Ndine watsopano pamsonkhano uno; Ndamva zambiri za izi kuchokera kwa bwenzi langa labwino FuGu, koma sindinasakatule zambiri. Ndiye chifukwa chake ndimakhala pamsonkhanowu, komanso chifukwa chomwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito zolaula.
Pafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndi theka zapitazo, ndinasiya zolaula. FuGu anali ndi zovuta zazikulu ndi PIED, ndipo atandiuza za zomwe akufuna kusiya, ndidaganiza zothandizana naye, kuti ndimuthandize. Ndakhala ndikuganizira izi kwa nthawi yayitali, koma sindinamve ngati ndikufunika, chifukwa chake ndimangozengereza. Zomwe ndisanapeze kuchokera kwa iye, ndinali ndisanawone kafukufuku wokhudza momwe zingakhudzire ubongo wanu.
Ndiyenera kunena, sindinadziwe zomwe ndingayembekezere kulowa. Sindikuganiza kuti ndidagwiritsirapo ntchito zolaula ngati FuGu, ndipo ndinali ndisanawonetsedwepo, kotero sindinadziwe kuti ndiziwona chilichonse (ngakhale ndinali wokondwa kusiya). Izi zikunenedwa, ndinali ndi nkhawa zambiri komanso chidaliro kwa nthawi yayitali momwe ndimakumbukira, makamaka zokhudza azimayi.
Ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula ndili kusekondale. Sindikukumbukira nthawi yeniyeni, koma mwina giredi lachisanu ndi chinayi kapena lakhumi. Ndinali ndi kompyuta mchipinda changa, ndipo ndikukumbukira nthawi yomwe ndimabwerera kunyumba tsiku lililonse ndikuchita maliseche zolaula. Tidzakhala ndi malo ogona pomwe tonse timatha kuwonera zolaula ndikuchita maliseche. Zikumveka zachilendo mukamanena mokweza…
Ndikukula, chizolowezicho chidazilala pang'ono, ndipo pomwe ndimafika chaka chachiwiri ku koleji, chizolowezi changa chimakhala ngati "Sabata limodzi, milungu iwiri kapena itatu yopuma". Ndinali KINDA ndikuyesera kuti ndichite zochepa, kotero ndimapewa kwa milungu ingapo, koma ndikadakhala ndikumva chisoni, kapena kupsinjika, kapena kutanganidwa, ndipo ndimachita maliseche zolaula. Izi zitha kuyambitsa sabata yochita tsiku lililonse, mwina kawiri patsiku. Monga ndidanenera, munthawi yonseyi, ndinali ndimavuto ambiri, nkhawa, kudzikayikira, komanso kusinthasintha kwa nyengo-kanthawi kochepa kakusangalalira, ndikutsatiridwa ndi milungu komanso milungu yakukhumudwa.
Kuyamba kwa chaka chathunthu cha ku koleji, tonsefe tinasiya zolaula. Sindinakhalepo woipa ngati kukhala ndi PIED kapena PE, chifukwa chake njira zanga zochiritsira sizinakhudzidwe monga zimakhalira. Sindinayeneranso kuthana ndi nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa komwe kumawonekera nthawi zambiri kusiya zolaula. NDINAKHALA, komabe, ndazindikira kusiyana, ndipo kudachitika mwachangu kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti njira yabwino yonena ndikuti ndimamva kukhazikika. Ndinadzidalira kwambiri, ndipo ndinamva ngati ndikutha kuganiza bwino.
Chimodzi mwazinthu zazikulu kwambiri zomwe zidandisangalatsa ndi kuthekera kwanga kulankhula ndi akazi. Sindinayambe ndagonapo, ndinalibe chibwenzi, ndinali nditangopita masiku ochepa chabe ndikupsompsona mtsikana koyamba chaka chatha. Sizinali zongochitika mwadzidzidzi, koma ndinali kukhala wolimba mtima, komanso wokhoza kungokhala… ndikhale ndekha, osakhala ndi nkhawa zambiri zomwe ndimakumana nazo.
Chizindikiro chachikulu kwa ine chinali pafupifupi miyezi itatu mkati. Ndinapita kuphwando lobadwa lomwe bwenzi linali nalo, ndipo panali msungwana wokongola uyu INCREDIBLY pamenepo. Nthawi zambiri zimakhala zokwanira kundimasula, sindimayankhula zambiri, ndikumakhala kutha kwa nkhaniyi. Koma ndinali ndi izi ... kutsimikizika. Ndinadziwa kuti nditha kupeza nambala yake. Ndipo kumapeto kwa usiku, ndinatero. Tinapanga chibwenzi, ndipo sizinapite kulikonse zitatha izi, komabe… Ndinakwera njinga kunyumba usiku womwewo ndikuganiza "Chabwino, sindinayang'anenso zolaula."
Izi zinapitilirabe, (ndizovuta zambiri), ndipo miyezi ingapo zitachitika, ndinapezeka muubwenzi wanga woyamba. China chake chomwe ndidakhala ndikudandaula nacho kwa zaka sindimatha kuchita, ndipo zidachitika pasanathe chaka kuchokera atasiya zolaula!
Panthawiyo ndinali ndisanakhale ndi chilakolako miyezi isanu ndi iwiri, kotero pamene tinayamba kugonana, ine… U… sindinakhalitse. Koma zidakhala bwino patatha mwezi umodzi kapena apo. Ubalewo udatha mchilimwe, ndipo ndidamva bwino kwambiri kuposa momwe ndidalili chilimwe choyambirira. Ndinapitiliza kukhala pachibwenzi, ndikudzidalira nthawi zonse, ndipo miyezi ingapo yapitayo, ndinayamba chibwenzi china ndi mtsikana wodabwitsa.
Ndizoseketsa; Ndikuyang'ana mmbuyo tsopano, ndazolowera njira yatsopanoyi, yolimba komanso yolimba mtima yoti kumakhala kovuta kukhulupirira kuti ndimalimbana ndi zomwe ndimakumana nazo. Zachidziwikire, sindine 100% wabwinoko; Ndimakumanabe ndi nkhawa zambiri, ndipo ndimakhalabe ndi nkhani zambiri zodzidalira. Koma zakhala bwino kwambiri. Kusiyana kuli kodabwitsa kwambiri. Ndipo ndikukhulupirira motsimikiza kuti kusiya zolaula ndiye chinthu chofunikira kwambiri pakusintha. Ndakhala wolimbikira kwambiri kuti ndisiye, ndipo ndikamva za amuna omwe ali ndi mavuto ofanana ndi anga, ndimayesetsa kutchula momwe zandithandizira (mwanzeru, zowona. Chitha kukhala chinthu chovuta kuyambitsa)
Komabe, ndikhulupilira kuti nkhaniyi itha kukhala yolimbikitsa kwa wina kunja uko. Mukuchita chinthu choyenera!
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