LINK - Kupambana kuli pafupi kuposa momwe mukuganizira
by korejung pa Fri, 2012-12-28
Moni akuluakulu,
Ndikudziwa izi zanenedwapo kale, koma inenso ndili ndi chisoni ngati sindinali kucheza ndi anthu kwambiri pamutu wokonzanso. Ndinkangofuna kusiya mzere chifukwa china chake chomwe chimawoneka kuti sichingatheke kwa ine chinayambiranso ndipo ndikuganiza kuti nkhani yanga ingapindulitse iwo omwe amakhala osakhulupirika komanso osazindikira momwe zinthu zikuyendera.
Ndinkakonda kukhala ndi zolaula komanso osachita maliseche pafupifupi zaka 9. Ndinavutika ndi HOCD ndipo sindinathe kuchita nthawi zambiri ndikagona ndi akazi (ED). Nthawi zambiri kumakhala kugunda ndikusowa. Ndakhala ndikuyesera kuyambiranso chaka chatha tsopano ndipo ndayambiranso kangapo. Ndakhala ndikuletsa kwa mwezi 3 nthawi zina ndisanayambenso kuyambiranso. Nthawi zambiri ndimatha kupita kwa sabata limodzi kapena awiri nthawi.
Ndiyenera kunena kuti iyi inali ntchito yovuta. Ndinkafuna kusiya nthawi zambiri ndipo lingaliro lofika kwa mkazi wina limangowoneka ngati lowopsa kwa ine. Lingaliro loti mukhulupirire kuti muli nalo kwa akazi pomwe mulibe (mwathupi) limangondisokoneza nthawi yakugona. Ndinaganiza kuti ndataya chiyembekezo.
Chinthu chimodzi chomwe chidatembenuza ndikungopitiliza kupita patsogolo ndikayamba kukayikira. Pambuyo pa miyezi 11 mutayambiranso ndimangokhala mwezi umodzi wosiya. Lingaliro lakudikirira miyezi 3 (muyezo womwe ndikuganiza) ndiyeno kufikira akazi limawoneka ngati chovuta koma sindinathe kudikira nthawi yayitali. HOCD komanso kuti ndimafuna kubwerera pachizolowezi nthawi zonse zimandiukira pamalingaliro kuti ndiyesere nthawi zonse. Ndinali ndi malingaliro ochuluka kwambiri omwe amandipangitsa kutuluka thukuta ndikumakhala ndi nkhawa nthawi ndi nthawi.
Monga lero, kuyesera kwa 5th kuyambira mwezi wa 11, ndatha kusunga lingaliro la 75% ya nthawi koma kugonana kwamkati kudza, ndinali 100%. Ndinaletsa mwezi wa 1 wotsogola. Ndikuganiza kuti miyezi ya 3 siyofunika kwenikweni. Ndinkadziona kuti ndine wamkulu komanso womasuka pambuyo pake. Zowonadi nthawi za 4 ndisanathe kuchita mkati mwa mweziwo zidandithandizadi. Ngakhale ndimamva kugonja nthawi iliyonse. Ndinapitilizabe kubwelera.
Upangiri wanga kwa aliyense kunja uko akupitiliza kupyola mkuntho. Ndinkakhala ndimaganizo a HOCD m'mutu mwanga nthawi zonse ndisanakumane ndi azimayi. Ndinaganiza zogonana nawo m'mutu mwanga kuti ndingopangana nawo zisanachitike. Popanda kuyankha pansi pamenepo ndikuopa kuti zikuwoneka kuti ndizokhazo zomwe zimalanda, ndinapitabe kukakumana ndi azimayiwa.
Chifukwa chake ndinganene zinthu ziwiri.
- Chimodzi ndi chakuti ngati mukukhulupirira zowongoka ndipo mukufuna moyo wanu ubwerere, mulibwerenso chifukwa moyo sudzakuyembekezerani.
- Chachiwiri ndikuti, khalani ndi azimayi omwe mumawakonda, ngakhale mutakhala kuti simukuyanjana naye kapena mumamva kuti wakhudzidwa ndi iye. Khulupirirani mtima wanu mukamudziwa msungwana yemwe mumamukonda. Ngati mumaganiza kuti ndi wokongola pomwe mudamuwona koyamba koma osamva kanthu kumeneko, musawope. Mukungofunika nthawi. Umu ndi momwe ndimamvera. Onetsetsani kuti akudziwitsaninso za vuto lanu (mwina ngati simungathe kuchita bwino. Ngati mungathe, palibe chifukwa chonena mavuto anu ndikuganiza). Nthawi zonse zimakhala zosavuta kudzutsidwa ndi amayi omwe amamvetsetsa.
Eya, chinthu china chimodzi. Pambuyo pamalingaliro opambana ndi kudzikweza kwambiri, malingaliro a HOCD adayamba kuyambiranso pang'onopang'ono koma ofooka kwambiri. Uphungu wanga pa izi ndi kusinkhasinkha. Nthawi zonse muziwona m'maganizo mwanu kapena kulingalira zomwe muli ndikunena m'mutu mwanu ndikujambulira mawuwo. Izi zikuthandizani kuti musinthe momwe mumaganizira tsiku lina nthawi.
Komanso ndikufuna kupereka kuthokoza kwanga kwa Marnia. Iye ndi munthu wabwino komanso woganizira ena. Chilichonse chawerengedwa pa ulendowu. Ndipo ndimamuthokoza chifukwa chogwira ntchito yabwino yolimbikitsa ena monga momwe wandichitira.
Zikomo anyamata. Ndipo zikomo YBOP.
Kupambana kuli pafupi kuposa momwe mukuganizira. Musaganize kuti zidzachitika tsiku lina, ingokhulupirirani kuti zichitika posachedwa.
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MABWINO ENA ENA
Inde Marnia, ndawerenga nkhaniyi. Kuyesedwa kotsimikizika kumatha kuyambitsa kuwononga kudzidalira. Komabe, ndikukhulupirira pali mitundu iwiri yoyesera tsopano. Imodzi yomwe imatha kukupangitsani kapena yomwe ingakusokonezeni. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mukapita kukadziyesa nokha ndi akazi kuti mumve kuti ndi njira yabwino yobwererera pamasewerawa kapena kudzidziwitsa nokha ngati ili nthawi yanu yoyamba.
Kuyesa kumene ndikukhulupirira kuti kuthyola munthu ndiko komwe kumakupangitsani kapena kusiyanitsa ndi chikhalidwe chake. Ngakhale ndinali ndi HOCD (nthawi zina yofatsa komanso yowawa), pansi pamtima ndimadziwa kuti ndimakonda atsikana kuyambira ubwana wanga. Chifukwa chake kusamva kalikonse pafupi ndi azimayi panthawiyo nthawi zina kunkandiyesa mayeso osiyanasiyana.
Kuyesa komwe kunanditsitsimutsa, kunandipanga. Kuyesedwa komwe kunali kosiyana ndi chibadwa changa, kunandipweteka. Chifukwa chake ndikuganiza kuti anthu amayenera kuyesa, koma panjira yomwe akufuna.
Ndipo inde, malingaliro osafunikira amakhalabe nthawi ndi nthawi koma akukhala ofatsa kwambiri komanso osafunikira kwenikweni, nditha kuyang'anabe m'malo momwe ndikusangalalira ndi akazi ndi anthu.
Chuma chachikulu paulendowu chinali kusinkhasinkha kwanga. Mawu ndi amphamvu. Tsopano ndikuziwona ndekha.
Ndingafunse; kodi mukudziwa mitundu ina yabwino yosinkhasinkha? Kodi masewera a yoga amawerengera? Sindikudziwa ngati ndimakonda yoga koma zimawoneka ngati mawonekedwe osinkhasinkha kwa ine. Ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kupeza kena kake kamene kali koziziritsa mtima komanso kokhazikika mtima wanga.
Nthawi zina ndimamva ngati mtima wanga ukugunda ndikutentha mkatikati mwachangu. Komabe ndikawerenga kugunda kwanga, ndi pa 68 bpm, zomwe sizachilendo. Komabe sindikudziwa chifukwa chake nthawi zina ndimakhala wosakhazikika. Kumva uku kumawoneka kosiyana ndi HOCD. Ndikumverera kodabwitsa chabe.