Nawa mayankho enieni a funso "Kodi kusiya zolaula kumawoneka bwanji?" Tili ndi zopereka kuchokera kwa anyamata panthawiyi komanso malingaliro ena kuchokera kwa Gabe Deem.
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Chidule cha nkhaniyi yobwezeretsanso - 9 pa 90 (malamulo 9 omwe andithandiza kufikira masiku 90)
Padzakhala nthawi za kukongola, kumvetsetsa, ndi mtendere pa nthawi yoyamba. Padzakhalanso nthawi zovutika maganizo, nkhawa, mantha, ndi kusiya. Chinsinsi chopangira izi nthawi zonse ndikudzikumbutsa kuti zinthu zonse ndi zazing'ono ndipo izi zidzatha, ziribe kanthu momwe zimakhalira.
Kumbukirani kuti ndinu munthu wabwino yemwe muyenera kusangalala ndi kukondedwa. Palibe vuto kumva izi ndipo ndichinthu chofunikira panthawiyi. Simunamvepo chilichonse kwanthawi yayitali. Dzifunseni nokha kuti muwone izi. Yesetsani kupondereza. Mukuyenereradi chikondi ndi chisangalalo ndipo mudzapeza zonse ziwiri.
Osakhala mkati mwanu motalika kwambiri. Osangokhala ndi malingaliro olakwika kwa nthawi yayitali. Dziwani bwino, kumva bwino, ndikusunthira patsogolo. Khalani pa PRESENT pomwe kuli kotheka. Osamangoganizira zakale.
Anthu omwe amachira ku zolaula nthawi zambiri amadabwa ndi kuopsa kwa zizindikiro zawo zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula akasiya kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Izi mwina zimachitika chifukwa cha kusadziwa bwino za chizolowezi chogonana ndi zolaula pa intaneti. Zizindikiro sizimangokhala zakuthupi; zimatha kulamulira malingaliro anu ndi momwe mumaonera dziko lapansi (lomwe limawoneka lakuda). Komabe, ambiri mwa amuna omwewa adanenanso za kusintha kwakukulu atakhala opanda zolaula kwa kanthawi.
Kumbukirani kuti, pamene dongosolo la mphotho ya ubongo ndi ma stress circuits akuchulukirachulukira , zizindikiro zosiya zolaula zimakhala zoonekeratu. Chifukwa chake, ngati mwakhala mukugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zoopsa kwa nthawi yayitali, mutha kuwona zizindikiro zoopsa kwambiri. Nkhani yabwino ndi yakuti zimatha. Koma ngati mupitiliza "kudzipatsa mankhwala" ndi mphamvu zazikulu ubongo wanu usanabwerere ku momwe umamvera, mutha kukhala ndi vuto la Groundhog Day.
Zingakhale zotonthoza kuwona zomwe ena anena zakudzichotsa kwawo, kuti mudziwe kuti zomwe mukukumana nazo sizachilendo. Anthu ena ogwiritsa ntchito zolaula amafotokoza zochepa zakusiya, ena amafotokoza zomwe zili zovuta kwambiri. M'munsimu muli malipoti ena ogwiritsa ntchito. Poyerekeza, onaninso ulalo womwe uli pansipa tsambali, womwe umasonkhanitsa mitundu yazizindikiro zakusiya omwe amamwa mowa, cocaine ndi ma heroin.
Zizindikiro zake ndi zofanana chifukwa zizolowezi zonse zimakhala ndi kusintha kwa mitsempha ndi maselo komwe kumakhudza madera enaake a ubongo. Izi sizikutanthauza kuti zizolowezi zonse zimayambitsa kusintha komweko. Mowa kapena mankhwala osokoneza bongo amatha kuwononga kapena kusintha machitidwe ena otumizira mauthenga (monga kugwiritsa ntchito opiate kumachepetsa ma opioid receptors m'thupi lathu). Sayansi yamakono yapeza kuti kusiya mankhwala kumayambitsa kusintha kwa mitsempha , komwe kungaphatikizepo:
- Zidzatha kuchepa m'magulu a dopamine
- kupitirirabe kwa opioids ndi endorphins
- kuchoka mu GABA, yomwe ndi nthenda yamaganizo yotsutsa nkhaŵa
- kuwuka mu ubongo kupsinjika mahomoni CRF ndi norepinephrine
- Dynorphin yokwera yomwe imalepheretsa dopamine ndikusokoneza zomwe mumakonda
- sabata imodzi pambuyo kusiya malo opereka mphoto amamera nthambi zatsopano zamagulu, zomwe zimagwirizana ndi zikhumbo zoti zigwiritse ntchito
Ngati muli ndi zizindikiro zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, mwina muli ndi vuto la chizolowezi (kapena munali pafupi kuyamba kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo). Komabe, anyamata ena ali ndi zizolowezi zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo koma alibe zizindikiro zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ichi ndichifukwa chake akatswiri a zizolowezi zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo salemba zizindikiro zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo m'mayeso awo. Mwachitsanzo, onani, Kodi Muli ndi chizolowezi?
Zizindikiro zodzipatula zowonjezera ndizo
- Kusagona ndi mavuto ena ogona
- Nkhawa, nkhawa ndi mitundu ina ya mantha
- Mutu ndi ululu ndi kuuma mu minofu, mafupa, mano, chifuwa, ziwalo zina ndi ziwalo zina za thupi
- Kutopa ndi kufooka
- Kupsinjika maganizo, kukhumudwa ndi mitundu ina yachisoni
- Kusokonezeka
- Kusayang'ana / kuyang'anitsitsa / kuganizira (ubongo wa ubongo)
- Kusintha Kwambiri
- Kukhumudwa, kukhumudwa, kukhumudwa, kupsa mtima ndi mitundu ina ya mkwiyo
- Matenda, chifuwa, malungo ndi mitundu ina ya matenda
- Pang'ono kapena palibe libido, flatline (Zitha kutenga masiku kuti ziwonetsedwe, ndi kutsiriza nthawi yaitali)
- Zithunzi zolaula ndi kugonana
- Chilakolako cha chilakolako cha kugonana, malingaliro okhudzana ndi kugonana ndikulimbikitsanso kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndi / kapena maliseche
- Chilakolako chopeŵa kucheza
Kafukufuku wokhudza kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo pa intaneti wanena kuti anthu omwe ali ndi vuto la kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo pa intaneti amatha kuvutika ndi vuto la kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti mopanda nzeru - monga momwe anthu amasiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo.
Kafukufuku wopangidwa ndi mayunivesite a Swansea ndi Milan adapeza kuti achinyamata anali ndi "malingaliro osalimbikitsa" atasiya kusaka ukondewo. … Omwe ankati ogwiritsa ntchito osokoneza bongo pa intaneti anali osiyanasiyana, koma zinali zachilendo kwa iwo kutchova juga ndikupeza zolaula pa intaneti. … Asayansi ati izi zitha kuwapangitsa kuti abwererenso pa intaneti kuti "achotse zovuta izi".
Anthu ena ali ndi zizindikiro zochotsera zoipa kwambiri pakapita nthawi. Mnyamata mmodzi amalemba:
Izi ndizomwe zidandichitikira mundandanda wa:
- Masiku oyambirira a 12 ndimamva ngati mulungu mulungu mulungu
- Masiku 16-25 okongola kwambiri, otopa kwambiri, achisoni, ndi zina zotero.
- Masiku 26-60 anali olondola koma ndimamva ngati china chake sichinali bwino, china chake chinali kusintha kumbuyo kwanga.
- Masiku 61-76 WOYERA SHIT Ndinali ndikudzipatula ndikuwonetsa zododometsa kuphatikizira koma osangolekezera: kukhumudwa, nkhawa, kusungulumwa kopundula, kusowa chiyembekezo, malingaliro ofuna kudzipha, chilimbikitso, kusowa tulo. Komabe sizinamveke ngati china chake cholakwika ndimamva ngati kuti ubongo wanga ukusintha.
- Masiku 80+ oyenda bwino, ndikumverera ngati ndili bwino tsopano. Zaka 18 - Simunamvepo bwino zaka. (Ndinayesa NoFap m'mbuyomu koma ndimayang'ana zolaula koma sindinawone phindu lililonse)
Anyamata ena amakumana ndi zizindikiro zosiya kugonana nthawi ndi nthawi kwa miyezi ingapo: Kodi matenda obwera chifukwa cha kugonana (PAWS) amapezeka ndi chizolowezi chogonana?
Kanema wathu woyambira akufotokozanso chifukwa chake zizindikiro zosiya kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zimachitika: Ubongo Wanu pa Zolaula: Momwe Zolaula za pa Intaneti Zimakhudzira Ubongo.
Malipoti ochepa:
Ndinaganiza zosiya. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti sindine munthu wokonda zolaula. KOMA tsoka
Zizindikiro zotsalira:
1- Kulephera kugona konse masiku atatu oyamba. (Maso ofiira ndi kuwuka tsiku lonse, OMG).
2- Wamphamvu kwambiri komanso wosakwiya.
3- Kukhumudwa ndi nkhawa
4- Ochepetsedwa
5 Kukhumba kukhala nokha.
6- Kusaloledwa pang'ono kwa phokoso.
7 - Zizindikiro monga chimfine chatha mwezi wathunthu ukupitilira (mphuno, mphuno, kutopa, kuzizira, miyendo
8- Kuchuluka kwa mutu
9- Kumverera kwamphamvu mu ubongo (osati zowawa koma ngati kuti chinthu chikuyenda pang'onopang'ono kapena chikuchepera) KULUMIKIZANA
Nazi zomwe ndikulimbana nazo: kukwiya, kutopa, kulephera kugona (ngakhale zothandizira kugona sizithandiza kwenikweni), kunjenjemera / kugwedezeka, kusowa chidwi, kupuma pang'ono, komanso kukhumudwa.
Kodi pali aliyense amene adapeza zizindikilo zobwerera m'mbuyo atasiya kuzizira? Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi nkhawa komanso kukhumudwa kuyambira pomwe ndinayima ndikuwona kuti zandisokoneza. Ndakhala masiku 11 ndikuonera zolaula ndipo iyi ndiyo nthawi yayitali kwambiri yomwe ndidapanda kukhala nayo kuyambira ndili ngati 14-15. Sindikulimbikitsidwa kuti ndiyang'anire sindikumva ngati inenso kuyambira pomwe ndidasiya.
Nchifukwa chiyani palibe amene amalankhula za momwe kuchoka kwake kulili koipa?
Ndili ndi kutopa kwambiri, kukwiya, nkhawa, ndi zina zambiri. Ndikumva ngati ndikusiya opiates pano. Shit iyi ndi yoyipa kwambiri komanso yamphamvu. Kwambiri, pewani aliyense amene akunena kuti sizowopsa.
Masabata atatu mkati. Sindikudziwa kuti zikhala bwino liti.
Ndinawona kuti kuchoka kwanga kunali kovuta kwambiri poyesa koyamba kusiya zolaula. Adakhala pafupifupi masabata a 2-3 ndipo sanabwerere kuyambira mwamwayi.
Kubwereranso kwina kulikonse komwe ndakhala nako kuyambira pamenepo kwakhala chifukwa chokusaka ndi kuthamangitsa, komanso mowa. Khalani kutali ndi mowa.
ozimanson [akaunti tsopano yachotsedwa]
Wina aliyense amene amalota maloto okhudzana ndi zolaula nthawi zonse?
Ndili nanu! Nkhawa / mutu wandigunda kwambiri posachedwapa. Ndikuyembekeza kuti ichoka posachedwa koma ndili wokondwa kudziwa kuti sindili ndekha pankhaniyi. Ndingakhale wofunitsitsa kudziwa kuti zidzakuyenderani liti! Ndikukufunirani zabwino zonse!
Ndakhala ndikuyesetsa kwanga kwamasabata 5 lero: masabata 2-4 anali ROUGH. Zinandipangitsa kukayikira kuyesetsa kwanga koma mwamwayi zimakhala bwino.
Kuchokera ndi gawo limodzi la njirayi. Ine ndekha ndimalota za kuwonera pamene ndakhala ndikupewa kubetcha, mozungulira tsiku la 15.
Mwachiwonekere pali zofanana zambiri pakati pa kupukutira pansi ndi anhedonia (sindine katswiri mwa njira iliyonse). Mutha kuwona kamodzi
mumamva zambiri za nofap hehe. mumakhala ndi zolaula, monga momwe ndingathere kuti ndiyike wotchi yanga. kukhumudwa / kutsetsereka masiku a 7-11 mwachitsanzo
ali enieni kwambiri. Ndinadutsa masabata angapo oyipa. mutu unali gawo lachilendo kwambiri patali
Ndikudziwa kuti ndizowona koma sindinakhale nawo, kapena mwina sindikudziwa chifukwa ndimakhala ndi zakumwa zochepa zomwe sindimayesa… mulimonsemo .. ndigwireni nazo mwamunayo.
RealPravus [wogwiritsa ntchito wachotsa akaunti yawo]
Kuchoka kumandichititsanso. Thupi langa likufuulira dopamine, ndine wokwiya komanso wofulumira kukwiya. Zimandivuta kuyang'ana chifukwa cha zolakalaka. Ndimakhala wamanjenje kwambiri koma ndikuganiza kuti ndichifukwa choti ndimawopa kusokoneza pomwe sindifuna, zomwe mpaka pano zakhala mfundo yofunika kwambiri kwa ine. Ndinabwereranso posachedwa motero ndikudikirira kuti mphepo yamkuntho idzandimenyenso posachedwa. Koma khalani pamenepo. Tiyerekeze kuti pali nthawi yomwe mumayala pansi ndipo zinthu zonsezi zimatha pang'ono. Pitirizani kukankha.
Inde zochotsedwazi zitha kukhala zopweteka pabulu. Ndinalibe choyipa ngati chomwe mudalemba koma ndinali nacho chimodzimodzi. Khalani otsimikiza, sungani mutu wanu ndipo mutha kudutsa. Kapenanso ndizomwe ndidachita.
Masiku oyambirira anali ochititsa mantha komanso osangalatsa mofanana. Masiku oyamba oyamba ndinamva zodabwitsa. Galimoto yanga yogonana inali yowonongeka kwambiri. Ndinaganiza zokhudzana ndi kudula mphindi iliyonse ya tsiku. Malingaliro anga analibe zolaula kuti azidyetsa zolakalaka zawo kotero iwo anaziganizira kwambiri atsikana enieni. Ndimakhumudwitsa mtsikana aliyense amene ndinamuona ndikumuchitiranso zolaula m'mutu mwanga. Ndimakhala ndi miyala yolimba pamene ndimakhala pa desiki yanga ndikufufuza deta. Ndinali makina othamanga.
Pambuyo masiku 3-4, ine ndinagwa. Zovuta. Ndinayamba kuvutika maganizo kwambiri kuntchito. Ndinkachita mantha. Ndikanatuluka thukuta kwambiri. Ndikanakhala ndi chizungulire ndikulephera, ngakhale nditakhala pansi. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndi ululu wopweteka kwambiri. Ndinkadziŵa kuti nthawi zonse ndikuwonongeka. Ndondomeko yanga ya kugonana inatheratu kwathunthu. Sindinkakhulupirira kuti izi ndizo kuchotsa zolaula. Ndinkaganiza kuti ndikufa.
Izi zinatenga miyezi. Ndinayamba kumvetsa zomwe zolaula zandichitira. Ndinawerenga zambiri zokhudza ubongo wa ubongo ndipo zinandifikitsa pang'onopang'ono kuti ndidapweteka bwanji. Ndinakhumudwa koma tsopano ndatsimikiziranso kuzimitsa.
Munthawi imeneyi, panali chochitika china chomwe ndimakumbukira bwino lomwe chomwe ndi chofunikira kufotokoza. Poyamba ndidachira, ndimamva bwino kwambiri koma ndili ndimagwira. Ndinali mu shopu ya khofi yomwe ndimagwira ntchito yovuta kulemba zomwe sindinadziwe kwa milungu ingapo. Popanda kudziwa zambiri, kuthetsa vutoli kudali kofunika ndalama zambiri kwa ine. Mwadzidzidzi, mphindi zochepa, ndidaganiza. Ndinkamva kukoma kosangalatsa kumeneku. Komano, nthawi yomweyo, panali mtundu wina wamoto wolakwika m'mutu mwanga. Nthawi yomweyo ndinali ndi nkhawa komanso nkhawa kwambiri. Ndinayamba kutuluka thukuta, mtima wanga unali kuwawa.
Ndinanyamula zida zanga, ndinathamangira kunyumba ndikudzipinda pabedi langa tsiku lonse. Zinkangokhala ngati ubongo wanga sukanathanso kumva malingaliro osangalatsa. Monga zinali zovuta kwa dopamine. Pambuyo pake pakuchira kwanga ndidakumana ndi zomwezi pambuyo pogwira ntchito zolimbitsa thupi kwambiri. Sindikudziwa zomwe zidachitika mu ubongo wamankhwala koma kwa ine, zinali umboni wotsimikiza kuti ndidasokoneza bwanji ubongo wanga. Zolaula ndi zamphamvu kwambiri.
Lero, ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula kwa zaka pafupifupi 2. Ndakhala ndikubwereranso kachiwiri ndipo kuchira nthawi zonse kumakhala zovuta. Koma zikondwerero zimakhala zovuta kwambiri monga zinalili nthawi yoyamba. Ndimapezanso kuti ndingathe kuseweretsa maliseche popanda zolaula kapena zokopa zina kupatulapo zithunzithunzi zapadera ndipo ziribe zotsatira zowononga. 2 zaka zolaula zaulere -
Ndikukudziwitsani zomwe ndadutsamo:
- Zolakalaka zazikulu
- Kuda nkhawa kwambiri komanso nkhawa zamagulu
- Agoraphobia yowonjezereka
- Kumva dzanzi
- Palibe chosangalatsa chilichonse
- Kukhazikika mthupi mwanga ndi kukokana
- Kukhumudwa kwakukulu, osakhala ndi libido nthawi zina
- Mphamvu zochepa komanso ulesi
- Kusowa tulo
Pomalizira tsiku la 90, malangizo amodzi okha omwe angapereke
Pafupifupi sabata lachitatu kapena lachinayi, ndinali nditagona usiku wonse ndikulimbikitsidwa kuposa momwe ndimamvera. Ndinkanjenjemera ndikutuluka thukuta ngati chidakwa. Pafupifupi kusiya kangapo. Ndinangopitilira chifukwa sindinkafunikanso kulimbana ndi zolimbikitsazo, ndipo ndinali kulondola.
Zovuta za masiku a 90 zimapindula kwa nthawi yoyamba popanda kubwereranso. AMA!
Ndadutsa zonsezi. Ndi zizindikiritso zakutha monga Kusintha kwanyengo, kuda nkhawa komanso kugona pansi. Kudzera muulendo wanga ndidazindikira kuti chithandizo chabwino komanso chilimbikitso chomwe ndidapeza ndichopita kwa anthu omwe adutsa zomwe ndimamva ndikulankhula nawo. Kotero ine ndiri .. mundifunse ine chirichonse.
Hei anyamata, uwu ndi gawo langa loyamba pano, koma ndalimbikitsidwa ndi kulimbikira kwanu. Ndalimbana ndi zolaula komanso zopanga bwino kuyambira ndili mwana wapamwamba. Nthawi ndi nthawi ndakhala. Posachedwa ndimakhala wokonda kwambiri. Pafupifupi mwayi uliwonse womwe ndimafuna ndidawafotokozera. Pakadali pano ndili masabata awiri opanda zolaula komanso 2 popanda kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndikumva ngati kuti ndadwala posachedwapa. Mutu, nseru, kusachedwa, kusinthasintha, kukhumudwa, nkhawa zosafotokozedwa. Ndikudziwa zolaula zimapangitsa kudalira mankhwala, pali wina aliyense amene wakumanapo ndi zoterezi monga izi. Njira zilizonse zothetsera mavuto ake. Ndikuyamba kuwona kusintha, komabe. Ine nditha kumangiriza zilonda zosagwirizana ndi mavuto, koma ndimafuna kuwona zomwe y'all anena.
Alireza
Zabwinobwino. Pofika tsiku 20ish iyenera kuyamba kulolera, komabe, pali zopinga zambiri, monga zokakamizira, zolankhula zodzivulaza zina, ndauzidwa kuti uwu ndi thupi ndi malingaliro anu ofuna kuthana ndi vuto la kusowa kwa dopamine momwe timagwiritsira ntchito kukhala ndi / kuzunza kwambiri poonera zolaula. Mukadzikhalanso nawo mu umodzi mwa “zosinthazi” izi kuyesa kukumbukira kuti izi zikugwira ntchito, osatinso mwatsatanetsatane, ndidayamba zolemba zanga komanso zomwe ndakumana nazo pochita izi ndipo zandithandizira kuyang'ana pa izi kaonedwe kama "kunja" nthawi iliyonse ndikawerenga.
Zomverera zanu zidzakulirakulira, ndipo ndidaliranso kangapo, ndikulira, mkwiyo, chisoni ndi chisangalalo mu masiku 10, ndipo sindimalira. Mukuyambanso kumva. Chitani zinthu kuti muchepetse, monga kuyenda, kusamba, masewera olimbitsa thupi, ngakhale kugona. Khalani olimba, zitha.
Bro ndimamva ngati mukuchotsedwa. Masiku atatu okha mu (masabata a 3 THC aulere nawonso, kuti nawonso atha kukhala othandizira) koma mulungu awotcha thukuta, kulingalira, kukhumudwa ndi kupweteka mutu ndikundipha. Khalani olimba mtima. Ndapeza kulumikizana moona mtima kuti andithandizire kudutsa magawo otopetsa. Ngati simukugona pang'ono chabe malo abata kuti muzizilala osachita chilichonse mpaka misala itatha. Ndiyambanso kulimbitsa thupi ndikamaliza kutopa kumeneku
Ndinachotsedwa kwambiri: kupweteka mutu, kupuma movutikira, ubongo waubongo, kukwiya komanso mawonekedwe oyipa, osakhazikika, kuluma misomali, ndimamva ngati ndikufa, kudya kwambiri, kukhumudwa, kutaya mtima ndi ena ambiri. Zikumveka zoyipa ndipo anali koma munthu masiku ake okha a 90 ndipo anali ofunika. Kuvumbatira musawathawe. Kungodziwa kuti apita ndikudziwa kuti izi zandithandizanso kupirira. Sindinauzidwepo kapena kudziwa izi kale.
Zovala zanyumba, osakhudzidwa ndi kugonana kapena chirichonse. Anakhalapo pafupi sabata kwa ine, yomwe inali nthawi yoyenera kwa ine.
Tsiku 12: Palibe PMO, masiku a 3 opanda chiwerewere
Tsopano chifukwa cha zizindikiro za kuchotsedwa: Pa masiku oyambirira a 12 ndimamva ngati ndikuganiza, chimfine ngati zizindikiro, ndimamva kupwetekedwa mtima kumutu komwe ndikufuna kuchotsa. Nthawi zina ankamva ngati zombie, kusowa tulo, mphamvu zochepa. Ndakhala ndikusankha aspirin nthawi zingapo, ndikuyenera kupumula kwambiri. Zina mwazinthu zabwino: kugona kumakwera pang'onopang'ono pa Tsiku 10 ndi 11, kuchepetsa kuchepa kwa kuthamanga, mphamvu zochepa pang'ono, kudzuka kale. Anayamba kuzindikira momwe mitambo yokongola ikuyang'aninso, inayamba kuwerenga pang'ono. Ndikudziwa kuti ubongo wanga sunatulukidwe, wotsika kwambiri pa dopamine. Ndikufunanso kuti mukhale wabwino.
Zizindikiro zodzipatula ndizambiri
Ndili pafupi tsiku la 7 losiya zolaula ndipo lero lakhala tsiku lovuta kwambiri mpaka pano. Ndinayesa kusiya kangapo konse koma nthawi zonse ndinkabwereranso sabata la 2 kapena ngakhale izi zisanachitike. Koma zizindikiritso zakudziperekazo sizinali zoyipa monga momwe ziliri tsopano. Ndimadzimva wokhumudwa, wosungulumwa, komanso mwachidule ndimangokhala chete. Libido yanga inali yokwera kwambiri koma idagunda sabata yatha. Sindikufuna kugonana ndi chibwenzi changa ndipo ndimamva ngati sindimakopekanso ndi iye.
Nthawi zonse ndimaganizira za wina yemwe ndimamuwona mumsewu kapena kwina kulikonse. Kapena zongopeka zogonana ndi munthu wina. Ndizopusa momwe adakhalira chilichonse chomwe ndimafuna ndipo tsopano ndimayang'ana wina. Sindinamunamize kapena sindidzatero. Ndikudziwa kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zotere. Koma zikhala motere mpaka liti ndikadzamvanso kuti ndigonane naye? Ubongo wanga wasinthiratu. Zasokonekera.
Ndizovuta… Zikuvuta kwambiri…
Tsiku 90! PIED wachiritsidwa! Ndikuwoneka ngati Thanthwe tsopano!
Libido wanga anali atapita. Kupanga kwanga pantchito kunatenga mbedza. Ndinalibe chidwi chambiri kuposa kale. Zinali ngati kuti ubongo wanga umafuna kundipangitsa kukhala womvetsa chisoni kuti ndikhale ku PMO. Ndinkadwala mutu kwambiri komanso chifuwa cha ubongo. Nthawi zina ndinali kuvutika maganizo komanso kukwiya.
Anayimitsa Zolaula kwa pafupifupi mwezi umodzi. Zizindikiro ndi zotsatira zake
Moni Nonse. Ndikukhulupirira kuti aliyense akuchita bwino. Kotero ine ndayima tsopano kwa masiku 25 ndipo zakhala zoipa kwambiri. Sindikulakalaka kuonera zolaula koma zizindikiritsozo ndizowopsa. RLS, kugona tulo tofa nato, kuganiza mozama, kutengeka kwambiri, kupweteka mutu, kusawona bwino, kusasangalala, maloto ogonana. Mwamwayi tsopano ndikuwona pang'onopang'ono zizindikiro zikutha. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izikhala choncho chifukwa Idayamwa kwambiri. Ndili ndi zovuta zambiri tsopano. Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti kwa ine zipsinjo zanga ndi maliseche ndimamva bwino kuposa kale lonse. Zizindikiro zidakhala nanu nthawi yayitali bwanji anyamata?
Mofanana ndi chizolowezi chilichonse chomwe chimachotsedwa ku malo ake, ndakhala ndikuda nkhawa kwambiri, nditavutika maganizo komanso ndewu. Ndinkangokhalira kumangokhalira kumangokhalira kuganiza kuti palibe chomwe ndikuona kuti ndi chopindulitsa ndipo ndimangokhala wotaya mtima, ngati palibe chofunika kwambiri. Ndinali ndi mwayi wokhala ndi mnzanga wodalirika amene anandithandiza.
Tsiku 50, kumverera zozizwitsa !!!
Masiku 40 mkati, ndinataya kugona kwanga, ndipo ndakhala ndikugona galu, potsiriza !!!
PMO kamodzi patsiku kwa ola limodzi tsiku lililonse kwa zaka 17. Sindikumva kufunika kwa PMO nkomwe. Ndi kukhumudwa, kugona tulo, ndi zina zambiri. Kusowa kwa dopamine kumayamwa. Ndikudziwa kuti ndi chinthu chabwino, zikutanthauza kuti ikugwira ntchito. Zimangoyamwa kwenikweni. Osadzipha konse, koma zimangokhala ngati ndikufuna kukwawa mdzenje ndikufa. Upangiri uliwonse kapena mawu okoma akhoza kuyamikiridwa.
Zizindikiro zotsalira- kukambirana. Chonde ugawane!
Chidule cha zizindikiro zanga zomwe ndikukumana nazo pakubwerera kwanga.
Kufufuzira zizindikiro zanga zosiya kuchoka kumathandizira kuti ndizindikire zomwe zikubwera kutsatila kuti ndikhale wokonzeka ndikumvetsetsa ngati gawo limodzi.
Tsiku 0: kudzidetsa, kukwiya, kukhumudwa, kuthandizidwa, kudziimba mlandu, manyazi, kukhumudwa, kudzikweza, kudzidetsa, osasokonezeka. Utsi wa ubongo.
Masiku 1-5: Kusokonezeka; kusaleza mtima, nkhaŵa, paranoia, kukhumudwa, zopanda pake, kukangana, mkwiyo, chidani, kusowa tulo, kupweteka mutu, kugwedeza. Chiwawa. Kudandaula. Kuwona wofiira. Kusangalatsidwa mu zozizwitsa. Kusungulumwa. Zoopsya.Masiku 5 +: zizindikiro zimayamba kuleka ndipo ndimayamba kumverera kwambiri. ubongo wa ubongo umasintha. Mitengo yammawa imabwerera. Anadzuka mwamsanga. Kulakalaka kukhumba. Maloto owopsa. Zosangalatsa zimabwerera. Kuseka, chikondi, chisoni (chisoni chabwino, kwenikweni kumva chinachake). Chidwi pa zokondweretsa zimabwerera.
Panthawiyi ndimamva kuti ndibwino "komanso" ndimatha "kusokoneza bongo langa. Kulimbikitsidwa kumeneku, kukondana ndi kugonana, ndikumangirira kumandichititsa kuti ndisamawonongeke.
Ndimakondwera ndi zochitika za ena.
Tsiku 0: mofanana ndendende ndi inu, ndipo mukugwirizana ndi kulakwa komanso manyazi .. Nthawi zonse ndimachita manyazi kuti sindingathe kuyigwira iyi…
Tsiku 1-3: kwa ine awa anali masiku anga ovuta kwambiri, ndinamva kudzutsidwa kwambiri (zolaula osati mnzanga) ndipo zinali zenizeni zomwe ndimaganizira…
Tsiku 4-tsopano: ndamva kutayika kwa libido, kukhumudwa / kuda nkhawa, kufuna kusiya kucheza ndi anthu ena ndi zina zotere… .ndikuyembekeza gawo ili lipita posachedwa!
Kodi zizindikiro za kuchotsedwa zinali zotani?
- Mlungu woyamba: Kulakalaka kwakukulu / kuwombera. Kulimbikitsidwa kwakukulu, kukakamizidwa kwa amayi, kukakamizidwa kugwiritsira ntchito kwambiri. Nkhawa zakutali.
- Masabata a 2-3: Kuda nkhawa kwambiri komanso kukhumudwa. Maganizo olakwika kwambiri, zikhulupiriro zochepa, kudana kwambiri. Mantha adakula. Maganizo ofuna kudzipha. Kwenikweni malingaliro onse olakwika pansi pano; manyazi, kudziimba mlandu, kukhumudwa, nkhawa. Ingokumbukirani kuti adachoka ndipo kuti pamapeto pake adzadutsa.
- Masabata a 3-4: Kuda nkhawa ndi kukhumudwa kunachepa kwambiri. Ndinali ndi maloto ogonana omwe adandipangitsa kutopa masiku atatu motsatizana. Mutu waukulu. Zolakalaka zazikulu. Kukulitsa kukumbukira. Chidaliro chikukwera pang'onopang'ono. Kuyeretsa m'mlengalenga ndi magwiridwe antchito kumawonekera bwino. Kumvetsetsa ma nuances ozama. Matenda okhumudwa atsala pang'ono kutha. Zizindikiro zikuwongolera tsiku lililonse.
Lipoti langa la chaka cha 1 ndi malangizo
Chotsatira chinali zizindikiro zodzipatula zomwe ndimamva nditayamba. Masiku 1 mpaka 120 anali oyipitsitsa kwa ine. Ndinali ndi nthawi yachisangalalo yayitali panthawiyi koma nditava, zidandilimbikitsa kupitiliza. Zizindikiro zina zomwe ndimamva kuti ndizokwiyitsa kwambiri, kukhumudwa kwakukulu ndimalingaliro ofuna kudzipha kuphatikizira (sizimachitika kwa aliyense), kuda nkhawa, kusakhazikika, kusungulumwa kolemetsa, kumverera kwa chosowa, utsi wamaubongo (izi zikuchitikabe mpaka lero), chikhalidwe kusiya, ndi mkwiyo chabe. Izi zikumveka zoyipa koma zomwe mumatsatira ndizoyenera kukumana nazo.
Zaka 24 - Zidziwitso zozizwitsa zodabwitsa, osakhalanso ndi nkhawa, ndende ndiyabwino
Zizindikiro zanga zoyambirirazo zinali zoopsa kunena pang'ono. Ndinayamba kukhala ndi dazi m'masabata angapo oyamba kuchokera kupsinjika ndipo ndidayenera kukawona dermatologist, yemwe adandipeza ndi alopecia. Ndinafunika kuti ndiwombedwe ndi ma cortisol owawa mozungulira madera osawoneka bwino koma adakula m'miyezi ingapo. Ndinakhudzidwa ndi moyo wanga nthawi imeneyo. Ndimakumbukira kuti adandifunsa ngati ndidakumana ndi vuto linalake, ngati imfa yam'banja. Ndinalibe mtima womuuza kuti ndichifukwa chosowa mwadzidzidzi zolaula. Ndinakumananso ndi chiyani? Kutuluka thukuta kozizira, kusowa tulo, kudzimva wopanda pake (osakhalanso atsikana azithunzi zolaula omwe sangakhale nawo, oh ayi!)
Zaka 29 - Wokwatirana: Anagonjetsa bwino ED-anachititsa ED ndi Kuchedwa Kutaya
Zizindikiro zosiya kubwerera zimandivuta kwambiri. Matenda okhumudwa, nkhawa, kusowa kwa njala, kutopa, kuzizira - ndinali nazo kwambiri kwa sabata limodzi. Osanena za zero zogonana komanso libido yomwe idapita kutchuthi kwa omwe akudziwa kuti ndi yayitali bwanji.
Zizindikiro zakubwezeretsa zinali zazikulu. Zinandivuta kugona. M'malo mwake, ndidapanga matenda a Restless Leg Syndrome. Zimamveka ngati zopusa ngati simunakumaneko nazo, koma ndizowopsa. Ndikadakhala kuti ndagona pabedi, ndili pafupi kugona pang'ono ndipo mwadzidzidzi miyendo yanga imangoyenda. Zili ngati magetsi akugwedeza thupi langa kundigwedeza. Ndiye chinthu chonsecho chimabwereza mobwerezabwereza. Zinali zokhumudwitsa kwambiri! Ndinkaopa kuti ndawononga ubongo wanga nthawi zonse.
Mwamwayi, miyendo yopanda phokoso idakhazikika pamapeto pake, koma zidatenga pafupifupi miyezi 2-3. Komanso, mkati mwa nthawi imeneyo, ndimakhala ndikugonana ndi mkazi wanga kuti ndikhale kosangalatsanso; monga kwenikweni, zabwino kwenikweni. Ndinkatha kusankhidwa chifukwa chokhala naye. Ndiye ndimayenera kulimbana kuti ndisafike pachimake m'malo mozungulira! Chibwenzi chonse chomwe ndimakhala ndikulakalaka chinali pomwepo nthawi yonseyi ndipo zonse zomwe ndimayenera kuchita ndikupezeka pamenepo, osati kwina kulikonse m'malo opatsa chidwi ...
Ndine munthu wodekha, koma pafupifupi masabata a 3 mkati, ndidayamba kukhumudwa pazinthu zazing'ono. Izi zidatenga sabata.
Chaka choyamba chaka cha NoFap
Chifukwa kungochepetsa P sikugwire ntchito miyezi ingapo Seputembara isanafike, ndidaganiza zosiya kuzizira.
Miyezi yoyamba pambuyo pake inali ulendo wovuta kwambiri.
- Mutu wambiri woipa kwa maola ambiri, pafupifupi ngati migraine (icho kwenikweni chinali chizindikiro choipa kwambiri kwa ine)
- kupsa mtima & kuchulukitsa kukwiya, kukhumudwa, kukwiya, kukwiya, kupsa mtima pang'ono ndi mitundu ina ya mkwiyo, ndi zina zambiri.
Kwenikweni mndandanda wonse pakuwonetsera kosasintha ...
- Ukapweteka wamatsenga nthawi zina unali wokhumudwitsa kwambiri [ONANI: Onani Nanga bwanji za "mipira yabuluu" kapena "okonda mtedza?"]
- Mafilimu amatsenga kwambiri
Kuchotsa ndibwino. Ndidagona tulo tofa nato pang'ono, ndidadwala kwambiri. Mwinamwake zinali zochotsa, mwina china. Sindikudziwabe, koma zinali zankhanza kumbali zonse mosasamala kanthu. Zinthu zam'mutu zimabwera kwambiri: kukhumudwa, kuda nkhawa kwachilendo, kupanda pake. Zinali zonse zomwe ndinali kuvutika nazo — zonse mwakamodzi. Zinali ngati kukhala ndi tsiku loipa nthawi 10! Ndipo, zachidziwikire, nyanga. Mumayamba kuphunzira kuwongolera malingaliro anu chifukwa ngati simutero, mudzamva kusapeza bwino. Ndikulingalira kuti aliyense amapanga njira zothetsera vutoli zomwe ndizosiyana ndi malingaliro awo komanso zosowa zawo. Magulu othandizira amathandiza kwambiri pa izi.
zinali zovuta kusiya kusuta fodya
Ndinkasuta ndudu kwa zaka zambiri mpaka paketi patsiku nthawi zina ndipo tsiku lina ndinangoganiza zosiya kuzizira ndipo tsopano sindinasute ndudu kwa chaka chimodzi ndi theka. kusiya zomwe zinali zowona nthawi za 10 kuposa kusiya kusiya zolaula. kwa wina aliyense amene akulimbana ndi nthawi yayikuluyi. simuli nokha
Pokhulupirira kuti ndinali ndi vuto lalikulu lodzidalira ndikudwala kwambiri ndikumva mbewa kwambiri kuti mwamunayo, ndinalowa usilikari mu 2009 (ndili ndi zaka 20) ndipo ndidatumizidwa kukaphunzira. Inayamba kutsika pambuyo masiku 6. Sindinazolowere chilengedwe chomwe ndidadziyika koma ndidayamba kukhala ndi zisonyezo palibe wina amene anali pafupi nane. Manja anga anayamba kunjenjemera, ndinayamba chimfine ngati zizindikiro ndipo ndinayamba kutopa kwambiri kuposa zachilendo. (Ndidali bwino.) Ndinayamba kusowa tulo ndipo ubongo wanga unachedwetsa mpaka ndinamva mulingo umodzi pamwamba pochedwetsedwa. Ndinayamba kuchita zinthu zopusa, zopanda pake kenako ndikumanjenjemera. Koposa zonse, Dick wanga kwa nthawi yoyamba mzaka anali wovuta kwambiri komanso wokhumudwitsa.
Sindingathe kufotokoza chilichonse ndipo nawonso madotolo kumeneko. (Sindinawauze za dick wanga) Tsoka ilo, ndinali ndikudwala zodzipatulira ndipo mwina malo oyipitsitsa oti ndikhale nawo. Oyang'anira anga amaganiza kuti ndine mwana wamantha ndipo adandikankha mwamphamvu kuti ndibweretse zabwino mwa ine. Zinali zosatheka ndipo ndinayamba kuwonongeka mwakuthupi ndi m'maganizo. Madotolo adadziwa kuti sindinali pachinthu chilichonse, adandipeza ndi nkhawa yayikulu ndipo adanditumiza kunyumba kulephera.
Ndinali pamwamba pa mwezi, bwenzi langa limatha kuwona kusintha kwa ine. Ziwalo zina ankazikonda zina osati kwambiri mwachitsanzo Withdrawal zinandivuta kwambiri nthawi zina pakati pausiku. Ndinkadzuka ndikugwedezeka ndipo ubongo wanga umandifuula - "seweretsa maliseche, maliseche pompano" Koma sindinatero, ndinkamugwira mpaka nditasiya kugwedeza. Ndinakumananso ndi zizindikiro zina zodziwika bwino zosiya kusiya.
Nkhani yanga yoyambiranso: Tsiku la 95 pmo lopanda moyo wochuluka 🙂
Kutaya zotsatira zomwe ndinakumana nazo:
1.) Kukhumba dopamine (zolimbikitsana, zokhudzana ndi p-zofanana mumasabata oyambirira nthawizina).
2.) Moodswings pa masiku oyambirira a 60 (makamaka), nthawizina ngakhale masabata pambuyo pa masiku 60.
3.) Nthawi zina malingaliro anali ovuta kwambiri: kulirira pazing'onozing'ono, ngakhale popanda kudziwa kwenikweni chifukwa chimene ine ndinalirira. Nthawi zina ndinali wosangalala popanda chifukwa chenicheni.
4.) Maloto oopsa / maloto: Ndimangokhala ndi 1 weniweni "maloto onyowa", otsatiridwa ndi zovuta kwambiri tsiku lotsatira. Ndinali ndi maloto ambiri (osati mvula), ndi mbali ya kuyeretsa ubongo ndikuganiza. Sindinali ndi malingaliro enieni pambuyo pa malotowa (palibe kutsegulira mochepa kwambiri dopamine).
5.) Ndinalibe mutu wamutu kapena mabuluu a buluu. Ndinali ndi mwayi mwinamwake, sindikudziwa.
Zaka 24 - Kuda nkhawa kwambiri ndidatumizidwa kwa aphungu pasukulu. Zapita bwino kwambiri.
Anthu ena amati amasangalala kwambiri milungu ingapo yoyambirira, koma ndikuloleni ndikuwuzeni kuti inali gehena yangwiro. Ndinakumana ndi zizindikiritso zakudzidzimutsa monga kuzizira kwadzidzidzi komanso kuzizira komanso kumva kupweteka komwe kumayambira kukhosi, kudutsa m'manja mpaka pamikono, ndipo ndimamverera ngati kuti sindingathe kuganiza bwino, ngati kumva kwa mphanga yomwe ikutha koma pafupifupi milungu iwiri.
Ingogunda sabata limodzi loyera. Zizindikiro zobwerera zakumodzi zikumenyedwa
Mutu wanga uli pamoto 24/7, makamaka kutsogolo ndi pakati. Ubongo wanga ukumva kuwawa.
Pakadali pano, ngakhale patadutsa sabata, zolaula zomwe ndimaziwona zimakhala zonyansa kwambiri. Sindingathe kutenga chilichonse chokhudzana ndi maliseche ndikuganiza za izi, mtima wanga umathamanga, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndizonyansa. Koma monga, ubongo wanga umafuna kuthamanga, ndipo ndikulakalaka kuti ndiwonere, ngakhale nditakhala 0% ndadzutsidwa kuti ndiyang'ane ndikuipeza yonyansa kwambiri.
Sindingathe kugona, ndimakhala ndi nkhawa komanso kukwiya nthawi zonse, ndipo kunyong'onyeka kumandipha.
Sindikusiya, koma ndimayenera kuyika izi pamenepo. Pewani zolaula ngati mliriwo, ndipo ngati simungathe kuthana ndi maliseche, pewani izi. Sizofunika kwenikweni.
Izi zikumveka ngati chithunzi chagalasi cha zomwe ndikukumana nazo. M patsiku la 5 (mwina mwina nthawi ya 10th) ndipo ndimakhala ndi nkhawa usiku uliwonse popanda chifukwa. Ndidzakwera pabedi kuti ndigone ndipo BOOM mtima ukugunda mutu ukulira ohfuckohfuckifeellikeimdying.jpeg. Kugona kwanga sikumakhala kopanda tanthauzo komanso kutsika kwambiri, kusakhala ndi chilakolako chofuna kudya, kumangokhala ndi malingaliro ofuna kudzipha, kumangokhalira kugwira ntchito osakwiya.
Ndimadana nacho. Ndimadana nazo zonsezi. Ndimadana ndi zolaula zomwe zachita muubongo wanga, ubale wanga wakale, moyo wanga pantchito, moyo wanga wapanyumba, moyo wanga wachikondi. Ndikufuna kudana nazo. Shit ikafika povuta ndimadzipeza ndikufunsa ngati kuli koyenera, ndikungofunika kukumbukira kuti ili ndi gawo lovuta. Zimakhala zosavuta. Ndikapitiliza kuyenda m'njira iyi, pamapeto pake sindiyeneranso kuthana nayo.
Gwiranani ndi mnzake. Khalani olimba, khalani maso.
KhalaniGolide
Pitilizani. Izi ndi zabwinobwino. Osadziuza wekha kuti ndiwe wapadera mwanjira inayake ndipo matendawa ndi oyipa kwambiri kwa iwe chifukwa chake uyenera kugonja. Osadziuza wekha kuti sukuyenera kudzinyenga. Osangochita izo. Izi ndi zachilendo. Zitha koma muyenera kukwera funde. Zindikirani zizindikirozo ndikuyesanso kuzilemba zina. Ie ndikumva zizindikiro za nyundo ya jack kapena .. Ndikumva zizindikiro zakusimidwa. Mutha kuchita izi. Konzani nthawi yanu yopuma kuti musakhale nokha
Masiku 90 - Mawu anga ndi kumwetulira kwanga ndizosavuta tsopano. Ndine womasuka ndi omwe ndili
Kupsa mtima: Masiku oyambirira m'mizere yayifupi ndimakumana ndi nkhanza zosaletseka, ndimalimbikitsidwa kuti ndisiye zinthu chifukwa. Chiwawa tsopano chasinthiratu, koma ndimamvabebe nthawi ndi nthawi. Osati kuti ndikatero koma ndikumva kuti ndikhoza kuphwanya nkhope ya munthu wina ndikuphwanya mafupa ngati ndikufuna. Ndikumva kuti nditha kugwiritsa ntchito chiwawa changa ngati ndikufunika kutero. M'mbuyomu ndimadzifunsa kuti nditani ndikadzamenya nkhondo, ndikukaikira ngati ndingaponye nkhonya yabwino.
Mu October, ndatha kupeza zovuta zanga m'masiku osakanizika a 1-2, mpaka masiku a 5-6. Kusintha pang'ono kwa mwana!
Mmawa uno ndinabwereranso molimbika. Ndipo anali ndi malingaliro awiri:
1) Sindinayambe ndachitapo mankhwala osokoneza bongo, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndi momwe zimakhalira kuyesa kuwaletsa. Manja anga anali kunjenjemera ndipo ndinamva kuyendetsa mosakhazikika pachifuwa panga, mikono yanga inali ngati jelly, ndipo ndimaganiza kuti nditha kuponya. Zonsezi zidachitika ndisanaganize zodzitengera ndikubwerera m'mbuyo. Zimangomva ngati zochulukirapo, zonse chifukwa cholaula. Thupi / ubongo wanga udali kutuluka chifukwa sindinali kudyetsa PMO.
2) Ndinamva kuti ndabedwa. PMO adalonjeza thupi langa kupumula ku zowawa, kuchokera kunjenjemera ndi malingaliro osakhudzidwa. Zinali zolakwika. Sindinamve bwino pambuyo pake, ndikumva kuwawa, ndikulankhula. Sindikufuna kumvanso choncho.
Chotsatira ndikuti ndidzakhala wokonzekera nthawi ina, pozindikira kuti pakatha masiku ochepa ndidzamvanso kudzimva koteroko, ndipo zili bwino, ndikufooka kusiya thupi, ndikungopuma ndikupitiliza ndi zomwe ndikufunika kuchita tsikulo , osakhala pamenepo ndikusangalatsa lingaliro la PMO. Sindikufuna kugweranso mabodza.
Mzaka zanga zoyambirira ndimadziwa kumbuyo kwanga kuti zolaula ndizomwe zimalepheretsa moyo wanga. Panalibe chilichonse chomwe ndikanatha kuchita nazo izi, chifukwa ndinali ndi vuto lalikulu kwambiri. Ndinkakhala kunyumba ndi makolo anga ndipo sindinkagwira ntchito kapena kuchita chilichonse pa nkhaniyi. Ine ndinali wofanana ndi mwana womaliza kunena. Ndinkakhala kulikonse kuyambira maola 4-6 pa tsiku ndikuwonera mawebusayiti ndikumenya maliseche kwambiri kumavidiyo azachinyengo komanso achinyengo a shemale omwe ndimapeza.
Sizinali mpaka chaka chatha pamene ndinakumana ndi YBOP pomwe ndimeza zambiri zomwe ndapeza patsamba lino ndikungoti "Chonde." Ndidatenga laputopu yanga ya Toshiba ndikuphwanya helo kuchokera pamenepo makolo anga ndikumenya nawo zotsalazo ndi bat. Nthawi imeneyi mosakayikira inali gawo lalikulu kwambiri pamoyo wanga.
Ndinkadziwa kuti nthawi yosiya ntchito idzakhala yovuta kwambiri, koma ndiyenera kungopirira mphepo yamkuntho ndi mphamvu. Ndipo ndinachitadi zimenezo. Sabata yoyamba ndinali ndi vuto losagona lomwe linali lalikulu kwambiri. Sindikukumbukira kuti ndinagona masiku 6 oyambirira. M'maganizo mwanga, zinapangitsa kuti maphunziro a Hell Week of Navy SEAL azioneka osavuta. Koma m'masabata otsatira, zinthu zinayamba kusintha pang'ono koma zinayamba kuonekera patatha miyezi itatu. Ndinayamba kupeza mphamvu zochitira zinthu.
Monga mwafunsidwa, apa pali zizindikiro zanga zodzipatula (zodziwika tsiku la 2):
-Mood imasinthana ngati msungwana wazaka 13 wazaka zakubadwa.
-Kusungulumwa kwakukulu, kosapiririka.
-Kumangika: kupweteka kwa mutu, kupweteka pang'ono kwa minofu, kuuma konsekonse, kumverera ngati kukakamiza mano anga.
-Kuuma ziwalo.
-Kuda nkhawa ndi chilichonse makamaka.
-Panic kuukira (kawirikawiri, koma zachitika).
-Nthawi zonse kumazizira, ngakhale pamaso pamoto.
-Kuopa kwambiri chilichonse ndi chilichonse.
–Kulirira chilichonse… ndidzawona mtengo wowoneka bwino kenako ndikulira.
-Kulakalaka kwambiri kulumikizana ndi anthu… koma mantha owopsa kuti mupezeke!
-Kuopa kukanidwa.
-Palibe chikhumbo chogonana… mpaka nditaonanso zolaula (kapena dikirani nthawi yokwanira osayang'ana).
-Zokhumba zosakhutira ndi chakudya ... Pafupifupi tidadya poto wathunthu wama brownies m'maola 24.
-Ndine wolemba… ndipo sindingathe kulemba.
-Ndili ndi FUSE YAFUPI KWAMBIRI, chitsiru iwe! LOL Kuchitira anthu ngati zopanda pake ndikamamva izi! Ichi ndiye chizindikiro choyipitsitsa!
[Masabata asanu] Ndinasiya chifukwa cha vuto la kusowa maliseche. Kupatula mutu wochepa komanso tulo tosakhazikika, sindinakhale ndi zizindikiro zosiya kugonana zomwe anthu ambiri amanena. M'malo mwake, sindikumva chilichonse. Zili ngati kuti ndilibe libido. Palibe matope am'mawa. Palibe maloto onyowa. Palibe kusagwirizana kwachibadwa. Palibe chilakolako. Sindinachite chiwerewere. Ndakhala ndi mwayi wogonana koma thupi langa silikuyankha. Ndikutenga makalasi a tango, kotero ndimakhala wochezeka koma sindikuwonetsa libido yanga. Ndikhoza kuvina ndi mtsikana wokongola ndipo sindimachita chilichonse. Ndikudziwa m'maganizo kuti mtsikana ndi wokongola, koma sindikumva mwakuthupi. Chinthu chomwe chimandipangitsa kupitiriza ndi chikhulupiriro changa kuti ndidzatha kuyambitsanso ubongo wanga ndikubwerera ku moyo wabwinobwino. Koma n'zokhumudwitsa. [ Anatero. ]
Ndikuganiza kuti patha masiku 3 kapena 4, ndikuyamba kudzuka molawirira kuposa masiku onse, ndimamva ngati mtima wanga ukugunda kwambiri kuposa momwe uyenera kupumulira, wopanda chakudya m'mawa, koma nthawi yomweyo mimba yanga ikulira ngati wopenga, (akumva ngati akudya chokha). Kumva pachifuwa / kunyansidwa nthawi zonse. Chifunga chaubongo / mutu wofatsa womwe umakhalapo kwamuyaya, Advil sachita chilichonse. Kodi alipo amene akukumana ndi izi?
renato_port (Lumikizani silikupezeka)
Pirira, mnzako. Ndizovuta koma… Pali zambiri zomwe thupi lanu ndi ubongo zimafunikira kuti zizolowere.
Inde, zikuwoneka ngati zomwe ndikumana nazo. Izi ndizowopsa. Pitilizani kuyenda. Mukayambiranso kuyambiranso kupweteka. Sungani icho monga chikumbutso kuti mupitilizebe kukhala wamphamvu ngakhale zitatani.
Ndazindikira tsopano kuti njirayi ndiyofanana kwambiri ndi kusiya chamba. Maganizo anu amasintha tsiku lonse ndipo mutha kuyamba ndi m'mawa wabwino ndikukhala ndi tsiku loipa, kapena kukhala ndi tsiku lokhazikika, kapena kukhala ndi tsiku loyipa kapena kuyamba zoyipa kenako ndikukhala ndi usiku wabwino ... Ndizoseketsa ndipo zachilendo chifukwa ndili ndi zizolowezi zosuta chamba komabe ndikusuta.
Aliyense amene ali ndi vuto lochoka?
Hei aliyense ndi positi yanga yoyamba pano. Ndakhala wopanda zolaula masiku 21 tsopano, ndipo ndinali ndi masiku 10 ndisanachitike. Ndine 19 ndipo ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula zaka 5-6.
Ndinkafuna kufunsa ngati anthu nawonso akukumana ndi zovuta kuyesa kusiya. Ndikutanthauza, sindikuganiza zolaula masana kapena kumangofuna kuti ndibwerere, koma ndakhala ndikuda nkhawa kwambiri ndimavuto akugona ndikuwopsya pang'ono masiku aliwonse a 9-10. Sindinganene kuti zikuyenda bwino, koma ndimangofuna kufunsa ngati izi ndi zabwinobwino chifukwa sizinachitike zambiri pamoyo wanga zodetsa nkhawa posachedwa, ndipo sizinachitike mpaka nditaganiza zosiya zolaula.
Kudwala pambuyo poyamba streak?
Ino ndi nthawi ya 4th yomwe ndafika masiku pafupifupi 15 ndipo ndimadwalanso, palibe chomwe chimangokhala chimfine komanso mutu woyambira. Wina aliyense adaziwona izi? Kodi ndi zotsatira zobwerera m'mbuyo?
NoFap Inandichititsa Kuposa Kufinya ...
Masiku 8 - 12 sizinali zophweka. Ndipamene ndidadwala! Zinkawoneka ngati malungo kapena chimfine. Ndinadziwa kuti sichinali. Cholinga chake chinali chakuti zizindikirazo zimangosintha maola ochepa kapena apo. Kutentha kwa thupi langa kudali kovuta, ndikulimbana ndi homeostasis.
Nthawi imeneyo, yomwe inali nyengo yozizira yozizira, ndimamva kutentha, kenako ndimazizira ndikubwerera. Nthawi zina khosi langa linkkaotcha komanso nkhope yanga inkazizira. Gawo lodabwitsa kwambiri linali pamene theka lamanja la chifuwa changa linali lozizira ndipo linalo linali lotentha. Sindingathe, ngakhale ndine wolemba.
Ndidavutika, cell mdzanja limodzi, wokonzeka kuyimba 9-1-1, koma sindinatero. Zinali zofunikira kwambiri, kuchotsa uku.
Masiku asanu ndi awiri oyamba anali openga (June 2013). Ndikudziwa kuti ambiri owerenga izi adakumana ndi "kuyendetsa" kwamphamvu kwamasiku asanu ndi awiri oyamba, opangidwa ndi othamanga othamanga kwambiri, kukakamizidwa kosatha komanso chisangalalo chamunthu.
Kenako pafupi ndi dontho, ndidadwala milungu iwiri. Pakadali pano sindinathe kumvetsetsa lingaliro loti kuseweretsa maliseche, ngakhale pamavuto akulu, kumatha kubweretsa zizindikilo zochepa ngati chimfine. Sindinamve ngati kuti ndili ndi chimfine, komabe. Zinali zofatsa kwambiri (kumbukirani, izi zidakali ZIZINDIKIRO ZA FLU - kutentha kwakanthawi, ulesi, zilonda zapakhosi ndi zina zambiri .. OSATI ozizira wamba - ndikofunikira kudziwa ngakhale ndidanena kuti ndi "ofatsa"). Ndinayamba kutuluka tsiku la 15 kuchoka (kuzungulira tsiku 22 la palibe fap) kotero kuti ndimaganiza zokayezetsa matenda a laimu.
Mwamwayi, kutha kwa thupi kunatha pamapeto pa sabata lachitatu lopanda. Panthawiyi ndinamva kuti ndikumva bwino kwambiri pazaka zitatu zapitazi. Mwamtima, mwakuthupi, ndi m'maganizo ndinamva ngati ndinali mu zaka zatsopano za kusukulu ya sekondale kachiwiri.
Tsiku 6 ndi zizindikiro mpaka pano
- - kupweteka mutu (kukuipiraipira lero)
- - mapewa okhwima / khosi
- - kutopa
- - ubongo wa ubongo
- - chikhumbo chofuna kudya mopitirira muyeso (ngakhale ndili ndizochulukirapo)
- - kukwiya pang'ono
- - nthawi yovuta kulingalira
- - womvera phokoso lambiri
Kuchotsa kuyamwa. Sitilankhula zokwanira za iwo. Ndi chifukwa chake timalephera. Ndiwo mphotho yathu ya dopamine yothira mankhwala opatsirana omwe amatipempha, kutiwopseza, kutilanga, kutichonderera, kutipatsa zifukwa zomveka zofunira PMO. Kuchotsa pamtima kumakhala kopweteka, ndikumva kuwawa kwakuthupi, kwamaganizidwe, komanso kwamaganizidwe. Ndiwo jitters, kugwedezeka, thukuta, zowawa zosamveka m'malo osamvetseka, ubongo waubongo womwe timamva tikasiya, komanso njira yaubongo wathu wotiwuza zosasangalatsazi zitha kungochoka pang'ono chabe. Ndikamachoka ndikumva kuti ndili ndi matenda a sinus ndipo mano anga amapweteka kwambiri. Ndinalibe matenda a sinus ndipo mano anga anali bwino, koma ubongo wanga, pamlingo wina, unkayenera kundipangitsa kuti ndizimva zoyesayesa ndikupangitsa kuti ndikhale wosangalala kudzera mu zolaula zomwe zidatulutsa dopamine.
Chinthu chabwino ndichakuti, ngati mukusiya, zikutanthauza kuti milingo ya dopamine muubongo wanu ikubwerera mwakale. Mukangobwerera mwakale zinthuzo zimasiya, koma simungathe kubwerera mwakale mpaka ubongo wanu utakhazikika, ndipo zimatengera, malingana ndi momwe mumalankhulira, pakati pa masiku 11 ndi 90. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala alendo pakati pa 11 ndi 40. Oyamba kumene ayenera kuuzidwa kuti izi sizikhala zophweka, zidzakhala zovuta, ndipo ayenera kuyembekezera ululu uwu, kupirira, kukumbatira komanso kufuna kuti akwaniritse ntchito yathu, kubweretsanso kupanga dopamine. zabwinobwino.
Kuchokera pa kanthu kena kupita ku chinachake - masiku 60
Ulendowu unali bwanji? Ulendo wanga unali wovuta komanso wovuta chifukwa ndinali woledzera kwambiri ... Ndinayamba kuchokapo tsiku loyamba la 1 lokha ngati ndinakanthidwa ndikuthawa kwa chaka chimodzi ...
Kusiya: Kuchokera kwanga kunali kwakukulu ... Ndinayamba kuda nkhaŵa ndi kuopsya ngati kusuta tsiku ndi tsiku mpaka tsiku la 54 ... Ndinayang'anizana ndi nkhawa zonse zomwe zimakhala ngati Kutentha, kupweteka kwa mutu, Zozunguza, miyendo yowononga, mphamvu yochepa, etc...Mayi Bp ali pamwamba ngakhale tsopano ndipo ndikutsimikiza kuti ndikutha kupulumuka pamene ubongo wanga sudziwa momwe mungathetsere nkhawa.
Ndondomekoyi: Ndinkakondwera kawiri paulendo umenewu. Choyamba chinali kuyambira tsiku la 1 mpaka tsiku la 14 .. Chachiwiri chinali chakukhwima ndipo nthawi yayitali ... Ndondomeko yanga yachiwiri inayamba tsiku 24 ndipo idatha mpaka tsiku 54 ..
Ubwino: Zopindulitsa ndi zenizeni ndipo ndikutha kumutsimikizira aliyense ... Chidaliro changa chawonjezeka kwambiri ... Chisokonezo changa chaumphawi ndichabechabe ... Chisokonezo changa chachikulu ndi kuopsya kunayamba kuchoka tsiku 54 ... Kugona kwanga kuli bwino ... Mphamvu ndi yabwino koma ndili ndi BP Vutoli ndikudandaula ndikudzidzimuka kwa mphamvu pambuyo pa zovuta ...
Ndakhala ndikulota maloto ambiri, mtundu wa zoyipa zomwe sindimva bwino kuuza aliyense. Ndikumvetsetsa kuti ndimangoganiza zongodzichotsa, koma ndikhulupilira kuti zitha posachedwa, ndimatha kugona tulo tabwino mtsogolo.
Kodi kuchoka ku zizolowezi zolaula kwenikweni kwenikweni?
Umu ndiwone… osagona kwa milungu ingapo. Kulephera kumvetsetsa. Kulira kukhumudwa komanso kusungulumwa kopundula. Hmm ndiroleni ine ndipange lingaliro lachilendo ……
Inde.
Poyerekezera ndikumana ndi kusiya mankhwala enieni, kuchotsedwa kwa thupi kunali kochepa kwambiri. Izi zinati ndinakumana ndi zizindikiro zowonongeka koma zambiri pokhapokha ngati munasuta khofi lanu lakummawa. Ndithudi mantha ena, kusokoneza tulo ndi kungopweteka kwakukulu.
Atanena kuti kumwa mowa ndi mphamvu zedi monga mankhwala enieni. Kwa ine kusiya mankhwala osokoneza bongo kunali kosavuta kusiyana ndi kusiya kugonana.
His_Dudeness1993
Zizindikiro zanga zakhala zikugwiritsidwa ntchito ndi odwala benzo ndipo sindinatengere benzo. Ndakhala wopanda ntchito kwa nthawi yaitali, nthawi yaitali. Kutaya kwa thupi, kusowa tulo, kuphulika kwa ubongo komwe kunatenga miyezi ya 9-11 kukuwonanso kuchepa pang'ono, kukhudzidwa kwakumveka ndi kuwala, kuwala kwa kuwala ndi kuyendayenda m'masomphenya.
Sungani: Ndipo pakapita nthawi kukhumudwa kwa mutu / kupanikizika komwe kumamveka ngati mutu wanu, ma tempile ndi maso akuyamba kuvulazidwa ngati makondomu, amakhala ndi masiku oposa 340.
Kodi munganene kuti zolaula n'zovuta kusiya kusiyana ndi mankhwala chifukwa chopezeka mosavuta?
Inde, koma mumakhala kutali kwa nthawi yaitali ndikudzaza moyo wochuluka.
Sikuti aliyense amawatenga, sindinakhalepo. Koma anthu ambiri amawafotokozera. Kotero ndikuganiza choncho.
Inde. Maloto Osautsa ndi amodzi mwa iwo.
Ndakhala ndi chinthu chomwecho. Ine ndinali ndi loto lomwe linali lokhudza ine kupereka ndi kuyang'ana. Ndinadzuka ndikumva ngati ndinali koma sindinatero. Izi zimakhudza kwambiri munthu
Dat_Minstrel_Boi
palibe chofananizidwa ndi kuchotsedwa kwa heroin, koma eya, kwa ine ndi pomwe sungagone usiku wonse ndikuponyera nkhondo yolimbana ndi malungo. Ndikulangiza kuti muzichita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lomwe mukudziwa kubwera kwake (monga usiku umodzi kamodzi pa sabata ikamenya) kotero zimakhala zovuta kuti mukhalebe ogalamuka.
His_Dudeness1993
Pafupifupi pafupi miyezi khumi ndi itatu. Kusokonezeka, kugwedeza, nkhawa ndi flatline (zochepa libido / zofooka zosasintha).
Poyerekezera ndikumana ndi kusiya mankhwala enieni, kuchotsedwa kwa thupi kunali kochepa kwambiri. Izi zinati ndinakumana ndi zizindikiro zowonongeka koma zambiri pokhapokha ngati munasuta khofi lanu lakummawa. Ndithudi mantha ena, kusokoneza tulo ndi kungopweteka kwakukulu.
Atanena kuti kumwa mowa ndi mphamvu zedi monga mankhwala enieni. Kwa ine kusiya mankhwala osokoneza bongo kunali kosavuta kusiyana ndi kusiya kugonana.
Ngati mutakhala wovuta kwambiri, ndiye kuti zenizeni!
Ndinalembera ndondomeko yambiri pamene ndinali pafupi kumaliza chaka chosangalatsa. Ndikuyika gawo la zizindikiro za kuchotsedwa. Zingakuthandizeni.
Ine ndithudi ndinamva kuti zizindikiro za kuchotsedwa. Nthawi zina, ndimapitiriza.
Inde. Monga ena adanenera, zimatha kuphatikiza kusokoneza tulo kapena kusowa tulo kwenikweni, thukuta, maloto omveka bwino komanso osokoneza, kusakhazikika, nkhawa, kulephera kuyang'ana, zolimbikitsana kwambiri pamalire a mania. Mukusokoneza kulowetsedwa kwamankhwala am'mitsempha, ndipo ubongo wanu umachitapo kanthu. Kulimba kumakhala kokhazikika, pamlingo winawake. Kwa anu moona, zinali zopweteka.
Sindingathe kuyankha zofananira ndi kuchotsedwa kwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo, ngakhale zili zomveka kuti kuchotsedwa kwa mitundu yonse sikungangokhala ndi zisonyezo zokhudzana ndi kusokonezeka kwa mphotho yaubongo, komanso kungakhale ndi chowonjezera china chakusokoneza kudalira kwakuthupi / kachitidwe zomwe sizipezeka kwambiri pakukonda zamakhalidwe.
Ndinganene inde, koma ndi mphanga yomwe ikudalira momwe mudakondera
Kwa ine chachikulu chomwe chiripo ndi kusakwiya. Nditangoyamba kuyeretsa, ndinali ndondomeko kwa masiku angapo. Chilichonse chinandipangitsa kukwiya. Mukuona kuti mukuda nkhaŵa kwambiri ndipo ndinakhala ndi mantha nthawi imodzi. Kutulutsidwa ndilolondola
Inde. Chochuluka kwambiri. Ndinagona pabedi pamene ndimasiya ndikulimbana ndekha chifukwa ndinali kuyesedwa kwambiri.
HenryTheRobot
Ndikukumana ndi vuto la kupsinjika, utsi wamaganizidwe komanso kulephera kuyang'ana, koma sindikudziwa ngati zilizonse zomwe zikukhudzana ndi ine ndikulephera zolaula. Zakhala motere kwazaka.
Ngati ndikupita masiku a 7 ndimayamba kumva kuti ndikuvutika maganizo komanso kusungulumwa
Izi ndi zomwe ndimakumana nazo mutatha kudya.
-kumva zovuta kuchokera m'mitsempha m'mikono ndi miyendo yanga
-kukhala ndi ubweya, kusaganizira pang'ono
-maganizo okhudzidwa kwambiri, zowonjezera zowonjezereka sizimakonda zinthu zomwe ndimakonda
-Feel amamva chisoni kwambiri komanso amalephera kuchita chilichonse pambuyo pake
-panda mphamvu, palibe cholimbikitsa kuchita chirichonse
kupweteka mutu
-chikhumbo chofuna kugonana ndi zolaula ndichapambana, ndizo zonse ndikuganiza
Chinthu choipa kwambiri pa zolaula ndikuti simudzakhala nazo zokwanira, ndipo pamene mukudyetsa kwambiri mu dzenje lomwe mukukumba
Mwinamwake simunagwidwe ndi zolaula. Kuchokera kwanga kuchotsa zizindikiro kunali koopsa. Achinyamata ambiri amangoona zolaula kwambiri. Koma iwo sali oledzera kwenikweni.
Ndikukumana, nseru, kuyandama m'maso, kukhumudwa, kusowa chidwi. Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi candida, yomwe mwina siyingagwirizane konse, chifukwa chake ndili ndi vuto lakuzindikira zomwe zisonyezo zakudzichotsera.
Novembala 2013. Ndinasiya zolaula, zongoyerekeza, ndikuganiza zogonana & tsiku lililonse M koma ndidaganiza zodutsa njira yayitali ndikupitiliza kuyesa kugonana ndi mkazi wanga. Disembala & Januware zinali zolimba, ndipo ndikutanthauza zovuta! Ndinali ndi matenda ovutika maganizo ... Zizolowezi zanga zolaula zidapangitsa kuti mwana wanga wamwamuna wosauka akhale wopanda phindu wowonjezerapo wopanda pake mthupi langa yemwe samangofuna chidwi cha akazi.
Kuchotsa pamalonda kunali koopsa sindinathe kuyang'anitsitsa pamaphunziro anga ndipo ndidachita zoyipa mu Organic Chemistry. Kawirikawiri anapanga C m'kalasi limenelo. Ndinalinso wotopa nthawi zonse. Kuchokera kumapeto kwa masiku 30 mpaka 40 ndipo ndinali ndi malo ena otsika kuchokera masiku 70-84.
[Pambuyo pa masabata asanu ndi limodzi] Ndikuwoneka kuti ndili bwino kwambiri chifukwa chakusowa tulo, ngakhale sindikugona tulo tofa nato, ndipo sindimadzuka ndili ndi nyonga komanso zotsitsimulidwa. Ndibwino kuti musagone kwa maola angapo ngakhale. Sindinakhalepo ndi mutu sabata limodzi ndipo ndikumva bwino kuposa milungu ingapo yapitayo.
Zizindikiro:
1. Kufooka kwakukulu
2. Kugona mopanda phokoso
3. Kupweteka kwa minofu, kupweteka kwa mafupa ndi malungo (chimfine ngati) - tsiku la 154.
4. Kusinkhasinkha pang'ono
5. Kuthamanga mu chifuwa / kupuma kolimba
6. Nkhawa
Nthawi zonse ndikasiya kugwiritsa ntchito, ndimamva ngati kuti nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi chimfine masiku omwe pambuyo pake. (Ndimangoganiza kuti ndili ndi mono.) Sindikumvanso choncho ngakhale nthawi zina ndimakhala wotsika kwambiri. Miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yoyambirira yakuchira, nthawi iliyonse ndikayambiranso, monga masiku 4 pambuyo pake ndimakhala ndi gehena yangwiro. Izi zinali zoyipitsitsa: kupweteka mutu ndi kukhumudwa. Kunali pansi.
Zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita panopa:
1. Ndimasokonezeka kwambiri.
2. Simungathe kuziganizira.
3. Ndikumva ludzu kwambiri ndipo palibe madzi ochuluka omwe amachotsa ludzu langa.
4. Ndikumva kupweteka m'thupi, komwe kumasunthira kuchoka kumalo ena kupita kwina.
5. Ndimamva kumverera kofatsa kwa kusanza.
6. Pakamwa panga pali kulawa koipa.
7. Ndimakhala wanzeru kwambiri monga woyera mtima. Ndimalalikira zambiri. (Monga ngati sindinayambe ndamva za chinthu chotchedwa kuledzera)
8. Ndili ndi malingaliro odabwitsa m'maganizo anga ndi chifukwa chake kugonana ndi zolaula zimakhala zabwino. (Koma ndimawasunga ndekha)
9. Ndikumva tulo nthawi zonse.
Tsiku 3 - Wopanda chiyembekezo. Kukwiya, kupweteka mutu, kusowa tulo, kusowa njala, ludzu kwambiri, kutulutsa pafupipafupi koma mwachidule, kuwonjezeka kwa ndudu.
Kuchotsa kwa Fap ndichimodzi mwazinthu zosasangalatsa kwambiri zomwe ndidapirira m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndakhala ndikuvutika kwakanthawi kopitilira tsiku. Izi zikuchokera kwa mnyamata yemwe wadwala amphetamine, Xanax, ndikuchotsa kuyamwa kwa mankhwala osiyanasiyana opondereza omwe ndakhala nawo m'moyo wanga. Zomwe ndikukumana nazo pakadali pano sindikanakhumba ngakhale mdani wanga woyipitsitsa, ndi gehena weniweni.
Ndinali ndi zizolowezi zolaula zochotsa zolaula. Ndinadwala ngakhale kubwereranso nthawi imeneyo chifukwa ndimakhala nthawi yanga yonse pabedi. Zolimbikitsa zinali zamphamvu kwambiri sindinathe kupirira nazo. Panalinso zosintha zoyipa m'mikhalidwe. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-accounts/rebooting-accounts-page-2/age-30-ed-extreme-fetishes-in-the-past-sex-is-now-great-with-my- chibwenzi /
Tsiku 6 - Ponena za zosaphika, zakuthupi zokhudzana ndi mbolo yanga; kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba, sindinakhale ndi erection yathunthu, mulibe nkhuni zammawa, ndipo imawoneka yaying'ono (monga nthawi yotentha kapena mukamatuluka kusamba).
Ndalimbana ndi zosokoneza zingapo m'moyo wanga - kuyambira chikonga mpaka mowa ndi zinthu zina. Ndagonjetsa onsewa, ndipo izi zinali zovuta kwambiri. Zolimbikitsa, malingaliro openga, kusowa tulo, kudziona kuti mulibe chiyembekezo, kutaya mtima, kudziona ngati wopanda pake, ndi zina zambiri zoyipa zonse zinali zina mwa zomwe ndidakumana nazo ndi chinthu ichi cha P ndi M. Ndi chinthu choyipa choyipa chomwe sindidzachitiranso konse m'moyo wanga - konse.
Lero ndi tsiku la 10 kwa ine. 'Mipira yopweteka' yatsika, yomwe ndi yolandiridwa chifukwa inali yovuta.
Zizindikiro zakubwezeretsa zikuwonjezeka tsiku lililonse. Sindinakhale ndi tsiku "labwino" m'miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. -Kutopa kwambiri -Kudandaula -Kovuta kugona -Ponseponse kumverera ngati zombie
Kusiya. O wanga. Zikuwoneka kuti ndikulakalaka kuti ndikuyambiranso khalidwe langa lakale (zolimbikitsana), kukhumudwa kwakukulu, kupanda tulo, kusokonezeka, zizindikiro zamagulu, mapulaneti a buluu, kukhumudwa kwa kugonana, kupsinjika maganizo, kuvutika maganizo, kusowa chidwi ndi china chilichonse koma kugonana, kukhumudwa, koma osadzipha ngati Ndinkakonda. Sabata yoyamba inali gehena. Sabata lachiwiri linkaoneka ngati labwino kwambiri mpaka linafika powonjezereka, ndiye kuchokera pa sabata itatu pazinthu zinkakhala zotheka. Ndinapeza kuti ndimangokonda kupwetekedwa ndi kubwerera ndipo ndimaphunzira kwambiri.
Pafupifupi milungu iwiri ndikudziletsa ndazindikira kuti ndakhala ndikutulutsa zambiri kuposa masiku onse. Sindinamwe mowa kuposa masiku onse ndipo sindine wogwiritsa ntchito tiyi kapena khofi wambiri. Zayamba kundivutitsa chifukwa kufunikira kwanga kuti ndizikasamba ndikundidzutsa usiku ndikuthandizira kugona tulo.
(Tsiku 22) Pafupifupi sabata yapitayo ndidazindikira jizz mkodzo wanga. Ndawonapo ena pano akutchula izi kotero sindinakhale ndi nkhawa.
Tsopano yakhala masabata a 4 (masiku 28) kuyambira pomwe ndakhala PMO Free. Ndine wokondwa kuti zizindikiro ngati chimfine zatha. Kuyenera kwanga kugwiritsa ntchito bafa kuti ndizitopa nthawi zonse kwasiya. Chinthu chokha chomwe ndikukumana nacho pakali pano ndikuti ndikungokhala ndi mavuto ogona ndikumenyera kuti ndikakamizike kuti ndisiye kugona.
(Tsiku 12) Zili ngati pali zovuta zina zomwe zimafuna kutuluka mthupi langa. Mapewa anga, khosi langa komanso kumbuyo kwanga kumapweteka kwambiri. Ndizopweteka kwambiri kuti ndinamwa mankhwala opha ululu, koma sizinagwire ntchito. Ndikuganiza kuti zina mwa zowawa izi zili muubongo wanga. Ndikumva kuwuma, ndipo ndamva ngati chonchi masiku atatu apitawa.
Masiku oyamba a 50 anali ofanana ndendende pomwe ndimayamba, ndimamvabe ngati bulu, ndimawoneka ngati bulu, sindimadzisamalira ndekha, osadya bwino, waulesi, wamantha, ongowonongeka. Koma pa Tsiku 50 zonse zidasintha. Zizindikiro zanga zamakono, zomwe zikukulirakulira ndi izi: Mphamvu Zapamwamba, Ndimangofunika kugona maola 4 (Ndikunena izi chifukwa sindinagone usiku watha ndipo ndili maso) -Maganizo akubwerera -Magazi akuphulika thupi (Zotsatira Zazikulu pa masewera olimbitsa thupi) -Pamtendere (osaganiziranso zakugonana) -Onani zaka 10 zazing'ono (malingana ndi zomwe ena akunena) -Khungu ndi losalala komanso lowoneka bwino, tsitsi limaloleza komanso limadzaza -Umeta Ukukulira msanga -Misomali Yazala / Misomali ya toe ikukula mwachangu -Voice imalamulira kwambiri - Ngakhale nthabwala zopusitsa zimandiseketsa masiku ano -Life's Good and Get Better.
Kodi mwafika pamalo otsetsereka? Kodi mudakhala ndi zizindikiritso zakutha? Inde, pakati pa masiku 58-87 ndipo zinali zachiwawa kwambiri komanso zovuta kuti zisabwererenso. Zizindikiro zosiya masiku ano: kuwopsya, kuchita mantha kwambiri komanso kukhumudwa, kugona, mawu otsika, osakhala pagulu komanso mantha. Ndinatenga Xanax yomwe inandithandiza kwambiri ndipo ndimawona wothandizira kamodzi pa sabata. Tsopano, zili bwino. Ndine wokondwa kuposa kale, ochezeka, ndili ndi mawu ozama, chiyembekezo, chowala cha aura.
Nkhawa ndi yoyipa kwambiri: Kumverera koopsa kwa chiwonongeko chomwe chikubwera, zovuta kuganizira ndi kulingalira, kulingalira kwapikisano, kusowa tulo, kumverera osathandizidwa. Zinthu zina zopweteka: ndikufunsa momwe ndingadzakhalire wosangalala popanda PMO, osasangalala ndi zinthu zomwe ndinkakonda, maganizo osokonezeka omwe alipo, kulira, kumva kuti palibe chiyembekezo.
Popeza sindinakhale ndi vuto lalikulu lachiwerewere, ndimaganiza kuti maubwino ake azikhala ochepa, koma apa pali zomwe ndidaphunzira; ngati mukuganiza kuti mulibe chizolowezi choledzera, yesetsani kuyimitsa ntchitoyi kuti muwone zomwe zimachitika. Kwa ine, nthawi yolanga zizindikiro zodzipatula. Momwe ndimaganizira kuzizira kochokera kuzinthu zosokoneza bongo. Izi zidatenga pafupifupi mwezi umodzi. China chake chimandikhudza kwambiri ndimankhwala am'magazi popeza mkati mwa nthawi ya 24hr ndimatha kukhala ndi chisangalalo chochulukirapo, chosangalala chotsatiridwa ndi mdima wokhumudwitsa. Panali mwezi womwe ndinayamba kumva bwino kwambiri za ine ndipo zinthu zinayamba kugwera m'malo mopanda ntchito; anthu amawoneka kuti ali bwino kwa ine, chilankhulo changa chimayamba bwino, ndidayamba kuseka mozungulira kuntchito ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimawona mbali yopepuka ya moyo.
Mnyamata uyu amakhulupirira kuti pali mitundu iwiri ya zolaula zomwe zimayesedwa ndi trajectories zosiyana
Pomaliza, ndipo ichi ndichinthu chaumwini, ndazindikira kuti pakhoza kukhala mitundu iwiri ya osokoneza. Pali chap wamba yomwe idayamba zolaula chifukwa chongofuna chidwi kenako nkuzolowera. Kwa iwo kubwerera mwakale kumatha kutenga nthawi yocheperako. Nditayamba kuwerenga nkhani zawo zidandikhumudwitsa kuti m'masabata awiri okha akupita patsogolo. Zanditengera vuto, nthawi yofuna kudzipha komanso kupsinjika kwathunthu kuti ndikafike mbali inayo. Mtundu wina wosokoneza bongo (ndipo nditha kudzilemba ndekha mgululi) ndi amene adayamba kukhala ndi vuto ndipo sanakhale ndi malingaliro oyambira ndikuyamba "kudzipangira okha" nkhawa yomwe ikukula ndi zolaula.
Kwa ife ndizovuta kubwerera ku "zachilendo" chifukwa sitikubwerera, Tikuzipeza koyamba m'miyoyo yathu! Chifukwa chake, paulendo wathu sizongokhala zolaula komanso zovuta zomwe tiyenera kusiya, sizomwe zimayambitsa koma zotsatira za mikangano yakuya yomwe tiyenera kuyitapo. Koma ngati tipitilizabe kuseweretsa maliseche komanso kutopetsa sitimachotsa nkhawa zathu ndipo sitipeza zida zoyambira kukhala ndi malingaliro munjira yatsopano komanso yathanzi.
Chifukwa chake, upangiri wanga kwa anthu kunja kuno osafanizira kupita patsogolo kwanu ndi wina aliyense ndipo musayang'ane kupita kwanu tsiku ndi tsiku ngakhale sabata iliyonse. Zitha kutenga miyezi. Musaganize kuti kusiya zolaula ndiye chipolopolo chomwe chidzathetse mavuto anu onse, pangakhale zambiri zomwe zingasungidwe kuposa zomwe mumaganizira poyamba. Khalani kutali ndi maliseche, ngakhale zitangokhala zowawa, ndichinthu chinanso chanzeru chamubongo kuti muchepetse chitetezo chanu ndikubwezeretsani ku zolaula. Ndipo, pamapeto pake, chinthu chomwe chandithandiza kwambiri ndikukumana ndi anthu abwino atsopano komanso chikondi cha ophunzira anga. Chikondi sichimangokhala pachibwenzi choncho dalirani anzanu, abale anu komanso anthu omwe amakukondani chifukwa chikondi chili paliponse, osati mwa munthu m'modzi yekha.
Chizindikiro Chotsatira chiri CHOONA!
Ndinayamba kusachita maswiti masiku awiri apitawo . Ndinaganiza zoyamba kugwiritsa ntchito PM-Mode . Ndimakonda kuonera zolaula ndikuwerenga manga ya hentai nthawi iliyonse ndikamachita maswiti. Pakadali pano ndikuwerenga manga iyi ya "yachibadwa" yotchedwa "Kami-sama no Iuutori" ndipo pali mtsikana wotchedwa Shouko mu manga yemwe ndimakonda kwambiri. Ndinamuonanso ndipo zoona zake, pali chodabwitsa ichi chomwe chikuchitika m'thupi langa pakali pano. Miyendo yanga imamva kusakhazikika, ndikuponda pansi mapazi anga, ndikutulutsa zinyalala m'tsitsi langa, ndikudziuza kuti, "Ndikufuna kuchita. Ndikufuna kuchita maswiti kwambiri!" Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala munthu wodekha komanso woleza mtima. Kukwiya kumeneku si kwachilendo kwa ine.
Sindinadziwe kuti ndimakonda zolaula komanso maliseche. Ndimadziuza ndekha izi zisanachitike, "Chabwino ndili ndi ufulu wosankha. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nditha kusiya nthawi iliyonse. ” Koma izi zinangotsimikizira. Ndimakonda zolaula 2D kapena 3D zolaula. Chibwenzi changa sichikubwerera mwezi umodzi wa 1 ndipo NDIKULIMBITSA zoipa pakali pano.
Ndikungofuna kugawana zomwe ndikukumana nazo.
PS Ndatsala pang'ono kukanikiza "Lowani" pompano pa ulalo wa url. Sindinasindikize panobe. Ndikhoza kungochita nthawi iliyonse yopanda pake tsopano. Ndi SOOO KUYESA.
Zaka 25 - ED ndi mavuto ena ambiri. Zizindikiro zazikulu zochoka
Kodi kuchotsa zolaula kunali kotani ngati
Ndine watsopano ku tsamba ili. Cholinga changa ndicho kusiya zolaula. Ndikudziwa kuti ine ndi ena ambiri pano tingakhale pakati pa oyamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti omwe adziwa kuti zolaula ndizovuta komanso akuyesera kusiya. Ndikumvetsetsanso kuti zingakhale zovuta kusiya zolaula kusiyana ndi mowa kapena fodya chifukwa mmalo mwa mankhwala achilendo omwe amatha kugwidwa mu ubongo ndi thupi, ndi mankhwala achiwerewere achilengedwe omwe akutha. Mwanjira yopezera zolaula ziri ngati nkhondo ndi chibadwa chanu chachibadwa.
Ndidakhala ndikuchita zolaula zaka pafupifupi 17. Ndimaona kuti ndizosavuta kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo komanso mowa ndipo ndimaganiza kuti nditha kusiya nditafuna ndikangosiya. Ndinali wolakwa. Mu zaka ziwiri zapitazi ndinachepetsa kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pang'onopang'ono ndikamaganiza kuti ndizolakalaka, monga momwe anthu amapangira mankhwala kapena kusuta pang'onopang'ono. Ndinkangomva panthawi yomwe kupita ku turkey kozizira koonera zolaula komanso kusintha kwina kwakukulu komwe kumachitika nthawi yomweyo kumakhala kovuta kwambiri.
Kuchepetsa sikunapite mzere wowongoka, koma zomwe akuchitazo zidatsika kwambiri m'zaka ziwiri zapitazi. Ndidayang'ana kwambiri magawo atatu pakuchepetsa. Choyamba, ndinayamba kucheza ndi akazi pa intaneti. Chachiwiri, pang'ono pang'ono pang'ono ndinayamba kuyang'ana makanema olaula komanso zithunzi za akazi. Pakadali pano ndili pa gawo langa lachitatu lomwe likuchepetsa gawo langa lodziseweretsa maliseche. Cholinga changa chachikulu ndikuchotsa kapena kuchepetsa kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula.
Sizinali kuyenda bwino. Nthawi zina ndinkangobwereza pang'onopang'ono. Kwenikweni, chifukwa cha zinthu monga kusagwirizana ndi abwana anga ambiri kuntchito (Ine panopa ndimayang'ana ntchito ina), mavuto a zachuma monga chakudya ndi lendi, ndangobwereranso ku pepala lolaula ndi mavidiyo mwachidule. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nthawi zonse zidzatheka kubwereranso kwa moyo wanga wonse chifukwa cha zinthu monga kusintha kwa moyo kapena zochitika zaumwini.
Ndikuyesera kuthetsa kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula kwanga nditatha nthawi yambiri ndikuchepetsera. Pomwe ndinachepetsa, ndinapeza zizindikiro zotsatirazi:
- Zoopsya
- Maloto a kugonana
- Chikhalidwe chimasintha
- Maganizo osakwiya
- Maganizo ndi mantha omwe mwina ali otero ndi OCD
- Kulakalaka kugonana pamene ndikuona akazi okongola m'masitolo kapena ntchito
- Mkwiyo
Ndimakhulupirira kuti ndikulemekeza akazi. Ndikudziwa kuti zomwe zimawonetsedwa pa zolaula sizili momwe zimagwirira ntchito mudziko lenileni. Ndikudziwanso kuti njira yothetsera zolaula ndi yosiyana kwa munthu aliyense. Zambiri ndimamvetsetsa zolaula zimakhudza mbali za ubongo zofanana ndi mowa, fodya ndi mankhwala ena. Kodi pali wina aliyense amene adawona zizindikirozi pamene akuyesera kusiya zolaula?
Ndikhoza kuyika chinthu chilichonse 1 kupyolera mu 7 mndandanda wanu. Kuwonjezeka kwakukulu kwa mantha oopsya ndilo vuto lovuta kulimbana nalo. Ndikuganiza kuti zikanakhala ziri pansi pamtunda, koma nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndikudandaula ndi zolaula ndi maliseche kotero sindinkadziwa zambiri.
Kodi zizindikiro zanu za kuchoka ndi chiyani?
Ndinachita mantha. Mutu. Simungathe kugona. Kutaya njala. Nkhawa. Kusayang'ana kwakukulu. Kwa masiku 20-30. Ndinali ndi chikumbukiro chochuluka. Zambiri zokopa zoyang'ana zolaula kachiwiri.
Masiku a 30-90 anali zizindikiro zochepa koma adakali ndi chikumbutso choipa. Pambuyo pa masiku 90 kapena kuchoka kunali bwinoko.
Ndidapanga akaunti yatsopano kuti ndigawane izi, koma inu anyamata mudzakhala mukundiona, ndikuona kuti iyi ndi njira yabwino yodziwira mlandu wanga.
Ndikuganiza kuti anthu ambiri omwe amakomana nane amatha kundifotokozera kuti ndine munthu wogwira ntchito bwino; Ndili ndi digiri ya kukoleji komanso ntchito yolipidwa kwambiri, sindinakhalepo ndi mankhwala osokoneza bongo, nditha kuwerengera kuchuluka kwa nthawi yomwe ndasuta udzu, ndasuta ndudu apa ndi apo koma kusiya sikunali vuto (mausiku angapo thukuta lozizira lilibe vuto) akhala ndi zibwenzi zingapo. Alibe mabwenzi apamtima, omwe ndinganene kuti izi zidapitilira pang'ono. Izi zimachokera kuubwana wanga, sindinaphunzire kupanga mabwenzi.
Kodi wina aliyense yemwe wakumanapo ndi ine angakuuzeni kuti mwina ndili ndi chizolowezi choonera zolaula? Nope. Ndi anthu angati omwe amadziwa kuti kuwonera anthu awiri akuwonekera pazenera kungakhale osokoneza bongo ngati mankhwala osokoneza bongo? Momwe ndingadziwire nzanga ndizomwe zikuchita bwino panthawiyi!
Ndinazindikira zaka zingapo zapitazo ndikuseka ndi mnzanga, kuti ndinali ndi maliseche zolaula kangapo 4 pamlungu sabata iliyonse kuyambira pomwe ndidazipeza. Chinachake chinadina panthawiyi… Ndinaganiza, zoyera, kodi ndakhala ndikuchita izi kwanthawi yayitali ndipo sindinadziwe konse?
Ngakhale ndidakhala pachibwenzi nthawi yayitali, ndimatha kuyang'ana zolaula ngakhale nditakhala kuti ndagonana kale tsiku lomwelo.
Chifukwa chake ndinayesayesa kuti ndisiye.
Zaka zitatu pambuyo pake, ine, kwa nthawi yoyamba, ndidapanga kuti zitheke pa masiku a 5 popanda kubwereranso. Kwenikweni, M'zaka zomaliza za 3, ndinali ndisanapangirepo masiku apitawa a 3.
Mukufuna kudziwa chifukwa chake?
- Patsiku loyamba, ndimakonda kulimbikitsidwa kuti ndiyang'ane zolaula, osachita chilichonse monyanyira. Kugona sikuvuta, koma ndikotheka.
- Kutacha m'mawa, ndikumva bwino. Manic pafupifupi? Ndimamva kuti ndili ndi nyonga tsiku lonse kufikira nditatsika kuntchito ndikufika kunyumba. Kenako kukhumudwa kumayambika. Ndimayamba kumva… sindikudziwa momwe ndingalongosolere… monga momwe ubongo wanga umabwerera m'mbuyo nthawi yayitali ndikuchepetsa nthawi ya moyo wanga ndikundikakamiza kuti ndiwawone. Malingaliro amabwera m'mutu mwanga ndikamayang'ana Reddit… "Ingodinani ulalo wa NSFW, osadziwa zomwe mudzaone!" "Chifukwa chongofuna kudziwa, lembani mu [MAWU] kuti muwone ngati zolaula zilipo!" Ndimasiya foni yanga ndi laputopu pansi usiku, ndikukhazikitsa alamu yodzuka.
- Tsiku lachitatu, ndimadzuka kutatsala ola limodzi kuti alamu yanga ayambe kulira. Nanga ndi chiyaninso? Wopatsa mphamvu kwambiri, amatha kumva adrenaline m'chifuwa mwanga. Koma simukumva chifuniro chodzuka pabedi… mukudziwa zomwe ndingapite? "Ingothamangira kunsi ndikugwire foni yanu mwachangu, mutha kumaliza kenako kugona mu ola lina lowonjezera!" Fuck ayi. Ndimasamba ndikupita kuntchito mofulumira. Ndimakhala wokonda tsiku lonse. Nyimbo zimamveka zodabwitsa. Khalani otsimikiza, mawu ndi ozama kuposa zachilendo. Zero nkhawa ngakhale idachepetsa mozizira ozizira m'mawa. Zizindikiro zomwezo ndikafika kunyumba usiku womwewo… mosintha ndimakumbukira tsiku loyipa lomwe ndinali nalo zaka 4 zapitazo ndipo sindingathe kulingalira za ilo. Sindikusamala ngakhale kukumbukira dzina la atsikana chifukwa chiyani!? Kutuluka thukuta usiku wonse, kumangokhala ngati ndili ndi malungo.
- Tsiku lotsatira, dzukani ku alamu yanga. Muzimva TERRIBLE. Monga momwe ndimakhalira. Gona mu ola lowonjezera, monyinyirika mudzuke. Muzimva ngati mukusowa tsiku lonse. Muzimva mopsa mtima kwambiri kuti musaganize za matchulidwe usiku womwewo. Cold thukuta kachiwiri usiku.
- Tsiku 5. Ndinadzuka mphindi 5 asanafike alamu anga. Ndinamva bwino ndikulingalira. Koma momwe ndimamvera ndikadakhala kuti sindinachite maliseche usiku watha. Yambani kugwira ntchito. Cue akudandaula. Maganizo odzipha kwambiri. Ntchito. Zomverera zomwezo usiku womwewo, kusungulumwa kosapeweka, pang'ono chifukwa chosowa abwenzi ocheza nawo. Thukuta lozizira, osati loyipa monga kale.
- Tsiku 6. Lero. Kuzindikira kwanga koopsa kwa zoyipa izi ndizowopsa. Kuchuluka kwa maulendo ndi zovuta ndi zomwe ndimakumana nazo m'masiku otsiriza a 5 ndizochulukirapo kuposa momwe ndikumvera mchaka, ndimakhala wodandaula nthawi zonse. Ndili ndi vuto la kudzidana, kudziimba mlandu, kudzipha, komanso kusungulumwa ngakhale nditakhala ndi cholinga chodzakumana ndi mtsikana pambuyo pake.
Sindikudziwa chilichonse chomwe chikubwera masabata angapo otsatira, koma ndikungofuna kuti zitha. Ndikufuna kuti inu nonse mudziwe kuti zoyipa izi zimakhudzanso thupi lanu, mosiyana ndi zomwe mankhwala ena angagwiritse.
"Koma kuseweretsa maliseche ndizachilengedwe! Zithunzi zolaula ndi zenera, palibe mankhwala! ”
Pepani, koma ayi. Maliseche si zachilengedwe. Ndizotsatira zakusungulumwa kosavuta komanso kosavuta. Ndipo chinsalu chija? Zotsatira za chithunzichi m'maganizo mwanu? Pazomwe mukuchita, zomwe zimachitika mthupi lanu? Zambiri kapena zochepa zomwe sanaphunzire. Ndipo ngati yaphunziridwa, kuchokera kumagwero okayikitsa, nthawi zonse muziwalimbikitsa.
Ngati wina wa inu akuwona izi ndikungofuna kulimbikitsani. Ndikufuna kuti mudziwe kuti izi ndi zenizeni ndipo zitha kukhala ndi zotsatira zenizeni m'moyo wanu komanso m'maganizo. Ndalephera pachizindikiro cha tsiku la 3 nthawi zochulukirapo kuposa momwe ndingawerengere, ndipo ndikhulupirira kuti nditha kuzichita izi.
Ndili ndi zaka 26, ndipo kale ndinali ndi chizolowezi chogwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo a heroin. ( Ulalo wa positi )
Ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito heroin ndili ndi zaka 15, ndipo ndili ndi zaka 19 ndinagunda chimwala chija ndikupita kukakonzanso. Nditakhala miyezi 4, ndidayesedwa wonyezeka ndipo ngakhale ndakhala ndikulakalaka, sindinabwererenso.
Kusiyanitsa: Ndinawona zolaula zanga zapaintaneti ndili ndi 11, ndinayamba kukula msinkhu womwewo, ndipo mpaka pano ndili ndi vuto losokoneza bongo - ngakhale tsopano ndakwatiwa ndi mkazi wamaloto anga! Porn ndi Fap zaika mavuto ambiri paukwati wanga ... Sindinathe konse kumaliza pomwe ine ndi Mkazi wanga timagonana.
Ndiye nayi nyama yolemba. Ndakhala ndikuyesera NoFap pafupifupi miyezi 6 tsopano, ndipo sindinapangepo tsiku lapitalo Tsiku 6. China chake chowopsa chidachitika masiku 2 apitawa. Ndinatuluka mu "mdima" kuti ndikhale ndikudzazidwa ndi jizz komanso zolaula zomwe ndimasewera pakompyuta yanga. Sindikukumbukira kufunafuna zolaula, kapena gawo la fap ndi zolaula.
Zinthu zamtunduwu zimachitika nthawi yomwe ndisanagwere ndi heroin. Ndinkafuna kusiya kugwiritsa ntchito, koma ubongo wanga ukanatsekedwa kenako "kudzuka" ndikatha.
Ndili ndi mantha pompano. Ndimadana ndikunena zowopsa, koma sindinakumanepo ndi izi kunja kwa heroin, ndipo tsopano NoFap. Kodi ndizotheka kuti chizolowezi ichi chogwiritsa ntchito ubongo chimafanana ndi heroin ?!
Goddamn!
Pambuyo pausiku wa 4 wosagona tulo tangotayidwa. Ndikumva ngati ndili ndi vuto, ndimadwala mutu nthawi zonse ndipo sinditha kuchita chilichonse chifukwa ndatopa kwambiri. Zizindikiro zake ndizathupi, sindinakumanepo ndi izi !!! Nditasiya chamba ndimavutika kwambiri kugona ndi zolakalaka, koma osati zambiri. Posuta ndimangolakalaka komanso kukwiya komwe ndimayenera kukana. KOMA PORN !! Zizindikiro zakudzichotsera ndizomwe sindinaganizirepo, zimamveka ngati ndikumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ndikudziwa kuti izi ndi zabwino kwa ine, koma zimawoneka ngati thupi langa likundiuza ngati ndikuchita chinthu choyipa kwambiri !!!
Ndili ndi mantha kwambiri kuti zizindikiritso zakusiyaku zithandizira pantchito yanga. Sabata yapitayi ndidazindikira kale kuti sindimaleza mtima makasitomala ndipo ndimatsala pang'ono kuwakwiya. Kodi ndingatani kuti ndikhale wokwiya kwambiri? Chonde ndithandizeni, sindimadziwa kuti zikhala zovuta chonchi !!!
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Zizindikiro zazikulu zakusiya, thandizo ...
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Masiku oyambirira a ulendo wanga wa nofap anali ozizira komanso okhumudwa. Iwo anali ngati chisangalalo. Koma tsopano, ndimamva kudera nkhawa kwakukulu ndi kupsinjika mtima, ndimakhala wotsutsana komanso ndimakhala ndi mutu. Ndikulimbana ndi zofuna zanga zonse monga momwe ndalonjezera kuti sindidzagweranso panjira ya PMO.
Ndimamvanso kuti zinthu sizidzakhalanso bwino. Zolakwitsa zam'mbuyomu zikundipweteka ndipo ndikuzikumbukiranso ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti zinthu zomwe ndimadandaula nazo sizidzachitika.
Zonse izi pambali ndikuthabe kuganizira ntchito zanga za tsiku ndi tsiku ndikudzipangitsa ndekha kuti izi zidzatha, koma ndikufuna kudziwa ngati izi ndizochilendo, kodi wina adakumananso nazo, ndipo muli ndi malangizo ena .
Zaka za 40 za nkhanza za Dopamine .. kuchokapo ndizoona
Ndimaganiza kuti nditha kusiya nthawi iliyonse .. ndimaganiza kuti ndikungopumula tsiku lomwelo .. kwazaka 40. Ndili ndi masiku 12 ndipo mankhwala amachokera ku nkhanza za dopamine powonera zolaula PMO tsiku lililonse ndi zenizeni. Poyamba panali phokoso pang'ono pakati pa kortex yanga yoyambira, kenako idafikira mbali zonse zammphuno. Inasunthiranso kumanja ndi kumanzere, ndipo nthawi zina kumawombera .. Zonse muubongo wanga. Ngati mutha kusiya pano, simukufuna kudikirira mpaka mtsogolo kuti mudzakwaniritse zotayika zonse zam'malingaliro ndi zokumana nazo NDI zisonyezo zakusiyaku. O, ndipo ine ndili mu ubongo waubongo ndipo ndizovuta kuyang'ana pazomwe ndiyeneradi kuchita.
Kupita pa zonsezi kumandilimbikitsa kuti ndipitilize kupita patsogolo… sindikufuna kupanganso izi. Tsiku 12 ndikupita patsogolo, pamalo abwino.
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Tsiku 20 pano ndipo likumenya kwambiri. Ngakhale ndili ndi zokonda, palibe chomwe chimapangitsa kuti dopamine yanga iziyenda ngati zomwe ndikusiya. Pamodzi ndi zolaula, ndikusiya kudya komanso kudya, komanso kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti mopitirira muyeso. Tsopano ndimangotsegula kompyuta yanga ndikakhala ndi china choti ndichite ndipo mwina nditha kuyang'ana Reddit ikamaliza, kenako ndimazimitsa kompyuta yanga tsiku lonse (zomwe ndi zomwe ndikuchita tsopano).
Ndikulola kuti ndikumva ululu womwe ndakhala ndikumva kwanthawi yayitali. Ndimakhala ndi nkhawa, kukhumudwa, nkhawa, kusungulumwa, mkwiyo, chilichonse. Ndimasinkhasinkha kwambiri izi. Ponseponse ndikuganiza kuti kuphunzira kumva ndikulimbana ndi malingaliro awa m'malo mongowafooketsa ndi chakudya, zolaula ndikukhala pa Reddit tsiku lonse zikhala phindu lalikulu.
Izi zikuwoneka ngati kuchotsedwa kwakukulu. Zimakhala zoipa kwa ine ndikangofika tsiku la 6. Koma makamaka zomwe ndimamva ndikumverera kopanda kanthu m'mutu mwanga, ngati kuti ndikusowa gwero lofunikira la dopamine. Ndipo zimakhalanso zokhumudwitsa. Koma sindikudziwa momwe zimamvekera kupitilira… Chifukwa mzere wanga wautali kwambiri ndi masiku 9. Kinda adasokonekera kuti apite nthawi yayitali moona mtima, koma ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kutero