Ndili masiku a 109 tsopano ndikudziwa. Ine kwenikweni ndinayiwalika pankhaniyi, ndipo ndakhala ndikuganiza kwambiri zinthu zina m'moyo. Koma, izi zidandisintha munjira zodabwitsa komanso chithunzi chomwe ndiyenera kugawana nazo. Zinayamba bwino ngati mpikisano pakati pa anzanga kuti ndione kuti ndi ndani yemwe angatenge nthawi yayitali kuposa kusefa. Adandiuzanso za malowa.
Ndabwera kuno ndikuganiza kuti zinali zotheka. Ndinaganiza kuti ili lingakhale vuto kwa ena, ndipo ndichinthu chabwino kuchisamalira. Koma zowonadi ndilibe vuto ndikukula. Izi ndi zomwe ndimakonda kudziuza ndekha.
Tsopano ndapambana mpikisano, zidangopitilira milungu itatu. Koma nditapita ndikukakulira ndikubwereranso kuzizolowezi zanga ndidazindikira kuti zidandikhuza. Ndinali wogalamuka kwambiri, ndinali ndi mphamvu zambiri komanso sindinakhumudwe kwambiri ndikapanda kutero.
Ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kupereka mbiri yakale ndisanapitirize. Ndidayamba kupanga fayilo mu 3rd kalasi ndipo kenako idazolowera chizolowezi kuchita usiku uliwonse. Hei, zimandithandizira kugona chinali chowiringula changa. Komanso nthawi zina mozungulira 5th kapena 6th grade ndidakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri (Ndimadana nazo kuti ndizomwe sizinachitike kuti sindinakhalepo kwa dotolo). Chidaliro changa chodzilimbitsa mtima kuyambira nthawi zonse chakhala chotsika kwambiri. Nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikumangoganiza zopeza chibwenzi, koma osachitapo chilichonse kuti ndipeze mnzake.
Bweretsani ku nkhani yayikulu. Popeza zinali ndi tanthauzo ndinayamba kuthamanga kuti ndisasefa zambiri, ngakhale zinali zovuta kwambiri. Ndinali nditagwira mwezi wathunthu nthawi zonse. Ndinayesera kuti zizikhala zopanda thanzi, sizinamuyendere bwino konse pomwe ndinayamba kusefa; Ndidapitilira zomwe ndimachita mpaka nditafika kuti ndiyesenso.
Kusintha kwanga kukhala kovuta, sikunali kodabwitsa kwambiri. Ndinali nditagonanso mochedwa ndikusewera ndi zidole zanga ndikupeza kanema "wabwino" kuti ndimalize. Ndinakwiya ndikuti nthawi inali 2AM ndipo ndimayenera kudzuka 6AM kuntchito. Ndangoganiza zotaya zoseweretsa zanga zonse osasiya foni yanga kuchipinda kuti ndizilipiritsa. Ndikamaliza kuyang'ana pa foni yanga ndili pabedi zimabweretsa zolaula ndipo zimagwira bwino ntchito momwe mungadziwire.
Mofulumira mozungulira mwezi wa 2 ndipo ndidayamba kuwona zabwino zabwino. Sindinayesedwenso pantchito. Kukhumudwa kwanga kunali kutatha ndipo izi zitha kukhala zodabwitsa kwambiri. Ndinasiya kusamala ndikufuna kupeza chibwenzi. Sindikusamala ngakhale kuti ndine namwali. Ndine wamtendere chifukwa cha izi. Sikuti sindikuganiza kuti ndingapeze imodzi ngati ndingayesenso. Ndine wokondwa ndi momwe moyo wanga ulili tsopano.
Komanso uwu ndi phindu lomwe limandipangitsa kukhala wosangalala kwambiri. Zojambula zanga zasintha tani. Ndine waluso, pamapeto pake ndidayamba kujambula zaka ziwiri zapitazo ngakhale tho, ndizomwe ndimafuna kuchita moyo wanga wonse. Zikuwoneka bwino chifukwa sindinatope (chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito bedi langa kugona) ndikudziwa bwino zomwe zandizungulira. Art imakhudza kwambiri kukumbukira kwanu.
Chifukwa chodzidalira ndikukhala bwino ndasankha kuti ndiyambitse nthabwala monga momwe ndimafunira. Ndangomaliza kumene kujambula chaputala choyamba lero ndipo ndikumva chodabwitsa chifukwa chake. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake chidaliro changa chidayamba bwino kwambiri. Mwina testosterone?
Izi zidapitilira nthawi yayitali ndiye ndimaganiza kuti zichitika. Tikukhulupirira kuti sichiyenera kusokonezedwa. Chokhacho chomwe ndingaganizire kuwonjezera ndikuti, ayi sindikukhulupirira kuti izi zidandipatsa "mphamvu yayikulu". Ndakhala ndikupita patsogolo bwino kwambiri m'moyo wanga kwazaka zingapo tsopano. Monga pomwe ndidayamba kujambula zaka zingapo zapitazo. Chidaliro changa chidawalimbikitsanso kale popeza pamapeto pake ndimachita zinazake m'malo mongomva zowawa, kuwonera makatuni ndikusewera masewera apakanema.
Nofap si chipolopolo chamatsenga, muyenera kungopeza mphamvu zamkati mwa inu ndikuzitsegula. Nofap itha kukhala imodzi mwiyi yokutsegulira.
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