Ndangolemba malangizowa mu bukhu langa, koma ndikuwona kuti ndi koyenera kugawana ngati nkhani yopambana ndi upangiri nawonso. Malangizowa ndi oyenera makamaka kwa anyamata kapena anyamata muubwenzi ndi AS.
Dzulo usiku wina anali wopambana bwino kwambiri ndi mayi Rider. Palibe zizindikiro za ED ndi chilichonse chogwira ntchito momwe ziyenera kukhalira. Ndili wodabwitsika ndimomwe zinthu zanditembenukira kuyambira ndikupeza YBOP ndi Reboot Nation.
Ndinali mnyamata yemwe anali atavutika zaka za cronic ED komanso zovuta zokhudzana ndi magwiridwe antchito zomwe zimayenda nawo. Ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula zanga ndizovuta, koma sindinamvetsetse gawo laubongo mpaka ndabwera kuno ndikuphunzira!
Ndinayesapo kusiya nthawi zambiri ndipo ndimalephera nthawi iliyonse ndikadzimva kuti ndagonjetsedwa komanso wopanda pake. Sindingathe kufotokoza kutaya mtima kopanda chiyembekezo komwe ndimamva nthawi iliyonse ndikalephera. Nthawi zina ndimaganiza mozama njira yokhayo yomwe ndingathawerereku ndikudzipha ndekha. Ndinkadana kwambiri ndi ine ndipo ndinkadana kuti sindingathe kusiya.
Lero ndikudabwitsidwa ndimomwe ndasinthira kuzungulira izi. Chifukwa cha zidziwitso zomwe ndapeza apa ndi pa YBOP komanso chidziwitso chomwe anthu amtundu wina adagawana ndi ine ndakwanitsa kukhala kutali ndi zolaula mosavuta.
Ndimakhulupilira kuti gawo lofunikira kwambiri chakuyenda bwino kwanga ndikuti ndimayang'ana kubwezeretsa ndikuwongolera ubale wanga ndi mkazi wanga. Ndidalimbikira kuphunzira njira zopangira mgwirizano mu njira zosagonana kenako ndimayeseza maluso amenewo ndikuwona ubale wathu ukuphulika.
Kupanga ubale wapamtima ndikulemekeza mkazi wanga ndiye komwe ndidayambiranso. Mukudziwa, sindinangosiya zolaula, chifukwa malingaliro anga sankaganizira kwambiri zinthu monga momwe zilili zolimba kapena momwe ndingamenyere. Ndimagwira ntchito yozama kwambiri komanso yopindulitsa kwambiri. Nkhondo yanga sinalinso yokhudza kusiya zolaula.
Gawo losangalatsa linali loti chifukwa sindimalimbana ndi zolaula ndinalibe zolimbikitsa zambiri kuthana nazo. Ndidazindikira kale ndikayambiranso kuti "zolaula sizinali zotheka" ndipo ndidakhalabe nazo. Zachidziwikire kuti ndimakhala ndi malingaliro komanso zolimbikitsana kwa milungu ingapo yoyambirira, koma panthawiyo ndimawonanso zabwino zomwe zikuyamba kuwonekera muubwenzi wanga ndi Akazi a Rider kuchokera munjira zosagonana zomwe timagawana. Izi zidandilimbikitsa kuti ndizingokhalira kukonza ubale wathu motero sindinkafuna kwenikweni kugunda zolaula.
Monga ndidanenera kiyi kwa ine ndikuti sindinalinso pankhondo ndi zolaula, ndidatenga chidwi changa ndikuchigwiritsa ntchito bwino kwina.
Gawo losangalatsa pankhani yamachitidwe osagonana ndikuti amathandizira kukulitsa chikhumbo cha mnzanu, osati kuti sindinakhalepo ndi chilakolako cha mkazi wanga, ndikuti chikhumbo changa sichikanatha kumasulira chifukwa cha momwe zolaula zidasokonekera mmwamba ubongo wanga.
Masabata atatu mkati ndipo zinthu zinali zikuyamba kusintha kwambiri. Thupi langa linali kuyankha pafupipafupi kwambiri kuubwenzi, ngakhale tinali pachiyanjano kangapo m'mbuyomu ndipo tinachita bwino nawonso, koma popanda ena kugunda. Pakutha milungu itatu tinali kusangalala kwambiri ndi nthawi yathu yonse ndipo zakhala zikuyenda bwino kuyambira nthawi imeneyo.
Chifukwa chake upangiri wanga kwa inu okwatirana ndi anyamata omwe ali ndi CHONSE, ndikuganiza zopanga zomwe mungayambire poyambiranso kukonza ubale wanu. Osapanga izi zothana ndi zolaula, kumenya nkhondo zolimbikitsa kapena kupeza zosankha zabwino. Onani kuyang'ana kwambiri paubwenzi wapamtima paubwenzi wanu ndikungodalira zachilengedwe zonse.
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INITIAL POST - Watsopano membala 40 + kuphatikiza zaka zakawerewere
Ndatembenuka 50 chaka chatha. Ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche pafupifupi zaka 11 nditazindikira zinthu zabwino zomwe zinkachokera m'dera langa. Ndili mwana ndimaona bwino kukumbukira ndikusisita thupi langa pakama pakama panga ndikugalamuka nazo. Sindinkadziwa zomwe zikuchitika, koma ndimadziwa kuti zinali bwino.
Cha m'ma 13 ndinawona magazini angapo achichepere omwe ana ena kusukulu anali nawo. Mwana m'modzi anali ndi mulu wazosewerera (Playboy ndi Penthouse) ndipo adayamba kupanga renti ndikusinthana bizinesi, ndipo ndidakhala m'modzi mwa makasitomala ake kuzembetsa nyumbayo ndikubisa kwinakwake makolo anga sakanatha kuipeza (kapena ndimaganiza choncho ). Ndimakumbukirabe bwino lomwe zithunzi zomwe ndidaziwona nthawi imeneyo pafupifupi zaka 40 zapitazo.
Cha m'ma 14 ndidakumana ndi magazini ena omwe abambo anga adabisa m'garaji. Ribald ndi Bawdy Ndikuganiza kuti adayitanidwa, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti ndipamene nthawi yanga zolaula zidayamba.
Nditha kuchita kapena kunena chilichonse kuti nditha kuthawa kupita ku banja kukakhala ndi nyumba kwa maola ochepa. Banja litangopita ine ndimapita ku garage kukatenga magazini ndikuwonetsa maliseche kangapo. Kalelo 3 kapena zochulukirapo patsiku sizinali zachilendo ndikadakhala ndi chinsinsi komanso nthawi, ndipo kamodzi usiku uliwonse ndimagona ndikuganiza za zithunzizi kapena ndikuwona china chake pa TV kuchipinda changa. Ndikukumbukira ndikuonera mndandanda wazokhudza Kaligula pazithunzi zamaliseche zokha.
Ku 17 ndinakumana ndi bwenzi langa loyamba ndipo zimatsogolera kukumana kwanga koyamba zogonana. Ngakhale m'mbuyomu ndidazindikira kuti kugonana kwenikweni sikunali kosangalatsa monga maliseche komanso kugonana kosangalatsa komwe ndimakhala nako ndekha m'mutu mwanga. Sindinadziwe chifukwa chake izi zinachitika kale ngakhale kuti ine ndi mkazi wanga wamtsogolo timakondana kwambiri. Koma sizinandikwanira ndekha.
Lachisanu kwambiri usiku ndiwo usiku wathu woti tituluke. Nthawi zambiri tinkadya ndi kumwa vinyo ndipo nthawi zonse timaliza nafe kugonana m'galimoto yanga tisanamusiye. Ngakhale pamenepo ndikabwerera kumalo anga ndimayambanso kuseweretsa maliseche ndisanagone.
Ngakhale kukhala pantchito sikundilepheretse kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndinaphunzira ntchito m'malo olamulidwa kwambiri ndi amuna ndipo nthawi zonse munali magazini azimuna zimbudzi. Nthawi iliyonse ndikapita kumeneko ndimadzisangalatsa ndekha ndikubwerera kuntchito ngati palibe chomwe chidachitika.
Ndinkayenda maulendo ambirimbiri kukagwira ntchito ndili ndi zaka 20 kapena 30 ndipo sindinkagona usiku. Zizolowezi zanga zolaula zinali zamphamvu kwambiri nthawi imeneyo kuti nthawi iliyonse ndikakhala kuti ndikupita ndikaphatikizira kuyima kwa wogulitsa kuti nditenge magazini ndi mtsuko wa lube ndipo sindingathe kufotokoza kuti chikhumbo changa chinali chotani kuti ndikafike kuchipinda changa cha hotelo ndikukhala ndekha . Usiku womwewo ndikakhala ndikumagona pafupifupi usiku wonse ndikuseweretsa maliseche mobwerezabwereza, koma kuti ndiwononge magazini popita kunyumba. Ndabwereza khalidweli mobwerezabwereza kwa zaka.
Ndidapezanso mwini motelo yemwe adachita lendi makanema odziwika (pansi pa kauntala). Ndikhoza kulemba zabodza zantchito kuti ndingopita kuderalo kuti ndikakhale kuhoteloyo. Nthawi zina ndimafika pamotele masana ndikufufuza m'mawa mwake osagona. Ndimakhala usiku wonse ndikuseweretsa maliseche ndimakanema amenewo.
Kuti ndichepetse nkhani yayitali kwambiri ine ndi mkazi wanga tinakhala limodzi zaka 28. Tinamanga nyumba, tinakhala ndi ana ndipo tinali ndi bizinesi yopambana limodzi. Kwenikweni tinali nazo zonse kwa aliyense amene amayang'ana panja, koma zolaula zanga zinali nthawi zonse kumbuyo, malingaliro anga anali odetsedwa ndi zithunzi zonyansa zambiri zomwe ndimadziwonetsera, ndipo zinayamba kuyenda za ubale wathu koposa.
Mu 30 wanga ndinayamba kuvutika ndi zomwe ndinazindikira kuti zolaula zinapangitsa ED. Ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kusiya ndipo ndinayesera kangapo. Ndinkatha sabata limodzi, nthawi zina zowonjezerapo koma nthawi zonse ndinkakopeka ndi chizolowezi chomwa mowa mwauchidakwa ndipo nthawi zonse ndinkakhala ndikumwa mowa mwauchidakwa, kenako ndinkadzida.
Pambuyo pakupanga intaneti zinali kuchitika mochulukirapo pomwe mwayi wanga wopeza zolaula umakhala wosavuta. Kuledzera kwanga ndi PIED kunawononga ubale wanga. kulephera kuchita bwino nthawi zonse kunasiya mkazi wanga akuwoneka wosasangalatsa komanso wokwiya. Ndimayesa kufotokoza kuti si iye koma ine, koma sizinapange kukhala kosavuta.
Kudziwa momwe zimamukhudzira mtima kumatanthauza kuti ndimakhala wopsinjika kwambiri nthawi iliyonse yomwe timayesetsa kukondana, ndipo kupanikizika nthawi zonse kumabweretsa kulephera. Posakhalitsa tinali kumapita miyezi osagonana ngakhale panali okondana kwambiri.
Pambuyo pake ndinazindikira kuti ali ndi chibwenzi ndipo akukonzekera kundisiya. Ndinapeza maimelo angapo pakompyuta yake tsiku lina atatuluka muakaunti yake moyenera. Zomwe zili maimelo aja zimanena zowona za momwe amandida komanso momwe amamvera ndiukwati wathu wosagonana, ndikuwerenga malongosoledwe ake ogonana pazomwe amachita naye ndikuyembekeza kudzachita naye nthawi ina yomwe adzakhala limodzi m'matumbo mukuzunza kuzindikira kwakusokoneza bongo kwanga.
Ndimachita manyazi kunena kuti zinanditengera mwayi kuti ndisiye chilichonse kuti ndizindikire kuti vuto lomwe ndimakonda kwambiri lidali lalikulu.
Tidasiyana, tidayenera kugulitsa nyumba yanga ndikutseka bizinesi. Moyo wanga udasokonekera komanso miyoyo ya ana anga omwe anali azaka zakubadwa tsopano, zonse chifukwa chokhala zidakwa. Anawo anapitilizabe kukhala ndi ine ndipo mkazi wanga anali wowonekeratu kuti anali pa njira yatsopano yopezera zogonana ndikupanga nthawi yomwe adataya, ndikuti ngakhale amakonda ana sankafuna kuti anawo akhale nawo tsiku ndi tsiku moyo. Chodabwitsa ndimadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa pazomwe ndidamupangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi vuto losokoneza bongo ndikuti ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuganiza za mkazi wanga ali ndi wokondedwa wake watsopano pomwe ndimagona ndekha pabedi lathu.
Ndinavutika maganizo kwambiri ndipo ndinali ndi malingaliro ambiri ofuna kudzipha. Sindingathe kunena kuti ndikudzinyansa ndekha chifukwa chokhala ndi vuto losokoneza bongo komanso ndekha. Ndinayesera kusiya zizolowezi zanga nthawi zambiri, koma monga chizolowezi chilichonse ndimakonda kubwerera.
Mofulumira zaka 6 ndakwatiranso ndi mkazi wabwino ndipo moyo wanga ndiwosangalatsa. Pokhapokha nditakondweretsabe zolaula ndipo sizingalephereke. Ndidakali ndi PIED ndipo ndapita patsogolo kugwiritsa ntchito meds kuti ndithandizire kukonzekera. Amangogwira ntchito ndikadzuka kumene ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimaganizira za zolaula zomwe ndakhala ndikuwona kuti izi zikuchitika. Kutulutsa umuna kudzera mu kugonana kwabwinobwino kumanditengera nthawi yayitali kuti ndikwaniritse, koma ndizosangalatsa kuposa momwe ndimasewera maliseche. Chimodzi mwazomwe ndimakhala ndimakhala nthawi yayitali kwambiri, koma nthawi zina sindimatha kufika pachimake.
Ntchito yanga imagwira ntchito kunyumba kotero sinditha kuletsa zolaula nthawi iliyonse ena mabanja atapita kuntchito.
Sindikudziwa ngati nditatha zaka 40 ndikuwonera zolaula nditha kumenyabe vutoli? Chiyambireni kupeza tsambali ndimamvetsetsa bwino momwe ndawonongera ubongo wanga komanso zomwe zidzafunikire kuti ndikhalebe panjira yochira.
Ndawerenga za njira zamanjenje zomwe zimapangidwa mkati mwa ubongo wathu, ndipo ndikuganiza njira zanga ziyenera kukhala ngati misewu yayikulu yamakonkita pambuyo pazaka zonsezi zankhanza.
Ndimakonda komanso ndimakonda mkazi wanga wapano ndipo wakhala akumvetsetsa za ED yanga. Ngakhale ndawona kusintha kwake kwachikondi kwa ine m'miyezi yapitayi ya 6. Sanathenso kugonana, ngakhale timakondana kwambiri tsiku ndi tsiku komanso timagonana kamodzi kamodzi sabata iliyonse. Chifukwa ma ED amakhudzidwa ndi zogonana. Moyo wathu wogonana wakhala makamaka wopatsa ndi wolandila kugonana pakamwa kutipangitsa tonse kukhala ndi O, popeza kulowa mkati ndi kovuta ndi ED.
Ndimatenga udindo chifukwa cha chisokonezo chomwe ndili, ndipo sindikudzudzula wina aliyense koma ndekha chifukwa cha zowawa zomwe ndadzipangitsa ndekha moyo wanga wonse. Nditapeza tsambali komabe ndili ndi chiyembekezo kuposa kale kuti mwina ndapeza njira yopita patsogolo. Ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kusintha chifukwa cha aliyense. Ndikudziwa kuti ndakhala wotsekeka kwambiri. Ndikudziwa sindikumva malingaliro osiyanasiyana amunthu omwe angatheke. Ndikudziwa kuti sindifuna kugonana kwambiri.
Ndili wokhumudwa kwambiri ndipo ndanyansidwa ndi zenizeni zaumunthu wanga. Mabwenzi ochezera pa intaneti omwe ndimalimbikitsa ndikuchita nawo, ndikudzitsimikizira kuti sanali "kubera konse". Zowona kuti ndiyenera kukhumudwa ngakhale kuti zovuta ED zidakhudza kugonana ndi mkazi wanga usiku umodzi, koma kodi nditha kukhala mwamphamvu kwambiri maliseche 5 kapena 6 nthawi yotsatira zolaula?
Ndili pazinsinsi zonse ndi mabodza onse. Ndatha kuyesa kubisala kuseri kwa chigoba ndikuwonetsetsa kuti mbiri yanga ya intaneti ndiyomveka. Kubisa mafayilo pakati pa mafayilo.
Chomwe ndimamva bwino ndikuti ndidasankha kufafaniza zolaula zilizonse zomwe ndidasunga ndikumatseka maakaunti azolaula a 4 masiku apitawa, ndipo ndidayamba kufufuza zothandizira kuti ndisiye zolaula zomwe zanditsogolera tsambali.
Pepani kutsegulira kwanga kwakhala motalika chonchi. Ndinkafuna kukhala woona mtima monga momwe ndingakhalire kamodzi. Ndikufuna kumva kuchokera kwa ena omwe atha kukhala kuti akhala akuvutika ndi zolaula komanso omwe achira bwino.
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