditsogolera ku yourbrainonporn yomwe idanditsogolera kuno. Nditayamba kuwerenga sindinathe kuyima. Uku kunali kutsegula kwakukulu kwa ine. Kupeza izi kunali mpumulo waukulu, kuti ndikhale ndi mayankho a mafunso omwe sindinadziwe kufunsa. Ndili wokondwa kwambiri kuti ndapeza tsamba ili, ndi tonsefe omwe tili ndi malo oti tiziuza anzathu nkhani zathu ndikusintha miyoyo yathu. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti ndidzakhala momwe ndakhalira, ndikadangolandira zinthu ndikumazichita mwayekha. Tsopano ndikudziwa, ndili ndi vuto, ndipo nkhani yabwino ndi… mukaganiza za izo… sizovuta zonse kukonza. Ndili ponseponse pamapuwa apa, cholinga changa choyambirira chinali masiku 30… tsopano ndili ndi zaka 90 zonse. Ndizo zonse zomwe ndiyenera kunena za izi… ..
1-16-2012
Chabwino sindinatumize kwenikweni mochedwa, koma ndimakondabe kubisalira.
Tsopano ndili kuzungulira 2 poyambiranso. Ndangogunda masiku 45 lero… .kupitilira kuyesa kwanga koyamba kwamasiku 44.
Sindingathe kudikira kuti ndikwaniritse cholinga changa cha 90, koma ndionetsetsa kuti ndikungoyang'ana pano.
Kusintha kwanga kwakhala kwabwino konse, koma mphamvu zamisala zomwe ndidakhala nazo milungu yoyambirira zapita.
Ndimamva kukhala wolimba mtima pazinthu zonse. Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto onyentchera, ndipo musaganize kuti ndidzatero.
Ndimadontha apa ndi apo nthawi zambiri ndikakodza. Izi zikuwoneka kuti zikusokoneza zikwangwani zina koma sindidandaula nazo.
Ndikuwona kuti ndi matupi anga omwe akuchita zomwe akuyenera kuchita.
Kupita patsogolo kwanga mu masewera olimbitsa thupi kwakhala kwakukulu. Mphamvu yanga yakhala yayikulu modabwitsa. Ndinayambanso kuchita cardio zomwe sindimamusamala.
Tsoka ilo, sindinadziyike ndekha kukumana ndi akazi atsopano, koma ndatsala pang'ono kufika pamenepo.
Tsopano tchuthi chatha ndipo zinthu sizikhala zopenga m'moyo wanga.
Libido yanga ikuwoneka ngati yakufa. Ndikudabwitsidwa pang'ono ndikukhumudwitsidwa pang'ono ndi izi. Masiku a 45 amawoneka ngati nthawi yayitali.
Ndili ndi zaka za m'ma 30 ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi akazi ambiri mochedwa, mwina kuphatikiza kumeneku kumachedwetsa zinthu pang'ono.
M'mbuyomu lero ndinali ndi chidwi chachikulu ku PMO! Kwa ine izi sizachilendo.
Chodabwitsa ndichakuti, pomwe ndidabwereranso nthawi yoyamba (tsiku 44) zomwezi zidachitikanso. Ndinalibe chilimbikitso chilichonse, ndiye mwadzidzidzi ndinali ndimphamvu kwambiri.
Kodi ndizachilendo kukhala opanda zikakamizo zilizonse, ndiye mwadzidzidzi mumakhala ndi amphamvu 6 masabata?
Kodi ndizotheka kuti mwina libido yanga iyambiranso kuyambiranso ndipo popeza ndinkagwiritsa ntchito PMO kukwaniritsa zosowa zanga m'mbuyomu chikhumbo chofuna kuzibwezeretsanso?
Sindikudziwa, ndipo sizofunikira kwenikweni.
Zomwe zili zofunikira ndikuti ndimaziwongolera, osati njira ina yonse.
Ine sindine munthu wa mawu ambiri, kotero ine ndikuganiza ndi za izo pakadali pano.
2-11-2012
Chifukwa chake ndili pano!
Pano pali kubwereza mwachangu komwe ndili ndi PMO kuchira.
Nditaphunzira za tsambali (ndi ena monga) anaganiza zosiya PMO kwa masiku osachepera a 90.
Poyesa kwanga koyamba ndidapanga masiku a 44, ndiye ndidakhala ndi masiku angapo a PMO ndisanabwererenso bus.
Kuyesera kwanga kwachiwiri ndidapanga masiku a 54, nthawi ino zinanditengera pafupi sabata kuti ndibwerere mzere.
Tsopano ndikuyambiranso ndipo ndapanga sabata limodzi. Kuyambira pano, sabata iliyonse ndimalemba zochepa mpaka ndikakwaniritsa cholinga changa cha masiku 90.
Ndinaona kufanana zambiri pakati pa kubwerera kwanga konse. M'magawo onse awiri zoseweretsa zidachita mbali zazikulu. Pomwe idayamba kubwereranso mkati (ndipo ndidakondwera nayo) kuti kunali kuyamba kwa chimaliziro.
Ndilimbikitsidwabe kuti ndione izi.
Kwa nonse zikwangwani zomwe mukuyesera kusiya koyamba. Musalole kuti mukhale osamala. Ngakhale patadutsa milungu ingapo mukufunikirabe kuyang'anitsitsa. Yesetsani kupewa zopeka, kudzikongoletsa kapena kudziyesa nokha. Zinthu izi nthawi zambiri sizigwirizana nthawi imodzi, mukangodutsa msewuwu mutha kukhala m'malo omwe mumayesetsa kupewa.
Zabwino zonse!
KULUMIKIZANA - 10 13-2012
Papita nthawi yayitali kuchokera pomwe ndidatumiza pamsonkhano uno kotero ndidaganiza zobwerera ndizosintha ndikukhulupirira kuti maupangiri abwino a newbs omwe akuyesera kukankha habbit.
Monga ambiri a ife ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito ya PMO kwazaka zambiri. Pafupifupi chaka chapitacho ndidaganiza zosiya nditakumana ndi yourbrainonporn.com ndikuzindikira kuti nkhani zambiri zinali zofanana ndi zanga.
Poyesa kwanga koyamba kukankha kakhola zinthu zinayenda bwino kwambiri komanso zodabwitsa zosavuta ... poyamba!
Ndinapita masiku 40 ndisanayambirenso. Zinayambitsidwa ndikukwawa pang'onopang'ono kulowera kolakwika. Ndinayamba "kudziyesa" ndekha. Osati kusintha, koma ndikudzikhudza ndekha ndikuyambitsa zovuta. Izi zidadzetsa malingaliro ambiri omwe adabweretsa mavuto ambiri ndikukhulupirira kuti ambiri aife titha kumvetsetsa. Pamene malingaliro adangopitilira kwakanthawi kulowa mu PMO kudayamba.
Nditabwezeretsa koyamba ndinapitilira pang'ono ndikudziyambiranso.
Zachisoni, sindinathe kuyandikira chizindikiro changa choyambirira cha 40 tsiku litatha. Ndimatha sabata limodzi kapena kupitilira apo, nthawi zina ochuluka ngati 3, ndiye kuti ndimalephera kachiwiri. Kulephera kulikonse kunatsatiridwa ndi kwakanthawi kochepa komwe kumatha kupitirira masiku.
Lero, ndili pa tsiku la 48 (PR wanga) ndipo ndakhala ndikuyenda mosalala komanso kosavuta.
Ndazindikira zoyambitsa zanga, ndipo ndazipewa ndikuchita bwino kwambiri.
Izi ndi zina mwazomwe ndasintha zomwe zitha kuthandiza ena paulendowu!
Kumwa: Kwa ine matsire amapita limodzi ngati chiponde ndi jelly. Tsiku lotsatira usiku "wabwino" linandisiya ndikudzimva wamlandu komanso nkhawa pang'ono. Ndimachita PMO kangapo masiku ano.
Ndinaleka kumwa ndipo ndikumva bwino. Tsopano masabata anga amakhala opindulitsa kwambiri ndipo nkhawa zanga zimakhala zochepa.
Kulingalira: Ndinayamba chizolowezi chosinkhasinkha tsiku lililonse. Tsiku lililonse ndimasinkhasinkha kwa mphindi za 11. Palibe chopenga, tonse tili ndi mphindi za 11 zosungirako. Zimakuthandizani kuti mukhale osakhazikika komanso oganiza bwino ndipo mapindu ake ndi ambiri.
Kuwerenga kwa mphamvu / zauzimu / Zabwino: Tsiku lililonse ndimatha mphindi zosachepera za 20 ndikuwerenga zauzimu / chilimbikitso / kudzithandizira kulemba mabuku omwe amathandizira kuti asinthe zina ndi zina pa moyo wanu. Mtendere weniweni ndi chisangalalo zimachokera mkati. Izi zowerengera ndi kusinkhasinkha (okwanira mphindi 30 patsiku) zimandithandizira kukhazikika.
Mphamvu zabwino = Zotsatira zabwino!
Kukweza / yoga: Ndagwira ntchito kwazaka zambiri. Ndili bwino. Kwa nthawi yayitali ndimafuna kusinkhasinkha koma nthawi zonse ndimapeza chifukwa choti ndisatero. Kenaka ndinawerenga zolemba pamsonkhano womanga thupi zomwe zinandichititsa chidwi. Mnyamatayo anali kulimbikira kusinkhasinkha ndikuwonetsa momwe zikwangwani zina anali okonzeka kuthera maola ambiri ku malo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi akugwiritsa ntchito matupi awo kuti akwaniritse zomwe akufuna, koma sanataye nthawi kuti athe kulingalira. Mosakayikira, ndasinkhasinkha tsiku lililonse kuyambira nditawerenga izi.
Kuphatikiza pakukweza ndidayambanso kupanga yoga yotentha kawiri pamlungu. Ndizopambana. Ndang'ambanso zambiri tsopano m'ma 30 apamwamba pomwe ndidakhalako m'moyo wanga wonse. Ndikutsimikiza kuti kusamwa pamodzi ndi yoga ndizofunikira kwambiri pa izi.
Ndizo za izo. Kwa ine, izi zapangitsa kuti ulendo wanga ukhale wosavuta.
Khazikikani mtima pansi ndikupanga zisankho zoyenera!
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