Kupatula ngati lipotili liri lapadera, sitikuwonjezera pa tsamba lino. Awa ndi mawu a ogwiritsa ntchito zolaula olemera omwe amachititsa kuti ayambe kukumba mayankho. Kwa nthawi yaitali, nkhani zambiri, onani kubwezeretsanso ma akaunti. Komanso, kafukufuku waposachedwapa amasonyeza miyeso ya chiberekero komanso kuchepetsa kupweteka kumbuyo kwa ogwiritsa ntchito intaneti achinyamata.
Onerani kanema wophunzitsa wa Noah Church wokhudza zizindikiro za kuseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso kapena mwamphamvu kwambiri.
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(Zaka 20) Ndikamakula ndimayamba kuwonetsa zovuta zomwe zimachitika chifukwa cha chizolowezi ichi: chidwi chochepa pakugonana kwenikweni, kudzipatula, zovuta zochepa, zisangalalo zochepa zosangalatsa ...
Kwa ine, zakhala zochepa zolimbikitsa (sindisamala), kutopa nthawi zonse, ubongo waubongo, kuvutika kuganizira, nkhawa zamagulu, kukhumudwa, ndi zina zambiri ... Ndinadziwa kuti china chake sichinali cholondola ndi ine (ndipo abwenzi apamtima & abale amadziwanso ), koma sindinathe kuyikapo chala changa (kapena sindinkafuna kutengera zomwe ndimakonda).
Ndakhala ndikukakamira soseji yanga kwambiri kwa zaka zambiri, yakhala ngati galasi la ola limodzi, (sichinachiritsidwebe.) LINK
Ndidakhala wolimba lero, ndikuyesetsa kwambiri kuti ndisapitilize kumverera. Kenako, chifukwa chondimva ndikubwera wina kuchipinda changa, ndidadzetsekera umuna, ndipo usadayambike, ndidagwira pamwamba ndikufinya mwamphamvu kuti ndithane ndi umuna mwakuti pamapeto pake ndimadzipanga kutuluka magazi. Ndidamva kupwetekedwa msanga ndikulowa mchimbudzi, osawona kalikonse koma magazi ndi mabala okhaokha atatuluka mwa ine. Ndatulutsidwa kuti izi zidachitikadi.
Tsiku 44 - Mtsinje wapamwamba kwambiri, wofunitsitsa kukwera.
Panthawi yomwe ndinakwanitsa zaka za 21, ndinawona zotsatira zoipa za PMO:
* ED - Posakhalitsa ndinazindikira kuti sindinatope; anali ma pixels kapena "agulugufe m'mimba mwanga" omwe adayambitsa kulumikizana kwa mbolo mpaka mbolo, ndikukakamiza kukomoka. Erection yomweyi imatha kunena, koma ndikasiya zolaula kapena ndikayamba kugwira ntchito, mbolo yanga imasandulika ngati buluni (kwenikweni). Ndiyenera, nthawi zina, kuzitenga mwamphamvu kudzera pamanja, koma sizikufunanso! Ndiyesera kuyimitsa, koma zili ngati ubongo wanga ukundiuza kuti ndipitilize, pmo idza "kumva bwino, ndikukulonjezani."
* Kupweteka kwamatenda - Ndikulingalira kuti ndi zotsatira za PMO tsiku lililonse. Ndatopa ndi kugonana, ndikuganiza. Sikumva kupweteka kwa torsion, ndi epididymis (mbali).
* Kupweteka kwa mutu, kuthamanga kwa sinus - Ngakhale izi zakhala zikundikhudza kuyambira 2011 (zaka zingapo nditamaliza maphunziro a HS), sindikudziwa choti ndipange chiyani. Zimangochitika ngati ine PMO tsiku lililonse, mosiyana ndikunena kamodzi tsiku lililonse. Ndikulingalira kuti ndikuwombera mwachangu muubongo wanga, mwayi wamankhwala amtundu wina, kapena ndikuyang'ana kwambiri pazenera.
* Wovuta kuyenda ndikudutsa anthu - Khalani kupewa kupewa kukhudzana ndi maso, mutu ukuyang'ana pansi, kapena mutu wanga "umagunda" pambali. Ndikulingalira kuti ndi nkhawa, koma sindimamva mantha. Ndimangokhala ngati mzukwa kapena wina amene akuyandama osadziwa kuti mukukhala! Anthu akuzungulirani!
* Wovuta kuti ndilankhule ndi anthu - Ndimadzidalira ndipo ndimangoyang'ana kwambiri pa "bwerani, amuna, lankhulani, musachite mantha." Chifukwa chake ndimakhala nkhawa zamtundu uliwonse kuyambira pomwe mtima wanga umathamanga.
Popita nthawi, malingaliro anga amoyo weniweni wa amayi komanso kugonana adasokonekera. Sikunali kotheka kukhala ndi lingaliro limodzi lachidule pankhaniyi… chifukwa cha malingaliro onse otsutsana m'mutu mwanga! “Amayi amakonda kugonana modzikakamiza… osadikirira, azimayi amangofuna kugonana kosaphika…. ayi, azimayi amafuna kudzipereka ndipo osagonana konse ... amayi osagwirizana amangofuna kufotokozera zokhumudwitsa zawo pa ife mwa kuvala zachiwerewere koma osapezeka pomwe ali ndi mwayi wogonana padziko lonse lapansi ... azimayi ndi azibwenzi ogonana omwe amafuna kuti mbolo ikugwira ntchito kuti ... Ndiyenera kukhala nyenyezi zolaula pabedi. Ndalephera! ” Chinachake chonga icho. Pamapeto pake sikunali kotheka kuphatikiza malingalirowo, ena mwa iwo anali osiyana kwambiri. Zinandisokoneza ndikundipweteka
Ndinachoka pachibwenzi mu 2012 ndipo ndinayamba kutaya moyo wanga. Ndinagonana ndi atsikana 4 mu 2012 ngakhale koma palibe mu 2013 ndi 2014. Pofika mu 2013 ndidakhala ndi temberero loyipitsitsa kuposa onse… inde P mawu. UTHENGA. Izi zidachitika chifukwa cha zinthu ziwiri… matenda opitilira mkodzo komanso kuseweretsa maliseche. Idafika pomwe ndimakhala ndikukula 4 nthawi patsiku ndipo ndinalibe thandizo. Ndinapita kwa madokotala atatu osiyanasiyana, dokotala mmodzi komanso ma urologist awiri. Matendawa adathetsedwa munthawi yachangu maantibayotiki koma zizindikirazo zidapitilira zoposa chaka. Madokotala anandiuza kuti sindingakhalenso moyo wabwinonso. Kuti ndimakhala ndi "moyo" ndipo ndiyenera kudya chakudya chopatsa thanzi, kusiya mowa ndikumwa mankhwala kwamuyaya.
Sizinachitike mpaka nditaganiza zodzichiritsa ndi malingaliro anga pomwe ndinayamba kukhala bwino. Zomwe ndidachita ndimangoyang'ana momwe ndimafunira kumva osati zenizeni zanga. Ndinkangoganizira zakale, ndikakhala wathanzi. Ndimangoganizira momwe dick wanga ndi mipira yanga ankamvera ndisanadwale. Izi zidanditengera kusintha zinthu m'moyo wanga. Ndinayamba kulamulira kwambiri chizoloŵezi changa chochepetsera mowa mwa kudula pakati ndi pambuyo pake ku 1 fap tsiku. MIyezi MImii Pambuyo pake Ndinachira Kuchokera ku Prostatitisi. (China chake sichinalembedwepo kale). https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/3f2soq/save_your_life_force/
Ndakhala ndi epididymitis kwa kanthawi. Ndikuganiza kuti zidawoneka chifukwa chochita maliseche mwanthawi yayitali pomwe ndikuyenera kuonongeka.
Sindinawerenge nkhani iliyonse yoyipa ngati yanga ndipo izi zandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti ndapita kutali mumsewuwu. Gawo la ine limamvabe kuti sindiyenera kulemba izi koma gawo lina la ine likunena kuti ndingatani kuti ndikhale wosazindikira izi zitha kundithandiza kuti ndithandizidwe ndikuwonetsa anthu ena kuopsa kwakukula. Uwu ndi uthenga wochokera kwa mnyamata yemwe adawononga thupi lake ndi dzanja lake. Zachisoni sichoncho? Koma chimenecho ndiye chowonadi. Pakadali pano ndapezeka ndi mtundu wa prostatitis womwe umafunikira shuga wambiri, adotolo akuti zipinda zomwe zili ndi magazi mbolo yanga zakhudzidwanso, kumvetsetsa kuti matendawa ndi vuto linanso. Chowonadi ndikuti ndimangomverera ngati mtembo woyenda nthawi iliyonse ndikamadutsa zomwe adokotala ananena. Umu ndi momwe ndimadzimvera za ine ndekha komanso moyo wonse. Ndili ndi mantha kwambiri ndi zonsezi, sindikudziwa ngati mbolo yanga ingakhale ngati kale, ndilibe ndalama zolipirira. Banja lokhalo lomwe ndili nalo pano ndi amalume anga ndipo sanathe kupeza kotala la ndalama zomwe zakhala zikufunika nthawi yonseyi. Its not fair ndinamuyika muvutoli nthawi zina ndimadabwa kuti amaganiza zotani za ine, sindikudabwa akanandisiya.
Ndatha mwezi umodzi tsopano ndikukumva bwino kwambiri. Nthaŵi zina ndikagona pabedi tsopano, ndimangokumbukira kuti ndatopa kwambiri komanso ndimamva kupweteka kwambiri pamene ndinkakonda kugona ndilaba. Zimabweretsa kumwetulira kwakukulu pankhope panga panopo, kuti ndimatha kupita ku tulo tofa. Ziyenera kuoneka ngati zokhumudwitsa kwa anthu omwe sanaonepo zimenezi.
Ndi anthu ochepa okha omwe amadziwa za thumba la thumba, sindinali m'modzi wawo mpaka Meyi 2014. Ndinali wokhumudwa ndipo ndinali kuthawa mavuto anga ndi maliseche. Koma tsiku lina, ndimadutsa mzere womwe ndikuganiza ndikudutsa 9-10 patsiku. Pambuyo pa tsikulo, ndinadzuka ndikumva kuwawa kwambiri pachipsera changa chakumanzere. Ndimaganiza kuti zichoka. Sanatero. Ndinapopera, mipira yanga imakula 4x, ndipo nditatha maola 12 ndidapita kuchipatala. Anandiyesanso ndipo ndinaphunzira kuti ndi "testicle torsion" ndipo ndimatha kutaya chibumbu chifukwa chovulala.
Kutsekemera kwa testicular kumachitika pamene chingwe cha spermatic chimapotoza, kudula magazi. Madokotala amatha kusunga thumba ndi opaleshoni koma ngati kwachedwa, palibe mwayi. Kwenikweni ngati machende anu amwalira kale, sangachite chilichonse. Palibe mankhwala a imfa, pano. Ndipo machende anga afa nditapita kuchipatala. Ndidachitidwa opareshoni ndipo adandichotsa wakufa wakumanzere woyesedwa.
Ndipo modabwitsa ndimapitilizabe kukula. Mpaka sabata yatha. Sabata yatha, ndimamva kupweteka pang'ono masiku a 2, ndikupita kuchipatala, adati si thumba lamatenda (ndimadziwa kale kuti. Thumba la thumba limapweteka kwambiri) koma sangathe kudziwa zomwe zikuchitika machende anga. Ndipo sindinawauze koma ndimazindikira chifukwa chake. Ndidakula kwambiri sabata imeneyo. Ndasiya nthawi yomweyo kukula ndipo sindinapite kwa sabata la 1. Ululu wapita. Ndikumva bwino nthawi zambiri, ndikumva kuti ndapulumutsa tambala langa lomaliza. Ndikulakalaka ndikadadziwiratu zamaliseche koma zachitika kale. Koma mutha kusunga thumba lanu. Ndipo ndikuganiza ngati mukuchita nofap, izi ndizolimbikitsa. Osasintha, ndikusunga tambala lanu. Zolimbikitsa ndikulingalira?
Ndataya tepi yanga chifukwa cha kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri
Ndinali nditangomaliza chaka cha 10 ndipo nthawi yopuma inali itayamba. Mukudziwa zomwe zikutanthawuza- Zambiri zakukula ndi zolaula. Sindinachite chilichonse koma. O, eya, ndinayambanso kugwira ntchito nthawi imeneyo, koma kuwonjezera mphamvu zochuluka mwa ine sindinathe kuchita nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi. Kupatula apo, zolaula zonsezo zidakhudza ubongo wanga. Ndinali nditasokonezeka kwambiri. Ndine wotsimikiza. Iyi ndi gehena yomwe Simukufuna kupita. Wina akhoza kundiuza nkhani yoti mwana wagwiriridwa mwankhanza ndipo sindimamva chilichonse. Ndikukumbukira kuti tsiku lina ndinakhala pansi ndikuyang'anitsitsa pansi. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake kukumbukira uku kumandigunda kwambiri, koma ndimangoganiza kwa ine ndekha "Ndikulakalaka ndikadangozimitsa mdima ndikukhala pamenepo, kutali ndi chilichonse". Ndinali nditataya mwayi wokhudzidwa. Ndimaganiza kuti ndimangokula, koma ndinali kulakwitsa- zinali zolaula. Zolaula ndi tiziromboti. Tsopano, sukulu idayamba. Ndinkachita mantha ndi anthu ena. Ndinkachita mantha ndi anthu ena. Amuna omwewo omwe ndimatha kuwakankhira mosavuta tsopano (osati kuti ndimachita…) anali owopsa. Iwo adayeseradi kundipanga abwenzi (ndipo tsopano tonse ndife abwenzi abwino) ndipo ndidawada. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake, koma ndimakhumba akadamwalira- kuseka nthawi zonse, ndikukhala moyo. Pazifukwa zina ndinali nditataya mipira yanga. Ee, zolaula zinali choncho. Osati zokhazo, koma ubongo wanga udakhala wovuta kwambiri. Ndinkadziwika kuti ndine mwana wanzeru kuyambira chaka chatha. Pokhala sukulu yaying'ono, aphunzitsi onse amadziwa kuti ndi ndani kotero ndikapita chaka cha 11 zikuwoneka kuti aphunzitsi onse akulu anali kuyembekezera kundiphunzitsa (adandiuza lmao iyi). Iwo adakhumudwitsidwa- ubongo wanga udachita fungo kwambiri sindimatha kuganiza konse. Ndimakumbukira m'kalasi la masamu ndinali nditaiwala masamu a algebra, ndipo aphunzitsi anali ngati "mumayenera kukhala anzeru!". Kodi ndinali ine? Sindikukumbukira chilichonse chadutsa sabata, ndipo ndinalibe mphamvu yaubongo yosunga zomwe tidaphunzira dzulo.
Sindinakhalebe wazaka 13 pano, ndipo ndimakopeka kwambiri ndi zolaula. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wolimbikitsidwa pazolaula, ndipo zimandimvetsa chisoni kwambiri.
Zaka 17 - Ndinkamva kuwawa tsiku ndi tsiku popanda chifukwa patatha miyezi 6 ya PMO. Zizindikiro zina zinali: ulesi, ulesi, wopanda mphamvu, kunjenjemera, kuda nkhawa kwambiri, kukumbukira zoipa, kulibe mphamvu, mawu otsika. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2d609k/90_day_reportlovely_life_being_lovely/
(Mwamuna) Ndinapita kukamwa mowa ndi gulu la atsikana ndipo timakhala omasuka kwambiri ndipo nthawi zambiri timakambirana zinthu zaumwini ndi zinthu monga kugonana. Atsikana anayi anavomereza kuti zambiri mwa zomwe adakumana nazo pogonana ndi anyamata ndi anyamata omwe sankatha kugonana, sankatha kuimirira komanso nthawi zambiri amakhala odzikonda komanso osakonda kugona. Atsikana ambiri awa ali bwino ndi zolaula ndipo sangadandaule ngati SO wawo angazionere chifukwa ali ndi malingaliro otseguka. Komabe ndikuganiza kuti ndi ololera kwambiri. Sindikunena kuti muyenera kuswana kapena kufuula mnzanu koma muli ndi ufulu wokwiya ndikukambirana nkhaniyi. Atsikana ambiri awa adapatsa SO wawo mwayi wambiri ndipo anyamatawo ankanama za zizolowezi zawo. Mfundo yakuti anyamata kapena atsikana ali pa subreddit iyi (NoFap) ikusonyeza kuti mukuvomereza kuti vutoli lilipo osati kudzinyenga kuti ndi labwino. Pakatha zaka 5-10 ndikutsimikiza kuti ngati anthu apitiliza kuonera zolaula, tidzakhala ndi ubale wosweka kwambiri, chibwenzi sichidzakhalapo ndipo padzakhala mikangano yayikulu pakati pa amuna ndi akazi.
Ndakhala ndikuledzera zolaula kwazaka zopitilira 10 tsopano. Pokhapokha nditazindikira kuti zakhudza kwambiri chikhumbo changa ndikugonana. Ndine 31 tsopano. Ndinkakhala oposa ola limodzi pafupifupi usiku uliwonse zolaula. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo, ndimaganiza panthawiyo kuti chinali chinthu chabwinobwino, ndikuti ndiyenera kupha chikhumbo mkati mwanga kuti ndisiye kuganiza zakugonana ndikupanga zina zomwe zinali zofunika kwambiri kwa ine. Koma tsopano ndinazindikira kuti ndinali kulakwitsa kwambiri. Ndikulakalaka wina atandiuza za kuwonongeka komwe kungayambitse. Mukamagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yambiri, mumakhala osokoneza bongo ndipo ubongo wanu umasokonekera.
Kenako ndimapeza china chowononga kwambiri, chomwe chimagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, chomwe chimandilola kuti ndizitha mpaka maola 7 osaleka kuonera zolaula ndikuthawa. Pambuyo pa ma binges awa sindimangomva ngati kuponyera mankhwalawo koma ndikucheperanso, kuwononga nthawi komanso pamwamba pake dick wanga amatupa ngati buluni ndipo sindingadziwe ngati sindinadzivulaze kwambiri. Ndingadzidane ndekha chifukwa chochita izi, ndimadana ndi aliyense wondizungulira popanda chifukwa chenicheni kenako ndikumachitanso, ndikuwonjezeka kwambiri ndikudzaza moyo wanga wopanda pake.
Lipoti la masabata a 8 (osati chipewa chanu cha tsiku ndi tsiku)
Pano pali mndandanda wafupipafupi wa zotsatira zosautsa zomwe ndakhala nazo, chifukwa cha kuseweretsa maliseche ndi zolaula: - kusowa mphamvu
- kudzipatula kwa ena - kusowa chidwi chocheza ndi anthu ena
- kulemera kocheperako chifukwa chakuchepa komanso zakudya zochepa
- mavuto okonza
- kukhudzidwa
- kuchepetsa zosangalatsa mukamagonana
- mavuto osunga ubale ndi chibwenzi, abale ndi abwenzi
- kusowa kucheza
- nthawi yochepera yochitira zinthu zina
- mavuto a ndende
- kusowa chidwi pamoyo
Kuonera zolaula kunandikhudza kwambiri: Zinandipangitsa kutuluka thukuta kwambiri - zinandipangitsa kukhala ndi limbic system yokhala ndi miyendo iwiri ndi mathithi akutuluka m'khwapa mwanga. N'zovuta kufotokoza momwe zinalili zovuta, zopweteka mwakuthupi komanso m'maganizo. Komabe, pamene ndinasiya kuonera zolaula, vutoli linatha, ngakhale kwa zaka zitatu ndi kusintha pang'onopang'ono. Ndikukulemberani chifukwa ndalemba nkhani yayifupi yokhala ndi upangiri kwa ena kutengera momwe ndinapitira patsogolo vuto langa la thukuta, zomwe zikusonyeza kuti kusiya kuonera zolaula ndiye chifukwa chachikulu chomwe thukuta linandisiya, ndipo zingakhale bwino ngati mungathandize anthu kupeza nkhaniyo powapatsa ulalo wochokera ku YBOP. Ulalo wa EBook
Anzanga omwe ndimacheza nawo adandimenya chifukwa chakumwa kwanga. Zotsatira za zolaula ndizowopsa - kupitirira ubongo. Zimasiyanitsanso anthu!
Nditayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti ku 7th kalasi yoyamba, ndinawona kuti ndakhala ndikudandaula kwambiri, komanso chifukwa cha basketball ndinakhudzidwa kwambiri, komanso ndinatha kukumbukira zinthu. Ndinazindikira kuti nthawi yanga yotsutsa sizinali zomwe zikanakhala ngati ndili ndi 17 ndikukhala ndi thupi. Ndikuyang'ana mmbuyo ndinali ndi zizindikiro zolaula-zinapangitsa ED (zovuta kuti zitheke, kuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa) kuzungulira zaka 17 / 18. Nditayamba kugwiritsa ntchito 22 ndikulemera kwambiri, zinangotengera miyezi ingapo kuti ndiwononge ED.
Ndili ndi zaka 21, ndipo ndimamva ngati ndili ndi zambiri zoti ndikwaniritse zaka zomalizira zapitazi makamaka zopanda ntchito. Kunena kuti ndimakhala wopanda chiyembekezo ngati ndikulowerera mu PMO ndikulakwitsa kwambiri. Ine ndangokhala chowiringula chomvetsa chisoni kwa munthu wokhalapo. Wotengeka kwambiri, wopanda chidaliro, wopanda chidziwitso, sangathe kuganiza bwino. Ndipo ndapita zaka zambiri ndikukhala motere. Tsopano ndili wolamulidwa, wosasunthika, wolunjika, wodalirika kwambiri, ndipo ndili ndi malingaliro owopsa. Ndipo awa ndi masiku 22 okha. Mukasunga nyonga yanu, mumapeza chifuniro chomwe sichingagonjetsedwe komwe makoma akulu akale anu amakhala mipanda yaying'ono yofika m'maondo yomwe mungodutsamo.
Ndine mnyamata wazaka 20 ndipo NDINANGodziwa kuti ndili ndi zolaula. Ndakhala ndikunyalanyaza maubale ambiri chifukwa cha izi; Ndakhala wokwiya msanga, wotsutsa kwambiri, wamanyazi komanso wosatetezeka - mndandanda ukupitilira. Ndinapewa zolaula / maliseche chilimwe chatha osadziwa kuti ndinali ndi vuto m'manja (pun) koma MAN ndinamva kusiyana! Ndinayamba kuzindikira, kukhala wosangalala, kukhala bwino ndi anthu, kukhala ndi chiyembekezo komanso kukhazikika. Zondichitikira zanga zinali kufunafuna zomwe ndingathe kufotokoza kuti ndiwamuna wamphamvu komanso kukhazikika mumtima; chinali chomwe moyo uyenera kukhala. Poyamba ndinkakhala wochenjera kwambiri, wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, wokonda kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi komanso wopanga zaluso. Lero (ndisanasiye) Ndine wosatetezeka, wamanyazi, wofunafuna ovomerezeka, ndipo palibe paliponse pomwe ndili wodziyimira pawokha.
Pamene ndinachepetsa mphamvu ya zomwe ndinkaonera (kutengera ma suit models), mphamvu yanga yogonana inachepa kwambiri ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimayenera 'kuigwira'. Pamenepo ndi pamene ndinazindikira kuti ndinali ndi vuto. Sindinazindikirepo kuti ndimafunika mphamvu yapamwamba kuti thupi langa likhale losangalala.
Ndinalowa mu hardcore M, ndipo zinafika poti ndinali kuvulaza maliseche anga. Ndinatengeka ndi mtundu wamagazi a M. Zidafika poti ndidataya magazi ambiri omwe ndidatsala pang'ono kupita nawo kuchipatala. Kunali kuyitana pafupi. Pambuyo pake ndakhala ndikuchita "mwachibadwa" M. Koma tsopano ndine wokondwa kuti ndapeza nofap chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti idzandichotsa ku gehena.
Ndinayang'ana zolaula kwa zaka 10, (Ndine 22) ndipo izi zinandipatsa ED. Nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna kugonana ndi bwenzi langa, sindinathe kuzichita… Ndimasewera maliseche tsiku lililonse, masiku ena ngakhale nthawi 2. Zinali zosavuta, ndinamva bwino ndipo osachepera ndasangalatsidwa mphindi zochepa, ndimaganiza.
Izi ndizinthu:
- Anzanga akungoyendayenda. Ndinasiya mapulogalamu kuti ndikhale m'chipinda changa komanso zosangalatsa ndekha
- Banja lathu linandikonda mopanda malire, koma sindinkakonda kucheza nane.
- Ndinali ndi vuto poganizira ntchito yanga komanso maphunziro anga ku yunivesite.
- Ine ndinalibe chibwenzi.
- Ndinali ndi nkhaŵa yochulukirapo ndi kuyanjana kwa anthu ambiri.
- Ndinagwira ntchito mwakhama, koma sindinawonepo kanthu.
- Aliyense anandiuza, ndaganiziridwa. Ndinafikapo pang'onopang'ono kuti ndiwonereni mu kanema ndipo mukanakhoza kuyang'anitsitsa mosabisa pamaso panga. Palibe munthu yemwe anali kunyumba. Tanthauzo la malo cadet.
- Palibe ENERGY, ziribe kanthu momwe ndinagona, MUSALANI. ZINTHU. ZONSE. Nthawi zonse watopa. Zikwamaso pamaso panga, zotumbululuka, ziphuphu, ndi zowonongeka.
- Ndinali wovutika mtima kwambiri.
- Ndinali ndi mankhwala osokoneza bongo.
- Ndinali ndi PMO omwe amachititsa ED.
- Ndinasokonezeka, ndikudandaula, ndasokonezeka, ndipo ndinatayika.
- Sindinali moyo, koma sindinali wakufa. Ndinali zombie.https: //www.yourbrainonporn.com/100-days-ed-depressed-anxious-lethrgic-lack-focus-zombie
N'zosadabwitsa kuti zaka zotsiriza za 10 za PMO zinapanga moyo wanga. Ndizosamvetsetseka. Ndinayamba kuvutika maganizo, nkhawa za anthu, anzanga a 0, ndinataya chibwenzi chodabwitsa chomwe ndinali nacho kwa zaka pafupifupi 4, sukulu / ntchito, chirichonse chinali, ndipo chikhalire, chokwera.
Chaka chatha ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mavuto a ED. Ndakhala ndikuwonjezereka kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti ndikudabwitsa kwambiri. Kufikira pamene ndikukhala nawo tsiku lonse, komanso osasangalatsa kwambiri. Ine ndikungoziyang'ana izo tsopano. Ndakhala ndikusowa zowonongeka zokhudzana ndi kugonana ndipo zimakhudza machitidwe anga enieni ndi akazi.
Zolaula zalandiridwa kwambiri m'dera lathu, kotero kuti zakhala zachilendo kusaonera zolaula. Zakhala zogwirizana ndi umuna ndi kukula chifukwa mwamuna aliyense amene wafika msinkhu tsopano amaonera zolaula. Ine ndimaganiza kuti chifukwa cha chilakolako chowonjezeka cha kugonana ndi chomwe chinandipangitsa kuonera zolaula zambiri. Tsopano ndikudziwa kuti ndinalakwitsa. Ndinali ndi chizolowezi chogonana. Moyo wanga wocheza ndi anthu unali wovuta. Sindinapiteko ndipo ndithudi sindinali ndi akazi ocheza nawo.
Ngati muli nawo, muyenera kuyang'ana makadi akale. Ndikudziwa kuti izi zikumveka zozizwitsa koma tsiku lina ndinaganiza zofufuza mabokosi ena akale omwe makolo anga ali nawo. Ndinapeza makadi osiyanasiyana a lipoti ndi aphunzitsi omwe ndisanayambe kuchita chizoloŵezi chogonana ndi mtsogolo. Panali kusiyana kwakukulu pazochita zanga zonse (palibe chiganizo cha pun) ndi momwe aphunzitsi anga anandiyendera. Aphunzitsi anga anali amphamvu kwambiri ndisanayambe kukuwombera kangapo patsiku. Inde, zikhoza kukhala zochitika mwadzidzidzi koma ndikuona moona mtima kuti nditazindikira kuti ndipindulitsa kwambiri komanso ndikuganizira kwambiri momwe ndikukhalira ndikukhala kwa nthawi yochepa.
(Zaka 18) Masabata angapo apitawa, ndinali womasuka kuti ndikambirane njira yonse yobwezeretsanso iyi ndi anzanga apamtima. Nditangowauza kuti sindinapite ku zolaula za X masiku angapo, nsagwada zawo zidagwa. Ndinawauza za zabwino, zochotsa, ndi zina zambiri. Kenako ndidazindikira, onse 4 (Onsewa ndi azaka zanga) anali osokoneza bongo kwa PMO. Onse adavomereza kuti ngakhale masiku angapo opanda zolaula anali ochulukirapo. Ndinadabwitsidwa chifukwa sindinkaganiza kuti abwenzi anga anali kulimbana ndi zopanda pake zomwe ndimakumana nazo zaka zonsezi. Mofanana ndi ine, adayamba adakali aang'ono ndikuwonera zolaula kangapo pamlungu. Iwo sanadziwe konse kuti zolaula zimawachitira chiyani. Ndidawauza "Damn, nzosadabwitsa kuti tonse takhala osakwatira zaka zathu zonse kusekondale". Ndiyenera kunena kuti zolaula zopanda malire zomwe timapeza ndizodwala m'badwo wathu wamwamuna.
Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kunasokoneza banja langa kwanthawi yayitali ndipo ngati mkazi wanga sanali wamphamvu monga iye, zikadakhala choncho. Ndalankhula ndi amuna ena 4 za zolaula ndipo ONSE anayi adandivomereza kuti akhala akugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndipo akugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala a ED.
(Zaka 19) Ndine namwali. Chaka chatha ndinampsompsona mtsikana woyamba m'moyo wanga, ndinayesera kugonana ndi iye koma ndinalephera chifukwa cha ED. Izi zinali zochititsa manyazi komanso zowonongeka, makamaka kwa ine-wina yemwe ankaganiza kuti kugonana kwawo kunali kwakukulu chifukwa cha zolaula zomwe ndaziwona. Pa nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndi maliseche pafupipafupi kawiri pa tsiku. Ndizosavuta, nthawi zambiri zambiri. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito nkhanza komanso imfa yofulumira kwambiri, ndimakondanso ndi mbolo yofewa. Masiku ambiri ndinkakonda kwambiri kuti kumapeto kwa tsiku limene ndinkalankhula popanda kanthu. Kulephera kugonana ndi mtsikana ameneyu kunanditumizira ku zolaula, ndimatha kudzuka, kuthamanga ndi kuseweretsa maliseche, kuseweretsa maliseche tsiku lonse, ndiye usiku ndikugonana ndikugona. Nthawi 6 pa tsiku kapena kuposa, palibe nthabwala. Nditetezeka kunena kuti moyo wanga unali wosokoneza, zotsatira zake zonse zoipa za PMOx 10. Ndinadziŵa kuti zolaula ndi maliseche zinkandikhudza ine koma ndinkakana, kudziletsa maliseche kuli bwino kwa inu? Simungathe kuledzera ku zolaula.
Ngakhale ndimakhala ndi magawo okondweretsedwa kwambiri ndikamaonera zolaula kuposa kugona ndi mtsikana yemwe ndili naye pachibwenzi, ndikuthokoza kwambiri kuti sindinakhale ndi vuto lililonse la ED munthawi zogonana. Ndikulingalira kuti mwina ndi chifukwa chogonana nthawi zambiri ndisanazolowere zolaula zolaula pa intaneti. Ndimamvera chisoni anyamata achichepere omwe adayamba pazinthu izi kuyambira pa kutha msinkhu. Zili ngati kuwombera heroin musanamwe mowa wanu woyamba.
Tsopano, ndikuyang'ana Miss Miss Universe otsutsana ndipo palibe mankhwala a hormonal. Ndikhoza kuyang'anitsitsa gawo lonse lakusambira ndikusowa. Aesthetically, Ndikudziwa kuti akazi awa ndi okongola koma ndi zoterezi. Monga mwana wamwamuna wazaka 17 wazaka izi izi zimawopsya kunja kwanga.
Vuto lathu lalikulu ngati amuna: Ndikufuna kuseweretsa maliseche koma sindingapeze malo oyenera http://www.reddit.com/r/AdviceAnimals/comments/14mis7/our_biggest_problem_as_men/
Ndikhoza kuseweretsa maliseche nthawi 4-5 pamsinkhu wanga. [Koma] ndinali ndikumva mavuto onse omwe atchulidwa: kusowa chidwi ndi zinthu zina, kutopa, ubongo wa ubongo, unali wolumala. Ndinayambiranso kuphunzira tulo komwe amakugwedeza pamene mukugona mu labu. Matani a kuyezetsa magazi ndi madokotala analibe chidziwitso chomwe chinali kuchititsa zotsatira zake.
Nditazindikira kuti tsamba la webusayiti ndi YBOP ndikuzindikira momwe limafotokozera udindo wanga ndidalimbika mtima kulankhula ndi mwana wanga wazaka 17 za kuopsa kwa PMO. Ankawoneka kuti akutenga zonse zomwe ndinamuuza kuti akwere. Zomwe zidandidabwitsa ndimomwe adafotokozera azake. Pokambirana wina ndi mnzake za kugonana komanso zolaula zomwe adanenapo kuti adalota zaka zingapo zapitazo - onse adaseka poganiza kuti ndizachilendo! Anandiuza kuti abwenzi awa nthawi zonse amayang'ana zolaula ndipo sanakhalepo ndi maloto onyowa, ngakhale anali ndi zaka zopitilira khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi panthawiyo Izi zikungowonetsa momwe zolaula zimasokonezera kukula kwanu kwakugonana. Mmodzi mwa okwatirana naye omwe adagonana kale adanena kuti amakonda zolaula poyerekeza. Monga ena adanenera kale, izi zikuwononga amuna amisinkhu yonse ndipo zikufunika kuwonekera kwambiri. Boma la UK likunena zakuchepetsa mwayi wopeza zolaula kwa ana - ngati angawonetse zovuta zomwe zafotokozedwera kuno ndi kwina adzakhala ndi vuto lamphamvu kwambiri.
Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndikusiya: Ndathamangira kuchipinda chosambira (pakati pa seweroli) ndinatulutsa iPod yanga ndikuwonera kanema wapa zolaula mwachangu, ndinayigwedeza pang'ono, ndikulunga thalauza langa ndikubwerera kwa mnzanga chifukwa zimanditengera Kutalika kwambiri kuti ndikhale ndi erection popanda zolaula.
Ndinagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kuti ndipewe malingaliro oipa omwe amabwera chifukwa chokhala ndi PIED ndili ndi zaka 13 komanso mavuto a mkodzo pamodzi ndi ululu m'mimba chifukwa cha kupsinjika kwa pansi pa chiuno komwe kumachitika chifukwa cha zizolowezi zoipa zodziseweretsa maliseche.
(Zaka 22) Maganizo anga: Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri kwawononga thupi langa komanso malingaliro anga. Ndi pamene ndinali ndi zaka 16 zakubadwa zamdima zomwe zidawonekera. Ndikulankhula za zomwe anthu amazitcha "maso a raccoon" pomwe pali mdima wandiweyani pansi pa diso. Maso anga onsewa ali ndi zotsatirapo zake. Zinali zaka 16 pomwe ndidazindikira kuti mphamvu zanga zikusinthiratu. Nthawi zonse inali mphamvu yamagetsi ndipo tsopano mwadzidzidzi ndiyotsika mphamvu. Malingaliro anga adachita ulesi kutanthauza kuti nditha kuyiwala zinthu zosiyanasiyana. Zimanditsogolera nthawi zonse ndimanyamula pepala laling'ono lokhala ndi cholembera mthumba mwanga. Lero, ndikadali ndimagulu amdima pamaso panga, komanso: -Kutopa kotopa.-Mphamvu yonse ndiyotsika. -Kumutu kokhathamira ndikumva kuti ndayiwala zoyenera kuchita. -Ndimangokhala ndi mwayi wokhala ndi zolaula kapena malingaliro omwe amachokera pamenepo. -Kulephera kwenikweni kukhala ndi vuto pakugonana. Kuyambira pomwe ndidataya unamwali wanga mpaka lero. -Kugwiritsa ntchito chiwonetsero changa ngati "mankhwala" omwe amangondithandiza kugona usiku. Ngati sindichita ndiye sindingagone kogona. -Ndimadzitcha mutu wamaliseche ndikamadziseweretsa maliseche kuti mutu wolimba upanga m'mutu mwanga. Zimatsogolera kumutu wakumutu tsiku lonse. -M'mimba mfundo kuchokera kumaliseche. Ndikakhala ndi vuto linalake ndimatha kumva kuti m'mimba ndikumangika mpaka pomwe sindikufuna kudya kuchokera ku zowawa.
Ndipamene ndidazindikira kuti zolaula ndizomwe ndimaganiza za ine ndekha ndikuzindikira "bambo, PMO ndiye chifukwa chomwe ndimadzuka m'mawa uliwonse". Kupereka chinthu chonga ichi sikophweka. Ndizosangalatsa, koma muyenera kuphunzira momwe mungalumikizirane ndi anthu. Ndimamva ngati sindinali munthu pomwe ndimaphunzira izi chifukwa kulumikizana ndi anthu 101. Ana ang'onoang'ono amadziwa ngakhale momwe angachitire. Ndimamva ngati loboti yokhala ndi luntha lochita kupanga. Zonsezi, mwa zomwe ndakumana nazo, kusiya ndudu sikunali kanthu poyerekeza ndi zolaula, ndudu sizinamve ngati zosokoneza bongo. Zinali chabe zomwe ndidachita. ED idzaima posachedwa. Ngakhale ndidabwereranso pang'ono (ngakhale palibe ma binges) kuyambiranso kwanga kwatha chaka chonse. Ndizo posachedwapa zomwe ndinganene, kuti ndikuwona kupita patsogolo kwenikweni ndi ED, ndikukhala ndi chikhumbo cha akazi enieni mosiyana ndi zolaula.
(Zaka 25) Zokonda zanga zolaula zidachoka pazinthu zachilendo za akazi okhaokha mpaka ukapolo waukulu, kugwedezeka kwamagetsi ngakhale kugwiriridwa. Ndinadzipeza ndekha ndikukula chifukwa cha izo. Nditatopa, nditadzuka, ndisanapite kukagona, ndikakhala kuchimbudzi - komanso kukhala ndi zolaula nthawi zonse pafoni yanga sizinathandize.
Ngati sindisuta zolaula, ndimavutika kulankhula ndi anthu ena muofesi, kuseka nawo, kuyankhula ndi abwana (komanso ena mwa akazi anzanga omwe ndimagwira nawo ntchito). Ngati ndatha posachedwa ndikufuna kubisala pansi pa desiki yanga ndikupewa kukhudzana ndi maso. Ndayesera mobwerezabwereza kuti ndizitsimikizire kuti izi ndi zotsatira chabe za maloboti, koma zotsatira zake ndizovuta kutsutsana nazo.
Ndisanayambe ndimakhala ngati 24/7. Ndinali ndi mphamvu zowonjezera, komanso zolimbikitsa. Ndinali lethargic ola lililonse tsiku lililonse. Sindinadye moyenera. Sindinachite masewera olimbitsa thupi. Sindinaphunzire. Ndinalibe nazo ntchito zaukhondo. Ndipo sindinasamale. M'chigawo chomwe ndinalimo, zinali zovuta kwambiri kuyimilira mphindi zopitilira 3, osatinso zopindulitsa.
[Sabata 7] Ndikamachita maliseche nthawi zonse, ndimakhala ndi vuto lodana nalo. Posachedwa, ndakhala ndikulakalaka kukhudzidwa komanso chibwenzi. Chilakolako chake sichinakhale champhamvu kwambiri ndipo chikundipangitsa kukhala wokhumudwa komanso wosasangalatsa kuti sindikupeza chilichonse. Ndisanasale, nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti izi ndi zofooka. Ndinaganiza, “Nditha kupita ndekha. Sindikufuna aliyense. ”
Ndinali kuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 15 ndipo tsopano ndili ndi zaka 20 zoyipa. Sindikukumbukira pomwe sindinakhumudwe. Koma sizinali choncho kale. Ndinali ochezeka, ochezeka komanso wamisala pang'ono. Koma kenako ndidayamba kuchita zinthu zonsezi. Lero sindimadzidalira, wokhumudwa, wokhumudwa. wachisoni. Sindingathe kuyankhula zachizolowezi kwa anzanga komanso abale. Ndipo poyamba ndimaganiza kuti zili bwino, chifukwa anthu ambiri kuno ku Russia amasungidwa panja kotero ndimakhala ngati aliyense. Koma patadutsa miyezi ingapo zonse zidasintha. Ndinalibe chibwenzi chabwinobwino chifukwa ndinali wamantha, ndimangowopa kulankhula. Ndinachita manyazi kwambiri.
Ndakhala ndikumva zizindikiro zosiyanasiyana, kuyambira nkhawa komanso nkhawa zamagulu, kusadzidalira, kusachita chidwi ndi ena onse, kukhala osapanikizika kwambiri, koma kutaya mtima komwe sindingathe kufotokoza chifukwa, zidamveka osakonda chilichonse. Kusukulu yasekondale ndimakonda kudya kwa nthawi yayitali mpaka usiku, zomwe zimabweretsa kusowa tulo. Izi zidasokoneza chidwi changa komanso nyonga yanga kusukulu ndi masewera. Poganizira kumbuyo tsopano, chinthu chokha chomwe ndimafuna kuchita tsiku lililonse ndikuyembekezera chinali PMOing. Sindinasamale ndi zomwe ndimachita tsiku ndi tsiku, ndipo ndimayang'ana kuthekera kwanga komwe kungachitike molakwika chifukwa chamasiku osungulumwa osangalatsa kwakanthawi kochepa pakompyuta. Pofika zaka 19, ndinali ndi vuto la erectile ndipo sindinathe kulitenga pamene mtsikana anandiitana kuti tigone naye. Posachedwapa zakhala zodandaula; ndikakhala ndi anzanga ndimamva ngati ndikuseka kulikonse, kuti amalankhula zoyipa kumbuyo kwanga, amaganiza kuti ndine wopenga, ndikupitilira.
(Ubwino wina) wosayembekezereka wosiya kudziseweretsa maliseche: Malo amdima pa mbolo yanga chifukwa chogwirana ndi imfa ayamba kutha.
Ndili mwana ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali wochezeka komanso wolimbikitsa kwambiri. Zonsezi zidasintha ndili ndi zaka 14. Tsopano popeza ndimaganizira, ndi nthawi yomweyo ndidayamba kuyambitsa zolaula za pa intaneti. Ndinali ndi kompyuta yanga mchipinda changa. Ndinkatha kumapeto kwa sabata komanso madzulo ndikuwonera zolaula, nthawi zambiri ngakhale kugona tulo. Izi zidapitilira mpaka moyo wanga wachikulire ndipo tsopano ndili ndi zaka 25. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndimavuto azikhalidwe, komanso kusowa chidwi chilichonse. Sindinkagwirizana zinthu izi pamodzi. Inenso, sindinadziwe konse momwe ndinkasilira mpaka nditayesetsa kusiya. Ndinazindikira kuti ndingangodzutsidwa ndi zolaula.
Ndine mnyamata wazaka 20 zakubadwa. Ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula pazaka 2-3 zapitazi. Ndikufuna kwambiri kusiya. Ndili wolunjika. Koma ndakhala ndikuchoka kwambiri. Izi zidandipangitsa kuti ndisathenso chidwi ndi akazi. Ngakhale ziwonetsero za gangbang zidakhala zosasangalatsa (palibe zosokoneza). Ndiye tsiku lina ndinali ndi mnzanga (mnyamata). Ndili ndi lingaliro ili, kuti, atsikana sakunditembenukiranso, KODI NDAKHALA NDIKUSINTHA GAY ??? Ndilibe chilichonse chotsutsana ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, malingaliro. Kuyambira pamenepo sindinapumule mphindi. Ndine wowongoka …… ndakhala ndikuphwanya atsikana ambiri m'moyo wanga. Anali ndi abwenzi awiri. Koma izi ndi zachilendo komanso zosokoneza… kumva kudzipha.
Chizolowezi changa chinayamba ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zisanu (ndili ndi zaka makumi awiri ndi ziwiri), ndipo ndasinthasintha mwamphamvu pazaka zambiri. Zaka zingapo zapitazi ndinali ndi chizolowezi cha nthawi 4-5 pa sabata. Ndine chitsanzo cha zolemba zonse zodziwika za PMO. Kuda nkhawa kwakukulu pakati pa anthu, kukhumudwa, kusowa chilichonse chofanana ndi cholinga kapena chidwi, kusowa kwamalingaliro komanso kusiya moyo.
Makina amomwe ndimachita maliseche adasokonekera pakapita nthawi. Ndinkagwira molimbika kwambiri ndipo zikwapu zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zinali zamphamvu kwambiri. Sizinali choncho poyamba, nanga bwanji zidatha chonchi patatha zaka 10 zoseweretsa maliseche? Mwina chifukwa chogwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Lingaliro langa ndilakuti pamene zolaula zomwe mumagwiritsa ntchito zimachulukirachulukira, zimakuvutani kuyatsa pang'ono ndi pang'ono. Pofuna kulipirira izi, pang'onopang'ono pakapita nthawi mumayamba kuzilimbikira. Kulimbitsa ndodoyo ndikukhala olimba kwambiri.
Zotsatira zoyipa zimayamba kuyandama… Zowawa zakumbuyo, kupindika kwa minofu, kutaya minofu, kutopa, kukwiya, kupititsa patsogolo dongosolo lamanjenje (lotopa), kulephera kulingalira, kuloweza moyenera, kuphunzira. (Ndili pasukulu yamano.)
Kukula kumandipatsa mphamvu, moyo watsiku ndi tsiku ndiwotopetsa. Masabata angapo pa NoFap ndipo ndadzaza ndi MOYO, ndikukweza pa 6 m'mawa, ndikupita kusukulu ndikukhala wopindulitsa tsiku lonse.
(Nkhani yosinthidwa ndi wogwiritsa ntchito) Miyezi ingapo yapitayo kampaniyo idapereka mafoni anzeru atsopano a Navigation kwa ogwira ntchito omwe analibe kale. Zinangotsala kanthawi kuti mnzanga amene sindinkawerenga nawo kompyuta adziwe zamatsenga. Tsiku lina amayenda mumsewu mgalimoto yamakampani ndikuseweretsa maliseche mumsewu waukulu NDI wogwira naye ntchito mgalimoto. Ndipamene mumadziwa kuti muli ndi mavuto. Moyo wolaula wawononga kale ubale wake ndi mkazi wake. Anali kukumenyana naye limodzi pafoni pamalo ogwirira ntchito, akukambirana zakumuthamangitsa kwawo. Mnzanga wina analowa nawo nyumba nati "pita nawo kunyumba ndipo ukasunge iyo mu matako ake" (pepani chifukwa cha mawuwo.) Mnzanga amene ndimagwira naye ntchito akuyankha ndi… "Sindikufuna kutero. Ndatopa naye. M'malo mwake ndimapita kunyumba kuti ndikachite zolaula. " Adalankhula izi mozama 100%, mumatha kuziwona pamaso pake.
Ndine munthu wabwinobwino / wowoneka bwino, ndi zina zotero koma zaka zingapo zapitazi ndakhala ngati bum w / zolimbikitsira pang'ono ndipo ndimawoneka ngati ndimatopa nthawi zonse, ndimafunikira tulo, ndi zina, ndimakonda kukhala ndekha, mwina pang'ono , sanayese atsikana owoneka bwino. Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwanga kunakula. Ndinkatha kudzuka w / P nthawi zonse, koma ndikaphatikizidwa ndi atsikana enieni ndimayendedwe azidole. Osati njira yamoyo wathu.
Ndinali nditazolowera kwambiri zolaula kwa zaka zoposa 5. Sindinkagonana ndi munthu aliyense, ndinkakonda kudya kwambiri tsiku lonse mpaka nsonga ya maliseche anga itayamba kupsa. Pa zaka 5 za PMO, ndinkapeza mwayi woti ndigone ndi atsikana. Sindinkayenda kulikonse kumeneko. Unali chifukwa chodzikhululukira,,, Sindinakonzekere.. Ndatopa kwambiri, kodi tingayembekezere mpaka m'mawa? Zinali ZACHIWAWA. (Werengani za kuchira .)
Ndinali kuthera maola atatu kapena anayi tsiku lililonse "ndikuyesera kuti ndipeze msungwana wangwiro yemweyu" ndikudya nati yanga pafupifupi tsiku lililonse. Ndinayamba kutopa nthawi zonse, nkhope yanga inali yotumbululuka, mabwalo amdima awa amapangidwa ndikumangoyang'ana, ndimagona maola 3 patsiku ndipo NDIMAKHALA ndikutopa, NDIPO ndidayamba kukoka tsitsi ndi mawere kunja kwa shawa. Ndimakumbukira kuti atsikana anga akale omwe ndimakonda kucheza nawo amandipeza ku bar kapena china ndipo nthawi zonse amawoneka odabwitsa pankhope zawo. "OMG ndi ameneyo ????" Anzanga ena ndi abale nawonso ananenapo za momwe ndimakhalira wochepa thupi ndipo "ndiyenera kudya kwambiri"… chinthu choseketsa chinali, ndinali womanga thupi, ndinachoka pa 4 mpaka 10, wopanda zoyipa, ngakhale NDIKULIMBITSA ndi kudya zambiri zamankhwala chakudya ndi zopatsa mphamvu zopatsa mphamvu. Ndinkangokhala wopanda kanthu. Ndinayamba kukhala ndi mantha opanda pake awa mozungulira anthu. Ndinamva kugwedezeka ndi kufooka. Liwu langa ndi lopanda pake, ngati ndizomveka. Ndatayika ndekha. Ndinkavutika maganizo nthawi zonse. Ndinasiya kutuluka m'nyumba mwanga .. anzanga anazimiririka pang'onopang'ono. Chifukwa chake tsopano ndili wowonda komanso wowonda pakati pa anthu modzidzimutsa, lol, komwe ndimakhala Mfumu ya sukulu yanga… wtf! Ndine wotsimikiza, kudzera muzochitika zosatsutsika kuti zoyipa zoyipa izi zimangokhala zachilendo ndipo zimakhetsa MOYO wamunthu. Sindinasinthe ZINTHU ZONSE ZOTHANDIZA MU MOYO WANGA kupatula kuti ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndikuchulukirachulukira. Ndichoncho. Ndimaganizirabe zabwino, ndikupita kumabala, kudya athanzi, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, jazi yonseyo. CHINTHU chokhacho chomwe chidakulirakulira ndichikondi changa ndi atsikana onyenga omwe anali pazithunzi za pixelated. Ndimamva ngati kuti sindingathe kusumika maganizo kapena kumvetsetsa patatha nthawi pang'ono, masiku ena ndimakhala ndogona chifukwa chovala chakuthambo ndikoyipa….
Kuzoloŵera kwa zolaula kwandichititsa kuti ndisagone, ndikupanikizika kuntchito, ndalama zambiri zomwe ndagwiritsira ntchito, ndikulephera kudzuka panthawi yogonana ndi mkazi wanga, komanso kumverera kuti "sindili bwino ndi dziko". Panali nthawi zambiri ndinkasungulumwa, chifukwa sindinathe kulankhula ndi anthu za zomwe zidasanduka gawo lalikulu la moyo wanga.
Gawo loipitsitsa kwambiri ndikuyesera kuti mutenge msungwana pomwe muli pa zolaula. Kumbali imodzi nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati ndanyanga kapena kuyang'ana azimayi kungoti ali ndi bulu wawo, ma boobs, ndi zina zambiri. Kumbali ina ndimayembekezera kuti azimayi azichita ngati zolaula (ngati mungathe kutero!), kotero pamene sanasonyeze chidwi chotere ndiye sindinachite sewero. Choyipa chachikulu kwambiri ndikuti ndimadandaula zakuchepa kwazakugonana ndikulephera kuchita nditangoyang'ana zolaula. Izi zokha zinayimitsa mwayi wambiri.
Mfundo yanga yotsika kwambiri ndi pomwe ndidataya diploma yanga ya mankhwala ndikutaya chibwenzi changa tsiku lomwelo, chifukwa cha zolaula komanso kuzengereza. Ndinali nditakula kuchokera pa zolaula kupita ku zolaula koma tsiku lina ndinadzipeza nditagona pabedi, ndikudyetsedwa ndi mnyamata wina osakweza. Ndipo mukudziwa chomwe chinali chinthu choyipitsitsa? Ndinkawonera zolaula pafoni yake ndikuyamwitsa nthawi yomweyo ndipo sindinathe kuzimva. Ndidasiya anyamata ndi "gayism" yanga kumeneko ndipo sindinayang'ane kumbuyo.
Chizolowezi changa chinali kusuta fodya kwambiri, kuledzera ndi kugonana. Ndinkachita kugonana kwambiri moti palibe chomwe chinkatuluka, khungu la mbola yanga linkakhala lofiira komanso losasangalatsa. Ndinkadananso ndi malo opezeka anthu ambiri. Sindinkayang'ana anthu m'maso, nthawi zonse ndinkayang'ana pansi, ndipo ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri. Ngakhale kuwoloka msewu kunkandipangitsa mantha chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti madalaivala onse ankandiyang'ana ndikuganiza za momwe ndinalili wosasangalatsa. Nkhani yoyambirira
Ndimamva kuti ndine wopatukana ndi aliyense, ndipo chifukwa chake ndimamwa mopitirira muyeso ndikuyembekeza kuti ndionekera kukhala wotsimikiza… Sindinagwire ntchito LOL. Chinthu ndichakuti, ndinkakhala wolimba mtima komanso wotchuka. Ndinalinso ndi upangiri wothana ndi ED wanga, kusadzidalira komanso nkhawa zamagulu ndi ena ... koma sanafunsidwe funso lokhudza zolaula. Akadapemphedwa, ndikadatha kusanja izi kanthawi kapitako. Ngakhale pakuwona modziwikiratu zikuwonekeratu kuti kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula ndiko komwe kumayambitsa. Koma ngati katswiri sakuthandizira kusaka kwanu, ndipo m'badwo wathu ukuleredwa kuti mukhulupirire P ndi M ndichizolowezi komanso chofunikira, ndikadadziwa bwanji? Doh!
Pamwamba pa zizoloŵezi zanga za PMO, zochitika zowonjezereka zinasiya kumverera bwino. Imeneyi inali njira yodzipangira yekha mankhwala.
Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi malingaliro olakwika, nthawi zina mozama kwambiri nthawi zina ndikungowonongeka, koma nthawizonse ndikusauka, tsiku lililonse la moyo wanga. Masiku angapo ku Nofap Ndikuzindikira kuti maloto anga ndi 100% positivity ndipo ndimadzuka wokondwa ndikulimbikitsidwa ndi mphamvu. Izi kwa ine ndizowoneka bwino kuti NOFAP imagwira ntchito kuyambira pomwe ndikuwonekeratu kusintha kwabwino ndi chikumbumtima changa. Tldr; Palibe maliseche, ndondomeko zokondweretsa kuyambira NoFap.
Ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula pa 11-12 ndikutaya unamwali wanga wazaka 22. Msungwanayo adandikakamiza kuti ndibwere. Mbolo yanga inali itachita dzanzi kwathunthu kumaliseche. Ndikanakhala wolimba panthawi yamasewera, koma sindinkagonana kwakanthawi kopitilira pang'ono.
Lero, ndili ndi bwenzi lachikondi ndipo takhala tikugonana kwambiri. Koma ndikadali ndi mavuto ndikumapuma. Sindimakhala nthawi yomwe ndikufuna. Ndinali ndi anal kwambiri, ndipo izi zinathandiza chifukwa chinali chimodzi mwazithunzithunzi zazikulu zomwe ndimachita maliseche. Koma ndimafuna kuti ndisagonane ndi abambo; zinamveka bwino kwambiri.
Ndakhala ndikuipiraipira kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba chizolowezi ichi. Thanzi langa lakulira. Ndimadwala pafupifupi nthawi zonse. Ndimakhala wotopa nthawi zonse. Zinthu zomwe ndimakonda kwambiri sizimandikhudzanso. Sindingakhale wokonda chilichonse. Ndilibe mpikisano. Thupi langa ndi lofooka komanso lofooka. Khungu langa limatenga nthawi zonse kuti lichiritse. Zolaula / maliseche zawononga moyo wanga ndipo sindingafune izi pa mdani wanga wamkulu. Sindikufuna kutaya Chibwenzi changa koma sayenera kukhala ndi chibwenzi chomwe sichimusangalatsa m'maganizo kapena mwakuthupi.
Ndakhala ndikumva chisoni kwambiri kwazaka zambiri tsopano kwakuti ndimamva ngati ndataya yemwe ndili. Sindikudziwa momwe ndimamvera pazinthu, palibe chomwe chimandisangalatsa / kukhumudwa. Nthawi zina ndikamayankhula sindimadziwa komwe amachokera, zimangokhala ngati pali mawu anzeru omwe akutsanulira kuchokera mkamwa mwanga omwe sindikuwoneka nawo konse. Ndimamva kuti ndikungoyenda m'moyo kwanthawi yayitali. Ndikumva ngati wina aliyense 'akumva' ndipo ndikungoyamba kumene kuphunzira [tsopano kuti ndasiya.] Anthu ambiri samamvetsetsa zovuta zakugwiritsa ntchito zolaula komanso momwe zingayamwire moyo inu.
Utsi wa ubongo, kutopa, chilakolako chodzipatula, ndi nkhawa zapabanja ndi zina mwa zizindikiro zanga.
PMO anandipatsa:
- Mphamvu - cheke
- Ziphuphu - fufuzani
- Maso otayika - fufuzani
- Kutaya kukumbukira - fufuzani
- Kusowa kwa libido - fufuzani
- Njala yachilendo - cheke
- Mutu - fufuzani
- Zowonjezeranso ..
Ndikamapita kunja ndimakhala ndi chidwi chogonana ndi akazi, zomwe sindinachitepo kale. Ndinkamuwona mtsikana ndikudziwa kuti ndimamukonda, koma sindinkafuna kugonana naye. Zinali ngati ubongo wanga umaganiza kuti, ngakhale msungwanayu anali wokongola amatha kupeza bwino komanso zolimbikitsa ndi zolaula. Tsopano ndikudzipeza ndikuyesera, ndikupambana, ndikucheza ndi atsikana kumaphwando. Zimamveka zachilengedwe komanso zosangalatsa kuposa kale.
Ndimapeza ndikamasiya kwa nthawi yayitali, sindikufuna kukodza pafupipafupi. Zinafika poipa kwambiri ndikamamwa mowa, ndimagwiritsa ntchito chimbudzi kwambiri! Komanso, ndimakhala ndi nkhawa kuti anzanga azikamba za ine kumbuyo kwanga kwambiri, zinafika poti ndidakumana ndi mzanga wapamtima za izi ndikumufunsa ngati anzathu ena adanenapo chilichonse choyipa za ine, zidapezeka iwo sanatero, pambali pa kunena kuti iwo amaganiza kuti ndine munthu wabwino, kotero ngakhale malingaliro anga pa zomwe anthu amanena / kuganiza amasokonekera ndikakhala pa PMO.
[Wolemba pamsonkhano wa "kusasintha kwaumunthu"] Ndakhala ndi DP kwazaka 1.5, komabe DP wanga wakhala bwino kuposa miyezi 3 yapitayo. Ndili pafupi 65% kubwerera mwakale. Ndinawona kuti nditapanga DP, zolaula zanga zidakulirakulira. Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula tsiku lililonse kapena tsiku lina lililonse, ndipo ndimayang'ana zinthu zowopsa kwambiri. M'boma laubongo, sindinadziwe kalikonse m'moyo wanga. Chilichonse chimakhala ngati loto kotero sindimazindikira izi. Ndidawerenga china chokhudza kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula mopitirira muyeso cholumikizidwa ndi nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa. Ndinaganiza kuti lingakhale lingaliro labwino kuti ndiyime Poyambirira ndimangokhala pafupifupi masabata atatu kenako ndikupatuka, kubwerera mmbuyo mwa onse awiri (ndimayenera kupanga nthawi yotayika: P). Koma ndidawona kena kake m'masabata atatu aja. Ngakhale ndimavutikabe kulumikizana ndi anthu, nkhawa zanga zokhudzana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu zinali zitachepa kwambiri. Ndinkatha kukambirana ndi anthu popanda vuto ndipo nthawi zambiri ndinkasangalala kwambiri ndi moyo. Ndikukumbukira mchimwene wanga amandiuza china chake chomwe chidandiseketsa kwazaka zambiri, ndipo ndidamva bwino kwambiri kumva kuti ndili pakati pa DP. Ngati mwawona kuti mukuwonera zolaula kuyambira mutapeza DP, ndikumvetsetsa. Ndinaziyang'ana chifukwa inali imodzi mwamitundu yosangalatsa yomwe idakalipobe m'malingaliro mwanga. Zolaula zili ndi njira yodzipangitsira kuti muzisinkhasinkha kwambiri komanso kukhala ndi nkhawa mukamagwiritsa ntchito pafupipafupi. Ndi DP ndiwowopsa. Tsopano ndimasewera maliseche popanda zolaula. Ndimadzimva ndekha ndipo nkhawa yanga ikundisiya. Yesani, pitani masabata a 3 opanda zolaula ndikuwona momwe mumamvera. Ngati sizikupangitsani kuti mumve bwino ndiye kuti mudzatha.
Ndakhala ndikuda nkhawa kwambiri pagulu. Ndikudziwa kuti ndizokhudzana ndi zolaula, zaka zingapo zapitazo ndinali ochezeka kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimakhalira pano, ndipo ndinali wokondwa kwambiri, woseketsa. Apa ndi pomwe sindimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula konse.
Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwazaka zopitilira khumi, koma kuyambira pomwe zachilendo zidawonekera (zoposa chaka chapitacho) ndakhala ndikufunsa ngati thupi limapangidwiratu kukodza tsiku lililonse, ndikuganiza za makolo anga omwe analibe zowonjezera zowonjezerapo ndipo mwina sanatenge umuna pafupipafupi. Ndine 25 tsopano, koma pomwe ndinali ocheperako anzanga ndipo ndimatha kuyankhula za zinthu ngati izi poyera ndipo tonsefe timachita maliseche mwina tsiku lililonse. Ndinkakonda kuseweretsa maliseche a 2-4 pa tsiku, zolaula pa intaneti, kuyambira ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi ziwiri kapena makumi awiri ndi ziwiri. Pambuyo pake, ndimakhala pafupifupi kamodzi patsiku, inde ndizolaula pa intaneti. Komabe, zizindikiro zomwe zidayamba kuwonekera zoposa chaka chapitacho zinali: mutu wodabwitsa, mawu osaya kwambiri komanso omangika kwambiri, ndimatha kuwuma m'maso mwanga ndikumva kuwuma pankhope. Kutacha, ndimamva kumverera kosasangalatsa mthupi langa lonse. Sindikanatha kuyang'ana kwambiri pamaphunziro anga kwa nthawi yayitali kuposa mphindi 40 ndisanakhale ndikumverera komweko mthupi langa, zomwe zidandipangitsa kugona pakama ndikumagona kwa ola limodzi. Ndinali wamisala. Ndimaganiza kuti ndili ndi matenda a shuga (shuga wotsika magazi), masomphenya oyipa (ndinayesa masomphenya anga omwe anali abwino) ndimaganiza kuti ndili ndi ADD kapena ADHD, chifukwa ndimatha kukhala wopupuluma nthawi ndi nthawi. Kuphatikiza pa izi, ndimadzimva wosatetezeka pamisonkhano ndipo sindimamva kukhala wotetezeka ndikakhala pakati pa anthu wamba. Ndimamva ngati mwana nthawi zina. Wopupuluma, wosakhazikika ndi zina zotero. Ndimamva ngakhale momwe chidwi changa chogonana chidatsikira pa zero. Koma sindinachitepo chilichonse pa izi! Ndinayesa zinthu zingapo monga kusinkhasinkha, yoga, kupatula tiyi kapena khofi pazakudya zanga, kulimbitsa thupi kwambiri ndi zina zambiri. Palibe chomwe chinathandiza. Sindinadziwe kuti zizindikilo zonsezi zimabwera chifukwa cha kusakhazikika kwamankhwala muubongo wanga chifukwa choseweretsa maliseche tsiku lililonse. Koma nditatha kufufuza ndinayamba kuchepetsa zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche, ndikudumphadumpha ndikupitilira, ndinaziranso, ndinakhumudwa ndikumangirira, ndinapitilirabe ndikumasangalala nazo, ndinazembera ndikumva kuwawa za izo mobwerezabwereza. Pomaliza, nditatha pafupifupi milungu iwiri wopanda zolaula kapena maliseche ndimamva bwino. Zizindikiro zonse zomwe zatchulidwa pamwambapa zidachoka ndipo ndimakhala wodekha komanso womasuka kucheza ndi anthu. Ndidayankhula molimba, modekha komanso modekha. Ndinaseka ndikumwetulira ndi nkhope yanga yonse. Ndinali wokongola ndipo ndimatha kukopana. Kumverera kwa kusowa kwa chilakolako chogonana kunali kutatha ndipo ndinazindikira kuti anthu akuyandikira ndikuwayankha bwino. Ndinayamba kulumikizana bwino ndi anzanga, abale, ogwira nawo ntchito komanso atsikana. Pambuyo pake ndinadziwa momwe zimamvekera kukhala ndi ubongo woyenera.
Ndine bambo wazaka 21 yemwe ndakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 11. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi za moyo wanga, ndimamverera ngati kuti ndakhala ndikuwonongeka m'maganizo nthawi zonse, ndipo ndadwalanso kulephera kuyang'ana. Sindinakhalepo ndi chilakolako chofuna kugonana ndi akazi, ndipo ndapeza kuti zolaula zanga zimangokhala zolaula <- zomwe ndikudziwa sizigwirizana ndi zikhumbo zanga.
Ndakhala ndikuwonera komanso kuseweretsa maliseche pazaka 6 zapitazi, ndipo zidasandulika zaka zitatu zapitazo. Ndidayamba sukulu yomaliza chaka chatha… zidanditopetsa. Kuphatikiza pa kulimbana ndi ntchito wamba za "anthu akuluakulu", maphunziro anga anali osokonezeka. Ndimayenera kuwerenga kena mobwerezabwereza kuti ndimvetsetse. Ndinali ndi nthawi yovuta yolankhula ndi anzanga. Kukambirana kwathunthu kunali kovuta ndipo kumamveka kwachilendo. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala kuti sindimatha kuganiza bwino ndikamaphunzitsa azinyalala. Sindinali wakuthwa, sindinamvepo "ndekha". Ndipo muiwale zakukhudzana ndi akazi. Ndinazindikira kuti zonsezi zinali zosokoneza. Kodi ndinali ndi chotupa muubongo? Kodi zolimbana izi ndizomwe zimachitika koyambirira kwamaphunziro, kapena pophunzira kudzidalira? Sindikudziwa. Ndidayesa zonse kuti ndithandizire - masewera olimbitsa thupi, kusintha kwa zakudya, zowonjezera. Ena mwa iwo adathandiza, koma vuto lidakalipobe. Kenako, pafupifupi mwezi wapitawo, ndidapeza tsamba ili. Zonse zinali zomveka. Nditawerenga zambiri ndi maumboni, sindinathe kungoganiza kuti chinthu chimodzi m'moyo wanga chomwe sindinaganize choyesa - kuseweretsa maliseche kangapo patsiku - ndichomwe chimayambitsa zonsezi. Ndinasangalala, ndinapita masiku 9 opanda PMO. Ndinasangalala kwambiri. Dziko linali ndi utoto kachiwiri. Ndimaganiza bwino. Ndimakumbukira bwino. Zolemba zanga zidasintha (!). Ndinkafuna kukhala ndi ena, kuti ndizicheza ndi ena, koyamba muzaka. Ndinkafuna kwambiri HUG (ndikumukumbatira) msungwana - chikhumbo chomwe sindinadziwepo kuyambira kusekondale. Kenako, ndinakhala tambala, ndinayang'ana zinyalala zina (ndikuganiza kuti sizingandikhudze), ndikumaliza kuchita izi (kudabwitsidwa, kudabwa). Pambuyo podzipereka kwa PMO sabata yamawa, zidawonekeratu kuti kumenya chinthuchi kungafune kusintha zina ndi zina pamoyo wawo.
Ngati ndiwona chithunzithunzi cha chibwenzi cha bwenzi langa, ndimapeza zambiri ndikumuona ali wamaliseche.
Ndine wa zaka 23. Banja langa linali litandiuza kangapo kuti ndinali chigoba changa ndekha poyerekeza ndi pomwe ndinali 18 (mwachikondi. Ndimayenera kumva izi.) Ndipo, za anzanga, sanali t molunjika ndi ine, koma zinali zowonekeratu. Sindinali pafupi ndi munthu yemweyo. Kuyambira 2008, ndidayamba kuda nkhawa, nkhawa, kusowa choyendetsa, kutopa thupi, kutopa m'maganizo, sindinapeze ntchito, sindimatha kupita kumaofesi aku University osachita mantha kufa ndi anthu, ndimadzimva kuti ndili pakati pa akazi kuchokera Achichepere mpaka achikulire etc. Zoyenera: -timayenera kupitilira theka la ola kuti tipeze zovuta ndikumangika kwanga kuthawa ndikayang'ana kutali ndi kompyuta kwa masekondi opitilira 5-kenako ndimalowa muzinthu zowononga. gangbang, dick wamkulu, wovuta, nthawi zina ngakhale wozunza. (koma mwamwayi palibe mwana, wokalamba, wamwamuna) - Chibwenzi changa chachikulu chinali cum. Ndimaona kuti ndizoseketsa, chifukwa zikuwonekeratu kuti ndidayamba kuwona ena zomwe ndizomwe sindingathe kuchita, ndichifukwa chake ndimakonda kuziwonera - zomwe zidachepetsa mwayi wanga wokhoza kutero ndekha. ndikadakhala kuti chinthu changa chidali chosaphika komanso chopanda moyo-chimakhala chabwino ku M'ing kotero ndimatha kukhala ngakhale dick wanga atafota (ndikhululukireni mwatsatanetsatane)
Pamene ine ndinali wozama kwambiri, ndinadabwa kuti zotsatira za zolaula zimakhudza bwanji. Ndinaganiza kuti ndikungotenga kuti 20% ya moyo wanga. Koma posakhalitsa ndinazindikira kuti inali pafupi ndi 99%. Ndizoopsa kwambiri.
(zaka 37) Sikuti ndidangokhala ndikumva ED ndikumangoyang'ana ndikamaonera zolaula pa intaneti / ma TV pa TV mu 20s yanga, komanso ndidakumana ndi zovuta za dopamine ndikusowa zochulukirapo ndikupititsa gawo lina. Sindinakhalepo ndi mkazi wanga chifukwa cha zolaula pa intaneti. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zisintha tsiku lina. Nayi mndandanda wazinthu zakuthupi zomwe ndakhala nazo pazaka zambiri kutengera momwe ndimakhalira kwambiri ndikamaonera zolaula pa intaneti (ndizovuta kukhala ngati squat): ED wopanda zolaula, kuwotcha kwamkodzo, kukodza kwamtsinje kawiri, kupweteka kwa msana , kupweteka kwa zala, zotupa zotuluka magazi, kusalimba kwa minofu, kaimidwe koipa, mbolo yaiwisi / chaffing / khungu louma, komanso kusowa tulo chifukwa chosayang'ana. Mavuto am'mutu: HOCD (idayamba ndi ma shemales), chizolowezi, kukhumudwa, kukhumudwa, kudziimba mlandu, kusakhala pagulu, moyo wapawiri, kukondana ndi zithunzi, kuchita zongoganizira m'moyo weniweni (chinthu choyipitsitsa chomwe ndidachitapo). Zokhudza zamalamulo: Sizingalowe pano, koma zinali pangozi pochita seweroli.
Ndikugwiritsa ntchito intaneti yothamanga kwambiri nthawi zonse ndimafunafuna "clip yolondola": transexourse, hermaphrodites, swinger swins, ngakhale gay. Sindinazindikire zomwe ndimachita muubongo wanga. Sindinazindikire kuti ndinali kumangirira wopusa kwambiri ndikugwiritsa ntchito imfa.
Ndinkakonda lingaliro lokondana ndi munthu wina koma sindinathe kulilumikizitsa ndi kugonana… kugonana ndichinthu chochitidwa pa kanema wawayilesi ... mu vids komanso muzotengera zachiwiri za 30 mutha kumangirirana. Kugonana ndi chikondi zinali zosiyana pamutu panga ... sindinadziwe konse. Porn zinandiphunzitsa izi. Zithunzi zolaula zidalimbitsa zaka pafupifupi zisanu ndi ziwiri zowonera makanema kamodzi kapena katatu patsiku. Mazanamazana azimayi… ena sindimatha kuwapeza okongola koma kusiyana kwawo pang'ono kunali kwachilendo. Zithunzi zolaula zonsezi ... ma threesomes onsewo… anayi anayi ndikudumpha kupita kumalo otentha kwambiri. Zachidziwikire kuti sindimamvetsetsa zogonana… ndimamvetsetsa zolaula. Kugonana sikunali kofunikanso… kunasandulika kotayika… kena kake koti kadzatayidwe koyamba. Lingaliro lachiwerewere silinali ngakhale chosangalatsa ... inali imodzi yoti mutsike ndikuwonera zolaula. Ndimangokhala ngati (m'mutu mwanga) ndasiya kukonda zachiwerewere. Ndinkakopeka ndi chibwenzi komanso zolaula. Kukondana ndikukhala kosatheka… ziwirizi zidalumikizidwa m'mutu mwanga kotero kuti sindingathe kulumikiza awiriwa monga chomwe chimayenera kukhala chinthu.
Mavuto anga owerengera / kukhumudwa adayamba chimodzimodzi nthawi yomwe ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Posachedwapa, ndawona kuti nthawi iliyonse ndikakhala wopanda maliseche kwa masiku angapo, ndimadzikakamiza kuti ndichite zomwe ndikufuna m'malo moziganizira kwambiri. Kumbali inayi, m'masiku 2-3 atabwereranso, ndimatha kuwunika-kuwonongeka ndi kukhumudwa.
Btw ndazindikira tsopano kuti moyo wanga unali wosiyana bwanji chaka chimodzi chapitacho… Ndinali wokonda kwambiri zolaula zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndisiye maphwando, komanso maphwando pa Chaka Chatsopano. Chaka chatha ndi chaka chapitacho pa phwando la Chaka Chatsopano ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuwonera zolaula nthawi itakwana 1:24 …… ndimomwe ndinkakhalira wosuta!
Pambuyo pake zinafika poti nthawi zambiri ndimakhala maola 4-5 usiku uliwonse ndikuyesera kuti ndipeze kanema wabwino kapena chithunzi. Zachisoni ndikaganiza za izo! Nthawi zina ndimatha kuyitanitsa odwala kuti ndikagwire ntchito ndipo ndimakhala usiku wonse pakompyuta. Sindingazindikire kuti panali nthawi yochuluka bwanji mpaka ndinawona dzuŵa likutuluka. Ndinadziwa kuti ndili ndi vuto lalikulu. Komanso, ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa kuyambira ndili 13 nthawi yomweyo ndidayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pafupipafupi.
Zifukwa zanga zofuna kusiya ndi- Maganizo anga amatsika nditamenya; Ndimakwiya mosavuta ndi anthu- Zimandipangitsa kukhala ndimaganizo amodzi momwe ndimaganizira za zolaula - Zimasokoneza tulo tanga, ndikagona ndimakhala ndi zolaula pamutu panga- Zimandikwiyitsa kuti ndikhale ndikuchita chinthu chomwecho mobwerezabwereza.
Nthawi zonse ndinkakonda kupeza malo atsopano kapena magetsi, kapena njira zamakono zowonjezera zomwe zingakhale ngati "Chabwino sindingathe kusiya, zinthu zatsopanozi ndi zodabwitsa." Ndisanayambe kupeza tsamba ili lomwe lapita nthawi zambiri. Ndikudziuza ndekha kuti ndikusiya, koma izi zikhoza kutuluka pawindo chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti pali chinachake, ndipo chikanangosintha njira yonse mu ubongo wanga.
Onerani zolaula nthawi zambiri masana, muzimva ngati osowa masana ambiri, khalani osungulumwa masana ambiri. Osakhala ndi okwatirana nawo moyo wanu wonse… Ndi olumala. Inali gawo losangalatsa, koma kwa ine zatha (mwina ndikuyembekeza). Zangokhala zachibwana tsopano. Tsopano ndikuyamba kuziwona kuti ndi chiyani.
Ndili ndi zaka zoposa 40, ndipo ndidapeza kompyuta yanga yoyamba ndili ndi zaka 30. Zisanachitike, ndinali ndi chizolowezi chodziseweretsa maliseche, chomwe mwina sichinapose amuna wamba, koma ndichakuti ndimadziwa kuti sindingathe kusiya zomwe zinandipangitsa kuzindikira. Nditakhala ndi kompyuta ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula, ngakhale nthawi yomweyo ndimadana nazo, ndipo moona mtima zimandisangalatsa. Koma iyenera kukhala dopamine, chifukwa nthawi zambiri ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndikakwiya mwanjira ina. Ndipo ndimakhala obisalira, wokwiya, komanso wosasangalala. Ndinganene moona mtima kuti zolaula zakhala zowononga moyo wanga wonse, kufikira mbali zonse, kuphatikiza banja langa ndi ntchito yanga. Ndikulakalaka kuti ndithetse.
Ndikuganiza kuti ndizowopsa kuti amuna ngati 81% aku koleji amawonera zolaula ndi AKAZI, 31% mwa iwo amaziwona. Ndapeza zodabwitsazi kuposa amuna 81%, chifukwa ndamva kudzera pazinthu zingapo kuti amayi satsegulidwa ndi mawonekedwe owoneka ndipo atha kuwerenga buku lachikondi. Ndikulingalira kuti zomwe adanenazo zidangotuluka pazenera, popeza 1 mwa azimayi atatu amaonera zolaula. (Oo, izi zikuwonekabe ngati zambiri.) Zowonadi ndizabwino, zoyipa kwenikweni, sizabwino, kwa ife anyamata. Sindikufuna kuti ubongo wa mkazi wanga wamtsogolo uwonongedwe ndi zolaula, motero moyo wake umawoneka wotopetsa komanso wosasangalatsa. Ndimakumbukira nthawi yomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndizabwino ngati mtsikana wokongola amaonera zolaula. Jeez izi ndizowopsa ngakhale. Ndizomvetsa chisoni kuwona momwe ukadaulo woyipa wasokonekera ndi ubongo wathu chifukwa cha zolaula pa intaneti.
[Zaka 67] Moyo wanga wonse udakhala wosungulumwa, wosungulumwa wokhala ndi zolaula zomwe zimachitika ndi zochitika zolaula zomwe ndimadzipangira kapena kuzipeza pa intaneti. Ndinakhala nthawi yambiri ndikuchita manyazi komanso manyazi. [Tsopano] ndimakonda kuyang'ana akazi m'diso, osamverera ngati weirdo kapena wonyenga komanso wabodza. Ndimakonda kukhala womveka bwino komanso womveka bwino. Ndimakonda kumverera zabwino. Ndinazindikira kuti zolaula zimakhudza kwambiri momwe ndimagwirizanirana ndi anthu omwe ali pafupi ndi ine ndipo zimakhudza kwambiri momwe ndimamvera za ine.
Chidziwitso changa cha Nofap komanso zotsatirapo zanga pa kulemera kwanga
Chabwino ndiye zondichitikira zanga momwe kukula ndi zolaula kwandithandizira kuti ndikhale wopepuka. Mwina anthu ena akumana ndi zokumana nazo zosiyana, chifukwa chake sindikunena kuti umu ndi momwe zimakhudzira aliyense. Ndili ndi zaka 19 ndipo ndakhala ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kuyambira giredi eyiti. Nthawi zonse ndimadana ndi zolaula komanso maliseche, koma sindimaganiza kuti zili ndi zotsatirapo zoyipa. Nditazindikira makanema a TED, ndikuwonetsa kuti zolaula komanso maliseche ndizovulaza, ndidayamba kudzifunsa kuti ndi zinthu zingati zomwe ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Ndilibe vuto kuyankhula ndi atsikana, sindine womangika, ndipo ndakhala ndi zibwenzi zingapo m'mbuyomu. Ndinayambitsanso timu yampira wa varsity chaka changa cha kusekondale ku sekondale. Nditapitilizabe kuyang'ana zomwe zolaula zimakhudza, ndidazindikira kuti zakhala zikuyendetsa masewera anga. Chakumapeto kwa chaka changa cha kusekondale ndipamene ndimakonda zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche, ndipo ndikukumbukira kuti ndinali ndi mphamvu zochepa panthawi yochita masewera olimbitsa thupi, osaganizira kwambiri, komanso osamva bwino tikapambana masewera. Zotsatira zomwezi za PMO zanditsatira kuchipinda cholemera nyengo ino. Mwachitsanzo, mphamvu yanga yoyera yamagetsi idakanikira pa 230lbs kwa milungu ingapo, ndipo sindimatha kuzindikira zomwe ndimachita molakwika. Pa masiku khumi ndi asanu ndi awiri mphambu zisanu ndi ziwiri, ndinamva kukhala wamphamvu, wolimba mtima, komanso wotsimikiza, kuti ndimatha kuyatsa mapaundi a 15 kuposa ma max anga. Nthawi zonse ndimawona kupita patsogolo ndikulimba mtima ndikakhala kuti sindinathe m'masabata angapo. Tsoka ilo ndayambiranso zizolowezi zoyipa posachedwa, koma ndikudziwa kuti ngati ndikufuna kukhala wolimba kwambiri momwe ndingakhalire, ndiyenera kusiya zolaula komanso maliseche.
Posachedwa ndakhala ndikufufuza ngati zopanda pake za dopamine zinali chifukwa cha OCD ndi mavuto omwe amaganiza. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi zomwezo kuyambira pomwe ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri ndili wamng'ono ndikukhala ndi OCD pamene ndinayamba kuchita zolaula.
Ndikulemba pa zifukwa zomwe ndikudana nazo KUPEMBANA ndi zolaula, choncho chifukwa chake ndatsimikiza mtima kuligonjetsa.
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- Zimandipangitsa kukhala zombie, yemwe sasamala za china chilichonse. Ndayiwala zinthu, kupewa zinthu, kuzengereza, kuchoka kwa mkazi wanga ndi ana kuti ndingokhala ndekha ndi iPad yanga ndikudyetsa chizolowezicho.
- Ndili ndi mkazi wokongola kwambiri yemwe, ndikamakula, ndimanyalanyaza m'malo mwa "akazi" ocheperako omwe sindikuwadziwa.
- Zimasokoneza kugona kwanga ndipo zimachepetsa kwambiri ntchito yapamwamba ndikutha kuganizira.
- zimataya nthawi. Nthawi yanga, nthawi ya mkazi wanga, nthawi ya ana anga. Ndikukula, ndikuwononga moyo wanga ndikuchepetsa mtundu wawo.
- zimandigwetsa ulesi ku mawu amphamvu ozungulira ine omwe ali ndi mwayi weniweni wokula, kukula, kukwaniritsa, kuthandiza ena, mndandanda ukupitilira…
Ndinayamba kuchita zolaula zolaula kwambiri, ndipo ngakhale apo sindinali kupeza mpumulo waukulu, ngakhale nditatha maola ambiri patsiku. Tsopano popeza ubongo wanga umakhala wovuta (milungu ingapo yopanda zolaula) sindikusowa zolaula zoterezi, koma ndikayambiranso zitha kukhala nthawi ndisanakhale chimodzimodzi. Ndiyeno chiyani? Ndili ndi zaka 24-25 zokha.
Nditangopeza YBOP mu June ndikuyamba kuyambiranso, ndinamva ngati wopambana ndipo kudzidalira kwanga kudakulirakulira ndipo nkhawa zanga zidatha. Ndinayamba kulankhula ndi amayi ndikudziyesa kuti ndikhale wowolowa manja. Sindinasamale kwenikweni zomwe anthu amaganiza za ine komanso ndidauza anzanga ambiri za zovuta zanga zolaula komanso zomwe zimandipweteka. Ndikumva ngati ndathandizira ena chifukwa zolaula ndizovuta m'badwo wanga. (Ndine 23.) Pafupifupi anzanga onse amuna amawonera zolaula ndipo akhala zaka zambiri.
Kwa ambiri a ife (ndekha ndikuphatikizira), ED ndiye woyamba kukhala konkriti / chodzidzimutsa chomwe chimatigwedeza, ndikutipangitsa kuzindikira kuti china chake chokhudza kugonana kwathu sichabwino. Inde, pakhoza kukhala pali malingaliro okhudzana ndi zolaula kapena maubale, koma mwanjira ina ikakhudza 'ED yanga, mbolo yanga' vutoli limakhala losapeweka, 'kutsogolo ndi pakati' m'miyoyo yathu.
Ndinali ndani pamene ndinayamba:
- Ndinali munthu wosiyana, monga kulandiridwa ku Mzinda Wosasangalatsa, anthu: ine aka fagot.
- Ndinkadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa komanso ndinkachita manyazi. Sindinathe kuyang'anitsitsa maso ndi anthu. Ndingagonjetsedwe ndi mantha poyanjana.
- Mwina nthawi zonse amafuna kumeza pansi.
- Palibe chidziwitso kumene ndikupita mmoyo.
- Maso akuda, khungu loipa, mau ofooka, NO KUDZIWA.
- Kukhumudwa koopsa ndi kukambirana.
- Kusagwirizana ndi anthu opanda mabwenzi enieni
- Kodi cholinga cha mtsikana aliyense, chinali chowopsya kwa iwo
- Zonsezi zinangomverera ngati panali fogking mdima wandiweyani wotsalira pa moyo wanga
- Khalani ndi vuto -> onerani zolaula -> pitirizani kumva zoipa -> onerani zolaula -> DURRR Y NDIMAKHALA WOIPA
Ndili ndani tsopano:
- Kuda nkhawa ndi moyo, munthu wokondwa kwambiri
- Odzaza ndi mphamvu
- Liwu lozama, khungu labwino, maso okhwima, KUDZIWA KWAMBIRI
- Matabwa a mmawa 😀
- Angathe kuona chithunzi chachikulu, ndikuphunzira zambiri kuchokera paulendo uno
- Kudalira mkhalidwe wa chikhalidwe ndi kulankhula ndi alendo ndi okondedwa
- Anayang'ana pa maloto anga ndi zokondweretsa
- Wotchuka, pangani anzanu mosavuta, amatha kufotokoza ndekha
- Atsikana otentha amandisowa - ndichiyani?
- Nkhungu yanyamula ndipo zovuta kufotokozera momwe moyo uliri wabwino pambuyo pake.
IWO NDI MOYO WOONA.
Ndinkakonda kukhala wamphamvu pamene ndinali 16-17 (Ndikulingalira kuti mahomoni anga anali kutulutsa gehena). Koma kwinakwake pakati pa 18, ndidayamba kukhala mnyamata wozizira. Ndimaganiza kuti ndakhwima. Apa ndipamene nthawi yanga yolaula idayamba ndipo ndidayamba kugwiritsa ntchito caffeine ngati wamisala. Sindinamvepo kukwiya konse. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zimayamba kubwerera pang'onopang'ono. Ndikuwona kuti ndikukula bwino sabata ndi sabata ndizipitiliza izi!
Sindingathe kuthana ndichisoni ichi kuti china chake chalakwika ndi ine chifukwa chogonana komanso kusakhala ndi zovuta zilizonse ndikusokoneza kuyankha kwanga kwa azimayi kudzera maliseche komanso zolaula pazaka zonsezi. Ndimadandaula za ubale womwe udatha chifukwa cha nthawiyo komanso nthawi yomwe achinyamata adawonongeredwa m'nyumba ndekha ndikuwonera makanema ndikuwerenga zolaula komanso malingaliro.
Tsopano ndikuwona kuwonongeka kwakukulu komwe ndiyenera kukonza. Ndangokhala zaka 33 ndipo m'njira zambiri ndimamva ngati ndikunyamula komwe ndidasiya ndili ndi zaka 20 kapena apo. Khristu, sindimadziwa kumene ndiyambira. Sizomwe ndimazindikira kale nthawi imeneyo, mwina. Ndinangochedwetsa kuthana ndi zilizonse mwa kutaya zolaula, maliseche komanso misala. Tsopano ndimadzuka zaka 13 pambuyo pake ndikuzindikira kuti sindine wosazindikira komanso wamantha, kupatula kuti tsopano ndilibe zaka khumi kuti ndikasewere chimbudzi pomwe ndimapewa kukumana nacho. Zomwe ndikunena pano ndi maubale. Inu mukudziwa, akazi. Kugonana. Chikondi. Kupita masiku. Ndikumva ngati ndilibe nthawi yochuluka ngati ndikufuna kukhala ndi ana ndikukhala ndi banja koma… ndingatani kuti ndipeze malingaliro amenewo ndikakhala kuti sindikudziwa ngati ndingakwanitse nthawi yokwanira kuti ndigonane kamodzi, ndisiye Nthawi zokwanira kuti mubereke bwino.
Ine ndekha ndalankhula ndi 3 a abwenzi anga apamtima nthawi ina, ndipo onse a 3 anali ndi vuto lofanana la PMO, ndipo onse anandiuza kuti alibe chiyembekezo. Mnzanga wina anali atasiya, ndipo tidayamba tsiku lomwelo, koma adandiuza masiku angapo pambuyo pake kuti wasokoneza. Pambuyo pake sankafunanso kuyankhula za zonsezi chifukwa amangomva kukhala wopanda chiyembekezo, kuti sangathenso kusiya.
Kupyola zaka zonsezi ndadzikana ndekha (komanso atsikana angapo omwe ndakhala nawo) mwayi wopanga malingaliro omwe chikhalidwe chimafunadi. Ndikuganiza kuti kuledzera kwanga kwachititsa kuti maubwenziwo alephereke, omwe mwina angakhale ndi tsogolo labwino.
Ndili ndi zaka 30, ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kuyambira ndili wachinyamata, ndipo ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mavuto a erectile kwanthawi yayitali - kuyambira pomwe ndatha zaka 20, ngakhale kuti kwangotsala pang'ono kukhala ED. Ndidayimba mlandu abwenzi ("Sindikukukondani" / "Ndikulakalaka mukadakhala omvera kwambiri"), kukhala kwatsopano kwa anzanu ("Ndiyenera kupatsa thupi langa nthawi yoti ndifike kuubongo wanga") , milingo yolimbitsa thupi, zakudya, zaka, kupsinjika, nkhawa ya magwiridwe antchito ... Ndipo kwenikweni, onse, kupatula zomwe "Sindikufuna inu", mwina ali ndi gawo loti achite. Koma nditazindikira kuti sindingathenso kuseweretsa maliseche popanda zolaula - china chake chinadina. Zikuwoneka ngati zowonekeratu tsopano, inde, ndikudabwa ngati pali kulumikizana kapena kulumikizana pakati pa zolaula zambiri ndi ADHD (chomwe chinali chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe ndimamuwona wama psychologist wanga). Ndikudziwa kuti anthu omwe ali ndi ADHD amakonda kuchita zinthu mopupuluma komanso amakonda kuchita zoipa ndipo amalakalaka nthawi zonse.
Ndakhala ndikumva kuwawa kwambiri (monga, ola limodzi +) ndikuonera zolaula. Ndipo kangapo ndinali ndi magazi mu umuna wanga. Zinangokhala chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwa nthawiyo (ndikuganiza kuti ndimayang'ana zolaula 3 patsiku), komanso momwe ndidabweretsera. Nthawi zonse mumakhala ndi gawo momwe njira yokhayo yomwe mumamverera kuti mukufuna kutsika inali kuyiyika chitsulo ndikuchita ma kegels ndi china chilichonse? Eya… Ndinawombera mitsempha ingapo, yomwe imasakanikirana. Ndizo zonse zomwe zinali, mwamwayi.
Chimene chinapangitsa kuti malo anu adzidumphire pa ine ndikuti zizindikiro zonse zomwe mwafotokoza-kufotokozera libido, ED pakugonana ndi bwenzi lanu, kusinthasintha mobwerezabwereza kwa kuvutika maganizo, kusowa zolinga, etc. - ndiwonetseni ine ndi tee.
(Zaka 16) [Ndangoseweretsa maliseche osavomerezeka ndipo] ndimakhumudwa nazo. Momwemonso momwe ndidalili ndikamachita zachiwerewere ndi nkhani zachibale. Chifukwa chiyani sindingathe kusiya zolaula wamba ??? Komabe ... ndikufuna malangizo. Kodi ndingachotse bwanji izi m'mutu mwanga? Ndingatani kuti ndiziyiwala za izi ndikusunthira patsogolo. Ndili ndi nkhawa yayikulu mkati mwanga tsopano chifukwa cha izi.
Nthawi zambiri, ndimadziseweretsa maliseche osagwiritsa ntchito lube, chifukwa chake kumverera kwa nyini kapena mkamwa konyowa nthawi zonse kumakhala kosamveka, kosasangalatsa kwa mbolo yanga. Sindinakondwerepo, motero ndikuganiza kuti ichi chinali chifukwa chake sindinathe kusinthanso m'mbuyomu pakugonana. Mbolo yanga idkagwiritsidwa ntchito kuti ikhale yovuta pokhapokha itakwezedwa ndi dzanja lowuma, lamphamvu kwambiri komanso malingaliro osaganizira zolaula. Nzosadabwitsa kuti nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi vuto logonana - 99% ya zomwe mbolo yanga idakumana nazo zinali zosiyana kotheratu ndi kugonana kwenikweni ndi mkazi weniweni. Nthawi ino (tsiku 30) Ndinali wokondwa kuti nditha kugwedezeka mwamphamvu kuposa kungomva dzanja langa komanso lube. Sindinadziwepo kale koma panali nthawi zambiri pamene ndinakana atsikana osati chifukwa chakuti ndinali wamantha kapena nkhawa za kugonana, koma chifukwa chochita zolaula ndi maliseche 2-5 pa tsiku anali atasokoneza chikhumbo changa choti ndichoke kumeneko ndikuchita zomwe zimayenera kubwera kwa ine - pitani kukafunafuna atsikana ndi zochitika zogonana nawo, zikhale zogonana kapena zongopeka.
Ndikamagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri, zachilendo zilizonse zosagwirizana ndi zolaula sizimawoneka ngati zabwino. Ngakhale kuonera pulogalamu yatsopano yakanema kapena kusewera masewera atsopano kumangokhala ngati ntchito yayikulu.
M'magawo anga omaliza ndisanasiye zolaula, ndimafunikira kwambiri. Pamapeto pake, sindinkafuna ngakhale pang'ono kuchita nawo ziwonetserozi.
Muubwana wanga, ndimakonda kulowa mchipinda ndipo anthu amandiona ndikumakopeka ndi ine ndikufuna kulankhula nane. Ndikamayenda mumsewu ndimakhala ndi chidaliro komanso mphamvu ndipo atsikana amandizindikira ndikundivomereza. Zaka zikadutsa, PMO idakulirakulira ndipo mphamvuzo zidapita pang'onopang'ono. Moyo wanga pachikhalidwe unasokonekera. Nthawi zonse ndimanena kuti ndi ukalamba, koma ndinali kulakwitsa. Ndili wokonzeka kumva kuti ndazindikira wolakwayo. Ndikutha kumva kuti mphamvu ibwerera tsopano.
Kuchita maliseche tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina mpaka nthawi 5, ma tabu angapo, kukonzekera kwa maola mpaka pomwe dick wanga amadzimva kuti palibe ndipo ubongo wanga umawotcha ngati wopenga. Kodi ndinali wosakwatiwa? Ayi! Msungwanayo nthawi zonse amafunsa zogonana, koma ndimangobera ziphuphu kuti ndikhale "wothamanga" ndi zolaula ndikapita. Nthawi ina ndimakhala ndi chilakolako naye, ndinali wokhutira kwathunthu, koma sindinathe kukana zolaula atachoka mnyumbayo ngati ola limodzi pambuyo pake. Kenako zidachitika: bwenzi langa linali ngati kusowa. Ali pabedi amawoneka ngati utsi. Ubongo wanga unali wodzaza ndi mafano ena. Ndikulingalira za zithunzi zolaula ndikuthamangitsidwa, ndikudzimva, kugona, kusowa, ngati msungwana wanga anali mtunda wamakilomita khumi kuchokera kwa ine, mwachilengedwe, ED hit. Kukana, sanafune kuyimitsa nkhani yanga ina yachikondi, chinthu changa chachitali kwambiri! Chifukwa chake ndimangokhalira kulakalaka ndili naye ndikuyesera kuti zikhale zovuta, ndipo bwenzi langa lokondedwalo silinakhale chida china chobowoleza. Ndinakhala wachisoni, wokhumudwa, wokwiya msanga, ndipo ndinadzimva kuti ndinali kukhala mopepuka. The ED idakulirakulira, ngakhale malingaliro sanali okwanira.
Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi izi nthawi zambiri: kumverera ngati ndimatha kukhala wamaliseche ngakhale sindinali wovuta konse.
Ndili ndi zaka makumi awiri ndipo ndikudwala matendawa omwe amawoneka ngati atsopano a 21st Century omwe amayendetsedwa ndi ED. Ndakhala ndi mwayi katatu wotaya unamwali wanga ndi akazi enieni komanso amwazi ndipo ndakhala ndikulephera nthawi zonse (monga, azimayi awa anali pabedi langa ndipo anali okonzeka kupita, kuvala, koma sindinathe. Ndakhala ndi mwayi wina, ndipo ngakhale atsikana ena akugona pakama panga, koma sindinasamuke chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti sindingathe kutero… ngakhale ndili pakati pa 18 mpaka 22). Sindinena zambiri koma nthawi iliyonse ndinkachita manyazi, kukhumudwitsa komanso kulimbitsa thupi. Sindine wachiwerewere ngakhale pang'ono (ndimakwiya kwambiri amuna kapena akazi okhaokha) koma sindingagone ndi akazi awa. Ngati ndingasankhe liwu limodzi lofotokozera momwe zimakhalira ndikamayesa kugonana nawo, ndimagwiritsa ntchito liwu loti 'mlendo.' Zinkawoneka ngati zachilendo komanso zachilendo kwa ine. Zili ngati kuti ndakhala wokonzeka kukhala kutsogolo kwa chinsalu ndikuchigwedeza ndikumwalira zaka zonsezi kuti malingaliro anga aziganiza kuti ndi kugonana kwabwino m'malo mochita zogonana zenizeni. Ndikhoza kukhala wovuta zolaula, palibe vuto, koma osati kwa moyo wanga ndingakhale wovuta kwa mkazi weniweni.
Zolaula zasokoneza malingaliro anga pankhani ya akazi amoyo weniweni. Ndimachoka kwa mkazi mmodzi kupita kwina chifukwa samakonda **** zolaula komanso zoletsa zomwe andikhumudwitsa nazo.
Monga munthu amene ali ndi mdima wozungulira maso anga mwachilengedwe, zimaipiraipira ndikayamba. khungu limakhala lofiira komanso lonyentchera komanso lakuda kwambiri ndipo maso anga amawoneka otopa kwambiri. Nditabwerera kunyumba kukakhala ndi Khrisimasi pamzera wamasiku 14 makolo anga adati ndimawoneka bwino komanso wokongola ndipo maso anga amawoneka bwino, zomwe zachitika kangapo pamizere ina…. Maso anga akhala bwino, khungu langa limayamba kuwonekera bwino ndipo maso anga amawala kwambiri, ndipo ndazizindikiranso inenso.
Ndikuganiza kuti kuchuluka kwa anthu omwe ndimawadziwa mwa iwo omwe ali ndi vuto lakumwa za PMO sikunenedwe konse, chifukwa mwina A) Sadziwa kuti ndivuto, kapena B) Amachita manyazi kundiuza kapena anthu ena, kapena C) Iwo samaganiza kuti pali chilichonse chomwe angachite pa izi, kapena magulu othandizira okwanira. Anzanga atatu adazindikira kuti ali ndi vuto, koma 2 a iwo adati ayesapo kusiya, ndipo amangoganiza kuti palibe chomwe angachite. Amavomereza kuti amakonda kwambiri moyo wawo wonse. Gawo lazidziwitso pamagawo olandila mphotho ndichinthu chachikulu kwambiri, popeza kupewa kumadalira kwambiri kugwiritsa ntchito malingaliro, ndikulimbikitsa ubongo. Kupanda kutero, simudziwa chifukwa chomwe mukuimira.
Ndinayamba kuona zotsatira za zolaula nthawi zambiri ndikadakhala 22 kapena 23. Ndinayamba kutaya chidwi ndi atsikana m'moyo weniweni. Ndinali ndi vuto la erectile ndipo ndinachedwa kuchepa pamene ndinali ndi mtsikana weniweni. Izi zinandipangitsa kuti ndisapewe kugonana komanso kuwona maliseche.
Zikuwonekeratu kwa ine tsopano kuti maubwenzi angapo abwino omwe ndakhala nawo m'mbuyomu alephera makamaka chifukwa cha PMO. Ndimadzipeza ndekha ndili ndi zaka 36, zomwe sizoyipa kwambiri padziko lapansi, koma osati komwe ndimaganiza kuti ndikathera. Nthawi zina ndimayamba kudzimvera chisoni ndikumva chisoni ndi zomwe a PMO andichitira m'moyo wanga, koma kenako ndimayang'ana mbali yowala - mwina ndazindikira izi. Nthawi zonse pamakhala nthawi yosintha zinthu.
Panali mausiku ena pomwe ndimachita zolaula 3 kapena 4 nthawi, ngati sindimamva ngati kuchita homuweki. Kwa inu omwe mulibe chidziwitso ndi izi (ndikukhulupirira kuti ambiri a inu), sizikumvanso bwino; ziphuphu zimatha kuvulaza.
Vuto langa lalikulu kwazaka pafupifupi 3 tsopano (Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 20) ndakhala ndikutopa kwambiri komanso ubongo waubongo. Kunena zoona, palibe tsiku limodzi m'zaka zitatu zapitazi pomwe sindinatope kwambiri mpaka ndimatha kugona. M'malo mwake, ndimamva ngati ndikadagona nthawi iliyonse kupatula ~ 3 kapena maola angapo nditadzuka kutulo. Mfundo yofunika kwambiri pamoyo wanga inali pamene ndinamaliza sukulu ya sekondale. Ndinali wamtali, wa mawonekedwe abwino, ndinamaliza maphunziro anga pamwamba pa kalasi yanga, ndikupita ku yunivesite yakomweko komwe ndikadakhala chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna, ndikadathandizidwa ndi abwenzi achikondi ndi abale, ndi zina. Zinthu zinali zangwiro. Komano, pafupifupi ngati temberero, PAMENE nditangoyamba yunivesite mavuto adayamba kubwera. Sindikudziwa kuti ndimachita maliseche motani koma zinali zochuluka, ndipo zidayamba kundigwira.
Pazinthu zambiri zam'mbuyomu, nditatha kupatula ndikufuna kukhala ndekha, zinali zopsa mtima kwambiri, zinkasokoneza mphamvu ndikudzazidwa ndi manyazi komanso chisoni. Kuphatikizidwa ndi ubongo komanso kusakhoza kuthana ndi zovuta zowonjezereka, kuphatikizapo kukhumudwa ku zokondweretsa zokambirana ndi kukhala pafupi ndi anthu, ndinkakhala wamantha kwambiri komanso osasokonezeka.
Ndakhala ndikupita nthawi yayitali ndisanakhalepo, zina mpaka mwezi umodzi. Komabe, ndimachita maliseche a LOT munthawi imeneyi (mwina kuposa masiku onse). Sindinapeze kuti panali kusiyana kulikonse m'mene ndimamvera kotero ndidabwereranso. Ndikamati "momwe ndimamvera", ndikungonena za malingaliro anga. Ndili ndi utsi wambiri muubongo ndipo ndimatha kuganizira kapena kuganiza nthawi zambiri. Ndimadwalanso ndi matenda otopa kwambiri, omwe amakhumudwitsa. Pali ED pang'ono, koma kunena zowona kuti izi zachitika ndichachiwiri kuti ndibwezeretse malingaliro anga munjira yoyenera. Ndine wachinyamata (20) ndipo ndidakali ku yunivesite. Poyamba ndinali wochenjera ngati chikwapu, ndipo ndinali ndi njira iliyonse yomwe ndingaganizire. Kuledzera kwa PMO kwandilepheretsa kukumbukira ndi ubongo wanga mpaka pomwe ndikuvutika kuti ndizichita pafupifupi sukulu (zomwe ndikuganiza kuti ndizodabwitsa kwambiri momwe ndimamvera).
Ndikaganiza za izo tsopano, sindingaganize za nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndikukula pamene sindinayambe ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula mwanjira ina (kuyambira zaka 12). Nditayamba kuyunivesite, ndidacheza ndi msungwana wodabwitsa ndipo ndidakhala naye pafupifupi miyezi 18. Tsoka ilo sindinagwiritse ntchito bwino masiku amenewo, ndikupewa zochitika pagulu posangalalira masiku osungulumwa pa intaneti ... Zolakalaka zanga zakhala zikukwaniritsa pang'ono monga zidapitilira, ndipo posachedwapa zandibweretsa (tsopano 23) mkhalidwe watsopano. Posachedwa ndidayamba kujambula makanema ambiri azolaula. Sindimawayang'ana onse. Ndimangozisonkhanitsa. Zachilendo kwambiri. Zili ngati mtundu wina wa chikho. Ndinkakhalanso ndikudya zolaula, koma ndikuchulukitsa kuti ndikhale ndi maliseche masiku angapo. Nditamaliza (pafupifupi masiku 4 apitawo), sizinali zokhutiritsa kwathunthu, koma ndimamva kuwawa ndipo tsopano zikuwoneka kuti sindingakwanitse kukonzekera. N'zosadabwitsa kuti munganene. Koma sindinakhalepo ndi vuto ndikukwaniritsa zochitika zokha, kusintha kwina kwatha. Ndikuganiza kuti biologically uku ndiye kutsika kwambiri komwe ndidapitako, ngakhale m'maganizo chilimbikitso chidalipo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti sindinadzivulaze kwenikweni ndipo ndikumadzuka kwenikweni pazomwe ndachita kuubongo ndi thupi langa kwazaka zambiri. Chodandaula changa chachikulu tsopano ndikuti ngakhale ndikuganiza kuti nditha kuzisiya, ndili ndi mantha kuti ndawononga zosayerekezeka ndimayesabe kuyesa zinthu zikugwirabe ntchito. Masiku oyambilira ndikudziwa, koma zimandiwopsa kwenikweni ndikaganiza kuti mwina sindidzagwiranso ntchito, makamaka pano ndikamayang'ana zamtsogolo ndikukhala pansi ndikuganiza mozama za banja.
Sindinagone tulo kuti ndikhalebe ndikuyang'ana zolaula. Ndimawerengera maola otsala mpaka nditapita kunyumba ndikuyamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndapewa kuyimba foni ndi zochitika kuti ndikhale kunyumba. Ndanyalanyaza ntchito yofunika kwambiri yomwe ndiyenera kuyang'ana. Ndimadzimva kuti ndikumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ndilibe kudziletsa.
Ndapatsidwa zochuluka zokwanira kuti ndikhale ndi moyo wabwino, wopindulitsa. Koma kwa zaka zambiri tsopano, ndakhala ndikulowa m'malo okhumudwa komanso wopanda mphamvu. Ndinali ndi lingaliro la zomwe zimanditopetsa, ndikuyesera mwamphamvu kuti ndisavomereze. Chaka chino ndidayamba kusaka zovuta. Ndinasiya udzu osachita khama, komanso ndudu ndi khama kwambiri. Sindinakonzekere kapena kuzizindikira, koma ndasiya caffeine. Sindinamvepo zovuta zakutha, koma panali kusintha pang'ono pang'onopang'ono. Ndidasokonekera pang'ono, ndikumva kutopa kwambiri, ndipo ndataya chilichonse kuti ndichite. Sindinakhalepo ndi anzanga m'masabata angapo, ndipo zimandivuta kuyankha foni. Ndakhala woyimba kwanthawi yonse, koma sindinakhudze zida zanga. Ndakhala ndikusangalala ndi ubongo posachedwa. Komabe, ndakhala masiku ochepa osagonana maliseche tsopano. Ndawona chinthu chimodzi lero chomwe chandidetsa nkhawa. Ndinatsegula zolaula ndipo ngakhale ubongo wanga unayankha, panalibe yankho kuchokera ku thupi langa lonse. Palibe kusintha kwa kupuma, kugunda kwa mtima, kutaya magazi mpaka ku mbolo. Ndimayang'anitsitsa thupi langa, ndipo ndinazindikira kuti palibe chomwe chingachitike ndikapanda kuyamba kuyambitsa mwamphamvu. Zakhala chonchi kwakanthawi. Thupi langa lakhala likupempha kuti ndipume.
Mukudziwa zomwe zikundipatsa chilimbikitso chowonjezera kuti ndikhalebe mgalimoto? Mantha. Mantha = “zoyipa zoyera! Ndikhala 26 posachedwa. Wolemba zolaula yemwe amachititsa kuti ED azivutika ndi zaka 26ye. Ndidangokhalira kusangalala zaka 10 zomwe ndikadakhala nazo. M'malo mwake ndinali wotanganidwa ndikutsamira pakompyuta. Ngati sindidzadula izi, ndidzakhala mu 30s ndipo sindidzakhalanso ndi erection. Ndili ndi mantha mwadzidzidzi chifukwa chokhala wopanda zaka 30. ZOOPSA!
Sindinadziwe kuti PMO yandikhudza bwanji kuyambira nditayamba kumwa kamodzi patsiku kuchokera m'kalasi la 6th. Umenewu ndi chaka chomwe ndinayamba PMO'ing ndi kumene moyo wanga unasintha, ndipo ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndikufika ku zolaula zonyansa. Ndikayang'ana kumbuyo, chaka cha sukuluyi ndinasintha chifukwa ndinasiya kuyesera ndikusafuna kugwira ntchitoyi. Ndinali ndi anzanga ochepa chifukwa ndinali wamantha komanso ndinali ndi nkhawa. Malingaliro amenewo anapitiliza mu HS ndipo amandipweteka kwambiri pamene ndikugwiritsa ntchito ku makoleji. Ku koleji, masukulu anga anali bwino chifukwa sindinkafuna kuchotsedwera kunja ... ndipo ndinali ndikuyenda kwambiri. Zoonadi ndili ndi 3.0 koma zikanakhala zabwino kwambiri. Ndinamaliza maphunziro anga mosavuta chifukwa sindinkafuna kugwira ntchito mwakhama. Ponseponse sukulu ya sekondale, sukulu ya sekondale, ndi koleji sindinayambe ndikhale naye chibwenzi ndipo ndinkangokhala ndi usiku umodzi wokha ndikuima ndi atsikana angapo ku koleji chifukwa chomwa mowa. Ku koleji ndinayamba kupeza ubongo wa ubongo, kudziwonetsera, nthawi zonse ndikusangalala komanso kutopa kuwonjezera pa kukhala woipa / osakondwera ndi atsikana. Ndinaganiza kuti ndikumvetsa chisoni kapena matenda a lyme ndipo ndimakhala ndi mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndikuyesera kuti ndikhale wokondwa ndikulimbana ndi chifukwa chomwe ndinkasokonekera. Ndinapunthwa pa sitepiyi mwangozi miyezi ya 6 yapitayo ndipo ndinazindikira kuti izi zikuwoneka kuti ndiye magwero a mavuto anga. Zinalidi zoona. Ndili ndi maunyolo pa iPhone yanga kuti ndizindikire masiku omwe akuthandiza kwambiri. Ndimamva ngati ndikudutsa msinkhu wa kutha msinkhu ngati masiku akupita phindu pa izi.
Sikuti sindinatsegulidwe ndi chiyembekezo chogonana. Zithunzi zolaula komanso lingaliro logonana kwenikweni ndizosangalatsa (mwina lingaliro lakugonana NDI LOSANGALATSA). Kungoti ndikakhala ndikuchita izi, ndimamva ngati sindikudziwa choti ndichite kapena kuganiza kuti ndidziwe. Zili ngati kuti ubongo wanga waphunzitsidwa kuyambitsa erection chifukwa cha zolaula, osati zenizeni.
Nthawi zonse ndakhala munthu amene ndimayenera kuchotsa chimodzi ndisanachite chilichonse. Ndikadzuka. Ndikasamba ndisanapite kuntchito. Ndikagona ndisanagone, nthawi zambiri kawiri. Zonse pamodzi, osachepera katatu patsiku. Tsiku lililonse. Ndili ndi zaka 20, ndipo ndinapeza maliseche ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 11. Ndiye mumachita masamu. … Kuyang'ana zolaula zonyansa kwambiri kuti ndisiye chifukwa zinthu wamba sizingathe kuchitanso, kukhala ndi malingaliro oipa kwambiri, ndi zina zotero. Chomwe chinandipangitsa kuti ndikhale ndi ululu nthawi ndi nthawi ndikadzuka. Izi zakhala zikuchitika kwa zaka zambiri, ululu wochepa m'chiuno mwanga - kumbuyo kwanga, ndipo nthawi zonse zinkawonjezeka chifukwa cha kusamba. Ndinaphatikiza 2 ndi 2 pamodzi ndipo ndinachita kafukufuku wanga, zomwe zinandiuza kuti izi zinali 100% chifukwa cha kuseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso, ([kuyambira kusiya] kwatha, palibe chizindikiro choti zinachitikapo.) Ndipo ulendowu unayamba. Tsiku lachitatu kale!
Zikomo chifukwa cha nkhani yanu, Losing At Porn Roulette . Pafupifupi mawu ndi mawu, ndakumana ndi zomwezo monga munthu m'nkhani yanu. Kuwerenga mawu anu kunali ngati kuchotsa chigoba cha nkhope ya wina pa nkhope yanga. Ndinayamba msanga ndi intaneti, sindinapeze mwayi wodzipangira dzina langa: m'malo mwake, ndinapatsidwa imodzi ndi dopamine downward spiral pamodzi ndi intaneti yopanda malire. Ndikudziwa kuti sindine munthu ameneyo, ndipo ndasokonezeka chifukwa chokhala ndi zizindikiro zomwezo monga anyamata omwe ali m'nkhani yanu; kwenikweni ndalephera kupanga maubwenzi achikondi chifukwa cha izi.
Ndikamalowa tsiku lililonse (kangapo patsiku), wina akandiyitana kuti ndipite, ndimangozichotsa nthawi yomweyo. Ngakhale ndimaganiza kuti azimayi anali okongola kwambiri, sindinkafuna kuyesa kuchita nawo chilichonse, chifukwa nthawi zonse ndimakhutitsidwa. Ndili wachinyamata ndidadutsa nthawi yomwe ndimakwanira pafupifupi khumi patsiku (ndipo izi sizokokomeza, nthawi zina zimakhala zoposa izi), ndikamakula, zimafika pokhazikika katatu kapena kanayi patsiku, chilichonse tsiku. Ndinachita mantha kwakanthawi, kenako nkhawa, kenako zizindikiro za ADHD (pomwe sindimatha kuyang'ana chilichonse, ndikusiya zonse zomwe ndidayamba). Ndinamva manyazi kwambiri kuti sindingathe kuthandiza. Tsopano, pambuyo pa masiku 90 opanda zolaula / maliseche, sindinena kuti ndilibe nkhawa. Koma zidachepa ngati 80% kuchokera momwe zidakhalira. Pakadali pano ndidzakhala wopanda nkhawa posachedwa. Chifukwa chake, ndiloleni ndipange mndandanda pang'ono kuti izi ziziwoneka zosavuta.
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- Osachepera nkhaŵa
- Boner nthawi iliyonse
- chidaliro
- Kulakalaka kukumana ndi anthu ndi kutuluka (sindinali ngati SAP monga ena a inu, koma ngati muli SAP kwambiri ndipo miyezi itatu simadula, khalani pamenepo)
- 100% yowonjezera mu zomveka
- Azimayi amazindikira radar (mtsikana aliyense mkati mwazitali za makumi atatu adzaonekera pomwepo)
- Kuwonjezereka kwa 100% (popanda ADHD monga zizindikiro, tsopano ndikhoza kumaliza zinthu zomwe ndikuyamba)
Nthawi zambiri ndimaganiza kuti zolaula zitha kundipulumutsa kuti ndisadzivulaze kapena kudzipha. Koma nditaiganizira mozama ndazindikira kuti kugwiritsa ntchito PMO kumangolimbitsa nkhawa zanga komanso malingaliro ndi zochita zanga zovulaza, ndikupangitsa zonse m'moyo kukhala zomvetsa chisoni. CHABWINO sichabwino kukhala ndi "mpumulo" kwakanthawi, kungokuwonani mukuwotcha moyo wanu kumapeto.
[Wachinyamata 20-china] ndinali nditangoseweretsa maliseche kangapo patsiku ndikudzifunsa "Chifukwa chiyani ndikuchita izi? Tsopano sindimamvanso bwino ngati kale. ” ndipo adaganiza zoyesa nofap. Zinali zaka pafupifupi 2 kuyambira nthawi yanga yomaliza ngakhale kukhudza mtsikana. Kuchita maliseche ndiye njira yanga yokhayo yogonana.
Pakadali pano ndili m'malingaliro momwe mumangokhala ngati zoyipa chifukwa cha momwe mwathawira. Zili ngati chiwerewere chomangokhala komwe libido yanu imaphwanyidwa, kusakanizidwa, kusungunuka ndikupangidwa kukhala msuzi (womwe umadyedwa ndikuswedwa ndikuponyera mchimbudzi kumalo amzimbudzi omwe sitikudziwa kumtunda) koma momwemonso kunenedwa chifukwa cha zolinga zanu. Chilichonse chimangokhala chonchi komanso chotalikirapo komanso kuti ndinu aulesi, osakhudzidwa ndipo chinthu chokha chomwe mungavutike nacho ndikuwuza anzanu pa intaneti momwe onse akumvera. Ndimayesetsa kufunsira ntchito pakadali pano koma ndangozengereza - sindingavutike ndikadutsa mafunso okhudza luso.
Ndazindikira zomwe zolaula zimachita kwa azimayi amoyo wanga. Zimapotoza ndikutembenuza pafupifupi mkazi aliyense yemwe ndimamuwona ngati zolaula. Zayamba kulamulidwa. Ikufuna kuchita zolaula zomwe ndidaziwona masiku apitawa. Diso langa lamalingaliro limalowetsa nyenyezi yoyang'ana zolaula ndi akazi enieni omwe ndimayang'ana. Izi zikundikwiyitsa chifukwa zimabwera nthawi zosayenera kwambiri, ndipo zimangowoneka kuti zikuchedwa momwe maso anga amaganizira.
Ndikadapumira pama binges akulu a PMO omwe amatha kuyambira pomwe ndimadzuka ngati 8 'o koloko m'mawa ndikupitiliza kukonda 2 kapena 3 masana, pomwe kudya, kumwa ndikupita kuchimbudzi kumayambira. Ndimakumbukira tsiku lina ndikudziwona ndekha pakalilole nthawi ina yamisonkhanoyi ndipo ndimawoneka ngati zombie, maso anga adawoneka okhumudwa, magazi ndipo alibe moyo. Zinandichititsa mantha. Koma izi sizinandilepheretse. Nditadzikongoletsa panthawiyi ndimadziuza kuti ndamaliza tsiku lomwelo, koma Hei, mphindi 15 pambuyo pake ndimamverera ngati lustball yopenga iyi ndikubwerera pakompyuta ndikuwona ma vaginas kuposa omwe munthu m'modzi ayenera kuwona m'moyo wonse. Izi ndi zina mwa zotulukapo zakusokonekera kwanga mpaka pano
- chidaliro chochepa
- -ndipo chikhalidwe
- -kudzimva chisoni, manyazi, kunyansidwa ndikudziwa kuti sindikukwanitsa zanga zanga monga munthu tsiku lililonse
- zovuta za atsikana
- maola ochepa a 2920 omwe anataya PMO (zaka 8 x 1 ora PMO patsiku) izi zikugwirizana ndi 122 (masiku ola limodzi la 24) omwe anataya PMO
- khalidwe loopsa ngati PMO pa ntchito ndi yunivesite
- kulephera kupeza erection nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinagonana ndi mtsikana. Ngakhale kuyambira pamenepo ndakhala ndikukhala ndi atsikana angapo osiyana. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimachita bwino ndikuganizira, koma nthawi zambiri ndimapeza kuti sindingathe kukhala ndi erection yonse (chifukwa champhamvu yophunzitsa maliseche) ndikuyesetsa kukwaniritsa chiwonetsero ndi msungwana osaganizira zolaula pamutu panga.
Ndinali ndi "zizindikiro" ZONSE. Ndikhoza kupeza "thanthwe" mwamphamvu chifukwa chowonera zolaula, koma osafuna kugonana kwenikweni. Mwina idayamba pafupifupi chaka chapitacho. Nthawi yomweyo, zolaula zanga zidakwera padenga. Ndimatha kugwiritsa ntchito maola ambiri patsiku, ndikumanga makanema ochulukirapo.
Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri ndichinthu chomwe anthu akunyalanyaza ndipo ndikuganiza chikuwononga kwambiri. Osati kwa anthu omwe ali osokoneza bongo okha, komanso ena ofunika komanso abale awo omwe alibe lingaliro. Ndikudziwa kuti ndalalatira anthu kale chifukwa ndinali ndisanakonzekere tsiku lililonse. Sindinazindikire kuti ndiye chifukwa chake panthawiyo, koma tsopano ndikudziwa ndipo ndikumva chisoni. Ndakhala ndi msungwana wokongola akuti "vuto langa ndi chiyani?" za iye yekha kwa ine ndikudabwa chifukwa chake sindinathe kumumangira. Ndi chinthu choyipa bwanji chomwe ndidamupangitsa kuti aganize, kuti panali china chake cholakwika ndi iye, pamene ndinali ine yemwe anali ndi vuto lalikulu.
Wobwenzi wanga anayamba kuyang'ana kwambiri pambuyo pa 4 mpaka masabata a 5. Mwa ichi ndikutanthauza kuti pamwamba penipeni sizinkawoneka zokongola koma zosavuta komanso zowonongeka. Popanda fap, khungu limakhala ndi mwayi wofewetsa ndi kubwezeretsa. Zinali zoonekeratu.
Zizindikiro Zanga Zisanafike Nofap
- Zero Kuchokera ku D. Bwenzi langa labwino latsopano linali atagona pafupi ndi ine pabedi, ndipo ndinali ku 0% erection. Ndinalumbirira ndekha kuti ndibwino kuti ndifereko kusiyana ndikumanganso. Lankhulani za zolimbikitsa!
- Chifukwa cha nkhaŵa yaikulu, ndikungoyang'ana nkhope yanga mu tulo yanga, mpaka pomwe ikani zizindikiro zooneka. Anthu amandifunsa ngati ndataya nkhondo ndi kamba.
- Sindinkagona kuti ndisagone. Ndinkagona pamenepo ndikudandaula za chilichonse pansi pa dzuwa.
- Ndikanathyola mano anga atagona. Ine ndinali kuvala zovala zanga ndipo tsopano ndizivala kudikirira kuti mugone. Dokotala wanga wa mano anandiuza kuti ndidzafunika ntchito yayikulu ya mano ngati izi zikupitirira.
- Mbali yanga ya kumanzere idzapweteka nthawi zonse chifukwa cha zovuta zonse zobwerezabwereza zomwe zimayambitsa maola ambiri.
- Dick anafota ndi kuvulazidwa kuchokera ku nkhanza zonse.
- Nkhawa nthawi zonse.
- Waulesi, wosabereka. Ndiyambitsa ntchito ndikufulumira kutaya chidwi.
- Khalidwe losaiŵala, lachiwerewere, losagwirizana ndi anthu. Maganizo anga ankangoyendayenda pamene wina anali kulankhula nane.
- Kupewa zochitika za anthu, ngakhale ndi anzanga ogwira nawo ntchito kapena achibale anga. Ndikanakhala ndi zifukwa zoti ndisamagwiritse ntchito nthawi ndi achibale kapena anzanga, pofuna kusewera masewera achizungu. Ndinali kuchoka kumoyo weniweni.
- Akuchedwa kutuluka pabedi. Ngakhale atatha maola a 8 akugona, ndinamva ngati ndingabwererenso ku 8 ina.
- Mphamvu zochepa / zolimbikitsira kuchita zosangalatsa kapena ntchito.
- Ndinali wodzichepetsa, zomwe zinandipangitsa ine osowa ndi akazi. Ndinafotokozera chimwemwe changa pogwiritsa ntchito ngati ndili ndi mkazi mmoyo wanga kapena ayi. Ndikanakhala ndi nkhawa, ndinapweteka kwambiri chifukwa cha chibwenzi changa chimasokonezeka ndi ine, nkhawa imeneyi inasokonekera ku moyo wanga wouma, zomwe zikanatha kuwatsogolera kuti ndiwononge moyo wanga. Zaka 35 - ED Zachiritsidwa, Moyo Wosinthidwanso. Malangizo Ophatikiza, Zowerengera, ndi Zowonera
Kuyambira pafupifupi 20 yanga yaposachedwa mpaka pano ndakhala mkaidi wa PMO, ndikumusankha kuposa abwenzi, banja, ntchito, zochitika zina kukhala zosatetezeka popanda izi, koma ndizodabwitsa kwambiri. Kupyolera mu 2011, ndakhala ndikudandaula kwambiri polipira kuti ndiwonere zolaula (zomwe ndinalumbirira ndekha kuti Sindingachite) ndikuyamba kuwona atsikana amoyo chifukwa pansi pake ndimafuna china chowonadi. Zithunzi za Porn ndizofunika kuzilingalira mozama mdziko lino chifukwa mabanja ake akulekana komanso kuwononga miyoyo ya anthu.
Amayi ochulukirachulukira amawonera zogonana momwe akuwonetsera zolaula: chotsani zovala zanu, fufuzani, valani zovala zanu. Kugonana kuli ngati chinthu chotsimikizira. Anyamata amalankhula za izi motere chifukwa amakopeka ndi zomwe amawona pazenera, ndipo azimayi azitengera izi kuchokera kwa iwo - kuti azikondedwa ndi anyamata omwewo (omwe sadziwa zogonana). Ndi nkhani yomvetsa chisoni kwambiri. Anyamata agwidwa ndi ziyembekezo za amayi zomwe iwowo adalenga.
(Zaka 22) Malingana ngati ndikukumbukira kuti ndimasewera maliseche mpaka 3 patsiku - ngakhale palibe chomwe chingatuluke mukamatulutsa mphamvu !! Ndinali ndi mtsikana, ndipo ndinataya erection. Kwakhaladi udzu womaliza. Zandisiya ndili ndi nkhawa. Mwezi watha wakhala wowopsa - mpaka pomwe dokotala adandiuza Sertraline. Chotsatira chimodzi ndikuti zimatha kuyambitsa ED! Osati zomwe ndikufuna pakadali pano…
Ndikuganiza kuti zolaula zasokoneza malingaliro anga a momwe mkazi ayenera kuwonekera. Sindikutanthauza mwanjira yomwe ndimaganizira kuti ndili ndi chiyembekezo chosakwaniritsidwa chifukwa azimayi omwe amakhala ndi zolaula nthawi zonse amakhala ndi zodzoladzola, opaleshoni ya pulasitiki, ndi zina zambiri. Ndikutanthauza kuti ndikuganiza kuti kuwonera azimayi mu mtundu wa 2d komanso ngati china pazenera m'malo mwake kuposa china chake chomwe chawonedwa m'moyo weniweni chasintha momwe ubongo wanga umazindikirira chithunzi cha 3D cha mawonekedwe azimayi ndi chidwi chake m'moyo weniweni. Ngakhale mkazi yemwe ali ndi mawonekedwe abwino m'moyo weniweni samazindikira kwenikweni kwa ine chifukwa, ndikuganiza, malingaliro anga atayidwa. Ganizirani izi motere… ngati mutangowona zithunzithunzi za 3d ngati mpira womwe ulibe mbali kwenikweni, kapena kiyubu koma mudangowona mbali imodzi panthawi, kenako wina nkukuponyerani mpira , kapena kukuwonetsani momwe awiriawiri amawonekera ... simungamvetse izi ngati zachizolowezi kapena zabwinobwino, kapena sangapereke yankho lofanana ndi zithunzi za 2d.
Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zofewa (taganizirani Playboy ) moyo wanga wonse kuti ndizidziseweretsa maliseche. (Ndili ndi zaka 37.) Mu maubwenzi anga onse akale, kugonana nthawi zambiri sikunali bwino (nthawi zina kunali kwabwino) ndipo nthawi zonse kwakhala chinthu chodetsa nkhawa kwa ine, zomwe zandiletsa kufunafuna kugonana/ubwenzi. Ngakhale ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula zofewa, zolaula za pavidiyo zimandipangitsa kukhala wosasangalala. Koma ndili ndi ziyembekezo zambiri zosatheka pa thupi la mkazi, zomwe zimandilepheretsa kukopeka ndi akazi enieni omwe ndimakumana nawo tsiku ndi tsiku. Mnzanga watsopano NDI wokongola. Ndikutha kuona zimenezo mwanzeru, koma moyo wanga wongopeka ndi malingaliro anga okhudza iye sizigwirizana kwenikweni.
Nthawi zonse ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche pogwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga kapena "wank bank". Koma chaka ndi theka chapitacho ndinayamba kudziwa zolaula ndipo ndinayamba kuziwona. Moyo wanga unayamba kutsika ndikamayang'ana pafupifupi maola 2-3 patsiku, ndimatopa kwambiri, ndipo sindimafuna kuchita chilichonse. Zomwe ndimasankha zimayamba kufooka, malingaliro anga adayamba kutopa, mpaka amayi adanditengera kwa dokotala ndipo ndidawafotokozera momwe ziriri. Anandipeza ndi matenda ovutika maganizo, nkhawa, komanso chizolowezi chogonana. Ndinayamba kumwa mankhwala (Effexor XR), ndipo kwa miyezi iwiri yapitayo, ndapezanso mphamvu zanga, ndinayamba kutuluka ndikukhalanso wokangalika, ndipo magiredi anga amakhoza bwino. Potsirizira pake ndinamva ngati ndikukwaniritsa kuthekera kwanga. Poyamba anthu omwe ndimayankhula nawo zolaula amati zolaula sizinali vuto. Ndicho chifukwa chake sindinachiritsidwe msanga. Pali malingaliro olakwika pagulu kuti zolaula ndizachilengedwe komanso zathanzi kwa anyamata kuti athetse zovuta zawo zogonana. Anthu sakudziwa kuti zochuluka kwambiri zimakusandutsani zombie.
Ndimakumbukira masiku omwe ndimakhala ndi PMO ndikadzuka ndikumatopa tsiku lonse. Ndipo mphindi yomwe ndikadakhala ndi mphamvu ndikadakhala PMO kachiwiri ... nthawi zina mpaka nthawi 4 patsiku. Ndine wokondwa kuti kutopaku sikulinso gawo la moyo wanga.
Ndinali ndi chibwenzi chokongola (pambuyo pake mkazi wanga), chomwe chinavomereza moyo wanga [ mwini malo olaula a mapazi ] ndipo chinalinso chosangalala kukwaniritsa maloto anga aliwonse. M'malo mwake ndinkadziseweretsa maliseche tsiku lililonse nthawi zambiri zomwe ndimapeza pamasamba ena osati anga. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa ndinali woledzera. Ndinkagonana ndi mkazi wanga kenako n’kudziseweretsa maliseche pambuyo pake. Ndinkadzuka m'mawa ndipo chinthu choyamba chomwe ndimaganiza chinali kudziseweretsa maliseche. Ndinkajambula zithunzi kenako n’kudziseweretsa maliseche ndi zithunzi zomwezo koma pavidiyo. Izi zikanandipangitsa kukhala wachisoni, wokhumudwa, wotopa ndi mphamvu za moyo komanso wokwiya. Komanso popeza kudziseweretsa maliseche ndi khalidwe loledzera, sikukusiyani wokhutira ndipo kumakupangitsani kudziseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso. Ubongo wanga sunagwire ntchito, sindinkatha kuganiza bwino, kukumbukira kwanga kunali koipa. Kudziseweretsa maliseche nthawi zonse kunakhudza kukhazikika kwanga, momwe ndimagwirira ntchito pabedi, kunandipangitsa kukhala ndi mantha, kukhudza ubale wanga ndi akazi ndi anthu onse. Ma TV anandipangitsa kuganiza kuti ndi wabwino komanso wathanzi. Koma ngati zinali choncho, bwanji ndinkadzimvabe ngati wopanda pake? Tsopano ndili ndi zaka 30 ndipo sindimadziseweretsa maliseche. Sindinadziseweretse kwa chaka chimodzi.
Zinthu zinakula kwambiri pamene intaneti yothamanga inayamba kupezeka kwa ine popanda malire. M M anga awonjezeka ku 3 kapena 4 nthawi patsiku. Panopo ndili ndi 24 ndipo ndikuzindikira kuti vutoli likukhudza moyo wanga ndikundilepheretsa ku zomwe ndingakwanitse. Zandichititsa kuti ndikhale wolephereka, wokhutitsidwa kwambiri, wochuluka, wodandaula, ndipo maganizo anga pa moyo ali okhumudwa.
Ndikayambiranso, zinthu m'malo ochezera zimavuta. Ndizoseketsa. Ndikamacheza ndikangobwereranso, ndimanena zinthu m'mutu mwanga ngati, "Chifukwa chiyani ndikulankhula ndi munthuyu? Chifukwa chiyani angafune kuyankhula nane? Kodi ndapeza ndalama zingati, kapena kupezerera zogonana kuchokera muzokambiranazi? Zili ngati kuti ndikabwereranso payenera kukhala chifukwa china chosagwirizana, chovomerezana, za zabwino zomwe onse awiri ali nazo tisanalankhulane. LOL Ndizomwe ubongo umandichitira ndikakhala PMO. Ndizoyipa.
Ndine namwali - mwina chipembedzo / chikhalidwe ndipo mwina ndikungoyembekezera mtsikana woyenera. LOL Kotero sindingathe kuyankha paubwenzi wapamtima ndi akazi, koma nditha kuyankhapo pa ED. Ndisanayimitse PMO ndikukumbukira kuti ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche nditaimirira. Ndikukhulupirira ngati ndikadapitilira ndikadakhala ndi ED. Zikuyenda bwino. Ndimapeza m'mawa m'mawa.
[Kwa mkazi wovutika maganizo ] Ndine wophunzira zamaganizo ndipo sindinkadziwa kuti [zolaula zitha kukhala vuto] kwa nthawi yayitali. Kuchokera pa zomwe ndakumana nazo, kubzala zithunzi kumatha kukhala pachibwenzi chonse ndipo sindinkadziwa bwino. Mukakhala pachibwenzi ndipo mukuyang'anabe zolaula, zimasokoneza ubongo wanu, chifukwa ngakhale mungakonde amene muli naye, ubongo wanu umamvetsetsa kuti mukupezanso atsikana ena okongola m'mafilimu ndipo zimenezo sizachilendo, kotero mumangopita kukatumizirana mauthenga ndi atsikana ena. Zili ngati kungodzipangira nokha, osaganizira ngakhale pang'ono. Ndinali pachibwenzi cha zaka zitatu ndipo ndinasokoneza. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikadadziwa izi sindikanachita. Tonse tinakhala onyenga pachibwenzi ndipo ngakhale tinayesa kuthetsa vutoli, ubongo wanga unali utasokonezeka kwambiri ndi chilichonse chomwe chikuchitika ndipo panali kumwa kwambiri. Mukayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula nthawi zonse malingaliro anu onse ndi osamveka bwino ndipo zimakhala zovuta kuganiza bwino. N'zosavuta kwambiri kulakwitsa. Pamapeto pake ndinangokhala munthu wosaganiza bwino kwa iye ndipo sindinkatha kuganiza bwino, ndipo tsopano sindinataye chibwenzi cha zaka zitatu zokha komanso bwenzi langa lapamtima. Koma mwina zinthu zimachitika bwino chifukwa kwa ine, pamene ndinataya ubwenzi umenewu womwe unali wofunika kwambiri kwa ine, ndimadziwa kuti ndiyenera kusintha zinthu zambiri pa moyo wanga ndipo kusiya zolaula chinali chimodzi mwa izo. Komanso kudya zakudya zopatsa thanzi, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndipo tsopano ndimamwa mowa pazochitika zapadera zokha. Ndikuganiza kuti kusiya kunathandiza kwambiri pa zonsezi, ngakhale kuti sindinakhalepo kwa nthawi yayitali. Koma zikuwoneka kuti sikovuta kusiya kusuta. Sizili ngati ndudu. Ndikuti mukasankha kuchita, mumachita, ndipo zikachitika, zimakhala zosavuta kusiya zizolowezi zina zonse zoipa. Chomwe ndikudziwa ndichakuti tsopano ndikumva bwino kuposa momwe ndimamvera. Chifukwa chake chomwe ndikupangira ndi kuuza [mwamuna wanu] za r/nofap mwanjira ina ndikuwonetsetsa kuti akuwona nkhani ya TED iyi . Ndipo mupatseni mwayi KAMODZI. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikanadziwa izi ndili pachibwenzi, sindikanakhala munthu wopusa kwambiri. Ndikanathanso kulamulira kumwa mowa ndikudya zakudya zopatsa thanzi komanso kusunga ubwenzi wanga. Ngati mukufuna, muuzeni kuti awerenge ndemanga yanga. Ngati akadali nanu, mwina akufuna kusintha. Mwina alibe chidziwitso choyenera. Ngati mukufuna kusintha, iyi ndi njira yabwino yoyambira. Ngati mumupatsa chidziwitso chonse chomwe akufuna ndipo akadasankhabe kukhala yemwe ali, ndiye kuti nthawi yakwana yoti apitirire.
Nkhawa, Kugonana, Zojambula Zogonana, Kutopa, Kuthamangitsidwa kawirikawiri, Chibwenzi chambiri chomwe ndachiwonongera chifukwa cha zolaula, Zondikhumudwitsa zomwe ndimakhala ndikuzichita pang'onopang'ono panthawi yogonana, ndalama zowonongeka. Zokwanira.
Sindingathenso kuseweretsa maliseche ndi maloto ndi dzanja langa, koma ndimafuna zithunzi zolimba, zodabwitsa, komanso zosintha mwachangu zomwe intaneti yothamanga kwambiri imapereka. Ngati kuchuluka kwa testosterone yanga kukayang'aniridwa, zotsatira zake zidabweranso bwino. Ndikanatha kupeza mphamvu yolimbitsa thupi kuti ndiwone zolaula koma ndikanazitaya ndikangoyang'ana kutali ndi sikirini pakangopita masekondi ochepa. Komanso, zolaula zomwe ndimaonera zidasintha pakapita nthawi kukhala zinthu zomwe SINDINAKAFUNA kuonera, koma zomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndikhale ndi chilakolako. Komanso ndinataya chilimbikitso chochita zinthu zabwino zatsiku ndi tsiku, kapena sindinazipezenso zopindulitsa. Nthawi yomweyo, chilichonse chokhudzana ndi zomwe ndimakonda chikanandipangitsa kufuna zolaula kapena kuchita zinthu zenizeni. Ndinapanga zisankho zoyipa, monga kusiya koleji popanda chifukwa china kupatula kusowa chilimbikitso, ndikupitiliza kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ngakhale nditadziuza kuti "ndi nthawi yomaliza." Ndinkamva ngati zombie nthawi yomweyo lingaliro la zolaula litandikhudza. Kukumbukira kwanga kunali koopsa, nkhawa za anthu zinawonjezeka, chifunga chachikulu cha ubongo masiku anga a pmo. Zonsezi zasintha kwambiri kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya pmo.
Sindinadziwe kuti anyamata ambiri anali ndi izi. Zikuwoneka kuti ana anga aakazi azithana ndi azimayi omwe ali ndi vuto lodana pokhapokha ngati china chake chisintha mwachangu mdera lathu - zomwe sindikuwona zikuchitika.
Ndikayambiranso kubwerera kumapeto ndimakawona masamba anga onse omwe ndimawakonda, ndikuyang'ana kuti ndiwone zatsopano, ndipo ndimangopita usiku wonse mpaka nditatopa, kenako ndikupitanso kwina. Chifukwa chake, ndinamva kutopa tsiku lotsatira zinali zosatheka. Ndidamvanso kudwaladwala ndimatenda a m'thupi, zilonda zapakhosi pang'ono, maso ofiira, ndi zina zambiri. Zinali zovuta kwambiri kuyang'ana ntchito. Ndinkangoyang'ana pakompyuta, ndikuiwaliratu zomwe ndimachita. Kuda nkhawa ndi anthu kunali kwakukulu monga mwachizolowezi atayambiranso. Sindinkafuna kukhala pafupi ndi aliyense, ndipo ndinkakwiya mosavuta. Ndimakumbukira ndikupita kunyumba nditagwira ntchito ndikuyesera kugona, koma sindinathe. Thupi langa linali litatopa kwambiri patsiku 1, koma zinali zovuta kugona chifukwa malingaliro anga anali atagwira ntchito ndi nkhawa. Ndimazidziwa bwino zomwe zimachitika ndikamamwa zolaula ... Pafupifupi ngati ndimangokhala theka, ndiye chipolopolo cha mwamunayo. Liwu langa ndilopamwamba kwambiri, ndipo limamveka ngati lofooka. Sindikondanso kuyang'ana pagalasi masiku amenewo. Pali atsikana angapo omwe akufuna kuti azicheza ndi ine pakadali pano, koma ndimapanikizika kwambiri ndikaganiza zokhala nawo limodzi. Ndili ndi zero libido kuchokera ku marathon yanga yatsopano, ndipo sindikufuna kukhala pafupi ndi akazi enieni. Zomwe ndimamva ndikumangokhala nkhawa. Ndinadzipeza ndekha ndili pa kompyuta ndikusaka ukondewo. Ubongo wanga umapitilirabe… Pafupifupi ngati ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti mwachisawawa.
Mwinamwake ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndili ndi zaka 15. Kuziona ngati chinthu chosaopsa, popeza anzanga onse amuna anali kuzichita, machitidwe anga owonera adakula. Pazaka zinayi zapitazi kuseweretsa maliseche kunakhala chizolowezi tsiku lililonse. Palibe vuto lililonse, mpaka posachedwa. Ndine 21 tsopano. Khalidwe langa lowonera zolaula lidasokonekera miyezi 7 yapitayo. Mukamaphunzira komaliza, ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche mpaka 3-4 patsiku. Njira yosavuta yolimbana ndi kupsinjika kwa kuphunzira. Pogwiritsira ntchito maola 12 kumbuyo kwa desiki, zolaula ndizosokoneza kwambiri tsiku lililonse. Koma zonsezi zinafika poipa nditawona kuti ndikulemba mawu osakira zolaula. Nditawona zithunzi zatsopano, mwadzidzidzi ndinasangalala kwambiri. Ndinasokonezeka. Chomwe chinatsatira chinali kudya kwambiri, nthawi yayikulu. Ndinkatha kupita ku 5-6 nthawi patsiku ndipo ndimafunikira nthawi yayifupi kwambiri kuti ndikhale wosangalala. Pambuyo pachimake chilichonse, panali vuto lalikulu kwambiri. Kodi ndimachita chiyani ?? Ndinali ndi nkhawa, koma ndinapitilizabe kudya, kulakalaka 'chinthu china chatsopano' sichinayime. Kubwereranso kulikonse kunali komaliza. Awa anali masabata okhumudwitsa kwambiri. Chifukwa chiyani nkhaniyi idakopeka mwadzidzidzi, munthawi yochepa? Ndinali kuseweretsa maliseche pazinthu zomwe zimandinyansa kale, ndipo zimandinyansabe nditatha kuchita zachiwerewere.
[Zaka 23] Asanayambitsenso ntchito ndinalibe chidwi ndi mbolo yanga ndipo ndimatha kukhala ndekha kwa mphindi zopitilira 10. "Kugonana" ngati mungayitane komwe kunatenga mphindi zochepa kwambiri ndipo moona mtima sindimatha kumva chilichonse.
Masiku angapo apitawa akhala akuledzera zolaula maola 4-6. Ndathamangira kunyumba lero kuti ndikangoonera zolaula. Zikusokoneza ntchito yanga komanso nthawi yogona. Ndinagulitsanso chibwenzi ndi msungwana wabwino yemwe ndimafuna kuti ndidziwe kuti nditha kuyang'ana zolaula m'malo mwake. Zinakhala zowonekeratu kuti zolaula zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha sizigwirizana ndi kugonana kwanga. Atatha maola 30 + m'masiku 5 apitawa akuwonera zolaula, zolaula zomwe zimachitika amuna kapena akazi okhaokha zimayamba kukhala zosasangalatsa! Ndinayamba kufunafuna zinthu zina zonyansa komanso zowopsa.
Ndikamagwiritsa ntchito zolaula zambiri, ndimakhumba kwambiri amayi - ndipo ndimafunitsitsa nditagonana. Ndimadana ndi izi. Sikuti zimangochepetsa atsikana omwe ndimacheza nawo ndikupangitsa kuti nthawi yanga ndi iwo isakwaniritse, koma ndikungolemekeza ndekha. Kusimidwa si mkhalidwe wamunthu amene ndikufuna kukhala. Kuyang'ana kumbuyo zamakhalidwe am'mbuyomu - ndizomvetsa chisoni kwenikweni. Ndikudziwa kuti sindine munthu ameneyu (wopanda zolaula, sindimamva zogonana).
Ndikuganiza kuti ndakhala wokonda zolaula m'zaka zapitazi za 2 panthawi yomwe ndakhala osakwatira. Sindinadziwe kuti ndinali wosuta, zomwe ndizoseketsa poganizira kuti ndimatha maola ambiri patsiku ndikuwona makanema ochulukirapo pambuyo pa kanema. Ngati intaneti yanga ikuyenda pang'onopang'ono ndipo sindimatha kuwonera, ndimatha kukwiya ndikumakwiya. Sindingachite chilichonse koma kukhala ndikudikirira mpaka kuchuluka kwa intaneti kukhazikike. Ndimanjenjemera ndikuganiza kuti ndataya nthawi yochuluka bwanji, koma osatinso!
Ndimayesetsa kudziwa chifukwa chake ndimasowa amayi. Ndinafufuza kusiya shuga, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kupeza ntchito yomwe ndimanyadira nayo, kuyesa kukhala ndi zosangalatsa zomwe ndimaganiza kuti zitha kupangitsa atsikana kuganiza kuti ndili bwino, kuphunzira masewera andewu, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kulingalira zabwino, kunyalanyaza zifukwa zomwe zingayambitse. Palibe chomwe chidasuntha singano konse. Nditasiya PMO kwa masiku 5 ndinali ngati munthu wosiyana - chilimbikitso chogonana komanso chilimbikitso, wofunitsitsa pafupifupi. Pakhala pali nthawi yayitali yolimbikitsanso yomwe ikupitilirabe, koma ikuyendetsa singano.
Ndakhala ndikuonanso zolaula zazikuluzikulu sabata yapitayi; tsiku lonse tinkayang'ana pa zolaula, mpaka pamene ndinapanga edema kumanzere kwa mbolo wanga. Mthunzi wanga wonse unapweteka kamodzi pamene sindinathenso kukhazikika, ndipo zinali zovuta kwambiri kukhudza ndi zovala kwa tsiku lotsatira, ndipo zinali zovuta kubwezeretsedwa.
Sindine ogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, koma ndinganene kuti vuto langa lodziseweretsa maliseche ndilovuta kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimaganizira. Ndili ndi zipsera pamatenda anga onse chifukwa ndimapotoza khungu kumbali ndi manja anga. Sindingathe kutulutsa magazi nditayimirira, komanso sindingatenge umuna popanda maliseche. Ndimakankhiranso m'chiuno mwanga kwinaku ndikuseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikulitse chisangalalo, chomwe sichingakhale chachilendo. Nthawi zambiri ndikatuluka umuna tsopano nsonga ya khungu langa imakhala yofiira ndikuyamba kupweteka. Kwa kanthawi ndimakonda kuthamangira ndi malaya pakati pa dzanja langa ndi mbolo, ndikuganiza ngati mafuta odabwitsa… Vuto limakhala pamene ndimalumikizana ndi khungu ndikumva ngati ndikuwononga maliseche. Zili ngati kuti mbolo yanga tsopano ndi yofooka kwambiri. Ndinkakonda kupeza matabwa ammawa nthawi zonse, tsopano zimachitika mosasinthasintha. Sindimakhalanso ndi boner yolimba mwala, pomwe ndimayipeza mwadzidzidzi, nthawi zosayenera ngakhale. Nthawi zina sindimavutikira ndikafuna kutulutsa, ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimatha kutulutsa umuna ndi mbolo yolimba. Zimapwetekanso pang'ono kusewera ndi mipira yanga. Choyipa chachikulu ndichakuti ngakhale nditakhala kwa sabata limodzi, mavuto ambiriwa (mwachitsanzo / kuvulaza) amakhalabe, ndipo ndikatuluka nthawi yayitali ndikudziletsa, zimandipweteka ngati gehena, ngati kuti ndikulephera umuna waukulu.
Ndili ndi mantha chifukwa sindikufuna kuseweretsa maliseche kapena zolaula. Ndili ndi mantha chifukwa zizolowezi zanga zobweretsa maliseche zakhala zikufalikira mpaka kufika poti khalidweli ndilonyansa ndipo ndikufuna kusiya. Sindikumva zambiri, konse. Zaka 24. Sindine namwali, ndakhala ndi zambiri. Ndangoseweretsa maliseche. Ndi 3pm masana. Ndikumva ngati ndekha. Osakhala wolakwa, kapena china chilichonse chonga icho - ndimangomva kuti sindinachite chidwi. Ndikumva kuti moyo wachotsedwa mwa ine. Umu ndi momwe ndimamvera nthawi iliyonse ndikatumiza maliseche. Ndikumva ngati chidutswa. Maliseche atenga moyo wanga. Ndimapita kuntchito, kubwerera kunyumba, kukadya chakudya chamadzulo kenako ndikuseweretsa maliseche mpaka nthawi yogona, yomwe nthawi zambiri imakhala pakati pausiku. Ameneyo ndi maola 6 patsiku lodziseweretsa maliseche. Kumapeto kwa sabata, ndimakhala pafupi ndi maola 10 patsiku ndikuchita maliseche. Ndimagonana ndi akazi enieni, inenso, koma ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti.
Ndili ndi zaka 28 ndipo zolaula zakhala m'moyo wanga tsopano zaka pafupifupi 12. Ndidazindikira zaka zingapo zapitazo kuti ndayamba kudzipatula pagulu, osafuna kucheza komanso kukhala wopanda chiyembekezo m'moyo. Chaka chatha izi zafika poipa kwambiri. Anzanga asokonekera ndipo nthawi zina ndimasungulumwa. Ubale wanga wotsiriza unali zaka 5 zapitazo ndipo tsopano ndikuyang'ana mmbuyo ndipo PMO yake yomveka bwino inali yovuta kwambiri kulephera kwake (makamaka mavuto a ED). Tsopano ndili ndi nkhawa yayikulu ikuyandikira amayi omwe ndimawakonda.
Zomwe zandichitikira zimandikhudza kwambiri momwe zimakhudzidwira kwambiri, koma pano pali mndandanda wabwino kwambiri momwe ndingathere, ndipo ndikutha kusintha izi ndikuyenda.
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- Kusakhala ndi zolinga chifukwa cha kulakwa, kupanikizika, kumverera kopanda thandizo
- Kutopa ndi kutopa, nthawi zambiri masiku otsiriza pambuyo pa zolaula ndi mabinja
- Nthawi zonse ndikufunika kusewera ndekha (makamaka masturbate pamene flaccid)
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- Kutsika kwakukulu mu mphamvu yamalingaliro, kupeza zovuta kuseka, kapena kukondwa ndi chinachake, kapena chisoni chenicheni, ndi zina zotero.
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Ndimatha kukumbukira ndekha chaka chimodzi ndi theka zapitazo, ndikuwerenga nkhani zingapo za momwe zolaula za pa intaneti zimawonongera libido yamwamuna wachinyamata, ndikuseka. Inde, ndinaseka. Panthawiyo, ndimakhala ndikuwonera zolaula nthawi zonse, ndipo zolaula zimangokhala chidwi changa, koma sindinadziwe kuti ndinali ndi vuto. Pamene, miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake, ndinapeza chibwenzi choyamba cha moyo wanga ndikuzindikira kuti ndinali ndi ED, ndinadabwa: ndingakhale bwanji ndi ED ??? Kodi vuto ndi chiyani ndi ine? Chifukwa chiyani sindikusangalala ndi mtsikana wamaliseche patsogolo panga? Sizinakhalepo, sindinaganizirepo kuti mwina zolaula zitha kukhala vuto. Ngakhale nditazindikira Yourbrainonporn, zidanditengera miyezi ingapo kuti ndiyitengere mozama. Zinanditengera miyezi ingapo kuti ndizindikire momwe cholakwika chake chinali chakuti m'malo mokhala ndi atsikana, kwazaka zambiri ndakhala ndikuchita maliseche pa intaneti. Kwenikweni, vuto ndilakuti iwo omwe sali (pakadali pano) omwe amakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zimawavuta kukhulupirira kuti zolaula zitha kuwononga chilichonse chifukwa sanadziwonere okha; ndipo iwo omwe ali osokoneza bongo amalephera kuzindikira momwe alili mpaka atazindikira kuti ali ndi ED. Koma ED, monga tikudziwira, ndi gawo lomaliza lokhala pang'onopang'ono.
[Anabwereranso patatha miyezi popanda zolaula. Poyamba, palibe zizindikiro.] Pang'onopang'ono, ndithudi, nkhawa yanga inayamba kuwonjezeka. Ndinkapanikizika kwambiri, ndinali ndi mphamvu zedi, ndikudalira kwambiri. Ndinayamba kukhumudwa ndi ndemanga zonyansa kwambiri, zowoneka bwino kwambiri kapena zowoneka kuti nthawi zambiri ndimatha. Nditawona chithunzi china chilichonse, mkazi, malonda ngakhale pang'ono pokhapokha ngati ndikugonana, mtima wanga umayamba kuthamanga .. kuthamanga kwa dopamine. Ngakhalenso mabungwe omwe anali osatanthawuza kuti azigonana nkomwe ine ndinali ena momwe ndingapezere chinachake chokweza mmenemo.
Kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikudwala matenda osinthasintha, osakhazikika kwambiri komanso 'ubongo wa ubongo'. Zili ngati kuti kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikusowa chonena. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti mwina chifukwa cha zaka zakumwa kosokoneza bongo ndili mwana, koma tsopano nditasiya kudziletsa ndikudziwa kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kwachititsa. Chomwe chimakwiyitsa kwambiri ndi atsikana omwe amandipeza ndili wokongola (pepani ngati zikumveka zazikulu mutu lol) ndimakonda kucheza ndi atsikana ndimangopeka kuti ndipitilize ndikusakhoza kuchita. Nthawi zambiri ndimapeza zovuta za 'dziko lenileni'. Ndizodabwitsa chifukwa ndimatha kupanga chibwenzi ndi mtsikana osapeza erection koma ndimangoyang'ana ndikungotenga chithunzi chake pa intaneti ndikupeza nkhuni pompopompo.
Ndisanayambirenso, ndiyenera kukuwuzani anthu kuti zinali zosatheka kuti ndipeze malingaliro kuchokera kwa mtsikana weniweni wamoyo. Zili ngati zolaula zinandigwetsa ulesi kwambiri kotero kuti sindinathe ngakhale kutengeka ndikamaganiza kuti ndimagonana ndi atsikana okongola m'moyo weniweni.
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Zambiri mwa zolaulazi zinachitika panthawi yomwe sindinkadziwa kuti ndikuvutika ndi zolaula. Ndinangotaya zolaula, monga momwe ndinkakhalira ndikayamba chibwenzi ndi mtsikana watsopano. Mwachiwonekere, sindinayambe ndakhalapo mpaka pano. Kumbukirani kuti 90% ya zizindikiro izi ndizinthu zomwe NDIPONSO sindinaphunzirepo pamoyo wanga. Kumbukiraninso kuti zizindikiro zonsezi zakhala zikuchepetsedwa bwino, kapena zowonjezereka kwambiri, ndi mfundo iyi (masiku 13 palibe zolaula / maliseche / orgasm):
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- Kulephera kusangalala ndi chilichonse - kudya, kuwerenga, kuonera kanema, kusewera nyimbo kapena kupanga zaluso (Ndine woimba komanso waluso) ·
- Chisangalalo chodabwitsa cha ululu wamthupi
- Kusowa tulo kwambiri - pafupifupi maola 18 ogona pakatha milungu itatu ·
- Kuwonjezeka kwa chilakolako chochita maliseche-mpaka nthawi za 10 pa tsiku
- Kutopa kwakugonana - kutaya kwa libido, kusowa chidwi ndi moyo, kupweteka kwa machende ndi kubuula, komabe chilimbikitso chofuna kuseweretsa maliseche (chithunzi icho)
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Ndinavulaza thupi langa. Tsamba langa linayamba kukula mitsempha. Ndinapita chaka ndi chaka nditangoyamba kumene PMO, ndipo adandiuza kuti ndinali ndi mitsempha yambiri komanso kuti anali ndi vuto la maliseche.
Ndizopusitsa kuchuluka kwa kuchuluka komwe kumandipangitsa kumva kuti ndikumva chisoni.
Ndikudwala komanso kutopa ndi izi - kubwereranso, kufuna kusintha, kugona pakama ndikumverera ngati wotayika, kuwonera anzanga ali ndiubwenzi wapamtima, wowonera ena akusangalala usiku umodzi- , ndikukhalabe namwali chifukwa cha zolaula zanga zomwe zidapangitsa ED, kukhala woopa kwambiri kutsatira msungwana wamaloto anga ndidziwa kuti ngakhale nditamupeza ndimutaya monga ndidatayika wokondedwa wanga, zonse chifukwa chobera P ndikuwombera M ndikuwombera O.
Ndili ndi ma phobias ambiri. Kukhala ndi moyo wotetezedwa kumakupatsani mwayi wokhala nawo, ndimachita mantha mavu, njuchi, chilichonse chomwe chimamveka ngati mavu kapena njuchi, akangaude, nsikidzi, kugwa, kuwawa, atsikana, komanso choyipa kwambiri, zomwe zimatuluka m'mimba pakamwa (emetophobia). Koma kuyambira tsiku la 15/16, achepetsa kwambiri. Njuchi, sizimagwedezeka ngakhale pang'ono, osatinso chifukwa chothamanga. Kusintha kwa mtima wanga kwasintha kwambiri, sindinachite mantha, osadandaula nthawi zonse, ngakhale kuwona zinthu zotere sizinandivutitse kwambiri.
Ndinali nditayamba chizolowezi chodziseweretsa maliseche kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 16 (tsopano ndili ndi zaka 25). Chizolowezichi sichinayambe kufotokoza zomwe ndinali nazo . Ndinayamba ndi zinthu zachipatala ndipo ndinayamba ndi zolaula zamitundu yonse zachilendo. Kuyambira katatu mpaka kanayi pa sabata mpaka kasanu ndi kawiri patsiku (mabala anga amapweteka kwambiri tsiku lotsatira)
Pmo / ed yanga inali yoyipa kwambiri ndimaganiza kuti ndimagonana kwa zaka zingapo. Sindinakopeke ndi akazi m'moyo weniweni chifukwa ndinali ndi zovuta zonse zomwe ndimafuna kuti adzichepetse pa intaneti. Popeza sindinakopeke ndi akazi enieni ndinali mumtundu wina wa purigatoriyo, pomwe ine kukhala asexaul ndichinthu chokha chomwe chinali chomveka. Kenako china chake chidachitika ndipo ndidadzuka tsiku lina ndikunena kuti NO iyenera kusintha, NDIKUFUNA wokondedwa m'moyo wanga, ndikufuna mkazi wokondedwa ndikukondedwa, ndikufuna kukhala munthu wapadera kwa winawake, ndipo ine kwa ine. Kuyambira pamenepo ndakumana ndi SO yanga ndipo ndine wokondwa kuposa kale lonse.
Binging amandichotsera zambiri, nthawi iliyonse ndikadutsa imodzi sindidziwa ngati ndipezanso bwino. Ndikumva ngati ndikudzitayitsa, ndimalipira ngati ndasokonezeka mutu. Ndimachoka ndikuluma kwa maola ambiri, ndikuti ndiyenera kuyima, ndipo masekondi 30 pambuyo pake ndibwerera komweko. Ndikumva ngati ndili mu nkhungu pafupifupi osati konse komweko, ngakhale ndikakhala ndi maliseche a zolaula. Ndipo dziko lonse lapansi lomwe landizungulira lidzafota. Zili ngati ndimakhala ndi masomphenya mpaka pomwe palibe chomwe chimamveka chenicheni. Sindikumva kukhala weniweni; zokambirana sizimva zenizeni; zikumveka ngati zakutali. chilakolakocho chikandigunda, sindikukumbukira zomwe zidachitika, momwe ndidataya nthawi yochuluka. Ndinadwala bwanji osawona dzuwa ndi mpweya wabwino kwa masiku, kapena osadya bwino kwa milungu ingapo. Ndimanyazi ochuluka bwanji ndikakhala ndi zolaula zosokoneza kwambiri, zinthu zomwe sindikadazipeza zakutali kukhala zachilendo.
Zili ngati kuzungulira, nthawi iliyonse ndikachita maliseche molimbika, makamaka zolaula, masiku angapo otsatira ndikumva kuti ndikusowa kwambiri komanso sindimadzidalira ndekha… .Kutali kwambiri komwe ndidapitako kunali masabata a 2. Ndinabwereranso kwa munthu, nthawi zambiri. Chifukwa chomwe ndimangobwereranso ku ichi-PMO ndichakuti ndimangodziphonya kwambiri "ndikudzidalira" kwambiri. Mnyamata wodalirika ameneyu nthawi zambiri amawoneka tsiku lonse 7 = D… .. Koma ndizovuta kwambiri kukana kuyesedwa kwa PMO.
Kwa zaka zambiri, ndimaganiza kuti ndimachita zachiwerewere chifukwa ndinali ndi chilakolako cha kugonana. Ndinkaganiza kuti ngati ndingathe kupeza mtsikana kuti agone nane, sindikanayenera kuchita zachiwerewere. Chifukwa chake ndikanalungamitsa kufalikira kwa kugonana poganiza kuti ndingosiya kufalikira ndikapeza chibwenzi/bwenzi/mkazi wogonana naye. Koma ndinazindikira kuti posachedwapa ndinasiya kugonana ndi mkazi amene ndimagwira naye ntchito kawiri ! Kenako ndinapita kunyumba ndikuchita zachiwerewere uku ndikuganizira zogonana naye ! Chinthu chovuta kwambiri pa izi ndikuti sindinadziwe momwe izi zinalili mpaka dzulo. Chifukwa ngati ndinkachita zachiwerewere chifukwa ndimafuna kugonana, ndikanangopitirira nazo, eti? Ndinazindikira kuti ndinkachita zachiwerewere chifukwa ndiyenera kutero . Ndili ndi chizolowezi ndipo ndiyenera kusiya.
Ndinkakonda kupeza nosebleeds nthawi zonse, tsiku lililonse komanso nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimayimba mphuno. Pambuyo posiya zolaula / kutsegula maliseche kwa kanthawi ndinawona kuti kutuluka kwa mphuno kwanga kwatha. Nthawi zonse ndikadabweranso, ndinali ndi mphuno yamagazi.
Ndinayamba chibwenzi zaka zisanu ndi zitatu zapitazo, ndipo izi zinagwedezeka kwa zaka 5 zoyambirira - mavuto adayamba pambuyo pake. Tinali patali, chifukwa cha ntchito yake, ndipo kudzipatula komanso kusayandikira kunandibwezera ku PMO nthawi yayikulu. Ndinazindikiranso kuti makanema ochezera amacheza kwambiri. Kotero zidapita kwa chaka chimodzi. Pambuyo pake, titabwerera kumalo omwewo, ndinazindikira kuti ndinali nditasokoneza ubongo wanga. Ndidasiya kudzidalira ndipo chidwi changa chidachepa kwambiri. Ndimatha kumva choncho chifukwa ndinali munthu wolimba mtima komanso wokonda kucheza nawo kale, komanso kuti onse anali atayamba kutha. Komanso, mosafunikira kunena, zidakhudza ubale wathu. Sindinadzukitsidwenso ndi china chilichonse. Zomwe zimayamwa nthawi yayikulu.
Ndimadzimva kuti ndine wosachedwa kupsa mtima komanso ndimangowopsa ndikamadya. Izi zimayamwa. Osangodandaula ndi aliyense kunyumba. Kupewa kukambirana. “Chitani chilichonse chimene mukufuna. Sangalalani. Ndikukagona; Ndatopa."
Zotsatira za PMO pa ine zinali: kutaya mphamvu yakufuna kwambiri, ndinakhumudwa, kukhumudwa, kukhumudwa, sindinkafuna kulankhula ndi anthu, chifukwa ndimadzimva womvetsa chisoni komanso ndekha. Zili ngati ndimakayikira kuti akudziwa za momwe zinthu zilili ndipo motero ndimamvera. Nthawi zambiri sindimapita zambiri, koma m'masiku a PMO ndimakhala pafupifupi tsiku lonse ndili mchipinda changa chitseko chatsekedwa ndipo nthawi zina ndimadya chakudya. Sindinatengeke mtima kuti ndichite kalikonse, ndikumva kuti ndikufuna wamkazi m'moyo wanga, koma ndizovuta kwambiri kuti ndipite kukayesa mtsikana. Munthawi imeneyo, ndimangomvera nyimbo (ndine mutu wachitsulo) ndikudya. Sindinkachita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndipo ndikakhumudwa ndimangodya kwambiri kapena pang'ono. Ndine wozengereza koopsa. M'mwezi watha, ndikamasewera maliseche zimandivuta kuti ndiyambe kutseguka ndipo nditagwidwa umuna, sindinasangalale kwenikweni. Sindikuganiza kuti ndili ndi ED, koma zolaula zandichititsa ine. Ziyenera kuti zinali zikuchitika posachedwa, chifukwa ndakhala nditatopa kwambiri, tulo komanso ndilibe chidwi chilichonse, chifukwa chake ndimapereka kwa PMO, chifukwa ndinalibe chinthu chabwino choti ndichite.
Zinapita ku zolaula zolaula. Ndimayang'ana zolaula ndikuchita maliseche kwa maola oposa 3 patsiku. Ndizo zonse zomwe ndimaganizira masana. Ndidachita izi mpaka kufika pobisalira ndikukha magazi. Izi sizinandiyimitse ine. Ndidachita izi mwina zaka 5 pafupifupi tsiku lililonse. Ndikhoza kupita masiku angapo osaziyang'ana nthawi zina. Nthawi zonse ndimadziuza ndekha kuti ndisiyira ndipo sizinali bwino koma usiku wotsatira ndimalungamitsa ndikuzichitanso.
Ndinali ndi mavuto azovuta, ndipo kukhumudwa kumafikira pang'onopang'ono pomwe linali vuto ndipo ndimayamba kukhala wopanda chiyembekezo. Ndinkavutikanso kwambiri ndi chibwenzi, mpaka pomwe sindimamva kuti ndikakhudzidwa ndikakhudzidwa ndi munthu wina. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chake. Ndinkalimbana kwambiri ndikakumana ndi anthu ndipo ndinkachita manyazi ndi ine, zomwe mpaka nditapeza tsambali sindinkagwirizana ndi PMO. Tsopano, malingaliro anga ndi osasinthasintha, za 6 zomwe ndinganene. Kuyang'ana m'maso ndikosavuta kwambiri, ntchito ndiyabwino kwambiri ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndili pamzere wokwezedwa.
Masiku atatu apitawo ndinayamba kudziseweretsa maliseche, ndipo pafupifupi theka la nthawi yanga yomaliza ndinayamba kumva mutu wopweteka kwambiri womwe sindinamvepo, womwe unali wozama kwambiri komanso wopanda mphamvu. Ndikuganiza kuti ndi chiyani, ndidikira ndikuchita pambuyo pake. Vuto ndilakuti ndinapeza vuto lomweli. Ndinadzikakamiza kuti ndidutse, ndipo mutu womwe unabwera unatenga maola pafupifupi 15. Ndinayesanso tsiku lotsatira, ululu womwewo unaonekera. Tsopano, ndikudziwa kuti ululuwo mwina udzatha, koma ngati ndipita nthawi yayitali bwanji kuti ndichotse ululu, bwanji osayesa kusiya zizolowezi zanga? Ndikuyandikira kawiri patsiku kukhala wamba, ndipo ndikuyamba kulephera kudziletsa. Kuyambira
Ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula malinga ngati intaneti yakhala ikuzungulira. Ndili ndi zaka 22 tsopano. Sizinakhudze kupambana kwanga pantchito - Ndili wopambana pabwaloli, koma moyo wanga wonse ndikutsutsa. Palibe mkazi pakadali pano ndipo palibe wowonekera. Zinthu zomwe ziyenera kukhalira moyo zidasokonekera. Kunena moona mtima, nthawi yayitali kwambiri yomwe ndadutsa popanda kuseweretsa maliseche yakhala pafupifupi masabata a 1.5. Ndayesera kuyima kangapo koma ndikulephera. Palibe tsiku lomwe limadutsa ndikuganiza za mtundu wina wokhutiritsa pomwepo - kaya ndi zolaula, mankhwala osokoneza bongo, mowa, masewera apakanema ndi zina zambiri…
Ndakhala ndikugonana kwazaka 12. Ndakhala ndikukula mozungulira 15. Sindinayambe ndakhalapo, osati kamodzi, popanda kuthandizidwa (ndipo ngakhale apo osati nthawi zonse momwe mungaganizire) ndinachoka ndi mkazi. Tangoganizirani kuchuluka kwa malingaliro omwe ali kwa mwana wankhuku… Kuti sakukwanira kuti akuchotseni. Tangoganizirani kuchuluka kwa malingaliro omwe ali kwa INE, mwana wankhuku otentha ameneyu sangandichotsepo… wtf, ndipitilirabe kwa ola limodzi, sichoncho? Eff kuti. Ndikugulitsanso zonsezo kuti ndikhoze kuthyola mtedza kamodzi ndi mkazi. Kamodzi kokha, ndipo ndimwalira ndikusangalala. Mwachidule, ndinasiya chifukwa ndimatha kukhala ndi mkazi, osatha kuzimva. Kapena osatha kumaliza. Kapenanso kutola khunkizo / chisangalalo / chisangalalo chilichonse chokhudzana ndi kugonana.
Mukuwona anthu ambiri akudandaula za kukula kwa mbolo kapena kukhala ndi chiyembekezo chokwanira cha atsikana akuchita zolaula chifukwa cha zomwe adaziwona pa zolaula.
Ndinali ndi mnzanga yemwe amayenda kuzungulira Middle East ndi South America kwa chaka chimodzi yemwe ndidalankhula naye za nkhaniyi, ndipo adandiwonetsa mawonekedwe odabwitsa, ngati amadziwa bwino zomwe ndimanena, komabe anali asanamvepo aliyense akunena . Mnzake adati sanayang'ane zolaula nthawi yonseyo, popeza anali akugona / kukhala ndi abwenzi nthawi zambiri ndipo analibe mwayi. Anati atabwerako adayambiranso kuyang'ana zolaula ndipo adadzimva kuti ndi wokoma mtima kwakanthawi pambuyo pake, ndipo masewera ake ochezera adatsika chifukwa chake.
(Lipoti la masiku 90) Ndikamaganiza zachiwerewere ndikuganiza zonena za kugonana kwenikweni ndi akazi enieni. Ndikapita pagulu ndimazindikira kukongola kwazimayi. Ndipo kukwezedwa komwe ndimapeza sikofanana ndi kusefukira kolaula komwe sikunali kwenikweni kogonana, koma chidwi chofuna kutsalira pakompyuta ndi mathalauza anga mozungulira ma ankolo.
(Zaka 40) Zopindulitsa zina za nofap zomwe ndaziwona; Maganizo anga asintha, sindinakhumudwe nthawi zonse monga momwe ndinalili, sindikhala wovuta pagulu. Mwathupi, ndikumva bwino nthawi miliyoni; Kukhala nditakhazikika pamalo okhwima pamaso pa kompyuta kwa maola sabata iliyonse kudasokoneza msana wanga ndi ziwalo, chifukwa kuchokera pakuwona ndekha ndili bwino. Kuphatikiza apo, ndimabwerera ku koleji yanga. Ndipo ndili ndi CHONSE tsopano muubwenzi wanthawi yayitali, woyamba wanga, ndipo ndizodabwitsa!
Panali nthawi pamene ndinafika poti sindinafune kukhala ndi moyo, mukudziwa. Mutu wonse, manja osasunthika, kutaya mtima komanso mavuto ena obwera chifukwa cha maliseche kunandichititsa kuti moyo wanga ukhale wosasangalala kwambiri.
Ndakhala ndikulakalaka kutsamwa / kukoka tsitsi / kugwira amuna / kukhala wankhanza kwambiri dom / BDSM ndi zina, koma m'moyo weniweni ndilibe fupa m'thupi langa, ndipo ndili ndi nkhawa / ndimavuto ochezera / Osachita zachiwawa / osachita zachiwawa. Izi zimakonda kundimasula. Tsopano ndimazikonda ndipo ndimadzipeza ndekha ndikufuna kuchita zinthu ngati izi kwa akazi. Ngakhale kugonana ndi gf yatsopano, ndikufuna kuti ndimutsamwitse pang'ono. (Ex adazikonda mwamwayi kwa ine). Kodi awa achoka? Ndikufuna iwo, ndikumva ngati atisokoneza ine, chifukwa ndimakhala ngati sindingathe O kapena kusangalala mokwanira ngati sindingathe.
Ingoganizirani kukhala osokoneza bongo a heroin, kenako ndikumupatsa zinthu zopanda malire kwaulere. Mosakayikira, nditathamanga kwambiri, idatsika mwachangu. Ndinayamba kukhala ndekha, kusungulumwa koopsa, komanso kuwopa kucheza ndi anthu. Nthawi zonse zinthu zikafika povuta kunyumba, ndimapita kukacheza ndi achilendo monga zolaula zomwe ndimakonda. Ndi zochitika za POV, zili ngati kuti mudaliko. Dopamine ikayamba kuzimiririka, muyenera kufunafuna zolaula (makamaka zoyipa). Nditayamba, zolaula zodula TV zidandichitira. Ndisanasiye ntchito, ndimayenera kuwona chidani chankhanza chisanachitike. Nditakhala nthawi yayitali mu smut, ndidayamba kudzimva mopepuka, ndipo izi zimapangitsa kudzidalira kocheperako. Kodi mungayang'ane bwanji msungwana wokongola m'maso (kapena aliyense) mutadziwa kuti mumangoyang'ana msungwana akugwidwa ndi zigawenga 13? Kodi mungatani kuti muzingocheza mwachimwemwe patchuthi cham'banja kapena masiku okumbukira kubadwa mukudziwa kuti mwatopa ngati gehena chifukwa chochedwa kuchedwa kuonera makanema olaula?
Kwa zaka zoyamba za 7 za kuseweretsa maliseche sindinali ndi vuto lalikulu, koma kukhala woona mtima thupi langa linayamba kudzifooketsa pang'onopang'ono. Nditatha kudzikweza, ndinamva kupweteka kwa m'mbuyo, ndinamva kuti ndine wamisala. Ndipo nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimayamba kugonana ndi mtsikana ululu wammbuyo umandipatsa ine kapena mbolo yanga imapita. Chiwonetsero changa chonse cha ED choyambirira chinayamba pamene ndinapeza zolaula. Nditangokhalira kumwa mankhwalawa, ndinayamba kufufuza kwambiri zolaula. Ndinazindikira kuti sindinathe kusukulu, ndikuganiza kuti ndilole tulo ndikayamba kuwerenga buku langa. Ndinakhala soo wokwiya komanso wokwiya ndi anzanga ndi abwenzi anga.
Ndimalankhula ndi mchimwene wanga za momwe ma boob amawombera m'makanema a 80 (m'ma 80's) ankakonda kuchita izi kwa anyamata omwe akufuna kuti awamenye. Tsopano mukusowa shiit yoyipa kwambiri kuti muchoke chifukwa china chilichonse sichikhutiritsa. Ndipo izi ndizofala mwa ana omwe ali ngati zaka 12. Yikes!
[Mid 30s] Kwa zaka 3 kapena 4 zapitazi ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina ndimasewera maliseche katatu patsiku. Zizindikiro zanga ndi izi: 3) mbolo yamphongo (msungwana adandigwera miyezi ingapo yapitayo ndipo sindimamva chilichonse) 1) sindimadzichotsa kanthu 2) Ndimayang'anitsitsa ndikulakalaka kwanga kuposa akazi enieni 3) zofooka 4) zimatha kutulutsa umuna ndikamagwiritsa ntchito manja anga- sindimva chilichonse ngati mtsikana ayesera kundichitira.
Chaka chatha zidakhala zowopsa, ndimazichita pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ngati ma 5-6 maola, nthawi zina kupitilira apo. Ngakhale nditakhala ndi mwayi wogonana ndi chibwenzi changa ndimakonda zolaula. Ndimakumbukira nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndi zosankha za 2 tsiku lililonse, ndipo posachedwa sindinakhale ndi zoposa imodzi, koma nthawi zambiri sindinkafuna kugonana. Apa ndipamene ndidazindikira kuti ndikufuna thandizo.
M'mbuyomu ndidazindikira kukongola, inde, koma sindinafune KUKHALA ndi mtsikana. Zolaula kwa ine ndizomwe ndimayendetsa zogonana zanga zonse. Chilichonse chogonana chokhudza ine CHINALI zolaula. Sindingaganize za ine, mnyamata uyu, ndi d * ck akugonana kwenikweni ndi mtsikana weniweni. Ndiye patatha masiku angapo ndikuchita izi, ndimangomva ngati ndichinthu chachilengedwe kuchita. Gahena inde ndizotheka kuti ndigone. Gahena eya pali atsikana ambiri kunja uko omwe akufuna kukhala ndi ine. Mwadzidzidzi, malingaliro odziyesa okha amaoneka ngati opusa komanso nthawi kuwononga. M'mbuyomu sindimatha kumvetsetsa ndikumvana ndi amuna ambiri omwe ndidakumana nawo… Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati kuti ndiwowonongera ndipo sindimadziwa momwe ndingachitire ndi mkazi “mwabwino.” Tsopano, pamapeto pake ndinamva zomwe amamva. Ndipo ndizodabwitsa.
Ndikanachita ejaculations 5 patsiku nthawi zina 8 kapena 9 kapena 10! Ndipamene ndinali wachichepere zaka 13, komanso ngakhale nditakula pa 14, 15, 16, ndipo osati kalekale. Thupi langa silinali lokonda zogonana koma ndinangoyang'ana zolaula ndikumakakamizanso kangapo tsiku lomwelo za 2 kapena 3 patsiku. Ndikadali ndi ululu wowawitsa womwe ndimautcha "mzere wanga wa zowawa" komwe ndimamverera kuchokera pa bowo langa mpaka pamphuno yanga kudzera pachikopa changa komanso kutuluka kunsonga kwa mbolo yanga. Ululu womwe umakhala wolimba ukandigunda. Eya sindimagonana konse ndipo 100% wathanzi malinga ndi dokotala. Ndikumva kwanga ndikuti urethra yanga yatupa chifukwa chakumasulidwa kwambiri. Umo ndi momwe ndidadziwonera ndekha. Ndikumvanso kuti prostate yanga yatupa ndipo mwanjira ina ikukhudza ululu wanga. Kodi ndidawotcha dzenje mthupi langa lomwe silingadzikonzenso lokha kuchokera kumakakakamizo anga okakamizidwa omwe ayatsa moto pakati pa miyendo yanga?
(yankhani pamsonkhano) Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto onyentchera mpaka nditakula kwambiri, ndayiwala ndendende pamene ndinali ndi woyamba wanga monga kale. Ndinkachita maliseche kwambiri akasinja anali opanda kanthu. Ndikudziwa bwino zowawa zomwe mukumva, ganizirani nthawi yake yopuma kuseweretsa maliseche. SI Dokotala koma malingaliro anga ndi awa. Umuna ndi acidic kotero ukhoza kukwiyitsa mapaipi anu. Ndidamuwona dotoloyu akumva ngati ndimatulutsa galasi koma adauzidwa kuti mwina nditha kuwombera. Zinadziyeretsa zokha ndikasiya kuseweretsa maliseche ndipo ndizosowa kuti amuna adziwe matenda amkodzo. Ndinawerenga kwinakwake, yesetsani kuti ndisatenge mphindi 30 musanachitike kapena mutatha. Izi zidachepetsa mkwiyo wanga, koma ndachepetsa nthawi yotsatira ndikumva kuti imachotsa machubu. Kumwa madzi ambiri ndikuchepetsa zakumwa za khofi kuphatikizapo coke ndi zina zomwe zidawapangitsa. Komanso kuseweretsa maliseche kumatha kupweteketsa dick wanu ndikupweteketsa mtima, makamaka ngati kumugwira kuli kofanana ndi kwanga. Nditamwa mowa kwambiri ndimaganiza kuti minofu yam'mimba yomwe imazungulira prostate imatha kutopa komanso kupweteka. Zanga zakhala zikuchitika kale. Apanso, kupumula kudathetsa.
Kodi pali wina aliyense amene wazindikira kuti amalankhula kapena kuchita chibwibwi polankhula atatha Fap? Sindingathe kuyankhula bwino mpaka patadutsa pafupifupi masabata a 3-4 a NoFap. Mpaka nthawiyo ndimakonda kunena mawu osalankhula kapena kusokoneza mawu anga poyesera kuyankhula ndi anthu ena.
Kwa zaka 23 zapitazi ndakhala ndikudwala, chimfine, chimfine, mavairasi, ma gland otupa pafupifupi nthawi zonse. Komanso ndimalo opweteka ndi minofu, kutopa, nkhawa zamagulu, ubongo wa ubongo, kukumbukira koipa komanso kukhumudwa. Chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe ndimakonda ndimakhala kufuna kwanga, ndimadziwa kuti ndikhoza kukhala munthu wabwino, kuchita zambiri, kupanga zinthu zambiri, ndikulimbikitsa anthu ambiri. Ndidawona zinyenyeswazi zaumboni koma nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikulephera chifukwa chodwala. Ndinayesa zinthu zambiri ndisanakumanepo ndi anthu ambiri, moyo wanga wonse ndakhala ndikukana kuti sindingakhale ndi zolaula osangonena zodziseweretsa maliseche komabe ndikungodzichotsera zinthu za 2 zandipatsa thanzi kupitirira chilichonse chomwe ndili nacho ndinadziwapo kale m'moyo wanga komanso kudzidalira / maluso anzanga zomwe zandipangitsa kudzinyina ndekha polalikira kutuluka mwa ine. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2 kuko1306/no_fap_made_me_well_again_thank_you_no_fap/
Ndinalankhula ndi mnzanga yemwe ndimakonda kugawana nawo zolaula ku HS komanso mnzake wina wapamtima. Onsewo amakhala ndi zokumana nazo zofanana. Ndikuganiza kuti ngati anthu ambiriwa ali ndi ED zokhudzana ndi zolaula… ife ku YBOP ndizo zitsanzo zoyambirira zakuchiritsa bongo. Chimodzi chomwe pamapeto pake chidzalembedwa kwambiri ndikupangitsa kuti tisiyane momwe timawonera zakugonana kudzera pamagalasi athu opitilira muyeso.
Nthawi zambiri ndimayang'anira milungu iwiri kapena itatu osawonera zolaula koma kenako chithunzi china, nthawi zambiri chomwe chimakhala chopanda vuto lililonse, chimandipangitsa china chake muubongo wanga. Kenako ndimapeza njira yochokera pachithunzichi. Kenako kuchokera pa chithunzi. Mpaka pamapeto pake ndimangosiya ndikulowerera, ndipo patadutsa masiku awiri kapena atatu chithunzithunzi choyamba chogonana ndakhala wozama monga momwe ndakhalira, ndikupita kukaweruka nditaweruka, ndisanagone, mpaka usiku. Ndipo nthawi iliyonse ndikamaliza ndikufuna kuyika mutu wanga ndipo zonse zomwe ndimaganiza ndizomwe ndimadana nazo zolaula ndipo ndimazilumbirira kwamuyaya, ndikungogweranso tsiku limodzi. Ndakhala ndikusiya kompyuta yanga kwa makolo anga 'koma nthawi zina ndimafunikira ine ndipo zimangotenga masiku ochepa kuti ndigwere. Nthaŵi ina ndinasiya zolaula ndi maliseche kwa miyezi isanu ndi inayi pochotsa chilakolako chilichonse cha moyo wanga. Zinali zovuta kwambiri ndipo sindinapindulepo chilichonse kuyambira pamenepo. Ndikumva kuti simutha kusiya kwamuyaya, ndikuti ndi chisankho pakati pakulakalaka koma kumverera bwino za inu nokha kapena kuvutika ndi kudzida nokha, koma osalimbananso nazo. Ndimadana ndi zolaula ndikulakalaka. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikaziwonera ndimadzipatula ndipo ndimakwiya modabwitsa. Ndikufuna kuthyola kompyuta yanga pakati ndikuuza aliyense wondizungulira (kuphatikiza makolo anga) kuti atseke intaneti. Ndikulandira foni yam'manja posachedwa ndipo ndikuopa kuti ameneyo ndi mdierekezi m'manja mwanga akundiitana. Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi vuto la mankhwala osokoneza bongo m'mbuyomu koma ndiyenera kunena kuti ngakhale zidandipha sindinadanepo chilichonse chokhudza ine ndekha monga momwe ndimadana ndi zolaula. Nditasiya mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndi mowa ndinapita kukakonzanso miyezi inayi ndi theka kwa miyezi itatu. Kodi mungayembekezere kuti munthu wokonda kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo azikhala waukhondo ngati mutamutumiza kunyumba nthawi yomweyo kuti akabwerere, ndipo kunyumba anali ndi chikwama chodzaza ndi cocaine wopanda malire ndipo amayenera kutsegula chikwama ichi tsiku lililonse pazinthu zina?
Sindinadziwe chilichonse chokhudza chizolowezi changa cha zolaula chomwe ndakhala nacho kwa zaka 13 mpaka kumapeto kwa sabata yatha pamene chinayamba kuonekera…. Kwa zaka zambiri ndinali munthu wokonda kwambiri kugonana. Ndinkatha kugonana usiku uliwonse popanda vuto lililonse…. Zaka 8 zapitazi zakhala zoyipa kwambiri; ndinali wokhumudwa, wodandaula, komanso wokwiya, wosokonezeka ndipo sindinkadziwa zomwe zikuchitika ndi ine…. Chaka chatha ndaona kuti kugonana kwanga kwakhala kofooka kwambiri ndipo ndimamwa madzi msanga.
Ndinasiya zolaula ndekha chifukwa ndinapezeka kuti ndili ndi epididymitis, kachiwirinso. Epididymitis ndi "kutupa kwa chubu kumbuyo kwa testicle yomwe imasunga ndikunyamula umuna" ndipo imapweteka kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti ndimadwala epididymitis chifukwa ndimakhala ndikulimbana pafupipafupi. Ndiroleni ndingonena kuti palibenso china chochititsa manyazi ndikupita kwa Dokotala chifukwa cha kupweteka kwa mpira, ndiyeno kukayezetsa matenda opatsirana pogonana. Dokotala wanu akufunsa "ndi liti liti lomwe munagonana", ndipo mumayankha kuti, "sindinakhalepo namwali."
Pezani zizindikiro zosamveka mutasiya kuseweretsa maliseche. Zimandivuta kufotokoza, chifukwa kulibe mawu ofotokozera zomwe ndimamva. Ndikumverera kokoma thupi kwathunthu komwe kumaphatikizapo kusasamala, kukwiya kwambiri, kusaleza mtima, ADHD, ubongo wa ubongo komanso kukakamiza kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndili ndi dzina loti, "ma horny". Horny silolidi mawu oyenera chifukwa ndikakhala wopanda nkhawa, ndimakhala ochezeka komanso wosangalala. Amphongo ali ngati kukakamizidwa kwambiri kwa MO, ndipo samachita china chilichonse. Ndikadali wachichepere ndimayamba ziphuphu nthawi zonse ndikakhala ndi malingaliro awa. Sindikusamala kuti akunena za kuseweretsa maliseche zomwe sizimayambitsa ziphuphu, kwa ine ndikhoza kukuwuzani motsimikiza kuti zidachitikadi, ndipo zimatha kutero. (Ndine pafupifupi 100.)
M'mbuyomu, makamaka ngati ndikuchita maliseche nthawi yachiwiri (kapena yachitatu) tsiku limodzi, kuti ndikapeze kupweteka kwa pakhosi ndi ululu wa prostate.
Ndine wamwamuna 27 y / o. Ndinali wophunzira kwambiri komanso wothamanga kwambiri, ndisanapezeke pa intaneti yopanda malire ndili ndi zaka 13. Moyo wanga unasintha; Sukulu yanga inatsika, ndinasiya kuwerenga mabuku, kusewera masewera, kucheza. Kuyambira pamenepo moyo wanga wakhala wokhudzana ndi mavidiyo, zolaula pa intaneti, komanso masamba atsamba. Ndikungobweza pang'onopang'ono njirayi.
(Mtsikana) Kodi mukudziwa kuti mapepala ndi zomaliza zimakhala zosavuta bwanji ngati simukugwiritsa ntchito zolaula nthawi iliyonse?
Pambuyo pa chibwenzi changa chomaliza chomwe chinali chovuta kwambiri, komanso choopsa, ndinkachotsa chimodzi tsiku lililonse kangapo patsiku. Ndinataya kumverera komweko, ndinayenera kugwidwa ndi stroke mpaka kufika poti ndafika pachimake, ndipo sizinali bwino kwenikweni. Ndinkasuta chamba chambiri zaka zingapo zapitazo ndipo kuchotsa chimodzi pamene ndinali nditamwa mowa ndiyo njira yokhayo yomwe inkandipangitsa kumva kuti ndine wokwanira. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zimakwiyitsa kwambiri ma dopamine receptors anu chifukwa mumayika mankhwala ambiri kuti akhale amphamvu kwambiri. Lipoti la Masiku 30 - Ubwino Wathunthu + Zinthu Zomwe Ndapeza Zothandiza
Lero, ndimaganizira zakumbuyo, ndikuzindikira momwe vutoli lakhalira kwanthawi yayitali. Ndili ndi zaka 21 ndipo ndakhala pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndakhala ndekha kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 13 zolaula, nthawi zambiri kwa maola angapo patsiku. Kwawononga maubwenzi, maubale, komanso mwayi kuntchito komanso kusukulu.
Ndakhala ndi maliseche kwa nthawi yayitali, ndizovuta kuti ndiyankhe mwanjira yofananira ndikakhala ndi mkazi. Ndiyenera kuphimba malingaliro anga m'mutu mwanga, ngakhale ndili naye, kuti ndikhale ndi erection kapena kuti ndikhale ndi umuna. Sindingathe kuchita mwina.
Zomwe ndimakhulupirira ndikuti nthawi zambiri anthu amabwera kudzakonda zoseweretsa / zolaula kuposa maubwenzi kapena mpukutu wakale wamatumba pomwe ubongo wawo umachita dzanzi. Koma samazindikira bola ngati sali pachibwenzi. Palibe kutsutsana kodziwikiratu kuti vuto liwonekere. Ngati izi zili zowona pang'ono, ndiye kuti mwina pali vuto lalikulu kunja uko lomwe limabisala. Monga mamiliyoni a anthu omwe ali ndi kachilombo komwe sikunawapangitse kudwalabe? Zikumveka ngati sci-fi.
Masiku omwe ndinkagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri, ndinali nditafika pachimake pa moyo wanga. Ndinali nditatopa kwambiri (kulira, kuganiza zodzipha, pafupifupi kusiya sukulu). N’chifukwa chiyani ndikudziwa kuti sindidzakhala ndi zolaula kwa moyo wanga wonse?
Mkaziyo akudandaula kwambiri pamene anapita ku Mexico kwa milungu iwiri, iye anakhudza ndi kugunda gombe yekha ndipo mwamuna wake amakhala m'chipinda, mumdima ndikuwonera zolaula kwa milungu iwiri, mwachionekere ndizo zonse zomwe akuchita tsopano.
Ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula, pafupipafupi, pafupifupi zaka zisanu zapitazo. Poyamba panali azimayi okongola, kenako HC zolaula, kenako zododometsa, kenako ma transvestites, kenako otsutsa, kenako ma hermaphrodites, kenako zolaula za achinyamata, kenako zitsanzo zazing'ono ndipo tsopano ndende (posachedwa apita). Zaka zitadutsa ndinkayamba kukonda kuchita maliseche komanso chidwi chofufuza "zachilendo". Chakumapeto, sindinathe kukhala pakompyuta popanda kufufuza. Ine, mwina, ndinkasewera kamodzi pamiyezi iwiri (kusamba) koma ndimawona zolaula tsiku lililonse. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo, sindikuwona momwe ndikadakhalira wosazindikira osazindikira kuti ndinali ndi vuto.
Masiku ano, ndikamwalira, ndimangokhala ndi mphamvu zochepa, kupuma pang'ono, miyendo yofooka (yopanda mphamvu kuti ndiyende mtunda wautali), KUVUTIKA, kukhudzika, nkhawa, CHISokonezo, sindimatha kulumikizana ndi ena (sakonda kukhala wekha), mawu ofooka, chidwi chachikulu.
Ndinakulira kukhala wachifundo kwambiri, wopanda ndewu pang'ono. Ndikutsimikiza zambiri za izi zimachokera pakukhala ndikutha kumasula mphamvu zanga zogonana ndikayamba kukhumudwa. Ndikawona mtsikana wokongola yemwe ndimafuna kuti ndimudziwe, m'malo mongolankhula naye ndimangofunika kupeza bafa yapafupi. Ndinkatha kupita kunyumba ndikukweza vidiyo yolaula. Tsopano ngati sindilankhula ndi msungwana wokongola kapena kupanga chisankho cholakwika chokhudza mtsikana, sindingathe kuthawira pa laputopu yanga kapena kubafa kuti ndikadzipumitse. Ndikudziwa kuti zikumveka ngati zazikulu koma uwu unali moyo wanga osati kale kwambiri. Ngati ndikanawona msungwana kuntchito kapena mulaibulale, sindikanaganizira zomuyandikira. Ndikanangothamangira zolaula. Zinali zomvetsa chisoni. Sindikufikirabe momwe ndingafunire ngati mnyamata wosakwatira, koma ndikumva kuwawa kosayesa m'malo mongathawa. Kusataya mphamvu zanu zakugonana mukamakhala kuti mulibe nkhawa kudzakupangitsani kukhala omasuka komanso odzaza ndi mphamvu.
Maminiti angapo apitawo ndikuyenda mumsewu ndimaganizira momwe ndimamvera nthawi zonse. Zilibe kanthu kuti ndimagona mokwanira kapena ndimagwira ntchito zochepa, nthawi zonse ndimakhala wotopa. Tsopano (masiku 27) sindimamva kutopa, ngakhale ndisanagone. Sikuti ndimangotaya mphamvu, ndimatopa, chabwino… mumapeza lingaliro.
Gahena, zizindikiro zake zidalipo. Ndinkangomva pamene anali wamaliseche, kugonana m'kamwa sikunandilimbikitsenso (ndimangokhala ndi chilakolako chokha ndikadzichotsa ndekha) ndipo amayi okhawo omwe ndinali nawo m'moyo wanga ndi omwe anandigwirira ntchito. Tsopano ndine munthu wowoneka bwino kotero kuti ndakhala ndi akazi ena mwanjira imeneyi, koma nthawi zonse ndimamva kuti sindimachita bwino pankhani yowachita zachiwerewere. Ndimakumbukira atsikana akupera abulu awo pa ine koma sizinanditembenuzire kapena azimayi amandiyang'ana m'maso ndipo ndimachita mantha.
Posachedwa ndakhala ndikuwonanso zolaula tsiku lililonse, ndipo ndili ndi mphamvu zochepa, ndine waulesi, ndipo ndilibe chidziwitso. Dzulo ndimapita ndi anzanga. Mapasa brunettes. Wamtali kwambiri (ngati wamtali kwambiri kotero kuti amuna ochepa okha mu kalabu anali amtali kuposa iwo, ine kukhala m'modzi wawo). Kutentha kwenikweni. Akusangalala, kuseka, ngakhale kupsompsonana pamilomo. Tili pafupi nawo, ndipo ndimayang'anitsitsa m'modzi wa iwo (kapena onse awiri - sindinathe kuwalekanitsa: P). Sanandiyandikire chifukwa ndimangomva kuti ndikudzidalira. Sindinamve mphamvu ndi umuna zomwe ndimamva nditasiya zolaula kwa milungu ingapo.
Ndafika pamlingo womwe pr0n mwachizolowezi ndimakonda ndikugwiritsa ntchito, yomwe inali kinky kale, sinali pafupi ndi zokwanira kuti ikonzeke… zinthu zomwe ndimafunikira sizogwirizana konse ndi mtundu uliwonse wa kugonana.
Masiku 3-4 apitawa sindinachite kalikonse…. Ndangoyang'ana zolaula mpaka maola 8 patsiku, ndipo sindingathenso kuzitenga! Ndikuganiza kuti ndakonzeka kuti ndileke zolaula kwakanthawi.
Kotero ndakhala ndikukumana ndi chifunga cha ubongo nthawi zonse kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi. Kwenikweni ndinayamba kubwerera ku chaka changa chomaliza cha Sukulu ya Sekondale mpaka pano (~chosalekeza kwa zaka 9 zapitazi). Nthawi zina ndinkadzifunsa ngati chinali chifunga cha ubongo kapena ngati chinali ine ndekha. Koma pamene chifunga cha ubongo chinatha m'zochitika zimenezo, zomwe zinkachitika mwangozi m'zaka zingapo zapitazi, ndinkamva bwino. Ndinkamva ngati ndine "ine weniweni" kachiwiri, wokhoza kuchita chilichonse, ndi chilichonse. Zinkangokhala tsiku limodzi kapena kuposerapo, ndikanakhala ndi mphamvu zodabwitsa, ndikanatha kulumikizana bwino ndi aliyense, ndikumvadi kuti ndili ndi moyo. Kenako chifunga cha ubongo chinkathanso ndipo mawonekedwe a zombie amayamba. Ndinkabwerera ku "chipolopolo" cha munthu weniweni, woledzera, komanso wopanda chidwi kwa kanthawi mpaka nditapeza mpumulo wina m'mitambo. Chifukwa chake nthawi zonse ndimadziwa kuti panali "cholakwika" mu luso langa lozindikira, ndipo ndinkangozindikira ndikakhala mbali ina ya mpanda; pamene chifunga cha ubongo chinkatha. Posachedwapa (masiku 11 tsopano), ndasiya kuonera zolaula (ndinali munthu mmodzi kapena awiri patsiku), ndipo ndaona kuti ubongo wa ubongo wapita . Sikuti unatha, sikuti unangochepa thupi, koma WAPITA. Ndimapuma, ndikumva. Ndimaona anthu, ndikuwayang'ana m'maso mwawo. Ndikudziwa komwe ndili, zomwe ndikuchita, nthawi yake, ndi zomwe ndiyenera kuchita m'maola, masiku, masabata otsatira. Nditha kukhala woganizira kwa nthawi yayitali ndikumva kuti ndikulimbikitsidwa kuchita zinthu zambiri nthawi imodzi. Ndimalephera kuchita zinthu zambiri ndipo ndimaona dziko losiyana kwambiri.
Ndikufuna moyo wanga ubwerere moipa kwambiri. Ndikufuna kukopeka ndi maso ndikukhudza mkazi wokongola kachiwiri. Ndikufuna kuti ndipange chikondi kwa chibwenzi changa popanda ED. Ndikufuna kusiya zolaula ndikukhala ndekha.
Kodi chikuchitika ndi chiyani muubongo wanga chomwe chimafotokozera chifukwa chomwe sindingagonere ndikatha kuseweretsa maliseche? Ndakhala ndi mausiku ambiri sindimagona konse. Ndikachita maliseche ndikugwiritsa ntchito mtsikana m'maganizo mwanga, ndimagona popanda vuto. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndipo ndikatha kutopa, kulira kwanga kumakhala kokwanira ndipo ndimagona. Koma ndikamasewera maliseche, zimakhala ngati mulingo wanga wa dopamine samatseka ndikundisangalatsa usiku wonse. Ndizodabwitsa, ndipo sizodabwitsa kuti ubongo umatha kusiyanasiyana kwambiri pazotsatira zake. Ndikutanthauza chodabwitsa kwambiri. Ndinaganiza zopeza chibwenzi. Ndimakumbukira kuti nditagonanadi ndimagona omwewo monga kuseweretsa maliseche m'malingaliro mwanga-chodabwitsa kwambiri ndi kugonana kwenikweni 😉
Ndakhala ndikuwona zolaula pafupifupi zaka 7. Kuchulukitsidwa pafupipafupi ndikulimbikitsidwa. Ndikudziwa kuti izi zikupweteka moyo wanga. Ndili pa msinkhu woti ndiyenera kumacheza ndikuyenda ndi atsikana koma ndazindikira kuti machitidwe anga ndi ofanana ndi omwe amakonda. Ndimadzimva ngati wopanda anthu, wochita chilichonse, ndiponso wopanda mphamvu. Ndayesera kuyima kangapo koma nthawi iliyonse ndikalephera.
Zili bwino kuposa kale. Ndimakhala ndi mutu wopenga ndikamasewera maliseche pa intaneti, osadziwa chifukwa chake.
Ndinkakonda kukhala ndi vuto lokumbukira nkhope za atsikana ndili mwana. Ndi pamene ndinali PMO'ing ngati wamisala. Ndiyenera kuti ndadutsa ndisanazindikire chifukwa ndilibenso vuto.
Kukopa kwa zolaula sikuyenera kufotokozedwa, ndipo ndinayamba kukonda kwambiri. Palibe chabwino kuposa kuiwala mavuto anu onse ndikuchita 5-on-1 ndi nyenyezi yomwe mumakonda kwambiri. Izi nthawi zambiri zinkatenga usana ndi usiku , ndipo inde, mpaka kufika poti ndili ndi gawo laling'ono lovulala/lakuda kumapeto kwa mbolo yanga.
Ndikusuzumira m'kalasi, ndinazindikira kuti m'modzi mwa anzanga abwino anali akugona. Anali ndi nthawi yovuta kwambiri kuti maso ake akhale otseguka komanso mutu wake unali wopindika ndikutsika. Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidakumana ndi izi, ndipamene ndinali wokonda kwambiri mankhwala osokoneza bongo a PMO, PMO-ing mwina nthawi 3 patsiku pafupipafupi. Ganizirani izi, mkuluyu adati adawonera zolaula zambiri. Inde, kuchokera pazomwe ndakumana nazo, chomwe chimayambitsa kuchepa kwa mphamvu pakati pa anyamata achichepere masiku ano sikutanthauza kusachita masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena zakudya zoyenera (ngakhale zili ndi gawo lalikulu), ndikuwonera zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi. Ndinadziwa chomwe chinali vuto nditangoyang'ana chipinda.
Pamene ndinali ndi maliseche tsiku lililonse tsiku la 2-3 pakadutsa nthawi ndikuzindikira kuti sindinali kukwanira, kuti ndimangokhala miyezi yambiri ya 2-3 isanafike, kuti ndidzilimbikitse mwakuthupi, ndi zina zotero. Komanso sankatha kuimitsidwa, pokhapokha nditakhala pansi kapena nditagona kumbuyo kwanga.
Kwa zaka zambiri ndinkakhala ndi ma hemmorhoids nthawi zina, koma sindinkavutika kuganiza kuti pali kulumikizana ndi zolaula. Sizinamveke kuwawa kwambiri panthawi yamagulu a PMO, chifukwa chake sindinkaganiza zambiri. Ndidamuwona dotolo za iwo (ndizopweteka kwambiri, monga aliyense amene adakhalapo ndi vuto lochepa angakuuzeni), ndipo mathedwe ake anali chabe monga "anthu ena amawapeza, ena samatero". Zoyambitsa zanga zimakhala mitundu ina yakukweza zolemetsa. Chifukwa chake, sindinakhale nawo kwa nthawi yayitali, yayitali, miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Ndinabwereranso pafupifupi sabata yapitayo, kuphatikizapo "nthawi yambiri" yoledzera. Adabweranso akubangula. Sindinganene motsimikiza kuti pali kulumikizana, koma zikuwoneka kuti zikuyenera kutero. Zonsezi ndizolumikizidwa! Kutuluka kwa magazi, minofu, kukankhira pamenepo, ndi zina zotero… nkovuta kunena za sayansi, koma ndizomveka. Ndinafufuza mwachangu pa intaneti ndipo sindinapeze maphunziro ovuta, koma ndapeza maakaunti angapo achikale. Ngakhale kugonana kapena MO kugona pansi sikuwoneka kuti kumachita chilichonse, zikuwoneka kuti ndi MO pomwe AKUKHALA (ie patsogolo pa kompyuta) zomwe zidakulitsa vuto kwa anyamata ambiri. Sindikudziwa za inu anyamata, koma ndikadakonda kumenyedwa pachifuwa ndi fosholo kuposa kukhala ndi vuto la zotupa, chifukwa chake ndapeza wolimbikitsayo pano.
Pomwe ndinali wokonda zolaula ndinali munthu amene amayenda ngati zombie. Sanatenge nawo gawo pazokambirana ndipo sindimasamala za zomwe anthu ena anena. Kuphatikiza apo maluso anga ocheza nawo anali ngati mwana wazaka 16. Adayamwa! Pazaka zanga za 10 zosokoneza bongo, zolaula zidadzetsa mitundu yambiri yakumwa. Ndinayamba zolaula, ndinkakonda kudya maswiti ndi zakudya zopanda thanzi nditadya zolaula komanso maliseche. Kutsatiridwa ndi chizolowezi cha juga (poker). Zizolowezi zolaula zidandipangitsa kuti ndichepetse (ndinali wochepa thupi kale) komanso wosauka chifukwa ndinalibe mwayi wotsutsana ndi a shark kusewera poker mwaukadaulo. Posakhalitsa ndimakhala ndimavuto olipirira chakudya, zovala ndi zina. Izi ndizomwe zili zovuta kwambiri, ndikuganiza. Ndimazitcha kuti kusokoneza bongo mwakachetechete chifukwa mutha kudutsa moyo wanu wonse popanda anthu kuwona zomwe mukulimbana nazo. Zimakhudza ubongo mofanana ndi cocaine ndi heroin m'njira zina. Komabe amapezeka 100% nthawi iliyonse, komanso kwaulere. Mutha kukhala ndi "mankhwala" anu nthawi iliyonse mukakhala pamaso pa kompyuta. Khalani momwemo mnyumba yanu mwakachetechete. Izi zimasiyana kwambiri ndi omwe amamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo chifukwa amayenera kuchita zosaloledwa kuti apeze. Muyenera kudziwa anthu; muyenera kupita kukagula; zimawononga ndalama. Omwe amamwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo amakhala panjira yolakwika yamoyo kutsatira zinthu zoletsedwa kuti athe kulipirira kuledzera kwawo. Chifukwa chake amatengedwa ndi anthu komanso apolisi ndikulandila thandizo kumeneko. Achiwerewere samachita. Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndimazitcha kuti osokoneza bongo. Chomwe chimapangitsa kuti zizolowezi zolaula zizikhala zoyipa kuposa mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndikuti munthu amene amakonda kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo amatha masabata ochepa kuti akuthandizireni kuchipatala ndikumakumana ndi zovuta zomwe zimachitika pakanthawi kochepa-pomwe ife omwe timakonda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula amatipatsa zithunzi zolaula.
Nditayamba kuyambiranso sindinadziwe ngati ndinalidi osokoneza bongo, koma tsopano zikuwonekeratu. Nditatsala pang'ono kubwerera ku zolaula dzulo, manja anga anali kunjenjemera ndipo ndinali nditamasulidwa kale. Ganizirani zama psych agalu ndi belu. Ndinakonzedwa ndipo njira zakale zinali zowala.
Intaneti yojambulira ikamafika, ndimatsitsa zidutswa za masekondi 30 zomwe zinali zotchuka, ndikuziwona mobwereza bwereza. Sindinazindikire kuti anali mankhwala. Ndinali ndi maliseche pofuna kuyesa kusintha kwanga, kapena ndinaganiza choncho. Ndinali ndi ma bookmark okwanira pa msakatuli wanga kuti ngati atadziphatika m'modzi m'modzi, amapatsa a Empire State Building ndalama zake potengera kutalika. Broadband idabwera ndikuwonekera kwa masamba a Tube omwe ndikupitilizabe kusamvetsetsa, amapereka zolaula zaulere, makanema athunthu, akuwoneka osatha. Zili ngati mwana wopatsidwa maswiti aulere tsiku lonse - tsiku lililonse. Zaka zambiri za moyo wanga zawonongeka chifukwa ndakhala nthawi yambiri tsiku lililonse pa intaneti, makamaka zolaula. Kusintha tsiku ndi tsiku, kwa maola ambiri, ndi zolaula zambiri zatseguka kotero kuti kompyuta yanga imazizira nthawi zambiri, zomwe zimandikhumudwitsa kwambiri pogonana. Zachidziwikire, ndidayika zolaula zilizonse, ndikuletsa chilichonse choletsedwa. Ndikufunanso kumvetsetsa ndi anyamata ambiri omwe ndawawerenga omwe sanena ngakhale kupeza erection pomwe akuchita maliseche. Ndakumanapo nazo zambiri ndipo ndizowonadi, zomvetsa chisoni komanso zopanda chiyembekezo pakuchita izi. Ndikaganiza za izi tsopano, zinali zotani? Mdima pambuyo pake ndikusowa mphamvu ndi nyonga zitha kundilemera ine monga munthu.
Ndawononga zaka 8 pa zolaula. Pokhapokha nditataya unamwali wanga ndidazindikira kuti zolaula komanso kuchuluka kwa zomwe zidandinyenga. Zomwe ndidadzikonzekeretsa kuti ndingoyankha chisangalalo kuchokera kudzanja langa lamanja zidaziwononga. Zachidziwikire kuti ndidakhala mpaka kalekale koma kodi ndimamva kusangalala kwakuthupi? Ayi. Uko kunali kuzindikira kwanga kuti ndiyime.
(Zaka 32) Pazaka zanga zonse za 20 ndikugwiritsa ntchito, mwina sindinapite masiku opitilira 7 nthawi iliyonse osayang'ana zolaula. Ndaganizapo zoyesa kuyambiranso koma ndinaziganiza kuti sindinkafunika kudziuza ndekha kuti "Amuna onse amayang'ana zolaula ndipo ambiri a iwo ali bwino ndiye kuti kuimitsa ndikotani. Sindikudzivulaza. ” Mnyamata ndinali wolakwitsa. Sindinazindikire izi mpaka masiku 4 apitawo pomwe ndidapunthwa patsamba lawebusayiti lomwe limakambirana za zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa ED. Ndikamawerenga izi, ndimaganiza mumtima mwanga "Oo mulungu wanga, ndine uyu!" Nthawi zambiri zomwe zimachitika ndikakumana ndi msungwana yemwe ndimamukonda, kugonana kumakhala koyenera kwa miyezi ingapo yoyambirira ndipo pakapita nthawi ndimavutika kuti ndikhale ndi erection panthawi yogonana mpaka pamapeto pake sindingathe kupeza ndi kumangirira konse. Ndikananena izi kuti anzanga sanali okongola mokwanira ndipo inali nthawi yoti ndipitirire ndikuyesera ina panthawi yomwe ndimatha msungwanayo. Ndinawononga maubwenzi ambiri ndimaganizo awa osazindikira chifukwa chenicheni cha ED. Zowona kuti abwenzi anga onse akale anali okongola kwambiri ndipo sanali iwo konse, linali vuto langa nthawi yonseyi.
Ndinali nditatopa ndikukhala wotayika. Ndinali nditatopa ndikudzuka masana, kuthawa tsiku lonse, kuvala ngati bumi ndikudya zakudya zonona. Azimayi sanakopeke ndi ine, ndipo ndikagona ndi mkazi sizinali bwino kotero kuti samayimba foni. Sindikudziwa ngati mwayesapo kugonana ndi 30% molimbika, koma ndizowopsa - ndinu wocheperako, ndinu ofewa ndipo mutha kukhala ola limodzi. Ngakhale kukhala kwa ola limodzi kumawoneka ngati kozizira kwa anyamata ena, ndizosasangalatsa mukamayesera kukankhira dick wofewa mwa mkazi yemwe sakusangalala nawo. Idafika poti anangondiuza kuti ndiyime. Monga mungaganizire, ndidapita kunyumba ndikumakhala ngati wotayika. M'malo mwake, sindimangomva ngati wotayika, ndimadziwa kuti ndine wolephera.
Zithunzi zolaula (komanso zithunzi zonse zonyansa pa intaneti) zimangokhala ndi malingaliro awiri makamaka, kuona komanso kumva. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zimaphunzitsa anthu (makamaka amuna omwe ndingaganizire) kuyembekezera kudzutsidwa pokhapokha pogwiritsa ntchito mawonekedwe ndi kuwononga mphamvu zina. Nthawi zonse ndinkaumirira kuti magetsi akakhalepo pamene ndimagonana kuyambira pomwe sindinathe kukwanitsa ngakhale pang'ono kuti ndisamangokhalira kugonana.
Popeza ndinali ndi zaka 11, sindikudziwa momwe zimakhalira ndikakhala kuti sindinachite maliseche ngakhale masiku a 4. Kuyambira pomwe ndidakumana nazo, ndazichita 3 kapena 4 Times tsiku lililonse! Ndikufuna kumva momwe zimakhalira kukhala ndimphamvu zambiri za Vital komanso mphamvu. Ndimadziwa izi ndikamasewera maliseche tsiku lililonse: Thupi langa limakhala lopanda kanthu, komanso ngati lopanda kanthu kumbuyo kwanga. Khungu langa limamva ngati lotenthedwa. (Thupi langa lonse ndi nkhope) Mapazi amapweteka, mafupa amapweteka. Chilengedwe chimatsekedwa kwakanthawi. Palibe Mphamvu konse ndipo ndikungofuna kugona. Palibe Mphamvu Zogonana, kotero Palibe bwenzi popeza thupi langa sililifuna. (Koma ndikufuna kutero) Osachezeka kuposa anyamata ena onse omwe ali ndi mphamvu zambiri komanso testosterone akuyandama. Nkhope yanga ilibe kuwala.
Zomwe ndapeza zowopsa panthawi yonse yolimbana ndi zolaula ndikusowa kwa malingaliro, ndipo kuti ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti sindiyenera kuzichita (kusowa mawu abwinoko), ndimazichitabe, ndikumva kukhala wokondwa komanso wopanda chidwi.
(Tsiku 59 la kuchira) Ndinkakonda kusangalala ndi bwenzi langa kuti achoke kuti ndizichita zolaula. Kudwala bwanji? Sindinkasangalala ndi kugonana. Ndinalibe chidwi chambiri komanso ndinalibe libido, kupatula ma spikes owopsa mukamayang'ana zolaula. Ndinkakonda kupanga digito kuposa chinthu chenicheni, mwina chifukwa inali nthawi yokhayo yomwe ndimamva chisangalalo chogonana. Ndidagonana bwino ndi chibwenzi changa kumapeto kwa sabata, ndipo ndidadzuka modabwitsa dzulo ndi lero. Kawirikawiri, ndikadzuka, ndimafuna kuyang'ana zolaula ndikuthawa. M'malo mwake, kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, ndinali kulakalaka kugonana kwenikweni ndi bwenzi langa. Kunali kuzindikira kolimbikitsa kwambiri, ndipo ndine wokondwa kuti ndafika panthawiyi "kukonzanso".
[Ndipo, kuchokera kwa mkazi wanga wakale ] Wakale wanga anandiuza kuti ankadziwa kuti zolaula zinali "chizolowezi" kwa iye. Anagwiritsa ntchito mawu amenewo, ndipo anati ankafuna kusiya ndipo chifukwa sakanatha - zolaula "zinawononga moyo wake." Anandionetsanso chilonda chochokera ku maliseche mpaka kufika potuluka magazi chifukwa sanathe kusiya. Anati zolaula zinamupangitsa kufuna kunyenga nthawi zonse, ndipo zinamupangitsa kuti azingoganizira za kugonana "koipa" ndi anthu osawadziwa, komanso atsikana achichepere (achinyamata). Atsikana omwe anali pamasamba ena omwe amawaonera anali aang'ono kwambiri kotero kuti analibe mabere. Zithunzi zolaula zinamupangitsa kufunafuna m'moyo weniweni kugonana komwe anali kuonera pa intaneti, ndipo pamapeto pake anafunafuna anthu oti aziperekeza chifukwa cha malonda omwe anali nawo. Analinso kupempha atsikana osakwana zaka zambiri kulengeza ntchito zawo "za akuluakulu" pa intaneti. Anali kufuna kwambiri kuchita zomwe amawona, ndipo anayamba kuchitira akazi onse ngati "omvera" (mawu otchuka kwambiri mu malonda a zolaula ndi operekeza), kuphatikizapo ine. Ankakwiya, kukwiya komanso nkhanza akalephera kuonera zolaula chifukwa choti ndinali kunyumba, ndipo ankakwiya kwambiri komanso ankachita nkhanza chifukwa chokhumudwa moti ndinkamupatsa zomwe akufuna mwa kungochoka. Ankandisiyanso malo ena n’kuthawa kwawo n’kupita pa intaneti. Ankachitanso zachiwerewere mosadziteteza nthawi zonse - osaganizira zenizeni kapena zotsatira zake monga kuchotsa mimba, ndi matenda opatsirana pogonana.
Kukulepheretsani kwathunthu kudziko lakunja. Zimakutsimikizirani kuti palibe mtsikana amene angakukondeni komanso kuti kukula ndiye chinthu chokha chomwe muli nacho (ndizosiyana). Mtsikana akakunyengerera, ndiwe wosazindikira ndipo umakana kukhulupirira. Ndi momwe mumadzimvera wopanda pake.
Zovuta zake zakhala zovuta kwambiri. Ndinali nditazolowera kudzidzimva ndekha, mwakuti pamapeto pake ndinasiya kuyimitsidwa ndikungoonera zolaula. Nthawi zambiri sindinali wolimba kwenikweni ndikamachita maliseche ndipo ndimakhala ndi "chizolowezi" chotulutsa maliseche kwa mphindi zochepa, kenako ndimawerenga masamba ena osagwirizana pomwe kudzuka kwanga kumatsika, ndikupitilizabe kuseweretsa maliseche, ndikubwereza izi mpaka pamalungo ['edging'].
Ndine munthu wolunjika yemwe amasangalala kuona zithunzi ndi mafilimu owonetsa komanso mafilimu a amayi omwe akugonana ndi kugonana, monga momwe amzanga ambiri amzanga amachitira. Sindikudziwa kuti amachita zimenezi mpaka maola a 3 pa nthawi. Koma ndikuzindikira kuti pa zifukwa zina kapena zifukwa, ndimamverera ngati zinyalala mtsogolo (osati chifukwa cha mankhusu). Mwamtima ndi thupi ndimamva bwino kwa maola angapo. Koma ndikumva kuti ndatopa kwambiri, nthawi zina ngati IQ yanga yadula pakati ndipo sindingathe kuganiza bwino. Ngati ndichita zimenezi mochedwa usiku, zotsatira zake tsiku lotsatira ndizoipa kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti izi zimandikhudza kwambiri chifukwa ndimadzuka m'mawa kwambiri ndi maloto ogonana komanso sindingathe kupuma ndi kugona tulo. Izi sizichitika ngati ndikungodula mosasamala popanda kuonera zolaula panthawi yomweyo, kapena nditagonana ndi chibwenzi changa. Sichimachitika ngakhale nditagonana ndi abwenzi anga ndikamagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yambiri ndikuyang'ana pambali zake. Mwachiwonekere, "mankhwala" kuti ndisamve izi ndi kuti ine ndileke kuyang'ana pa zolaula, koma ndikufuna kuti ndizisangalala mosamala popanda kumverera moyipa mtsogolo. Zonsezi, zimakhala zovuta kwambiri kuti ndikhale wosasamala kwambiri nditatha kumwa mowa usiku usanayambe - ndikugona mokwanira, maganizo osadziwika, kupweteka mutu, komanso kusowa kwa thupi komanso maganizo. Izi zimachitika nthawi zonse, choncho ndimati ndi "nkhanza zolaula." Sindinagwiritsepo ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, kotero sindingathe kuziyerekezera ndi zimenezo, koma ndapatsidwa tsatanetsatane wa "mtundu" wa abwenzi anga, abwenzi anga zikhoza kukhala zofanana. Ndikudabwa ngati kuyang'ana pa zolaula monga momwe ndikuchitira mwanjira inayake maganizo ndi thupi langa kuganiza kuti pali gulu la akazi achiwerewere kuti azikhala nawo pafupi, ndipo amauza munthuyo kuti apite kukawapeza m'malo mogona mwachizolowezi.
Ndiyani winanso amene akumva kuti alibe nkhawa chifukwa cha zolaula?
[Zokambirana pamsonkhano] Sizinthu zabwino zokha ayi, nthawi zina simumva kuwawa pomwe mukuyenera zomwe zimayamwa. Ndawonapo anthu ochepa akutchula izi, koma osati ochulukirapo, ndipo kwa ine ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zoyipa kwambiri zomwe ndidakumana nazo. Ndimangodabwa kuti ndi anthu angati omwe adachitapo kanthu kapena ngati ndichinthu chovuta kwambiri? ——– Ndinamva kutengeka kwambiri ndikakhala ndi Dialup poyerekeza ndi kukhala ndi bulandi .————————- Ndizofala. Kuwononga kolaula ndi maliseche ndizowona, ndichifukwa chake ambiri amakumana ndi zovuta zina zosayembekezereka komanso zosokonekera pakusintha kwa NoFap. Simukugwiritsa ntchito mwadzidzidzi kuthana ndi mavuto anu, motero muyenera kuyang'anizana ndi zenizeni .————— Njira yayitali yobwerera kukhala Munthu.
Pomwe anzanga anali kukopana ndi atsikana kusekondale, ndinali kunyumba PMO'ing mpaka khungu pa weewee wanga litang'ambika ndikutuluka magazi. Khulupirirani kapena ayi, nthawi ina ndidakhala ndi nthawi yoti ndikadwala chifukwa ndidang'amba khungu nthawi ya PMO. Zinali zopweteka kwambiri. Sindingathe kupita kwa madotolo. Ndidayika polysporin pa iyo ndikumanga bandeji. Komabe sindinathe kuletsa PMO'ing. Ndinali PMO'ing weewee wanga womangidwa.
Masiku onse akusungulumwa ndikudabwa kuti bwanji sindinakhale ndi wina aliyense wokhudzana ndi zolaula. Ndimatha maola ambiri ndikuwonera. Maola 6, maola 8, tsiku lonse. Ndikadakhala ndi tsiku lopuma, ndimakhala ndi "gawo lam'mawa" - nthawi iliyonse ndikadzuka nthawi yakudya, kenako gawo lamasana komwe ndimayang'ana tsiku lonse. Munthawi imeneyi, ndimalakalaka kwambiri kuti ndizikondedwa komanso kukondedwa. Kukhala ndi winawake. Ndinalibe chibwenzi ku koleji. Sindinayandikire. Anzanga nthawi zonse ankadabwa kuti bwanji. Ndine waubwenzi, wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, komanso wachikondi. Ndine wokongola, ndipo nthawi zonse panali atsikana pafupi nane. Zachidziwikire kuti amandikonda. Ndikukumbukira angapo a iwo akupanga zifukwa zokhalira nane. Maonekedwe awo ndi mawonekedwe awo sanalembetsedwe. Panali msungwana yemwe ndimakhala pafupi naye mkalasi yemwe adanenetsa mwamphamvu kuti akufuna kupita. Sindinathe kuyankha. Ndipo nthawi yonse ndimaganiza kuti china chake sichili bwino ndi ine. Ndinangomva ngati kuti sindingalumikizane nawo. Zinawononga moyo wanga.
Ndinayamba zolaula pa 12. Tsopano, ndili ndi zaka 22. Ndakhala ndikuvutika ndi ED chifukwa cha chizolowezi. M'miyezi ingapo yapitayi ndidayambanso kuzunzidwa ndi chizolowezi ichi ngati mawonekedwe amanjenje komanso kunjenjemera kwa thupi mthupi langa lonse. M'masiku a 10 kuyambira pomwe ndidasiya, izi zachepa kwambiri, ndipo kumva kwanga kukhala bwino kumakulitsidwa bwino. Ndakhala ndikulankhula ndi atsikana angapo posachedwa kuti ndigonane panjira yoti ndichiritse ndipo mwina sindingatero, koma cholinga changa chachikulu ndikusachita maliseche kapena kuwonera zolaula.
Ndazindikiranso kuti zolaula zandipangitsa kukhala wovuta kwambiri kwa mkazi wanga pankhani ya momwe amawonekera, momwe amagonera, momwe amagwirira ntchito, ndi zina zotero. M'mbuyomu ndinkakwiya kwambiri ngati mkazi wanga sanasangalale ndi lingaliro lakugonana… ndipo manyazi anga, nthawi zina ndimayang'ana mkazi wanga (yemwe ndi wonenepa pang'ono) ndikumanyansidwa komanso kunyengedwa. Malingaliro anga angakhale - - angadzilole bwanji kuti apite monga choncho - podziwa kuti ndikudzipereka kuti ndizingogonana naye moyo wanga wonse ”- sitimayi yoganiza imathandiziranso zolaula zanga ndi maliseche , Ndinamva ngati wolungamitsidwa mwanjira ina. Zizolowezi zanga zolaula sizinandilole kuti ndiziuza mkazi wanga zachisoni. Nthawi zambiri ndikatha kumwa zolaula sindinkafuna ngakhale kukhudza mkazi wanga. Pazifukwa zina - nditatha kuwonera zolaula - ndimangokhala ngati ndadzazidwa ndi mafuta onyansa ndipo ndidakutidwa ndi zinthuzo. Pafupifupi ndimamverera ngati amakhoza kundiona - ndipo izi zidandipangitsa kuchita zopanduka. Nthawi zambiri kumamuchitira zachipongwe popanda chifukwa - komanso kusafuna kukambirana nawo kwenikweni.
Ndinali ndi ziphuphu pa mbolo yanga, zomwe zimandipangitsa kumva kupweteka ndikagonana kapena nditadziseweretsa maliseche. Ndakhala wopusa pa izi ndipo ndakhala ndikulola kuti zichiritse pang'ono ndisanalole ndikugwiritsa ntchito mbolo yanga, mwanjira ina kapena ina. Ndakhala ndikuchita nawo nofap mosafuna, koma ndikusangalala kwambiri!
Ndili ndi zaka 19 ndipo ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula kuyambira ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 14. Ndili ndi zaka 14, ndinayamba kulakalaka zithunzi za amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndipo izi zinandivutitsa kwambiri. Ndinali wotsimikiza kuti ndine mwamuna kapena mkazi, ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinkadziwa kuti sindili mwamuna kapena mkazi chifukwa nthawi zonse ndimafuna mkazi ndi ana. Izi, ndinazindikira pambuyo pake, zinali chifukwa cha zithunzi zolaula zomwe ndinaziwona. Patatha chaka chimodzi ndi theka ndikuvutika maganizo, kudzimva kuti ndine mwamuna kapena mkazi, ndinazindikira kuti sindili mwamuna kapena mkazi. Koma ndinapitiriza kuonera zolaula. Vuto lomwe ndili nalo ndilakuti sindikuwoneka kuti ndimakonda zolaula koma ndinali ndi chilakolako cha kugonana. Ndinapeza kuti ndi vuto laling'ono kusiya zolaula, koma sizingatheke. Ndinasiya masabata angapo apitawo. Koma nayi vuto langa. Ndinayamba ndi chilakolako cha zithunzi za amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Zimenezo zinatha kenako ndinali bwino. Ndinapitiriza kuonera zolaula za Anime, koma nditawona imodzi yokhala ndi mbolo ndinayamba kuonera zithunzi za amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Kwa kanthawi ndimaganiza kuti ndimakonda amuna okhaokha ndipo ndimakonda kukula ndikukwatira. Koma kenako ndinayamba kuchita ziboda zogonana ndi anthu ena, kenako ndinakodza, kenako ndinayamba kuchita zachiwerewere ndi anthu ena. Ndinkaganiza kuti ndinali wosiyana ndi ena (nthawi yonseyi ndinali nditakopeka ndi akazi) koma zolaula zinkangopitirira kukula. Ndinkaonera zolaula za anthu ena zomwe zinali pa intaneti ndikuwerenga nkhani za anthu ena koma kenako ndinadutsa mzere wosaganizika. Ndinapeza kanema pa intaneti wokhala ndi… zinthu zosaloledwa (ndikutsimikiza kuti mungaganize) ndipo sindinadziwe chomwe chikuchitika poyamba. Ndinawona pafupifupi masekondi 10 kenako ndinatseka msakatuli wanga. Ndinali ndi vuto la dopamine ndipo ndinadziseweretsa maliseche ngakhale kuti ndinkanyansidwa ndi zomwe ndinkaona. Kuyambira pamenepo, moyo wanga wakhala wosokonekera ndipo ndili ndi POCD (imachita ngati HOCD yanga). Koma tsopano ndafika poti ndikukayikira zomwe ndikuchita ndipo ndili pafupi kuvutika maganizo. Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi nkhawa ndipo zachititsa kuti ndikhale ndi OCD ndi chibwenzi changa chakutali. Nthawi yokhayo yomwe ndimadziseweretsa maliseche ndi pamene tikuchita izi limodzi pa intaneti ndipo nthawi zina ndimatha kuchita izi ndikungoganizira za iye koma nthawi zina ndimayenera kulota maloto amenewo ngakhale ndikuyesera kuti ndisatero. Chifukwa chake, mfundo yanga ndi yakuti ... sindine m'modzi mwa anthu omwe SINDINATHE kusiya kuonera zolaula, koma ndinali ndi vuto la kukulirakulira, nthawi zonse ndimayesetsa kupeza zolaula zazing'ono. Ndasiya kuonera zolaula chifukwa ndapeza kuti ndikaonera zolaula nthawi zonse, zimandipangitsa kuti ndisamasangalale poyamba kenako ndimayambanso "kusaka" ngati kuti sindingathe kudziletsa ... Ndimakonda chibwenzi changa kwambiri ndipo zimandipweteka kwambiri moti ndimakayikira zomwe ndimachita. Masiku ena ndimaganiza za izi mwina mphindi 10 zokha, masiku ena zidzabwera ndipo kukayikira kwanga / OCD kudzakhala m'maganizo mwanga tsiku lonse.
Ndinkayenda usiku wonse ndikusuta udzu. Sindinasuta fodya, komabe ndikulakalaka kuchuluka kwa chisangalalo kuchokera ku udzu ndi maliseche. Ndikhoza kumverera ubongo wanga ukungoyang'ana ndikungoganizira za izo, kotero ndikuyesera kuti ndisatero. Komabe ndinali ndikuyenda bwino kwambiri ndikukhala ndi vuto lachisokonezo, kukhala wopanda kanthu komanso vuto loipa la ED (ndikuyenera kuseweretsa maliseche ndi manja anga onse pamene ndikuwonera zolaula kuti zitheke, zomwe 23 siili kuyang'ana bwino). Ndikumva kuti kusiya izo kumbuyo kuli bwino kwambiri pa moyo wanga wonse. Ndimasangalala.
"Ndikufuna kuwonera makanema 10 nthawi imodzi, kutsatsira nthawi yomweyo ..." Nditha kuthana ndi izi. Ndizodabwitsa kumva wina akunena. Zili ngati kuchuluka kwadzaoneni, kapena kudzikundikira, kapena kungodzipanikiza ndi chakudya chomwe mumakonda kwambiri ... Ndipo mumadwala pambuyo pake.
Ndikuganiza kuti vuto lalikulu ndi zolaula limatifotokozera kuti tisakhale bwino ndi zomwe tili nazo zogonana. Zimatithandizira kulimbikitsa ziwombankhanga zachilendo mwachangu kwambiri zomwe sitingalowemo ngati sitinapunthwe nazo. Nditha kukhala kuti ndalowa ma shemales ndikakumana ndi wokongola kwambiri penapake ndikadzuka, koma mwina ayi. Ndikadapanda kulingalirapo. Sindikudziwa. Koma ndi zolaula, vanila kugonana ndi mnzake (kwa ine mkazi wanga) amakhala osakwanira pafupifupi usiku umodzi…
Ndine 21 tsopano. Anakhoza bwino kusukulu, katswiri wothamanga ku sekondale, matani olimba mtima .. kenako pamapeto pake adangofota. Tsopano sindipitanso kuyunivesite (patatha zaka ziwiri ndikusankha kutenga chaka kuti "ndidziwe zinthu"), sindili pantchito ndipo ndimangokhala tsiku lonse ndikuchita zoyipa zomwezo. Ndagwidwa ndi zingwe. Ndine wotsimikiza kuti inenso ndakhumudwa. Ndataya nthawi yokwanira ndi izi.
Kwa zaka 3, sindinathe kugonana ndi mtsikana wanga wautali. Amandikonda kwambiri moti sanasamalire ndipo moyo wathu wa kugonana unali wabwino koma ndi vuto lalikulu. Masabata a 2 apita ndinaganiza zoyambitsa mavutowa ndi miyezi ya 3. Mwezi wa 1 unali wopweteka kwambiri: maloto oipa, edging, zolimbikitsa, kukhumudwa, mkwiyo .. kumenyana ndi ine ndekha usiku uliwonse. Patsiku lachisanu ndi chiwiri, ndimatha kulamulira chifukwa cha malangizo ena: Kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuthamanga, kukhalabe wotanganidwa, etc. Masiku ano, tsiku la 2th ndinagonana ndi gf wanga ndipo ine ndinatha kuchita bwino. Nditangomaliza, ndinalira, ndikutsimikizira kuti izi zikugwira ntchito. Ndimamva kuti ndine wamphamvu kuposa kale ndipo sindinayambe ndikulakalaka. Ndikudziwa kuti padzakhala masiku pamene chiwongolero chidzabwerekanso koma nthawi ino ndikudziwa kuti kuchita sikofunika kwambiri.
Lamlungu lakale limakhoza kuyenda motere. Ndinkadzuka, nthawi zambiri ndimagona pambuyo pausiku komwe ndinalibe chidaliro cholankhula ndi atsikana ndipo ndimapita kunyumba osangokhala nditaledzera koma ndikumva chisoni ndi moyo wamba. Posakhalitsa ndikadzuka ndimadzisangalatsa. Kenako ndimakhala ndi chifunga chachikulu muubongo, ndimalakwitsa chifukwa chotopa, kenako ndikumakagona. Ameneyo akanakhala m'mawa kwambiri. ndiye ndimadzukanso cha m'ma 12 koloko pambuyo pa ola limodzi kapena kupitirira ndikunamizira kugona komwe sikunachotse ubongo wa ubongo. Kenako ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche, kugona tulo, kenako ndikumadzuka cha m'ma 2 koloko masana, kupita kuchipinda chapansi, kukadya nkhomaliro, kubwerera kuchipinda changa, kukakamira kompyuta, kuseweretsa maliseche 2 kapena 3 zolaula, pano sindingafune Ndimakhala kuti ndikusangalala nawo, ndipo ndikadakhala ndi vuto lowopsa kwambiri muubongo / kutseka / kukomoka / kutopa zomwe zingachitike, kenako ndimabwerera kukagonanso ndikudzuka, pamapeto pake pafupifupi 16:30, ndikupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi , ndiyeno ndikudabwa chifukwa chake masewera olimbitsa thupi anali owopsa ndipo ndimamva ngati zopanda pake. Kenako ndimangodumphadumpha tsiku lonse ndikumangokhalira kusalongosoka, osakhala aukhondo ndikungoganiza zogonana nthawi zonse, kenako ndikumangokhumudwa nazo, chifukwa sindinakhale nazo.
Chabwino, ndili ndi zaka 21. ndipo akadali wophunzira. Kunyumba nthawi zambiri, kuphunzira. Koma PMO imandipangitsa kukhala wokhumudwa, ndipo kuchoka kumandipangitsa kukhala ndi nkhawa nthawi iliyonse, chifukwa chake ndasiya mayeso anga awiri apitawa. Ndiyenera kukhala wopanda PMO, ndisanapitilize ndi moyo wanga. Ndizofunika kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti ndimakonda kwambiri kumwa mowa, ndipo ndakhala ndikumwa mowa mwauchidakwa kwa miyezi 3 tsopano (woohoo!). Koma, PMO amandisowetsa m'mavuto. Kubwereranso dzulo pambuyo pa tsiku la 9 palibe-PMO. Kukumana ndi ubongo wa ubongo tsopano, ndi kusayankhula. Masiku 6 oyambilira a nthawi yanga yopanda PMO, ndidakhala ndi nkhawa yayikulu, mpaka ndidayamba kulira.
Pa zolaula, nditawona mkazi, mosazindikira anali chidutswa cha zolaula kwa ine. Ndikumva pang'ono, malingaliro anga anali kuganiza "ndikadangopeza njira yodziseweretsa maliseche pamaso pake popanda kundiona. mwina nayenso akhoza kudzakhala nane. ” Izi zidapangitsa kuti azibisala. Kubisala moonekera. Zinayambitsanso mantha oti angandigwire ndikubisala, ndikukhumba kuchita maliseche pamaso pake. Kuopa uku kunandipangitsa kudzimva wosayenera komanso wamanyazi, ndipo ndimapewa kukhudzana m'maso, kucheza, ndimamupeweratu. Kufunika kobisala kunandipangitsa kuti ndimuimbe mlandu kuti wandigwira ndikuwonera. Ndinkadzudzula akazi chifukwa cha mantha anga, manyazi komanso kudziona kuti ndine wosafunika; Ndidawaimba mlandu chifukwa chosandilola kuti ndizichita maliseche ponseponse, ndipo izi zidandipangitsa kuti ndisakonde akazi ambiri. Chosiyana ndi kukopa kwenikweni, chomwe chimachokera ku Chilatini kutanthauza kujambula kapena kukoka. Ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri. Panthaŵi imodzimodziyo pochita manyazi ndi amayi, ndinali kujambula zithunzi zam'maganizo ndikuziwonetsa mu Catch-22 yopweteka.
Pamene ndinayamba kufotokoza kwambiri (zaka 16-17 ngakhale kuti ndayamba zaka zingapo m'mbuyomo), ndikuyamba kutaya tsitsi ndikukhala wakuda pansi pa maso anga.
Ndine wamasiye wokondwa kwa zaka zambiri kuchokera m'zaka za 17. Mwamuna wanga ndi ine tinali ndi moyo wabwino ndipo ndinamwalira ndi khansara pambuyo pa nkhondo yolimba mtima. Sindinadziwe kuti zolaula zinalipo ... Ndikudziwa kuti anali ndi ect playboy, koma sitinakambiranepo. Zaka zapitazi 2 ndinapeza zolaula pa Intaneti. Bf wanga watsopano sankakhulupirira kuti sindinayambe ndawonapo (osasewera masewero a kanema, osayang'ana tv ... otetezedwa kwambiri) ndipo anandiwonetsa ine-ndimangokhalira kugwira ntchito-mpaka kufika povuta kuti ndikhale wosasangalatsa (yemwe amasangalala naye ) Zoonadi, ndikufuna kuti ndizisiye-Ndaphunzira zambiri - sindinamvepo za dp, ndikuyeseketsa zovuta zanga, ndikuchita zinthu zina osati vanila-backdoor Mwachitsanzo - Sindinadziwe kuti dziko ilipo ndipo tsopano sindingathe kuima-ndipo zachepetsa chikhumbo changa 1,000% Ndikukuwuzani izi kuchokera kwa 50 / opanda ana (sakanakhoza) akazi omwe anadziwidwa izi pa zaka 50 ndipo tsopano ali ndi vuto lenileni. Ndili woyenera (kukula kwa 4) ndikuyang'ana zaka za 15 (majini) koma tsopano ndikuopa zomwe ndingathe kuchita monga momwe ndatetezedwera motalika ... Ndidzayesa kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwalawa kuti ndisokoneze moyo wanga. Ndikuyenera kubisala tsopano kuti bf imamva ndimakonda kwambiri-inde, ndikuona kuti ndiwowopsya, ndikudandaula, ndikuganiza ndikuwombera chifukwa palibe amene ndikudziwa kuti angakhulupirire ngati akudziwa - achinyamata osauka -Sindingathe kulingalira kuti ndikuleredwa ndi izi ....
Ndinkagonana ndi mkazi wanga kenako n’kumadziseweretsa maliseche pambuyo pake. Ndinkadzuka m’mawa ndipo chinthu choyamba chomwe ndimaganiza chinali kudziseweretsa maliseche. Ndinkajambula zithunzi kenako n’kudziseweretsa maliseche ndi zithunzi zomwezo koma pavidiyo. Izi zinkandipangitsa kukhala wachisoni, wokhumudwa, wopanda mphamvu za moyo komanso wokwiya. Ubongo wanga sunkagwira ntchito, sindinkatha kuganiza bwino, kukumbukira kwanga kunali koipa. Kudziseweretsa maliseche nthawi zonse kunakhudza kukhazikika kwanga, momwe ndinkachitira pabedi, kunandipangitsa kukhala ndi mantha, kukhudza ubale wanga ndi akazi komanso anthu onse. Werengani zambiri
Ndine mwamuna wazaka 26, ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 2, ndipo zinawononga moyo wanga wonse wachinyamata ndi mavuto ambiri azaumoyo. Nditazindikira kuti kuseweretsa maliseche sikuli bwino kwa ine, ndinayesa kangapo kuti ndisiye koma sindinapambane kwenikweni. Komabe, ndinali pachibwenzi ndi mtsikana wokongola uyu kwa mwezi umodzi, ndipo nthawi iliyonse ndikagonana naye, panali kutuluka magazi ambiri kuchokera kwa mnyamata wanga wamng'ono, ndipo choyipa kwambiri, ndimazindikira kuti mnyamata wanga sakanatha kuima bwino. Izi zinandichititsa mantha kwambiri, makamaka mtsikanayo atandipempha kuti ndigone naye. Umenewo unali nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga kuti mtsikana andipemphe kugonana, ndipo sindinagonepopo kale. Ndinafunika kupeza chifukwa chomukanira, zomwe zinandipangitsa kukhumudwa kwambiri komanso kukwiya nane. Ndiyenera kuchita izi. Ndikumva ngati ndine wachabechabe. Sindingathe kupiriranso. Ndikumva ngakhale ndisanachite sewero. Thupi langa likudziwa kale kuti ndi loipa, komabe ndimachitabe. Kuchuluka kwa zolaula pa intaneti kuli ngati mgodi wagolide kwa ife anthu omwe ali ndi chizolowezi. Ndizoopsa kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti n’zoipa kwambiri, opanga zolaula amadziwa kuti n’zoipa kwambiri. Amapha anthu omwe ali ndi vutoli ndipo amapha amuna ndi akazi omwe ali mumakampani opanga zolaula. Sindinakhalepo pachibwenzi ndipo ndikukhulupirira kuti Mulungu adzandithandiza, tsiku lina ndidzakhala nalo. Zithunzi zolaula zawononga thupi langa, malingaliro ndi moyo wanga. Ndikufunika kusintha tsopano. Ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito heroin ndili ndi zaka 15, ndipo ndili ndi zaka 19 ndinafika pachimake ndipo ndinapita ku rehab. Nditagwira ntchito kwa miyezi 4, ndinkaonedwa kuti ndine woyera ndipo ngakhale kuti nthawi zina ndinkalakalaka, sindinabwererenso. Mosiyana ndi zimenezi: Ndinaona zolaula zanga zoyambirira pa intaneti ndili ndi zaka 11, ndinayamba kusuta ndili ndi zaka zomwezo, ndipo mpaka pano ndili ndi chizolowezichi - ngakhale kuti tsopano ndakwatira mkazi amene ndimamulota! Zithunzi zolaula ndi Fap zandivutitsa kwambiri muukwati wanga ... Sindinathe kumaliza pamene ine ndi Mkazi wanga timagonana. Ndiye nayi mfundo yaikulu ya nkhaniyi. Ndakhala ndikuyesera NoFap kwa miyezi pafupifupi 6 tsopano, ndipo sindinadutsepo Tsiku la 6. Komabe, china chake choopsa chinachitika masiku awiri apitawo. Ndinatuluka mu "mdima" ndikupeza kuti ndadzazidwa ndi jizz ndi zolaula zomwe zikusewera pakompyuta yanga. Sindikukumbukira kufunafuna zolaula, kapena nthawi ya fap ndi orgasm. Zinthu ngati izi zinkachitika nthawi yomweyo ndisanakumane ndi heroin. Ndinkafuna kusiya kugwiritsa ntchito, koma ubongo wanga unkatseka kenako "kudzuka" ndikatha kugwiritsa ntchito. Ndikuopa kwambiri pakadali pano. Ndimadana ndi kunena mawu ambiri, koma sindinakumanepo ndi izi kunja kwa heroin, ndipo tsopano NoFap. Kodi n'zotheka kuti chizolowezi changa chili pamlingo womwewo ndi heroin?!
Zolaula zimakutengera mphamvu yochulukirapo - palibe kuyerekezera mphamvu zanga zitatha masiku 25 [osawonera zolaula] komanso nditatha zolaula. Si mphamvu yanthawi zonse yomwe yatayika. Ndiwo 'mphamvu zopititsa patsogolo' zomwe zakukulitsani moyo wanu. Tsopano ndapeza zomwe zikwangwani zosiyanasiyana amatanthauza akamakamba za "ubongo wa ubongo". Ndakhala ndikulingalira mwa ndekha “Wow, ndi momwe zakhala zikuyendera zaka zonsezi?” Ndimangomva kuti ndilibe, ndilibe chidwi, sindingasamalire.
Ichi ndi chenjezo chabe pa zomwe zingatheke pakubwera kochepa / PMO, kapena zomwe ndikuganiza kuti zowonjezera zowonjezereka zinayambitsa.
Ndine wazaka 33. Ndakhala ndikukula kuyambira pomwe ndinali pafupifupi 11 kuti ndizithunzi zazithunzi zazithunzithunzi zapa playboy. Pakati pa 90s, izi zidapita patali ndikujambula zithunzi za nudes. Chizolowezi changa pamapeto pake chimakhala 3-4x patsiku (masiku ena mpaka 6x), tsiku lililonse pachaka… .kwa zaka zambiri. Ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri ndili ndi zaka 20 ndipo nthawi zonse ndinkangokhalira kudzifunsa ngati kukula kwanga ndi chifukwa cha izi. Komabe; moyo unapitilira ndipo ndili pakati pa XNUMXs, Ndili ndichizolowezi choyipa cha fap, ndidayamba kuda nkhawa kwambiri. Apa ndipamene ndidayamba kuyang'ana kulumikizana pakati pakukula kwambiri ndipo zimayambitsa chifukwa ndinali ndi zifukwa zokwanira zokhalira ndi nkhawa koma zinali zosalamulirika mpaka pomwe ndimaganiza zodzipha kangapo. Sindinalekebe. Ndinkakonda kulimbana ndi zinthu pamoyo wanga. Ndinkachedwa kugwira ntchito kangapo chifukwa ndinali wotanganidwa. Ndinapanga feteleza zachilendo zomwe sindikanaganiza kuti zinganditembenuzire. Ndikutsimikiza kuti zonsezi mwamva kale. Komabe, zaka zingapo zapitazo ndidayamba kupweteka pachifuwa. Kunali kufinya komanso kupuma pang'ono. Ndinayesedwa nditayesedwa ndi madotolo angapo komanso akatswiri, zonse zinali "bwino". Izi zidachitika kwa zaka (zomwe zikupitilirabe) ndikupanga moyo wanga kukhala wa gehena. Sizowopsa zilizonse. Ndikumangirira pachifuwa komwe kumakhalabe tsiku lonse ndikusintha mwamphamvu. Chimodzi mwazoyesedwa zambiri zomwe ndimayesedwa ndim'mimba chifukwa samadziwa ngati mimba yanga ikuchita bwino. Ndiyeso yomwe imayang'ana m'mimba mwanu momwe mumathamangitsira chakudya. Chabwino, ndidapambana mayeso omwe ali osamvetseka. Ndidayang'ana zifukwa zomwe zingachedwetse ndipo zidati gastric motility imayendetsedwa ndi dongosolo lodziyimira lokha lamanjenje ... .ngati dongosolo lamanjenje lomvera likuwongolera, ndiye kuti motility yam'mimba imatha kukhudzidwa. Chosangalatsa koma sindinalumikizitse zinthu.
Tsopano zaka zidutsa ndipo ndimamvabe ngati zopanda pake. Posachedwa, masabata angapo apitawa, ndidayamba kuwona kugunda kwa mtima wanga kudumpha mpaka 95-100 ndikaimirira nditagona pansi. Izi zikutanthauza kuti ndi chizindikiro cha matenda a Miphika: postural orthostatic tachycardia. Ndinawerenga zomwe zili ndipo ndi pomwe dongosolo lamanjenje limamveka bwino, dongosolo lamanjenje la parasympathetic (lomwe limayambitsa kutsika kwa kugunda kwa mtima, chimbudzi, ndi zina zambiri) siligwiranso ntchito chifukwa achifundo akulamulira. Palinso lingaliro loti kuchepa kwa acetylcholine kumatha kuyambitsa..ndithu, acetylcholine ndichimodzi mwazinthu zomwe mumatha muubongo wanu mukamakula mopitirira muyeso. Zonse zangochitika mwangozi.Kodi kuchepa kwanga kwakukulu kunali chifukwa cha izi? Sindikudziwa koma sindigwirizana ndi mbiri ya wodwala wa POTS. 80% ndi akazi ndipo nthawi zambiri amabwera ndi kachilombo kapena matenda. Kodi izi ndizokhazikika? Ine kwenikweni sindikuyembekeza ayi. Komabe, ndinaganiza masabata a 2 apitawo kuti ndizizizira ndikusiya kuzimiririka ndikusiya zolaula. Sindikudziwa ngati zingathandize koma ndidaganiza kuti ndakhala ndikutsitsa ubongo wanga ndi thupi langa kwanthawi yayitali, kotero sizingavulaze. Ndakhala ndikuwonjezera ndi mavitamini a B, magnesium ndi ena kuti ayesere kulumpha kuyambitsa kupanga ma neurotransmitter mwachilengedwe.
Ndikuwopa kuti ndawononga thupi langa ndikukula kwambiri koma ndikuyembekeza kuti ndikulimba mtima ndikugwira ntchito, nditha kuzisintha. Chifukwa chake mawu kwa anzeru: chilichonse mosapitirira malire. Chilichonse chowonjezera chikhoza kukupwetekani mwanjira ina. mawu a chenjezo kwa ophwanya
Amuna inu ndikudziwa kuti izi ndi zopusa koma im 12 ndi abwenzi anga nthawi zonse amandiyang'ana P ndi iwo ndachita ndipo ndinayambitsa MB ikuyamba kuwonjezereka ndi kusayima MB patsiku kapena P usiku utangoyamba koma ndikungoyang'ana ndikuzindikira ndikuganiza chifukwa za zambiri za MB kuchokera pa P zandichititsa kuti ndikhale ndi nthenda (ndikuwuluka ngati kuwona) ndikuwopsya ndipo ndikuyesera koma ndikungofuna chonde.
Chipangizo changa chothandiza kwambiri popewa kubwereranso chinali funso limodzi. Nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna kusamba, ndimadzifunsa kuti, "Ngati mungathe kudziseweretsa maliseche pakali pano, koma popanda zolaula komanso popanda maloto, kodi mukanachitabe?" Pafupifupi nthawi iliyonse yankho linkabweranso kuti "Ayi" ndipo ndi momwe ndimadziwira kuti chizolowezi changa chinali kundilamulirabe. Sindinkafuna kumva maliseche kapena kugonana, ndinkalakalaka kusaka malo abwino kapena mtsikana wangwiro (chizolowezi chogonana). Ndikazindikira kuti chinali chizolowezi changa osati chilakolako chenicheni, ndinkakwiya ndipo kutsimikiza mtima kwanga kunkawirikiza kawiri.
Ndinali wodwala maliseche kwa moyo wanga wonse. Ndili ndi 27 tsopano, ndipo thupi langa ladzala ndi ululu. M'khosi ndi mwendo makamaka. Ndinayamba chizolowezi zolaula koma tsopano mayendedwe anga, omwe samayambitsa zizindikilo, amangokhala kuyenda ndikugona chagada. Tawonapo madokotala ambiri ndipo tiwona zambiri. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2oq2q8/anyone_else_have_chronic_pain_from_masturbating/
Kuyang'ana kosangalatsa komanso komvetsa chisoni kwa munthu amene akuyambiranso chizolowezi: Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lililonse ndi atsikana mpaka ndili ndi zaka 19. Ndinali ndi vuto la anorexia, sindimakonda kucheza ndi anthu, ndipo ndinalibe mphamvu zolankhula ndi anthu kapena kudzisamalira. Panthawiyi ndimayang'ana zolaula ndikudzilimbikitsa. Ndikanakumbukira bwino, chaka changa chomaliza cha zolaula, ngakhale zina mwa zomwe ndimagonana nazo sizinali zovuta kwambiri ndikayang'ana zolaula. Ndinkangozolowera kusangalala nthawi zonse. Mtengo wanga wa m'mawa uli pafupifupi 70% pakadali pano. Sabata yatha ndinadzuka bwino ndikuyang'ana mbolo yanga kudzera pa kamera. N'zachilendo, zimakhala ngati ndiyenera kudziona ndekha kuti ndidzuke ... ngati filimu. Palinso galasi pafupi ndi bedi la chibwenzi changa ndipo ndimaiyang'ana ndikuwona momwe timaonekera limodzi ndipo ndimayatsidwa pang'ono.
Zikuoneka kuti zovuta zimakhudza zokolola zanga (kuwerenga, ntchito yamakompyuta, etc) kapena luso loganiza bwino. Zambiri zimakhudza maganizo anga, kulimba mtima, kufotokozera, nkhawa, chikhalidwe cha thupi, chikondi cha moyo, zinthu zomwezo.
Bulu wanga wopunduka adadzipatsa matenda opatsirana pogonana. Mukufuna kudziwa momwe ndinachitira? Ndinapita ku le club. Koma kale ndinali wotsimikiza kuchotsa milomo yanga kuphulika konse. Ndidasochera kwathunthu ku le club ndikufika kunyumba. Sindinakumanepo ndi akazi, chifukwa ndine wotayika molunjika kotero ndidaganiza zopanga kompyuta ndikuwona zolaula zapaintaneti. Ndinaganizanso kuti lingakhale lingaliro labwino kuponyera fodya wotafuna m'kamwa mwanga m'manja. Palibe chifukwa choti ndinene kuti sindinaganize zosamba m'manja ndisanachite zosangalatsa. Tsiku lotsatira ndinamva kutentha pa Dick wanga ndipo ndinayang'ana usiku womwewo. Palibe, tsiku lotsatira ngakhale ndinayang'ananso ndili ndi zing'onozing'ono zing'onozing'ono zisanu pomwe ndimayika chala changa cha mbolo ndikachiphwanya. Chabwino ndidagwiritsa ntchito chala changa chonyamulira kuti nditulutse mlomo wanga kuti ndiponyemo. Tsopano ndangolephera kwathunthu. Kusamalitsa, ndi nsungu komanso wopanda bwenzi limodzi. Ndine chilumba. Ine ndikudziwa ngakhale yemwe ine ndiri ndi herpes kwa… inemwini. Ndikungofuna kufa.
(chachikazi) Ndikuyesera kusiya, ndipo ndili pa Tsiku 2, mutatha kubwereranso. Pamene ndikufufuza njira zowonjezeretsa pa intaneti, ndinazindikira kuti kusuta zolaula sikumvetsetsedwa bwino ndikusweka pansi pa firiji ... Ngakhale pamene ndatulukira kwa amayi anga (yemwe ndi katswiri wa maganizo), anali asanamvedwepo za kuledzera. Iye sanaganize kuti chinali chinthu chachikulu chotero. Ndinkaonera maola olaula a 3 tsiku lililonse, ndipo pali mamiliyoni onga ine. Panopa ndili ndi zizindikiro zowonongeka kwambiri: kuvutika maganizo, kuchuluka kwa nkhawa, kupweteka kwa mutu, incorrigible libido .... Ndikufuna kudziwa ngati pali zina zolaula zomwe zimayesedwa kunja uko. Kuwala uku sikuli umunthu. Intaneti ili ndi zonyansa.
Ena mwa anzanga omwe sanali osokoneza bongo adadabwa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndimalakalaka kupusitsa atsikana onse. Zili ngati kachilombo koyambitsa matendawa kamene kanatenga ubongo wanga pagulu ndipo kunandipangitsa kuti ndisaganizire china chilichonse kuposa kulowa mu zinthu zazimayizi. Sindingathe kuyang'anitsitsa kapena kuchita bwino.
Kuyambira pamene ndinayamba MOI ndili wachinyamata (12-13, tsopano ndili ndi zaka 26) nthawi zonse ndakhala ndi chizolowezi chochita PMO ndi minofu yanga ya PC ikuchepa nthawi zonse mpaka kufika poti ndinkatsala pang'ono kufika pa 0, kenako ndimasiya kudzilimbitsa mpaka nditamva kuti chilakolakocho chatha ndikupitirizabe mpaka nditamaliza (makamaka nthawi zonse m'mphepete). Ndimavutika kukhalabe ndi mbewa pokhapokha ngati ndikulimbikitsidwa nthawi zonse, pomwe nthawi yomweyo, ndikulimbitsa minofu yanga ya m'chiuno. Ndikangosiya kudzilimbitsa kapena kupumula minofu yanga ya PC, ndimayamba kutaya mbewa yanga. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi ndazindikira kuti ndimatuluka madzi m'mimba komanso ndimakhala ndi mbewa.
Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 22 ndipo usiku watha ndinabweretsedwa kuchipatala chifukwa chakuwononga kwambiri khola langa. Ndinali wamantha kwambiri ndipo ndinali wofunitsitsa kwambiri kuti ndimasulidwe. Ndinafika pa izo ndipo ndinamva kuti ndikufunika kulimbikitsidwa pamene ndimayang'ana zolaula. Mwinamwake inali nthawi yoyesera kotero ndinayika china kumtunda kwanga kutali kwambiri ndikuganiza kuti ndikumva bwino koma nthawi yomweyo ndinamva kupweteka, kukakamizidwa, kuyaka pafupifupi mbolo yanga. Ulendo wopita kuchipatala ndikufufuza mphaka pambuyo pake ndidauzidwa kuti ndinali ndi mwayi waukulu kuti ndisadzawonongeke koma ndidzapwetekedwa kwa milungu ingapo. Ndidakhala ndi mwayi ndikumupeza pang'ono pang'ono. Mfundo yanga ndikumverera kofunafuna zochulukirapo zomwe zingandikhutiritse ndikamayang'ana zolaula zimandikankhira kutali kwambiri mpaka ndikadavulala kwambiri. Musalole kuti kuyendetsa galimoto kapena njala ya zochuluka ikupangitseni kugonja. Ikuwonongerani inu! Longetsani ku chinthu chabwino ndipo kuyendetsa zambiri kungakuthandizeni popita kukakumana ndi munthu winawake kwinakwake yemwe angakupatseni chisangalalo chonse chomwe simukanatha kuchipeza pa piritsi.
Kuyesera chifukwa ndinayang'ana zolaula kunandipangitsa kupita kuchipatala.
Zizindikiro za 3 zimapindulitsa nthawi zonse ndikaima kwa sabata kapena kuposa:
- Choyamba, ndinayamba kumva kutengeka kwa minofu komwe kunali kovuta komanso kosautsa. Iwo anayamba pamphumi panga pamwamba pa diso langa lonse ndipo kenako anapita patsogolo ku mbali zina za thupi langa ngati manja ndi ntchafu. Mitundu ya minofu imeneyi imachitika nthawi zambiri patsikuli.
- Kukhala ndi matumbo kunayamba kukhala vuto chifukwa nthawi zambiri ndimamva ngati matupi anga ataya zinyalala anali osasunthika kotero ndimayenera kudzikakamiza kuti ndipite kubafa osavutikanso chifukwa mwina kapena ndimayamba kumva kukhala otupa komanso osakhala bwino . Ngakhale ndikadzikakamiza kuti ndipite, sindidutsa 1/3 ya zomwe ndikufuna kuchita poyesa koyamba. Ndinkaganiza kuti izi zinali chifukwa cha kutupa kwa prostate yanga chifukwa chokhala ndikukula tsiku ndi tsiku.
- Ndikupuma komanso kupumula ndidayamba kumva kugunda kwanga mbali zosiyanasiyana za thupi langa. ndimamva kuti mtima wanga ukugunda. Izi sizinali zachilendo chifukwa sindinamvepo izi mpaka posachedwa. ndimamva ngati ndili ndi kuthamanga kwa magazi kapena china chake. Koma nthawi zonse ndimakhala wosamva bwino ndikamafuna kugona ndipo ndimangokhalira kumva kugunda kwanga m'malo osamvetseka a thupi langa. Ndinayang'ana izi ndikupeza kuti zimakhudza anthu ena kunjaku. Osatsimikiza ngati zikukhudzanso zomwe amakonda.
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Ndili ndi mndandanda wazizindikiro zomwe ndimasunga. Sizokwanira, koma sindimakumana ndi vuto lililonse chifukwa cha zosokoneza, kotero zizindikirazo zimawonetsa kukondana ndi zolaula. Ndikukhulupirira motsimikiza kuti ED ndiyofunika kwambiri kuposa kuchuluka kwa zizindikiritso za PA:
-Maganizidwe;
Pogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, ndimakhala ndi mphamvu zochepa pazinthu zambiri kuti ndiziika maganizo anga kapena kuwathetsa, komanso kuchepetsedwa kwanga kumvetsera nyimbo kapena zosangalatsa zina. Zotsatira za izi zikuphatikizapo: Kulephera kukwaniritsa ntchito, kuchepetsa mwayi wokondweretsa nyimbo, kuwerenga ndi masewera, ndikumverera kosakwaniritsidwa ndi chisokonezo.-Kuda nkhawa:
Nthawi zambiri nkhawa yanga imakhalabe kwa nthawi yaitali popanda kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula, koma zimakhala zovuta kwambiri kuti munthu asamavutike kwambiri.-Kuonjezera mantha a:
Ngakhale kuti mantha anga ambiri ali ofatsa (kupatulapo nkhaŵa zosatha), ndizovuta masiku amatha kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndipo zikuwoneka kuti zikupitirizabe kuchepa nthawi yambiri.Kuchepetsa nzeru:
Ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito zosiyanasiyana ndikuyambiranso, ndipo ndakhala ndikulephera kuganiza kuti nzeru zanga ndi zazikulu kwambiri pamene sindinagwiritse ntchito zolaula kusiyana ndi kubwereranso.Maganizo osazindikira:
Ndili ndi chizoloŵezi chachikulu choyika zinthu molakwika, ndikukhulupirira kuti izi ndi zotsatira za zizolowezi zolaula. Ndikukayikira kuti izi sizikanakhala zovuta pambuyo pa zolaula zamtima zolaula.Kuchepetsa kumizidwa m'madzi:
Ndimagwirizana kwambiri ndi zochitika zokhudzana ndi zolaula.Kuchita:
Kusintha kumeneku sikungatheke. Ndimapindulitsa kwambiri pazinthu zambiri pamene sindikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche.
Pambuyo pake ndimachita izi. Ndidakula mpaka Dick wanga atataya magazi. Nditawerenga pa intaneti ndapeza kuti ndiyenera kuti ndathyola chotengera kuti chisakule kwambiri. Kapenanso kusintha tsiku lonse mpaka kupweteka, kenako ena. Zimasokoneza kwambiri kutenga magazi mu umuna wanga. Sizikuchitikanso. Palibe choyenera kuwona izi. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2ou2z9/blood_in_urine/
Koma usiku watha, chifukwa cha NoFap, ndinali ndi chidwi chachikulu chokhala ndi mnzanga. Ndi msungwana wokongola koma womveka. Ngakhale zili choncho, gawo lokhala ndimaganizo okhala ndi mphamvu yakugonana yomwe idapangika idandipangitsa - kamodzi koyamba m'moyo wanga - NDIKUFUNA wina m'chipinda chimodzi. Sikuti ndimangokhala ngati horny, ndimafuna kudziwa thupi lake ndikumusangalatsa. Porn zinandiphunzitsa kukopeka ndi mawonekedwe azakugonana, koma tsopano ndikudziwa momwe zimamvera kulakalaka kukhudzana ndi kuyandikira. Ndikufuna kwambiri kuti kumverera kumeneku kupitilira, chifukwa chake sindiyenera kusiya. Ndani ali ndi ine?!
Ndili ndi zaka 28. Ndakhala ndikuchita maliseche kamodzi patsiku kuyambira pomwe ndimakonda. Nthawi zonse ndinkachita ndisanagone, osati chifukwa cha zosangalatsa, koma chifukwa zimawoneka ngati ndiyenera kutero. Sindinakumanepo kwenikweni ndi mkazi, kupatula kukumbatirana pang'ono. Mosakayikira, ndidakali namwali. Ndipo yekhayo amene ndikuyenera kumuimba mlandu ndi inemwini. Sindingafotokozere mwatsatanetsatane (mwina ndidzatero), koma chizolowezi changa chidayamba ndili wachinyamata ndipo ndili pano, zaka 15 pambuyo pake. Ndakhala ndikukondweretsanso ma MMORPG pazaka 6 zapitazi. Ena mwa mavuto omwe ndawona:
- Kuda nkhawa ndi anthu - ndimazengereza kupita kusitolo. Zimandivuta kukhala ndekha ndi munthu wina, makamaka mkazi. Ndimapewa kukumana ndi anthu ndikakhala panja.
- Kunyozeka - Ndakhala ndikudziuza ndekha kuti: "Chifukwa chiyani uyenera kuyesa? Siinu abwino kuposa ena onse. ”
- Kukumbukira koyipa / utsi wamaubongo - Makamaka zikafika manambala. Ndikamagwira ntchito ndiyenera kuwunika katatu kuti ndasankha kasitomala woyenera. Nthawi zambiri ndimavutika kuganizira zomwe ena anena.
- Palibe chiopsezo chotenga - Palibe. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala komwe kuli kotetezeka.
- Palibe cholimbikitsira - sindinakhalepo wofunitsitsa kuchita chilichonse.
Ndili ndizitsulo pamoto wanga nthawi zingapo. Ndimadziwa kuti ndinali ndi vuto ndiye.
Mwinanso mungakhale ndi vuto la PMO ngati
- Mwagwira ntchito, nthawi yamalonda.
- Mwaba wotsekemera kwa deskiti akuntchito ndikugwira ntchito mochedwa.
- Munayamba mwawonapo zolaula pamalo amodzi, komwe mukuganiza kuti palibe amene angakhoze kuwona, koma akudandaula kuti kusinkhasinkha m'magalasi anu kukupatsani.
- Mwapuma pa mpumulo pambali.
- Mwayenda panthawi yomwe mukuyendetsa galimoto, koma mutsegula maso anu pamtima kuti musadziphe kapena wina aliyense.
- Mwakhala mukukula msasa, ndipo mumayembekeza fungo silikopa nyama zakutchire
- Inu mwalowa mu bafa ya ndege, ndipo mwawona zomwe zimawoneka ngati madontho a misinkhu pamakoma a khola, ndikumverera chitonthozo mmalo mwa kunyansidwa.
- Mwayenda mu bafa ya ndege ndipo munalowa nawo kampu yapamwamba ya fappers.
- Inu mwafera mu pota ya porta.
- Mwasintha mu zovuta malo otentha pa phwando, pamwamba pa chinachake.
- Mukayesa mankhwala atsopano, mukufuna kuona zomwe zikugwiritsidwa ntchito pa mankhwalawa
- Iwe wagona tulo, chifukwa iwe unaledzera kwambiri kuti usathe kupitirira, koma iwe umapitirira mpaka iwe utatuluka.
- Inu munayamba mwafota kangapo tsiku limodzi kuti muzitha kuwombera.
- Munayamba mwayembekezera kuyembekezera khungu kuti lichiritse lomwe linavulazidwa kuchokera kuzinthu zowonongeka.
- Mwatenga telefoni panthawiyi, kuti mutengere chidwi pakati pa zolaula ndi zokambirana.
- Mukusowa nthawi yochepa ndipo mumataya ntchito yodzipangira okha chifukwa cha kuphuka.
- Inu mwaika chilango chowopsya chachikulu pa platoon yanu yonse mwa kuyenda mu masitepe a kutuluka moto pamene muli ku maphunziro a Basic Army.
- Mwamakhala ndi akazi ogona naye akuchoka kunja kwa nyumba yanu chifukwa adakupeza mukufera m'chipinda chanu pa kompyuta yanu mutaganizira kuti aliyense ali pabedi.
- Muyenera kutsukitsa zopanda zanu chifukwa cha kuyesedwa kwa lube.
- 98% ya malonda omwe munayamba mwakhala nawo wapita m'manja mwanu ndi mbolo.
- Mukhoza kuika mafuta mu khitchini yanu ndi mphamvu yawo yowonjezera mafuta.
- Muyenera kutuluka pachigololo chenicheni kuti "mupite kubafa" kuti mupeze zolaula zomwe zingakuthandizeni ndi gawo la ED.
- Inu munayamba mwakhalapo ndi zina zofunikira, ndipo inu mumakhala mochuluka kuposa momwe mukugonana.
- Mwagula bootleg xxx dvd kwa ogulitsa mumsewu m'maiko achitatu chifukwa bandwidth idayamwa.
- Munayamba mwachita zolaula ponyamula panja kuti muwone ngati wina angamvetsere pa wokambirana wanu wotsika kwambiri, chifukwa kuvala headphones kungakhale kovuta kumva wina akuyenda mwa inu.
- Mwaika mafayilo opanga zolaula ndipo kenako mwasokoneza / munayendetsa mozungulira.
- Mwagwiritsira ntchito ma proxies oyendayenda kuti muzizungulira winawake elses mafayilo.
- Mukudziwa ndendende momwe mungachotsere mbiri yonse ya mbiri yanu ndi zizolowezi zanu.
- Simungakumbukire kangati momwe mudachotsa zosunga zanu zonse kuti musiye.
- Munayamba mwadula kupyolera muyeso lanu lachitsulo ndi amanyozedwa zolaula chifukwa umadziwa kuti sunagunde batani "lopanda kanthu" panobe.
- Nthawi iliyonse mutagula watsopano, chowunikira chachikulu ndi chinthu choyamba mukufuna kuchiwona ndi momwe ziwonetsero zimawonekera.
- Mudakopera zolaula ku foni yamakono yanu kuti muzitha kuyendetsa pang'onopang'ono.
- Simunathe kusiya, ngakhale mwakhala mukufuna kwa zaka zambiri
"Chochititsa chidwi: Ndangowerengera ... Kungotenga pafupifupi ola limodzi ndi theka la zolaula tsiku lililonse kuyambira zaka 12 mpaka 27, zikutanthauza kuti ndawonera pafupifupi CHAKA CHONSE cholaula. Mwinanso koposa. Ndakhala ndikupita kwina kulikonse koma ndimakhala ndi gawo langa la masiku 6+. ”