Kutheni i-pornography yami isanda kakhulu?

IZIFUNDO: Iimpawu zokuxhatshazwa kunye nokunyuka kwamanqaku angaphezulu? Izifundo ezingaphezu kwe-60 zokubika iziphumo zihambelane nokukhula kwezilwanyana (ukunyamezela), ukuhlala kwimiba yezononophelo, kunye nokukhutshwa kweempawu (zonke iimpawu kunye neempawu ezinxulumene nomlutha).

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UHLAZIYO: “Ndayeka i-porn xa kwakuphazamiseka kakhulu"(Chicago Tribune, 2018)

Kule minyaka idlulileyo yesi siyobisi incasa yam ye-porn yavela. Uqale ukubukela iphonografi yabasetyhini apho intombazana ibetha, ithuka kwaye ifunqula umntu onentambo, cuckold / ukukopela iphonografi, ebonakala ngathi indenza ndibe nomdla ngakumbi kubafazi ababenendoda / umfana, nokuba wayengekho mhle , yonke le nto yokukhohlisa yandenza ndaphambana. Nokuba uhlobo "oluthambileyo" lwe-porn njengama-MILFs luphele lundenza nditsaleleke ngakumbi kubantu basetyhini abadala ababenabantwana, bendenza ukuba ndifune ukubamba umama endifunda nabo, ootitshala. Isenza idama.

Indoda emnandi, andizange ndicinge ukuba iphonografi ingayenza loo nto, ndandingathandi xa ndandisemncinci, ngaphambi koononophala, ndandicinga nje ngesondo esiqhelekileyo, ndaziva nditsaleleka kuyo nayiphi na intombazana entle. Ndihlala ndizama ukujonga emva ndize ndibone ukuba izinto zihambe njani kule ndlela ndingakhange ndiyiphawule. Ngoku nasemva kokumisa ndisenento engabafazi abandikhaba kwiibhola, bandibetha ngempama bandicofa. Ndiqinisekile ukuba i-PIED yam iya kunyangwa… kodwa ngaba zonke ezo fetish ndiziphuhlisileyo ziya kuhlala ziyingqondo yam? Permalink

Abasebenzisi abangabonwayo boononophelo bavame ukuchaza ukunyuka kwezilwanyana ekusebenziseni iifostile ezithatha ixesha elide lokujonga okanye ukufuna uhlobo olutsha lwe-pornography. Iimpawu ezintsha ezenza ukutshatyalaliswa, ukutshatyalaliswa, ukuphulwa kwezilindelo okanye ukuxhalabisa kunokusebenza ukwandisa ukuvuswa kwesondo, kwaye kubasebenzisi bezithombe ezingabonakaliyo, ukuba impendulo ikhutshwe ngenxa yokusetyenziswa kakubi, le nto ibonakala kakhulu.

Abaphandi baseKinsey Institute babephakathi kokuqala ukubika le ngxaki. kwi 2007, baqaphele ukuba ukubonakaliswa okuphezulu kweevidiyo zoononografi kubonakala ngathi kubangele ukungaziphathi kakuhle ngokwesondo kunye nemfuno eyandayo yokugabadela, izinto ezikhethekileyo okanye izinto "zekinky" ukuba zivuswe, kodwa khange ziphande ngakumbi. Kwakhona ngo-2007, uNorman Doidge MD wabhala ngokunyuka kwincwadi yakhe Ubungqina Obuguqula:

Ubhubhane wangoku we-porn unika umfanekiso ocacileyo wokuba ukuthanda izinto zesondo kunokufunyanwa. Imifanekiso engamanyala, ihanjiswa ngesantya esiphezulu kwi-Intanethi, yanelisa nganye yezinto ezifunekayo zotshintsho lwe-neuroplastic… Xa oonografi beqhayisa ukuba bayayityhala imvulophu ngokuzisa imixholo emitsha, enzima, abangayithethiyo kukuba kufuneka, kuba abathengi babo bakha ukunyamezelana nomxholo.

Ubuntu ngokwesini kakhulu "imeko-ekwaziyo" kunokuba iingcali ziqaphele. A Ucwaningo lwe-2016 fu manisa isiqingatha Abasebenzisi be-intanethi abasebenzisa i-intanethi benyukele kwizinto ababezifumene ngaphambili "zingenamdla okanye zenyanyeka."Imisebenzi yezocwangciso ze-intanethi: Ukufundisisa ukuhlolwa kweepateni zokusebenzisa ingxaki kunye nokungenanto ingxaki kwisampula samadoda). Ingqungquthela:

Amashumi amabini anesithoba ekhulwini akhankanya amaxesha athile afuna umxholo wesondo okanye abandakanyeka kwii-OSA [zoonwabo] ezingazange zithandeke kubo ngaphambili okanye ukuba zibhekiselele ezinyanyekayo.

Olu pho nonongo lwaseBelgium lufumene ingxaki yokusebenzisa i-intanethi kwi-intanethi yayinxulumene nokunciphisa umsebenzi we-erectile kunye nokunciphisa ukwaneliseka ngokwesini. Nangona kunjalo abasebenzisi be-porn abanengxaki bafumana iminqweno emikhulu (i-OSA = imisebenzi yesondo ekwi-intanethi, eyayingamanyala nge-99% yezifundo). Into enomdla kukuba, i-20.3% yabathathi-nxaxheba bathi enye injongo yokusebenzisa kwabo iphonografi "yayikukugcina inkanuko kunye neqabane lam."

Ukusebenzisa iindlela ezahlukeneyo nokuhlola Iziphumo zeengxelo ze-60 zivakalisa iziphumo ezihambelana nokunyuka kokusetyenziswa koononophelo (ukunyamezela), ukuhlala kwimeko yezononophelo, kunye nokuziyeka (zonke iimpawu kunye neempawu ezinxulumene nomlutha).

Ngokomzekelo, olu cwaningo lwe-2017 luye lwavanywa kwaye lwavavanya i-questionnotes problem using question question Ukuphuhliswa kweNgxaki yokuTyekisa i-Pornography Scale (PPCS). Ngokungafaniyo novavanyo lwangaphambili lweziyobisi ezingamanyala, eli phepha lemibuzo le-18 lavavanya unyamezelo (ukunyuka kokusetyenziswa) kunye nokurhoxa, ukuzifumana zombini, ukuphelisa impikiswano malunga nokurhoxa kunye nokunyuka kwabasebenzisi be-porn rhoqo. Imibuzo emibini eyayisetyenziselwa ukujonga ukunyuka kokusetyenziswa kwe-porn:

  • Ndandibona ngokugqithiseleyo "ubugqwetha" obugqithiseleyo, kuba i-pornography engayibonayo ngaphambili ayinelisekanga
  • Ndandiziva ukuba ndifuna i-pornography ngakumbi kwaye ndiyanelisa iimfuno zam

Ukongeza, olu phononongo lwe-2016 lubeka amathandabuzo kwinto yokuba ukuthanda ezokwabelana ngesondo kuzinzile ngokubhekisele kwi-intanethi yangoku (yokuhambisa) iphonografi (Ukusetyenziswa kweMidiya ecacileyo ngesondo ngoBume boBugcisa: Uhlalutyo olulinganiswayo lweGay, uBualxual, kunye nabaHeterosexual Men eUnited States). Ingqungquthela evela kulolu cwaningo:

Iziphumo zikwabonakalisile ukuba uninzi lwamadoda ajonge umxholo ocacileyo wesini (SEM) ongahambelaniyo nesazisi esichaziweyo. Kwakuyinto eqhelekileyo ukuba amadoda achongwe ngokwesini esahlukileyo axele ukubonwa kwe-SEM equkethe indlela yokuziphatha kwabantu besini esifanayo (i-20.7%) kunye namadoda achongiweyo angama-gay ukuba anike ingxelo yokujonga indlela aziphatha ngayo kwi-SEM (55.0%).

Esi sifundo, sithathwe kunye ezinye izifundo kule khasi, debunks meme ukuba abasebenzisi be-porn banamhlanje ekugqibeleni "bafumene ukuziphatha kwabo ngokwesini”Ngokuntywila kwiziza zeetyhubhu, emva koko unamathele kuhlobo olunye lwephonografi okwexeshana.

Abaphandi beYunivesithi yaseCambridge Ndiqinisekisile ukuba iingxaki zabasebenzisi be-porn abanengxaki yokusebenzisa imifanekiso ngokukhawuleza kunolawulo kwaye bavuswa yimifanekiso yenoveli. Ke ukuba uye wanyuka waya kubuntombi obungamanyala obothusayo, awuwedwa, kwaye kusenokwenzeka ukuba ayibonisi ukuba "ungubani" ngesondo- ngaphandle komntu oqhelekileyo okruqukileyo, osebenzisa iphonografi. Eli phepha linamakhulu emizekelo (engezantsi) yabafana abayeka i-porn kwaye babona i-fetish-induction fetishes yabo inyuka.

Kukwakho neefestile ezibalulekileyo zophuhliso, ngexa imibutho ifaka intambo "ngokunzulu" (kwaye ibonakalise ukuba neenkani ngakumbi ukutshintsha). Ezinye iifestile zikwasebuntwaneni, xa eminye imibutho iba ziinkumbulo ezingachazwanga (ezingazi). Umzekelo, ukuba ukubetha ngandlel 'ithile kubangele ukuba umntu aphendule ngendlela evuselela inkanuko, kuye kwabekwa isiseko. Ugqirha wengqondo uNorman Doidge uxoxa ngalo mzekelo kwisahluko sakhe esigqwesileyo ngeplastikhi yesondo, Isahluko esipheleleyo, kwincwadi yakhe Ubungqina Obuguqula. Kutshanje, iDoidge wabhala:

“Siphakathi kwenguqu kwezesondo kunye nokuthanda izinto ezingafaniyo nezinye ezembali, ulingelo lwentlalo lwenziwa ebantwaneni nakwishumi elivisayo… Oko oogqirha abangakwaziyo kangako ngako, kodwa, yindlela esiza kubanceda ngayo abakwishumi elivisayo, Ukuthanda izinto kuchatshazelwa luononophala, kuba eli nqanaba lokuvezwa kwe-porn intsha kakhulu. Ngaba ezi mpembelelo kunye nezinto ezithandwayo ziya kujika zibengaphezulu? Okanye ngaba le mifanekiso mitsha yamanyala iya kuzinzisa ngokunzulu ngenxa yokuba iminyaka yeshumi elivisayo iselixesha lokukhula? ”

Abanye abaphandi baphinde balinganisa le nkqubo yokunyuka kweevenkile xa i-video ye-pornography yafumaneka ngokubanzi. Omnye ubhala:

Yintoni enokuqwalaselwa esisiseko kukuba ukufudumala okuqhelekileyo kwabaselula (oko kukuthi, ngokuyininzi abafundi abakwiminyaka yokuqala yekholejini) ukuba bafumaneke ngokukhawuleza, ukucaca kunye nomzobo, kodwa kungabikho kokunyanzelisa, kukhuthaza ukukhawuleza ukutshatyalaliswa kwezimpembelelo ezinjengeemvakalelo zecala , ukugxekwa, kunye nokunyaniseka, kunye nokuphuhliswa ngokukhawuleza kokungathandabuzeki okungathandabuzekiyo. Ukuvezwa kwexesha elide kukukhokelela ekusebenziseni iimpendulo, kodwa kunjalo. Ulonwabe luyancipha ngenxa yoko, kunye nokusetyenziswa kwezixhobo zorhwebo (oko kukuthi, u-erotica ebonisa ukuziphatha okuqhelekileyo ngokwesondo) kuyafuneka ukuba ugcine ukunyameka kwamandla okwamkelekileyo.

Kutheni le nto isenzeka? Kubonakala ngathi ukusasaza iphonografi yinto oososayensi abayibiza ngokuba "sisikhuthazo esingaphaya kwamandla." Oko kukuthi, ubuchopho bethu abuzange buvele nolu khuthazo lukhulu, kwaye ke azilungelelaniswanga nalo. "Bayazikhusela" ngokungaphenduli kangako kulonwabo, oko kuthetha ukuba i-intanethi ye-intanethi, ngokungathandabuzekiyo, iba yinto engonelisekanga ngokuhamba kwexesha (kwabanye abasebenzisi). Ukungoneliseki okungapheliyo emva koko kuqhuba ukukhangela kukhuthazo olunamandla ngakumbi, njengoko umsebenzisi ekhangela ulonwabo olugqithisileyo. Okubi nangakumbi kukuba, uxinzelelo lonyusa ukuvusa isondo, ngenxa yoko ukwenza izinto ezinobungozi kuya kuba kukuvulwa, oku kungakhokelela kumjikelo wokuzilimaza apho abanye abasebenzisi baqhutywa khona ukuba benze ubundlobongela babo obunobunkunkqele kubomi bokwenyani ukuzama ukukrwitsha kwabo . Funda ibali lomntu omnye.

Kwaye, ewe, kuhlala kunokwenzeka ukuguqula ezo fetish zibangelwa zi-porn. Yabona Ingaba iifestile zandibangelwa? Kodwa kunokuthatha ixesha elide kunokuba ucinga ukuba kuya Le nqaku ichaza ngakumbi: Kutheni Ndifumana Unobomi Obunomdla Kunokuba Ngumlingani?

Ukunyuka kwesiphumo kubangelwa kukuhlala okanye ukungafuneki. Mhlawumbi zombini. Ukuhlala ukuhla kwexeshana okanye ukuyeka ukukhululwa kwe-dopamine ekuphenduleni ukukhuthazwa okuthe ngqo. Le yinkqubo eqhelekileyo kwaye inokutshintsha umzuzu ngokukhawuleza. Ukuhlala kubangela ukuba abasebenzisi boononophelo bafune iindawo ezintsha kwaye ngaloo ndlela zihlobo ezintsha.

Ukuxhatshazwa libhekisela kwiinguqu zengqondo zengqesho zangexesha elide ezingathatha inyanga ukuya kwiminyaka ukuba ziphuhlise, kwaye ixesha elide liza kuguqulwa. Phakathi kwezinye iinguqu, i-dopamine kunye ne-opioids iyancipha, njengoko i-receptors ethile ye-dopamine kunye ne-opioid receptors. Oku kushiya umntu abajongene nokuzonwabisa, kwaye kaninzi lubonakalisa njengesidingo sokuvuselela ngakumbi kunye nokuphumelela ukuphumeza i-buzz efanayo ('ukunyamezela'). Ngoxa umlutha uquka ukungafuneki, ubuchopho butshintsha emva kokusweleka kwenzeka ngaphandle umntu ofumana umlutha opheleleyo (ezininzi neurological Iingxelo zengxelo yokungafuneki / ukuhlala kubasebenzisi bezononono: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8.).

Ukuxhatshazwa kunye nokuqhelana nokukhuthaza abasebenzisi boononophala ukuba bafune iintlobo ezintsha, ngamanye amaxesha kunzima kwaye bangaziwayo, okanye badideke. Kanye nje ngokuba umsebenzisi weziyobisi ufuna iimpahla ezininzi ukuze aphakame (njengeyakhe isekethe yomvuzo ikhula linani), Abasebenzisi be-Intanethi banamhlanje banokufumana ukuba bafuna iividiyo ezininzi, okanye iividiyo zekinkier, okanye i-porn yokwenyani, okanye incoko ebukhoma, okanye ukudlala, okanye izinto ezingekho mthethweni ukufumana i-buzz yabo ingqondo ifuna.

Akunjalo nje ngesondo izinto ezintsha ehlawulela inkqubo yethu yomvuzo. I-Dopamine iyatshisa nezinye iimvakalelo kunye nesishukumiso, zonke ezidla ngokugqithiseleyo xa usebenzisa i-intanethi ye-intanethi:

Ukuhlengahlengiswa, kunye nokunyamezelana, kwenzeka ngenxa yokuba iphonografi yanamhlanje kwi-Intanethi lukhulu kakhulu kwaye ininzi kunokuba nayiphi na ingqondo yabantu kwindalo. Iphaki yasemazantsi wenza umsebenzi omkhulu wokuwubamba esi siqendu. Ngezantsi imizekelo embalwa yonyamezelo echazwe ngamalungu esayithi. Kwezinye iimeko, isenzeko sibonakala kuphela xa i ukungabikho kokukhuthaza kakhulu ixesha lilungisa ingxaki. Lo mfana uyithatha le nto:

Ndoda ndicinyiwe ngoku. Andibonakali ngathi ndiyazinqanda. Emva kokuba ndiyilwaphulo loonografi kwaye ndakwazi ukuyeka .. malunga neenyanga ezili-3. Oku kuye kwanda kule minyaka idlulileyo ukusuka kwiminyaka eli-12 ubudala ngoluhlobo;

  • Ngaphantsi kweempahla
  • Imodeli yamaNude
  • Isondo esisisiseko kwi-
  • BJ
  • ezimpundu
  • Gangbangs
  • Ukulawulwa kwamadoda kwabasetyhini
  • Femdom
  • iinyawo
  • Umfazi ngeentlungu
  • Umfazi uziva evakalelwa

Emva koko ndafumana iiforamu zokuloba / iiFacebook. Bendihlala ndicinga ukuba kubi ukubukela iphonografi iiyure ze-4. Ukusukela kwiinyanga ze-6/7 ezidlulileyo ubuncinci i-4 okanye i-5 yezihlandlo bendikhe ndaphakama BONKE ubusuku, sithetha iiyure eziyi-12 + apha. Ndigqibile iseshoni yeeyure ezi-5 zosizi. Kwaye kwakhona ingqondo yam ivakalelwa kukuba ixhatshazwe yiyo. Ndiziva ndonwabile kwaye ndingonwabanga ekuhlaleni kwaye ndinexhala njengoko ungakholelwa.

Njalo xa ndixhaphaza i-porn ifumana umthunzi omncinci kakhulu. Ndichithe ixesha elininzi kwiseshoni yam yokugqibela ndicinga ngemisebenzi yobufanasini kwimeko yokunyanzelwa kwabasetyhini. Ngoku ndibuyele esiqhelweni emva kwe-orgasm, ndiziva ndonwabile. Le ayisiyonto endinokuyifumana inomdla kwihlabathi lokwenyani, engqondweni yam elungileyo! Ndizabalaza kunzima ukuphula umjikelo, le yindawo kuphela endinokubhala kuyo.

Ukuba ukusetyenziswa koononophelo kuye kwathintela izinto zakho zesondo, jonga:

Nantsi iUkunyamezelana ”PDF equlathe uninzi lala mabali.

Ndineentsuku ze-14 ngaphandle kwe-PMO, kwaye ngenxa yoko, ndikufumanisa kulula ukuvuswa rhoqo. Imifanekiso engamanyala yatshabalalisa amandla am okuvuswa yiyo nayiphi na into ngaphandle kwabafazi abajongeka njengabanokuziphatha okunesondo. Njengoko ngoku ndivuselelwa ngabafazi abaninzi kwiimeko eziqhelekileyo, kukho into eyenzekayo ebendingalindelanga: Ndiziva ndithandeka ngakumbi. Ndiyicinga ukuba ndiza kuvuswa kuphela yimifanekiso ebonakalayo, ngoko ke ukucinga kwam kukuba abafazi banokufumana kuphela abesilisa abathandekayo, abesilisa abangabonakaliyo.

Njengoko nditsala ngakumbi kwiimeko eziqhelekileyo, ndiyaqala ukukholelwa ukuba kunokwenzeka ukuba banomdla kum nangona ndingakhangeleki njengoFabio. Ngamanye amagama, xa ndingakhange nditsaleleke, ndandicinga ukuba abatsali. Ngoku ndinguye, kulula ukukholelwa ukuba nazo, nazo.

Kunyaka ophelileyo inani le-porn eyanyanzeliswa / i-orgasm ihambile eluphahleni, i-avareji ye-2x ngosuku, yonke imihla, ngamanye amaxesha ukuya kuthi ga kwi-4 okanye kwi-5x. Emva koko ndiye ndabona ukuba andinakukwazi ukubamba ulwakhiwo lwam ngelixa ndisenza uthando nenkosikazi yam… eyoyikeka.

Ngamaphephancwadi ama-porn amaxesha ambalwa ngeveki kwaye ndiyakwazi ukuyilawula. ICos yayingeyiyo 'ekhethekileyo'. Kodwa ndathi ndakungena kwilizwe elingaqondakaliyo lamanyala e-intanethi, ingqondo yam yayifumene into eyayifuna nje ngakumbi nangakumbi…. Bendingaphandle kolawulo kwiinyanga ezingaphantsi kwe-6. Iminyaka yemags, akukho ngxaki. Iinyanga ezimbalwa ze-intanethi ye-intanethi ...

Ndenza i-masturbated kwaye ndakhangela i-porn kangangoko ndinako konke kwisikolo esiphakamileyo. Ukutsiba okukhulu okulandelayo kweziyobisi kuza ne-Intanethi. Malunga ne-1993, ndinokufikelela kwi-Intanethi ngemodem eyi-2400 bps. Akuzange kuthathe ixesha elide ukuba ndibone indlela yokubukela yonke iphonografi endinokuyifuna. Iqale ngemifanekiso nje. Ndithathe ixesha elide ukufumana iifoto nge-2400 bps kodwa ndiza kuhlala kude kube sebusuku kakhulu. Iiyure kunye neeyure zokukhuphela iifoto. Ayinakufumana eyaneleyo. Zonke iintlobo zemifanekiso. Okukhona ubona kokukhona ufuna ukubona. Ukucacisa ngakumbi, kokumangalisa ngakumbi. Kaninzi. Kaninzi. Kaninzi. Yiyo yonke into efunwa yingqondo wakuba ubunzulu obunjalo.

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Eli lixesha lonke ndigxininise kwiindawo eziphangaleleyo kunye nokugqithiseleyo.

Ndayigcina le minyaka embalwa nje ngenza iziqeshana kunye neefoto. Awunakukubona konke. Kwakusoloko kukho into entsha kunye nokugqithiseleyo. Ndandisoloko ndifuna izinto ezintsha, kunye nangaphezulu. I-Intanethi yenza ukunikezelwa ngonaphakade. Emva koko kufika ukufikelela ngokukhawuleza, iziqephu ezipheleleyo zamahhala, iimifanekiso eziphezulu eziphambili, kunye nezinto ezigqithiseleyo: ubugqila, ubundlobongela, amadoda anamadoda okanye ukujonga amadoda nje, aze ahlukumeze nantoni na ayithathayo ukuze ndikhulule. Ndiya kuthi ndingazange ndibe nomntwana onobugqwetha. Nangona ndingazange ndiqalise inkqubo yokuyeka lo mlutha, ndiqinisekile ukuba bekuya kwenzeka. Le ngcamango iyandisongela.

Into endandiyicinga nge-porn nangona ngelo xesha yayikukuba, "Ukuba ngabantu abadala, ayongxaki. Benze isigqibo sokwenza oku. ” Ke andibonanga ngxaki ekujongeni nantoni na. Oku kunyuka kuyaqhubeka. Ndifumene into entsha, eyayimangalisa emva kweminyaka eyi-15 + yokusetyenziswa kwe-Intanethi. Imifanekiso engamanyala ye-porn hypnosis. OH WOW! Abasetyhini abaphantsi kolawulo lwe-hypnotist benza nantoni na abayixelelwayo. Ubusuku bokuqala, ndandivukile ubusuku bonke-ngokwenene ubusuku bonke-ukuphulula amalungu esini kwi-orgasm iiyure kunye neeyure. Andikwazi ukufumana okwaneleyo kwezi zinto kwiinyanga. Emva koko i-biggy. Ndingafumana iiseshoni zeHypnodommes. Ndingalawulwa njengabafazi abakwiividiyo. Oku kwakumangalisa. Ndilahlekile kwiividiyo ze-hypno, amabali kunye ne-hypnotization yam. Ekugqibeleni wandibetha ukuba ndiye kude kakhulu. Ndaye ndaqala ukuhlawula iividiyo kunye nehipnosis. Andizange ndiyenze le nto ngaphambili, oko kukuthi, ukuhlawulela izinto. Oko ekugqibeleni kwandenza ndafuna ukubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo. (Ndandinengxaki yokunyuka kokungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile… kwiminyaka yam yamashumi amathathu.)

Elona candelo likhulu lale nkqubo yokulutha ngumgaqo wokufikelela ngakumbi nangakumbi. Xa ndisithi "ngaphezulu," ndithetha ngaphezulu kwayo yonke into. Ngaphezulu kwayo. Okubi kakhulu. Ngaphezulu nje. Kaninzi. Kufuneka ube nokuninzi. Ayikho enye into eya kunceda ngaphandle kokungaphezulu. Nantso ke ingxaki. Ndiyicinga ukuba mhlawumbi ingcambu yomlutha. Awunakuyeka apha okanye phaya. Ngokuqinisekileyo uzama. Ndenze amaxesha amaninzi. Ndithathe isigqibo sokungayi kwezi sayithi kwakhona. Emva kwayo yonke loo nto, ndineevidiyo ezaneleyo ezigciniweyo kangangokuba akukho mfuneko yokuba ndibuyele umva. ” Inokuhlala usuku okanye ezimbini. Omnye umbuzo bendihlala ndizibuza wona, "Kutheni ndibukele le? Kutheni ndijikwa ngulo mbono ungaqhelekanga? ” Emva koko kwakuza kuza iingcinga "Ngubani okhathalayo? Ndingafumana phi ngaphezulu? Indijika kakhulu, andikhathali. Ndingafumana phi ngaphezulu. ” Ihlala ihleli, ngakumbi, ngakumbi, ingaze iphele.

Ndicinga ukuba uninzi lwam lokutsala abanye abantu basetyhini laqala besebancinci ngenxa yamaphephancwadi endachitha ixesha kunye neeyure ndibukela kwaye ndifunda. Ndizamile kanye nenye intombazana xa ndandikwishumi elivisayo kwaye ndiyayithanda, kodwa andiyinqweneli. Emva kweminyaka emininzi, imifanekiso emininzi kunye nemiboniso bhanyabhanya kamva, umdla wam kwabasetyhini waya usomelela ngokomelela de ube ulingana ngokufanayo kubo bobabini abesilisa nabasetyhini. Emva koko emva koononophala obuninzi kunye namava okwenene okwenene kunye nabasetyhini ukukhanga kwam kubo kudlula ukukhanga kwam kuninzi lamadoda kakhulu. Nangona kunjalo, emva kweminyaka embalwa yokutshata nendoda yam kwakhona kwaye phantse ndingabinayo iphonografi, ndifumana umtsalane kum kwabasetyhini behlisa isantya ngelixa benomtsalane kumyeni wam njengoko bendisoloko ndinayo.

I-8 eyadlulileyo okanye iinyanga, ndiyazi ngokugqithiseleyo ukungabikho kokulawula ukukhwabanisa kunye nokusetyenziswa koonobumba. Ndibukele i-porn ubuncinane iminyaka eyi-14. Ndiyim 33 kungekudala. Ndiye ndahlaselwa kwizinto ezigqithiseleyo, ezininzi izinto eziphathekayo zobulili obushushu obudlulayo kungekudala. Andikho nakwezinye izinto ezithandwa kwiimfesane ngaphandle koononophala, kwaye xa ndithe ndenzekile, ngokwenene ndiyanyaniseka ngcamango yalo. Ukuba akusiyo i-sexual sexualism, enye yenze i-pornographie eqondekileyo yodwa ehlaziya kuphela abafazi kwizinto ezipheleleyo.

Kwakunokuphucula ukufunda amanye amanqaku apha apha achaza ukuba ayinandaba nokuba yintoni umxholo we-porn, yinto nje yokuvuselela, kunye nesidingo sokwenza izinto ezigqithiseleyo kwaye ezingapheliyo. Ndiyakhatyelwa kwabasetyhini, kodwa ndiziva ndingazibandakanyi ngokwesini sokulala nabo.

Ndiqaphele ukuba okwethutyana ngoku ukuthanda kwam iphonografi kutshintshe ngokukhawuleza. Ekuqaleni kwakuyimifanekiso engamanyala eqhelekileyo, kodwa emva koko ndaqala ukungafuneki kwimifanekiso engamanyala. Andikwazi ukugxila kwinto enzima kuyo yonke into, kwaye ndiye ndaqaphela ukuncipha okukhulu kwi-libido yam. Kulo nyaka ndafunyaniswa ndinomodareyitha ukuya kuxinzelelo olukhulu kwaye ndibekwe kula mayeza alandelayo. Prozac, Celexa, Paxi, kwaye ngoku ndikwi-Welbutrin e-generic yeBupropion. Kudala ndilwa nokudakumba okokoko bendineminyaka eyi-12.

Ndiyindoda eneminyaka engama-27 ubudala yesini kwaye ndinokholo olomeleleyo lokuba andikhange ndiziphathe kakuhle ngokwesondo ebomini bam ukusukela oko ndaphuma (malunga neminyaka engama-20). Ndivakalelwa kukuba kulula ukusetyenziswa kwe-intanethi ukudibana namadoda okanye ukuphulula amalungu esini kwi-porn kuye kwaba nefuthe ekuqondeni kwam ngesondo kangangokuba ndiziva ndilahlekile xa ndinikwa ithuba lokuba nolwalamano olunomvuzo nolucebisayo. Kutshanje, olona lwalamano lude ndade ndaphela. Ndandithandana naye, kodwa andizange ndikwazi ukusebenzisana nabo bonke ngokwesondo.

Ukuba ndicinga ngayo, kunqabile ukuba ndizive ukuba inkanuko yesini kunye namaqabane aphindayo. Ndihlala ndonwabile kakhulu malunga nokwabelana ngesondo xa ukunye nomntu omtsha kwaye ndingabazi, okanye imizimba yabo. Ngapha koko, ndinengxaki enkulu ngokuzama kunye namaqabane am. Ndine-cum kuphela nomnye umntu amaxesha e-6, nangona ndilala ngesondo kakhulu. Xa ndindedwa, cumming ayongxaki. Ndibukela iphonografi kakhulu ukufezekisa oku.

Ndabona i-intanethi ye-intanethi kwi-16 okanye kunjalo. Ekuqaleni nantoni na into eyandibangela yona, kodwa ngokuhamba kwangexesha yam intando iqala ukufumana ngakumbi ngakumbi kwinqanaba lokwenza iifestile. Ndacinga ukuba le nto yayinempembelelo yendalo yokukhula, ingayinxulumani nezocwangco. Ngaphandle kokubona kwam, ngokusobala kwagqithiselwa kwiimbono zam inyama kunye negazi lamabhinqa kwaye yintoni eyandijika. Andizange ndiyikholelwe kude kube luvavanyo olutshanje. Ngeveki yesibini ngaphandle kokuzilambisa / ukuhlambalaza ndaqala ukuqaphela ubuso bomama kunye namazwi angaphezulu. EZINYE IZIXHOBO. Ngaphantsi kwee-2 inyanga emva koko, akusayi kuthatha ama-fetishes ami adlulileyo ukuze ndivuyiswe. (Wow!) Ukukhangela okuthile, i-giggle yinto endiyidingayo.

Ndiyicaphukela ngokwenene into endisusa kuyo. Ndinento kubafazi abakhulu kakhulu… andithethi ngabafazi abasempilweni / abaqhelekileyo abakhubazekileyo… ndithetha i-300lbs plus. Bendihlala ndibathanda abafazi abancinci be-chubby abanee-curves, kodwa ngoku, ndithanda kuphela ezona zinkulu kubonakala kwaye ziyandiphazamisa. Ndicinga ukuba iminyaka yokujonga iifoto ze-chubby / big butt girls zivele zanyuka zaya ekuthandeni kugcwele kubafazi abatyebe kakhulu abaneedonki ezinkulu.

Kuyahlekisa kuba abantu basetyhini ababedla ngokundiguqula kakhulu ngaphambili bangaphindi bandenzele yona. Ndizifumana ndingena ngakumbi nangakumbi kwindawo enamandla apho "ubukele," ungathathi nxaxheba. Ngokucacileyo ayilunganga ngesondo esempilweni, xa kufuneka ucinge iqabane lakho litsala omnye umntu ngaphandle kwakho ukuze ufumane ibhoner. Ndiyakwazi ukujongana nokuthanda abafazi abatyebe kakhulu, kodwa andiyithandi le "voyeur" yokuma kancinci. Kubonakala ngathi ingunaphakade kuba ukujonga nje iinkwenkwezi eziqhelekileyo ze-porn kwindawo ebonakalayo ye-porn kwakwanele kum.

Andiyizondi imifanekiso engamanyala. Andigxeki i-porn ngokwenzekileyo kum. Kwakum kum ekupheleni kosuku. Andiqondi ukuba iphonografi kufuneka ivaliwe. Kodwa ke ndiyavuma ukuba kukwam ukuba ndingabukeli iphonografi. Ayindenzeli. Uninzi lotywala olufunyenweyo alunakubamba isiselo, hayi, hayi isiselo. Ndifana noononophala. Kum, ayisiyokuhamba. Ndiyazi nje ukuba ndinqumle ucingo, yindawo ethambekisayo ebuyela kumlutha. Ukuba abanye bafuna ukubukela iphonografi, kulungile. Ayindenzelanga. Ingxaki kukuba, wakube uphathe gadalala into, ukumodareyitha mhlawumbi ayisiyiyo indlela yakho.

Into efanayo ingabonakalisa ngesondo:

Kwaye ngendanditshilo ukuba ndingoyena mntu ungaphantsi komlutha endimaziyo. Andizange nditshaye okanye ndisebenzise iziyobisi, kwaye ixesha elininzi ebomini bam andikaze ndisebenzise utywala okanye icaffeine. Ndijika ndicinga ukuba i-PMO yayiyindawo yam ebuthathaka. Ngokujonga emva, inkwenkwe ndandilikhoboka. Kwaye andikaze ndiyibone. Kude kube ngumnyaka odlulileyo, ngaphandle koononophala, umkhwa wam wokuhlambalaza uhlalutye ngokuzinzileyo ngokulinganayo kabini ngeveki nganye xa i-P yongezwa kwi-MO, oku kuphakamisa i-ante ngendlela ephawulekayo ngakumbi njengokuphindwe kabini ngosuku. Kwaye kwakushesha.

Ndicinga ukuba iigundane zixhomekeke kumatshini wesekethe yomvuzo, ukutyhala i-lever de ihle, kwaye ndiyothuka, kuba oko kuvakala ngathi ibisiya ngaphi.Kwaye kufuneka ndivume ukuba ipateni yam evusayo yayiqhubele phambili ekuqaleni kubandakanya emva koko ifuna Ukuvuselela i-anal, kwaye ndithetha iesile lam, hayi elakhe.

Okokuqala kwakuyi-toys toys kwimizuzu emininzi, ngoko ke isandla sam sonke, ngoko ibhande lakhe. Ngubani owaziyo ukuba bekuya kuphi na? Andizange ndiphinde ndibe nomculo ongenalo uncedo. Njengoko ingqondo iqhuma njengoko loo nto yayisenokuba yiyo, iprojekthi yokukhuphuka ibonakala iphumelele ukuqonda kwam.

Ngombulelo ngoku konke kuphelile, kwaye indawo ejikeleze i-anus yam ilahlekile konke ukukhanga. Kubonakala kuyintlekele yokwenyani yokuba bonke aba bantu bancinci banako ukwenza i-PMO ngokwabo kwindawo apho baphela khona ngaphandle kwe-orgasm kunye nomsebenzi we-erectile. Ndiyangcangcazela xa ndicinga ngayo, kodwa ndiyaqonda ukuba yile ndawo bendisiya kuyo. Kwandithatha kakhulu kwi-orgasm, kwaye kwakunzima kakhulu kwi-orgasm ngexesha lesini. Ekujongeni emva kwezehlo zokungaphumeleli ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo beziqala nokukhula. Khange ndiyiqaphele le miqondiso ukuba ibiyintoni na.