Za ine ndekha. Ndili ndi zaka 45, ndili ndi chizolowezi cha PMO cha 15, ndipo nditayamba NoFap posachedwapa ndathetsa ubale wautali. Ndinali wopsinjika maganizo ndi kudzimvera chisoni. Zina mwa zifukwa zazikulu zomwe ndinapatukana zinali ED yolimbikira kumbali yanga, kuvutika kwambiri kukhala ndi kufotokoza zakukhosi, komanso kudzidalira komanso kudzidalira. Zinthu zitatha ndinayang'ana kanema wa Kuyesa Kwambiri Zolaula ndikugwirizanitsa madontho pakati pa mavuto okhudzana ndi kugonana ndi kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwa nthawi yoyamba. Zimenezi zinali zabwino, chifukwa m’malo mongodzimvera chisoni kumene kukanatha kwa miyezi ingapo, ndinaganiza zoyamba ntchitoyi kwa masiku 90 popanda kuchedwa.
Masabata awiri oyambilira anali ovuta. Ndinkachita mantha nthawi yonseyi, ndipo ndimadutsa nthawi, ola limodzi ndi ola ndi mphindi. Ndinkatsatira malamulo awiri: kusawongolera maso anga kuzinthu zilizonse zomwe zimadzetsa chidwi, komanso kusakhudza maliseche anga.
Kwa milungu ingapo 3-4, ndipo ndidayamba kudziwa zomwe zimayambitsa, zomwe sizodabwitsa kuti sizinali chilako lako chogonana, koma chisoni ndi nkhawa. Pakadali pano malingaliro anga akuwoneka kuti atayika kwa nthawi yoyamba mu zaka, ndipo ndinali ndimaganizo ponseponse pamalopo, ndikulira mowirikiza.
Pakati pa tsiku 35 ndinayanjananso ndi wokondedwa wanga, usiku umodzi wokha, ndipo ndinatha kutsimikizira kuti vuto langa la ED linali labwino kwambiri, komanso kuti ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri kuposa kale nthawi yogonana. Izi sizinapulumutse chibwenzicho, koma zidandilola kuti ndiwone kuti zinthu zikuyenda bwino, zomwe zidandilimbikitsa kuti ndipite patsogolo.
Pambuyo pozungulira tsiku la 20, ndikuwoneka kuti ndapita pamalo osadziwika bwino omwe sindinatulukemo. Kutanthauza kuti thupi langa limayankha mukamagonana, koma kupatula apo ndilibe zokhumba zilizonse ndipo sindimakhala ndi nkhuni zam'mawa kapena zosankha zokha. Chabwino, ndili ndi zokhumba, koma sizogonana; Ndikumva kufunitsitsa kwachikondi ndi chikondi, ndipo ndizomwe zimandikopa kwa azimayi kuposa zokopa zowongoka.
Pambuyo pa tsiku 35, ndi tsiku la 60, zinthu zidayenda bwino. Nofap ndimamvanso ngati akufuna kuyenda chingwe, kuti ndikadasiya chidwi changa ndigwere ndikuyambiranso, koma chingwe chidakulirakulira mpaka thabwa, kotero kuti sizitengera kuyeserera pang'ono kuti ndibwerere ndikubwereranso mwa kusankha komwe ndikudziwa. Chovuta chachikulu sichinali kusefukira pamanja, koma kuthana ndi zomwe zimayambitsa, zomwe zikupitilira kukhumudwa ndi kusungulumwa kosiyanitsidwa.
Kuzungulira tsiku 65, china chake chidasintha. Ndinkaona ngati ndikumakhala ndekha. Kuti nditha kukhala moyo wanga wonse popanda mkazi kapena kugonana ngati kuli kofunikira. Kuyembekezerako kunandimvetsa chisoni komanso kuzizira, koma sizinandipsereze konse. Ndidawerengera zolemba za Stoic panthawiyi zomwe zidandithandiza kwambiri.
Tsiku la 75, ndidakumana ndi mayi wina kuphwando lobadwa la mnzake - anali wokongola, komanso wosudzulana posachedwa. Sindinkadzidalira kwambiri, komanso sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lodzidalira ngati kale. Ndinkangomva bwino kukhala m'khungu langa. Ndimamvanso kuti ndikhoza kulankhula zakukhosi kwanga, pokhudzana ndi momwe ndimakhalira komanso polumikizana naye. Ndipo ndidadzimva kuti ndikhoza kupeza nambala yake, ndikutsata kulumikizana koyamba, kotero kuti ngakhale tidakana koyamba tidakhala abwenzi ndikuyamba kuwonana tsiku lililonse, kapena pafupifupi. Anatinso chomwe chinapangitsa kusiyana ndikuti ndimatha kufotokoza zakukhosi kwanga komanso kukhala wachibadwa.
Dzulo, patsiku 90, tidagona limodzi koyamba. Magwiridwe anga sanali abwino, chifukwa ndimamwa mowa wokwanira pachakudya, koma samawoneka kuti akuwoneka ndipo amawoneka ngati akusangalala. Mwanjira ina yonse, vuto lonse la ED silinkawoneka ngati vuto lalikulu. Tiona komwe zichokera apa.
Zinthu zina zingapo zoti mutchule. Ndidachita zolimba masiku onse a 90, kupatula tsiku limodzi usiku 35. Sindinatsekere kapena kuwonera zolaula konse.
Zomwe ndidachita, ndipo ndikumva kuti zikubwezeretsanso kupita patsogolo pang'ono, ndimayang'ana nthawi ndi nthawi pazithunzi zolaula zomwe ndinali nazo za bwenzi langa lakale. Izi sizinkawoneka ngati zolaula, popeza izi zinali zithunzi zomwe ndidatenga - koma, zinali malire. Ndinawafufuta kangapo, koma kenako ndinagwiritsa ntchito pulogalamu yobwezeretsa mafayilo kuti ndiwabwerenso pambuyo pake. Ndikuganiza kuti ndinali wokondabe kwambiri. Tsopano ndikufuna kuwachotseratu, ndi pulogalamu yoyeserera yoyenera. Kotero ndiye malo ofooka m'masiku anga 90. Osakhala angwiro mwanjira iliyonse.
Zomwe zidandithandizanso kwambiri ndikuchita maphunziro azachipatala sabata iliyonse, nthawi zina kangapo pamlungu. Izi zidandiphunzitsa kulumikizana ndi zomwe zimachitika mkatimo ndikuziwonetsa konkire pazenera. Maganizo anga onse adayamba kukhala amadzimadzi, ndipo ndidamva mwayi wolumikizana ndi anthu chifukwa ndimatha kulumikizana ndi malingaliro anga ndikuwayika m'mawu mosavuta. Zachidziwikire, chifukwa chokhacho chomwe chidagwirira ntchito poyambira ndikuti nofap idandichititsa kutaya mtima komwe ndidakhala zaka. Kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kwandithandizanso - ndakhala ndikumenya masewerawa nthawi zonse.
Gawo limodzi lomwe ndidakumana ndi zovuta zambiri ndi ntchito. Maganizo anga atsika, tsopano popeza palibe zothetsera mwachangu nkhawa kapena kukhumudwa; komanso chidwi changa chatsika, chifukwa zikuwoneka ngati zofunika kwambiri kucheza ndi anthu ena kuposa kungokhala ndekha ndi laputopu yanga. Komabe, ndikuchita zokwanira kuti ndipeze ndalama.
Pobwezeranso, bizinesi yonse yodziseweretsa maliseche kwa maola ambiri kutsogolo kwa chinsalu, ndekha pakati pausiku, pomwe mnzanga ndi ana anga amagona, zikuwoneka zomvetsa chisoni komanso kuwononga nthawi ndi mwayi, zaka zathunthu kuti sindidzachira .
Chiyamikiro changa chonse chimafikira kwa inu, anzanu obwebweta, chifukwa cha nzeru zanu ndi thandizo lanu pondichotsa ku gehena lodzipangirali. Ndikukhulupirira kuti tsambali limathandizira kulimbikitsa wina, kuti ndibweze pang'ono pagulu. Zikomo.
KULUMIKIZANA - Lipoti la tsiku la 90 (munthu wachikulire)
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