M'mbuyomu ambiri ankanditcha kuti ndine munthu wofooka. Ndinali wamantha, waulesi, komanso wopanda mawonekedwe. Ndinalibe zokhumba m'moyo, kupatula masewera, kudya zakudya zopanda pake, kusuta udzu ndi kusefa.
Chaka chatha, ndidaganiza kuti sindingakhale ndi moyo chonchi. Chifukwa chake ndidaganiza zosintha. Ndidayamba kuthamanga ndi mzanga. Izi sizinali zokwanira. Ndimatchedwanso munthu wofooka wopanda chilakolako. Chifukwa chake mwana wa mchimwene wanga adandiuza kuti ndilembetsere Muay Thai nkhonya. Ndinavomera vuto lake. Pakadali pano ndinali ndimantha ndipo sindinachite ndewu pachilichonse.
Mu february ndidasankha kusiya ndi zinthu zoyipa. Ndinasiya kusuta udzu ndi fodya, ndinkalimbikira kwambiri ndipo sindinadye mopanda thanzi. Ndataya 38 KG mzaka 1,5 ndipo ndimayamba kupanga mawonekedwe. Komabe, panali china chake chomwe chimandilepheretsa, ndipo icho chinali kukula .. sindinatengebe malingaliro omwe ndimafuna.
Ndinaganiza zosiya malo anga abwino. Chifukwa chake ndidasaina kuti ndimenye nkhondo, osati m'misewu, koma mphete. Ndidauza wophunzitsa wanga mu Okutobala kuti ndikufuna kumenya nkhondo. M'mwezi womwewo ndidalowa nawo NoFap. Ndinafuna kusiya chinthu chomaliza chomwe chinali kumbuyo kwanga kuti ndikhale munthu amene ndikufuna kukhala! Ndinkachita mantha mosavuta ndipo ndinkachita mantha msanga kwambiri. Sindingathe kuthana ndi mavuto azachuma ndipo sindinkafuna kuchita kanthu pamaso pa anthu ambiri. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa ndinali ndi mantha .. Ndakhala ndikuyesera ndipo ndinali masiku 7 mu NoFap pomwe ndimayenera kumenya nkhondo.
Dzulo usiku (20 december) nkhondo yanga idakonzedwa ku Groningen. Kunali kuyenda kwa ola limodzi kuti ndikafike… Makilomita 3, palibe chitetezo etc. Anthu ozungulira ine, ngakhale abale, anali kundiyitanira ofooka ndipo amangondiuza kuti anditulutsa kapena kutulutsa nkhuku. Nditafika pamwambowu ndinali wozizira bwino. Palibe minyewa. Ndidadikirira maola 72 ndisanamenye (muyenera kuyeza ndikudikirira nthawi yanu). Panali ndewu 9, ndipo ndinali nambala 36…
Nthawi idafika yomwe ndidayitanidwa kuti ndikonzekere siteji. Nditatsika masitepe, ndinali wodekha komanso wokhazikika. Wokonzekera chilichonse chomwe chikubwera. Ndidayenda kulowera ku mphete ya anthu. Sindinachite mantha. Sindinachite mantha m'malo mwake ndimamverera ngati munthu. Ophunzitsa anga adandiuza zinthu zochepa, adandithandizira zodzitchinjiriza ndipo adandiuza kuti ndithane ndi vuto lililonse. Wotsutsa wanga anali munthu waluso kwambiri. Anali m'mawonekedwe ndipo anali ndi omangika athunthu (wopanda ana, anali ndi abwenzi a 40 etc) pagulu la anthu.
Wotiyimbirayo anatiyitana. Pakadali pano ndinali nditangoyang'ana ngati mkango uli pafupi kuti umenyane ndi nyama yawo. Kumuyang'ana molunjika, osayang'ana kumbali, osadziletsa. Tinadikirira belu… kenako amuna awiri anayamba kumenyera ufulu wawo wopambana. Kumverera komwe ndinali nako pankhondoyi sikungafotokozedwe m'mawu. Icho chinali chokumana nacho chopambana chomwe ine ndinakhalapo nacho. Ndinkamenyedwa ndipo ndinkasangalala nazo. Ndinapitirizabe kumenyana, kumunyoza. Khamu la anthu linapita ku bezerk. Kundisangalalira, ndikufuula dzina langa. Ndinkafuna zambiri. Masewerawo adatha mwachangu kwambiri, mwakuti sindimatha kukumbukira. Chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndimakumbukira ndikuti pankhondoyi ndinali munthu amene ndimafuna kukhala. Mnyamata yemwe anali wamantha ndipo sanachite chilichonse, adakhala mamuna usiku womwewo.
Masewerawo adatha. Wotsutsa sanawone kugogoda kwanga, chifukwa ndinamenya cholankhulira kuchokera mkamwa mwa mdani wanga. Sanamuwone akuyenda chammbuyo, pafupifupi kugwa chifukwa samadziwa komwe hè. Komabe inali nkhondo yabwino.
Nditachoka mphete aliyense adandiyang'ana ndikundiuza kuti ndalimbana bwino kwambiri ndipo ena mwa iwo amanditchula ndi dzina langa. Ngakhale gulu lankhondo komanso lomenyera mdani wanga lidabwera kwa ine ndikundiuza kuti ndimenya bwino kwambiri. Ngakhale wophunzitsa wake adati ndalimbana ndimasewera abwino kwambiri. Mdani wanga ankandilemekeza monga ankhondo ena ankachitira. Ndinali wovuta. Ngakhale m'maloto anga otentha kwambiri sindimatha kuganiza za izi.
Pamene ine ndi aphunzitsi anga tinkayenda pagalimoto kuchokera ku Groningen, tinabwereranso maola 3 kubwerera kunyumba. Anandiuza kuti lero wawona womenya weniweni mu mphete ndipo sanapite ku tsidya lina la Netherlands pachabe. Anandiuza kuti ndiyenera kugwira ntchito pazinthu zingapo ndikuti ndikhale wankhondo waluso. Inu anyamata simukumudziwa wophunzitsa wanga, koma ndiwolunjika kwambiri foward guy. Sanena mabodza, kapena kupereka chiyamikiro popanda chifukwa. Ndiye atandiuza izi, ndidadziwa kuti ndidachita bwino.
Kusintha ndi chinthu chofunikira kwambiri m'moyo. Zosintha zina zimachitika popanda kuwongolera .. izi ndi zowona. Komabe, monga munthu, muyenera kusintha zinthu zomwe mumatha kuwongolera .. Chifukwa chiyani? Chaka chapitacho ndinali munthu wamantha kuloza chala changa pachilichonse ndikuziwunikira. Zidandifikira pena pake !! Chaka chotsatira, nditasankha kuti sindingakhale chonchi zinthu sizinasinthe! Ndidakhala munthu yemwe ndimafuna kukhala! Chifukwa chake siyani kudzipereka, ndiyambenso tsopano.
Zikomo anyamata! Kugonjera kumeneku kunandithandiza kwambiri.
LINK - Kusintha kwanga kwakanthawi: kuchoka pa kukhala wachisoni kukhala wankhondo wopanda mantha
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