Nofap adachiritsa nkhawa zanga, kukhumudwa komanso malingaliro opanda pake. Moyo wam'mbuyomu udali ngati kuyendetsa galimoto ndi ana khumi akufuula mokangana pampando wakumbuyo. Ndimakumbukira bwino kwambiri tsiku lodzuka m'mawa ndikuzindikira kuti malingaliro anga anali chete!
Ndidadula mavitamini, mkaka ndi MSG pazakudya zanga, ndipo moyo wanga wonse IBS yasowa kwathunthu. Anthu amandifunsa momwe ndingachitire ndi zakudya "zosasangalatsa" zotere ndipo ndimangoseka. Yesetsani kudya zipatso zokha ndi ndiwo zamasamba ndikumwa madzi okha kwa masiku angapo ndikuwona zomwe zimachitika. Zabwino zonse.
NDI - Pentlowe
MENGA ZINA:
Liwu langa lidafika pozama ndipo ndili ndi zaka 50. Kutha msinkhu kunali kalekale kwa ine. Ndili mwana anthu ankandiseka, "mawu ako adzalira liti?" Ndimayimba ndipo sindingathe kulemba zolemba zomwe ndinatha chaka chapitacho. Masiku a 14 sangachite zoyipa, mutha kunyamula nofap pambuyo pa miyezi 12 ngati mukusintha kuti musasinthe m'thupi lanu, lekani kukhumudwitsa amuna ena kuti ayesetse kudzipindulitsa. Khalani nacho ndipo thupi lanu ndi malingaliro anu zitha kusintha kosangalatsa mukasiya kubwereranso.
Mkazi wanga wandithawa kawiri, tikukhalabe nyumba imodzi koma osagona pabedi chaka chonse. Ndakhala PMO kwaulere chaka chimodzi, ndikumva bwino, ndikupeza zabwino zonse za nofap ndipo tikukhala bwino kwambiri. Ndikuyembekeza kubwerera momwe tinkakhalira kale, ndisanadziwe kuti PMO ikundikhudza. Ndimamukonda kwambiri koma mkazi wanga sanakhalepo ndi chidwi ndiulendo wanga kapena zovuta zazikulu kuti ndisiye zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita pafupipafupi kwazaka pafupifupi 40. Amuna anu samadziwa kuti ali ndi mwayi chotani kukhala nanu.
OSATI zotsatira za placebo. Kodi ndichifukwa chiyani anthu masauzande ambiri amalandila zabwino zomwezo ndikukayikirabe mwina zotsatira za placebo? Mukapitiliza kubwereranso simudzathetsa nkhawa zanu. Zimatenga nthawi, masiku 6 sikanthu. Pepani kuti ndikumveka mwankhanza, masiku a 6 atha kukhala ovuta kwambiri kwa inu, koma zanditengera zaka ziwiri za nofap kuti ndigonjetse nkhawa zanga. Ndimakonda kudzimva kotereku polankhula ndi anthu, ngakhale anthu omwe ndimawadziwa bwino. Kapena kukhumudwa, kufunafuna mawu. Kapena kunena chinthu chopusa ndikumanong'oneza bondo tsiku lonse. Kuwala kofiira chifukwa cha manyazi. Khalani ndi nofap ndipo musabwerere m'mbuyo chifukwa zomwe muyenera kuyembekezera ndikukhala ndi zokambirana ndikupangitsa kuti anthu ena asokonezeke ndi maso anu. Akazi amakonda. Amuna osati ochuluka.
Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi nkhawa ndikukhala moyo wachikulire. (Ndine 50). Atayimitsa PMO, nkhawa zamagulu ndi manyazi limodzi ndi mavuto ena ambiri tsopano ndi zero. Izi sizinachitike mwangozi.
Sindinadziwe kuti ndinali kuvutika ndi nkhawa za anthu mpaka pomwe sindinakhalenso. Nthawi zonse ndimangoganiza kuti ndine wamanyazi, ndipo chinali gawo chabe la ine. Anali amene ndili. Ndinayiwala kuti sindinali wamanyazi makamaka ndili mwana. Tsopano pambuyo pa zaka 38 zakulira ndi manyazi sindilinso! Pambuyo pazaka ziwiri zoyesera kumvetsetsa kulumikizana pakati pakukula ndi mankhwala omwe akhudzidwa, ndasiya ndipo ndangosangalala ndikudzidalira kumene ndikupeza ndipo "osavutikira" 🙂
Tsopano popeza ndili kumbali inanso (ndikhulupirira bwino, koma sindingataye mtima) Ndikuwona zozama zoopsa kulikonse komwe ndikupita. Amayang'ana pansi poyenda ndipo ndikayang'ana pa iwo nthawi yomweyo amayang'ana kutali. Samayang'ana ngakhale kuvomereza kukhalapo kwa wachinyamata wokongola yemwe amatenga ndalama zawo ndipo samangoyimba ngati zikomo zabwino. Ali ndi maso akuda osalankhula, Maso a munthu wosokoneza bongo. Kodi ndimadziwa bwanji izi? Ndikudziwa izi chifukwa ndinali mmodzi wazaka za 38! Koma tsopano dziko langa latseguka ndipo inenso ndili nawo. Ndikadakuwuzani kale kuti sindili mbali ya dziko lapansi, tonse tili mwanjira inayake. Koma ndizofunikira kwambiri pazomwe ndikukumana nazo pano. Izi si malo, izi sizoganiza, izi sikuti tikugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanga yakale kwambiri, uku ndikusintha kwa chikumbumtima changa komwe kumandidabwitsabe TSOPANO. Ndimakondwera ndi moyo koposa tsopano, ndipo azimayi akuwona izi. Amakopeka ndi munthu yemwe ali wokondwa, ali ndi chidwi, ndipo amakhala wolimba mtima. Dulani mbali ina ndipo mudzakumana ndi izi mosiyanasiyana. Papita zaka ziwiri koma ndinkafuna kuti zindiyendere bwino. Afune, ndipo akwaniritse. Yambani kukhala moyo ndi abwenzi anga a nofapper!
Sindinakhalepo ndi mavuto a ED koma ndinali ndi nkhawa yayikulu, kukhumudwa, komanso kusalumikizana panthawi yogonana. Sindinazindikire kuti anali ndi mavuto kufikira nditalowa nawo nofap ndipo adasowa. Amuna ambiri amayesa kupereka zifukwa zowonera zolaula nthawi zina, kapena kuseweretsa maliseche kamodzi pa sabata kapena apo, koma ndimapeza kugonana ndikukwaniritsa kuti PM amangowoneka ngati kutaya nthawi kwa ine tsopano. Dziwani, zinatengera kugwira ntchito mwakhama kuti ndikafike komwe ndili pano, ndinali wosuta bongo ku dopamine rushes.
[Poyankha pempholi: "Ndili ndi zaka 49 ndipo ndakhala ndikukumana ndi zovuta (kapena kutaya pakati) kwa zaka zopitilira ziwiri. Ndimaganiza kuti ndizophatikiza ukalamba komanso zochuluka (kasanu pa sabata) zolaula komanso maliseche. Koma mwina ndi PM basi! Ndine PMO mfulu masiku 2 okha. Ndimakonda kumva zambiri. ”
Kodi muli pachibwenzi? Ndili ndi zaka 51 ndipo ndimagwiritsidwanso ntchito mofanana ndi inu nokha. Sindinayambe nofap munthawi yake kuti ndipulumutse banja langa, koma tsopano GF yanga yokongola kwambiri komanso yaying'ono kwambiri imanditangwanitsa kwambiri kotero kuti sindiganiziranso za PM. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nthawi zambiri ED imayambitsidwa ndi PM yochulukirapo. Ichi ndi chizolowezi chomwe amuna ambiri amapitilizabe nacho pamoyo wawo wonse mpaka atamwalira, osakafunsa chifukwa chomwe angadziwire zolaula koma osati zogonana kwenikweni ndi akazi awo.
ZOCHITIKA - Masiku 1000.
Ndalemba kwambiri masiku otsiriza a 1000 koma ndigawana zochepa zomwe ndaphunzira pankhaniyi yothetsa vuto lomwe ndidali nalo 4 / 5th ya moyo wanga.
Maliseche amasintha iwe. Zimasintha malingaliro anu padziko lapansi, anthu ena komanso malingaliro a anthu ena pa inu. Pokhapokha mutakhala kuti mumatha kuzichita nthawi zina, koma ndikukayika pali ambiri omwe amabwera kuno. Sindikulemba izi kuti ndimenyetse kumbuyo, ndikulemba ndendende zomwe ndikadakonda kuti ndiziwerenga ndikadapunthwa patsamba lino zaka zitatu zapitazo. Ndinadziwa kuti china chake chinali cholakwika ndi ine koma sindimadziwa kuti chinali chiyani. Mkazi wanga anali ndi chibwenzi ndipo zidasokoneza dziko langa. Ndidapunthwa patsamba lino ndikufunafuna mayankho ndikuwerenga nkhani zomwe ndimafuna kukhulupirira koma pansi pamtima ndinali wotsimikiza kuti PM sanandivulaze. Ndinali wotsika kwambiri m'moyo wanga ndipo ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuyesa nofap, ngati milandu iyi ya nati inali yolondola. Zinandibwerezabwereza mobwerezabwereza ndisanayambe kuona kusintha m'moyo wanga.
Ena a ife tili pano chifukwa tikufuna kuti tisinthe miyoyo yathu kuti tikhale athanzi. Ena ali pano chifukwa akufuna kupeza anzawo okhala nawo. Ena amangofuna zogonana. Koma zilizonse zomwe mungakonde, zilibe kanthu, chifukwa mukapambana ndi nofap mudzakhala munthu wabwino mosasamala kanthu.
Amayi ndi zolengedwa zokonda ndipo amakhumba amuna okonda. Samafuna amuna omwe amachita bwino pabedi. Kuchita ndi ntchito. Magwiridwe akuchita. Chimodzi mwazosintha zazikulu m'moyo wanga ndikuwona momwe ndimachitira zogonana mosiyanasiyana. Nthawi zambiri ndinkangoganiza za ine, koma sindinkatha kuzipeza. Tsopano ndikumbuyo kwa malingaliro anga, nditha kupitiliza ndi moyo wanga ndipo kugonana komwe ndili nako tsopano ndikwabwino kuposa momwe ndidakumanapo chifukwa ndili ndekha ndipo sindiyenera kuganizira zomwe ndingachite pabedi. Chilichonse chimabwera mwachilengedwe ndipo ziyenera kutero, takhala tikuchita kwa mamiliyoni a zaka. Palibe zithunzi zolaula pamutu panga, kulimba mtima kwanga ndikodabwitsa, ndipo patatha masiku anayi ndili ndi chidwi ndimakonda kwambiri kotero kuti ndimadzidabwitsa nthawi zonse. Ndimayesetsa kusunga umuna ndikuzindikira momwe anthu amandigwirizira mosiyanasiyana malinga ndi kuchuluka kwa nthawi kuyambira kutulutsa kwanga komaliza. Izi sizongoganiza, izi ndi zenizeni. (Ndikulankhula zachiwerewere kudzera pakugonana, sindidzachitanso maliseche kwa moyo wanga wonse). Muyenera kuganiza zakukula ngati chizolowezi. Chiwerewere chimasokoneza. Mukamagonana komanso pamalungo sicholinga chanu zimasintha malingaliro anu onse ogonana. Pansi pake pali zenizeni koma zikuyenera kuchitika. Zikuwoneka kuti mapeto sakuwoneka koma akuyandikira tsiku lililonse. Mwabwera chifukwa mukufuna china chabwino m'moyo wanu. Uwu ndiye moyo wanu wokha, ndizoseketsa ndikudziwononga nokha nthawi yanu pano. Moyo wanu ukhoza kukhala wosangalatsa kwambiri kuposa momwe uliri. Chokani pa Facebook ndikupanga moyo wanu m'malo mowerenga za mwayi wamunthu amene simumamudziwa. Muthanso kuchita !!
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