Juni 19, 2012, 05: 07: 54 PM »
Ndine bambo dam it, osati chimpanzi (Lizard Brain). Chifukwa cha zovuta, ndimatha kuthana ndi vuto la PMO chifukwa ubongo wanga wamalingaliro ndi wokulirapo komanso wamphamvu kuposa ubongo wanga wakale wa buluzi. Ndili ndi masiku a 10 kuti ndikonzenso botolo langa.
Nkhani yanga. Ndine 43, wokwatiwa, wopanda ana, wabwinobwino kunja, PMO wokonda mkati. Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito P kuyambira pafupifupi zaka 14. Ndinali ndi mwana wokonda kugona (ndi abwenzi ake), omwe anali achikulire azaka 8-10, okondwerera kusukulu yasekondale, ndipo amandiseka ndikunyoza, kundimanga, ndikundilola kuti ndigwire chala. izi zimachitika kamodzi pa sabata ndipo abwenzi ake onse amandilola kuti "ndikafike ku 2nd base". Masiku ano manyazi amenewo amatchedwa Pedo kuchitira nkhanza, koma m'zaka za m'ma 1970 amatchedwa mwana wachabechabe wodala. Ndinkamukonda mtsikanayo.
Mwina chifukwa cha zomwe ndidakumana nazo ndi atsikana omwe amakhala pansi pano, ndakhala ndikutha kuchita ndi azimayi enieni ndipo sindimavutika ndi zovuta zilizonse za ED zokhudzana ndi zolaula pa intaneti. Ubongo wanga udalumikizana ndi wokondweretsayo ndi abwenzi ake. Ndinakwatira akazi ooneka ocheperako zaka 15 kuposa ine. Mkazi wanga ndi mtundu wakale wa NN swimsuit yemwe anali ndi tsamba lake loyambirira mu 2000's. Ndidakwatirana ndi mgwirizano wanga ndipo abwenzi anga komanso abale amandikumbutsa nthawi zonse kuti ndidakali mwana wachabechabe pankhani ya atsikana. Sanapezepo kilogalamu imodzi kuchokera pomwe ndidakumana naye ndipo akuwoneka bwino kwambiri kuposa kale.
Palibe amene angayembekezere kuti ndili ndi chinsinsi ichi cha PMO. Nchifukwa chiyani mwamuna aliyense woganiza bwino akhoza kutha pamene muli ndi mkazi wotentha kunyumba? Mpaka nditapeza YBOP ndikuwerenga za Zotsatira za Coolidge, ndimangoganiza kuti zinali zachilendo. Ndakhala maola ambiri ndikutha ndikusintha nthawi yambiri pa zolaula, moyo wanga wafika poyipa kwambiri. Kutaya mtima kwanga kudabwera nditapeza chithunzi cha bikini cha mkazi wanga pa intaneti ndikuchipeza. Ndinali ngati WTF munangochita? Ndikulingalira kuti ndikusowa zachilendo komanso zosangalatsa pa intaneti. Koma limodzi ndi chisangalalo chimabwera chifukwa cha kutha kwaphokoso. Ndilibe chilimbikitso, kukwiya, ubongo waubongo, kulephera kusinkhasinkha, kusinthasintha kwamaganizidwe ndi nkhawa zamagulu, ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimabwerera kuphanga lamunthu ndikunyalanyaza mkazi wanga masiku angapo pambuyo pa zolaula.
Ndapeza YBOP chifukwa chofuna kuwonjezera kuchuluka kwanga kwa dopamine. Ndili ndi vuto loti ndizisinkhasinkha kwambiri ndikukhala ndi chidwi choti posachedwa ndidayamba mankhwala a ADHD ndi dokotala wanga (dextroamphetamine). Nditangoyamba kumwa mankhwala a ADHD, chilakolako changa cha zolaula pa intaneti chinatha. Ndakhala ndikumwa mankhwala kwa masiku 10 tsopano, ndipo palibe kamodzi komwe ndidaganizapo zogwiritsa ntchito PMO. Ndikukhulupirira kuti kuwonjezeka kwa dopamine komwe kumapezeka kuchokera ku mankhwala a ADHD kwandipatsa mwayi wobwereranso ku moyo wanga wakale wa 'pre-high speed Internet'. Dopamine yowonjezerayo inandichotsa mu ubongo wa ubongo motalika kokwanira kuti ndiwone momwe ndikulowerera mkati mwa PMO ndazama.
Cholinga changa ndikuti ndisakhale PMO masiku 90 kuti ndikhozenso kudzidalira MONGA MUNTHU. Pambuyo masiku 90, perekani PMO kwamuyaya. Ndikufuna kuyambiranso ubongo. Kukhala pansi ndikungoyang'ana pakompyuta sindiwo lingaliro lamunthu wamwamuna. Zimandiyamwa ndikupangitsa kuti ndizimva ngati kuti ndine wocheperako ndipo sindikwaniritsa zomwe ndingathe pamoyo wanga. Ndine wabwino kuposa izi ndipo ndili ndi ngongole kwa mkazi wanga kuti athetse vutoli. Masiku 5 apitawa tidayamba karezza ndipo "akutigwirizanitsanso". Zodabwitsa.
Ndisanayiwale, ndikufuna kunena kuti zikomo chifukwa chothandizirana ndiubale. Ku posters, a Mods, Gary, nonse. Ndinu kudzoza kwanga.
KULUMIKIZANA NDI JOURNAL - Chifukwa Ndine Munthu
by I-AM-A-MAN
KULUMIKIZANA NDI POST - 100+ Masiku, karezza, osatinso PMO September 21, 2012
Nditayamba kukonzanso, ndidalemba zotsatirazi zomwe ndimamva ngati zolemetsa pamapewa anga:
1) kusowa zifukwa
2) kusakwiya
3) utsi wa ubongo
4) sangakwanitse kuika maganizo awo
5) kusinthasintha kwa maganizo
6) nkhawa za chikhalidwe
Sindidwalanso chilichonse mwazizindikiro izi.
Ndidapunthwa pa YBOP mwangozi nditalamulidwa Dexedrine kuchokera kwa dokotala wanga wa ADHD. Nditayamba kuchiza ADHD ndi Dex, ndinali ndikudzuka m'maganizo mwanga. Ndinkafufuza dopamine nditapeza YBOP ndikuzindikira kuti sindinapereke PMOed kwanthawi yopitilira sabata. Nthawi imeneyo, iyi inali mbiri yanga. Ndinalowa nawo tsambali ndipo ndaphunzira zambiri za izi.
Ndine wokwatiwa ndipo ndidayamba karezza ndi mkaziyu nthawi yoyambiranso. Izi zinali zofunika kwambiri kuti ndigwirizanenso ndi mkazi yemwe ndimamukonda kwambiri. Kuledzera kwa PMO kunandipangitsa kukhala mwamuna wakutali komanso wamisala.
Kuthana ndi vuto la PMO kwakhala kusintha kwa moyo wanga. NDIKUDYA BWINO kwambiri tsopano ndipo ndimakonda kuphika tsiku lililonse. NDIKUSANGALALA NDI HOBBIES panonso. Usodzi, kukwera mapiri, komanso kungoyenda ndi galu kwandithandizadi kuti ndilowe mu boot iyi osayambiranso.
Galu wanga wakhala bwenzi langa lapamtima panthawi yobwezeretsanso. Ndikulumbira, akudziwa ndikakhala wofooka ndipo amandizunza kuti ndikapita kokayenda ndikazindikira kufooka kwanga! Mnzake wapamtima wa munthu. Wakhala ndi ine nthawi yonseyi yoyambiranso. Ndipo ndi galu wowoneka bwino komanso wochezeka, ndakumanapo ndi anthu ambiri abwino chifukwa cha iye.
Kusodza, kukwera mapiri ndi zinthu zomwe ndimakonda NDIMASANGALALA KWAMBIRI koma ndanyalanyaza zaka khumi zapitazi kuyambira pomwe ndidakhala ndi intaneti yothamanga kwambiri. Ndinalumikizananso ndi anzanga achimuna omwe akhala akugwira nawo ntchito kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo tsopano timapita kokawedza nsomba nthawi zonse. Inde, ndimagula bwato labwino kwambiri loyendera dizilo. Choseweretsa chabwino kwambiri!
Mwachidule, kusiya PMO kwakhala moyo wosintha moyo wathunthu. Ndiye chisankho chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidapanga.
Khalani olimba anzanga. Kudikirira kutsidya lina la chizolowezi cha PMO ndi MOYO
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